I am a teacher at a girls' school in Tokyo

To be honest, under the slightly playful questioning of this young lady and the gaze of the waitress next to him, Tetsufumi Hirakawa felt a little embarrassed.

A vengeful young lady? Because he refused to order something for this young lady last time...

……

After a minor incident and casually ordering two cups of tea, the waitress withdrew her gossipy gaze and finally left reluctantly.

There were only two of them left here.

The two began to look at each other quietly again.

but……

"Teacher Hirakawa." After looking at each other for a long time, Shinohara Shiori called out his name softly.

“…Ah? Um, Shiori—what’s wrong?”

He was a little absent-minded, and it was not until he heard Shinohara Shiori's voice that Hirakawa Tetsufumi came back to his senses, blinking rapidly.

"You are meeting Shiori today, definitely not to sit here and stare at Shiori all the time, right?" Shiori Shinohara lifted her long hair, her tone slightly rising, seeming lively.

"..." Hirakawa Tetsufumi sat up straight and smiled, "Of course not."

"But Mr. Hirakawa didn't say a word, so Shiori thought you were just going to keep watching."

"This one……"

"Shiori doesn't mind, though."

Shinohara Shiori suddenly changed her words, and the look in her eyes as she stared at him also shone a little, "But, Mr. Hirakawa must have something more important to tell you, right?"

"..."

With Shinohara Shiori's reminder, Hirakawa Tetsufumi remembered what he was doing here.

After a pause, Tetsufumi Hirakawa nodded.

"Of course it is."

Shinohara Shiori stopped talking, staring at him with a hint of expectation in her eyes.

If there wasn't something more important, Shinohara Shiori wouldn't mind just sitting there quietly, even though they were just looking at each other. But if the object was her teacher Hirakawa, there would be no problem at all.

After all, there has never been such an opportunity before where we can look each other in the eye without any scruples... Dreams are different after all.

But there was something more important, so important that Shinohara Shiori was looking forward to it and couldn't help but interrupt this eye contact that made her feel at ease.

A lot of things have happened since then. After two dreams, the teacher she cared about, liked and expected was finally responding to her.

I heard this news on the phone yesterday. To be honest, even the usually dignified young lady had the urge to roll around in the quilt...

Although she didn't do so, her heart was beating faster and faster as she recalled it, which was indeed a testament to her joy after that phone call.

She could even hear the sound of her own heartbeat in her ears.

You didn’t hear it wrong. You definitely didn’t hear it wrong.

After hanging up the phone, I recalled the content of the call over and over again, and confirmed it over and over again, so my heart beat violently for a long time.

The person who always believed that the reality was doomed to be wrong, and who always understood that it was almost impossible for the result to happen... was ready to respond to her feelings.

It is precisely because the expectations for the results are so small that when it really comes, it is so dreamy.

It was so dreamy that Shinohara Shiori once thought she had fallen into a dream again - after all, based on past experience, he would only respond to her feelings in dreams.

But the only thing is that the first two responses were dreams. But this time it was not a dream, but reality.

She had been moving forward on the wrong path with almost no visible results, using the wrong methods, and had given up several times. But now, she seemed to have seen the end.

Perhaps no one can understand what she feels in her heart.

She stubbornly persisted even after being rejected, because the feeling was passionate enough, so even if she wanted to give up many times, the feeling would rekindle again... maybe only she herself knows the answer.

But it didn't matter, she knew it, and as long as her teacher, who was now preparing to respond, knew it.

The person she expects will respond to her.

Shinohara Shiori looked at the scene in front of her, at the teacher sitting opposite her.

She is waiting.

Chapter 313 Knowing it is wrong, but still going on

Continuing on the wrong path... In fact, Miss Shinohara is not the only one who does this.

Looking at the girl opposite him who was looking at him expectantly, Tetsufumi Hirakawa thought a lot at this time.

He first thought of Hisata and his former duties as a teacher.

Then he thought of Shinohara Shiori, and the things that had happened with her, from the initial origin, to their daily interactions, from the activity room with the sound of trumpets, to the campus corridors at dusk, this was his daily life with this student.

There was nothing special about it…but those looks and emotions he had never noticed, looking back now, he realized that they had always been shining in his memory.

Miss Shinohara had actually been watching him the entire time.

Even though she knew that her feelings might not be reciprocated, she couldn't help it. She began to move towards him and her gaze, which had been looking elsewhere, was now fixed on him... This was Miss Shinohara's persistence, or willfulness.

Even though she knew the rain had stopped, she still calmly made up a lie that it was still raining; even though she had clearly agreed that it would be over after this, she still lied to him and went to the summer festival, giving him everything without hesitation.

Kissing without permission, opening the dream without permission... Although at that time, the young lady didn't know what the so-called dream was.

She only knew that he responded to her.

Even though it looked fake, she was drawn to it.

Until the dream was shattered, the two people in reality were like standing in an ice field, facing each other... it came to an abrupt end.

Tetsufumi Hirakawa began planning to resign, and Shinohara Shiori began trying to look away.

Everything is moving towards the other side of the dream.

However, perhaps it is true that a person can deceive others but cannot deceive his own heart.

The dream ended abruptly, but the emotions contained in it did not disappear like a bubble.

It's not a dream after all.

The second dream was initiated by the eldest lady, but it was actually the result of two people who were unable to give up and getting closer to each other.

I feel guilty towards this student and this girl, but I can't let her go, so everything becomes possible.

The two people who had drifted apart came together again and created a fantasy dream of their own in a space isolated from reality.

But this time, Tetsufumi Hirakawa could no longer let go of this young lady.

I know it's wrong, I know it's not right, but I can't control my heart and can't avoid liking this girl.

Even now, sitting in front of the girl, ready to make his own decision, Hirakawa Tetsufumi still understood very clearly that what he was going to say, what he wanted to do, and the feelings between him and this young lady were twisted and wrong.

He is a teacher, the girl's teacher, and even though he has resigned, it still doesn't work.

And he has a girlfriend, a gentle and lovely girlfriend. If general expectations were correct, he should definitely not be here.

But it is still like this, a person can deceive others but cannot deceive his own heart.

He just couldn't let go. The memories that came to his mind and the touch of his bodies had firmly tied him and the girl in front of him together.

This is an emotion that cannot be given up.

——Perhaps, during those times when he was not aware of it, the girl who tried to make up her mind to look away from him and played the trumpet alone felt the same way?

She thought about giving up several times, but the burning passion eventually brought her back to him.

Tetsufumi Hirakawa had thought about ending it several times, ending all this absurdity, but in the end he still sat here, sitting opposite Shinohara Shiori, to give this girl his response.

So the two of them are actually the same person. They knew it was wrong but still followed their inner impulse and went on the wrong path. He has no right to blame the girl.

In fact, when it comes down to it, most people are like this. Knowing one's mistakes and not correcting them is human nature that is difficult to overcome and it is a self that cannot be abandoned. If people can correct their mistakes as soon as they know them, there will be many perfect people in the world.

However, reality has proven that those roads clearly marked as "wrong" always attract waves of travelers, who then continue on their way without being able to turn back.

These mistakes always make people numb and sink into depravity, making them continue to make mistakes.

In the end, Tetsufumi Hirakawa was unable to resist the passionate emotions of the girl in front of him and sank into them - perhaps, from that day in the summer vacation, when he unexpectedly realized how passionate the girl's feelings for him were in that stairwell, he was destined to meet this ending.

All empathy comes from understanding, and once you understand something, you can't help but think about it, try to analyze it, and then...

He understood Shinohara Shiori's doomed feelings and her persistence in never giving up, so he found it difficult to blame the girl.

Besides his irresistible love for her, he also felt heartache for her.

Always quietly watching him from places where he wasn't noticing, always struggling with the boundary between reality and his inner self.

Also, when the first dream ended, the ignorant girl stood there, watching his back as he walked away alone... No, because he had blocked this young lady, she couldn't even see his back, and it ended inexplicably.

How would she feel at that time?

As long as you put yourself in Shinohara Shiori's perspective, all you can feel is pity.

So, now, after the second dream ended, Tetsufumi Hirakawa really couldn't blame Shinohara Shiori.

He likes Shiori Shinohara, and he wants to give this young lady his response - a response in reality, not in a dream.

Even though you know it is wrong, you still go ahead.

"Shiori." The upper and lower lips separated and the voice came out softly.

The voice sounds a little dry.

Hirakawa Tetsufumi pursed his lips and swallowed.

With Shinohara Shiori's gaze fixed on him without wandering away, he spoke again.

"Should, how should I put it..."

"To be honest, even though I had made up my mind before coming here, it's still a little hard to speak now when I'm faced with it."

"Are you nervous when you see Shiori?" Shinohara Shiori blinked and raised the corners of her mouth.

"If you say I'm nervous... maybe a little." Hirakawa Tetsufumi's voice was light and slow. "I don't know how to put it, but my heartbeat has quickened a little. When I look into your eyes, at some point I suddenly feel at a loss..."

"This shouldn't be nervousness, right?" Shinohara Shiori suddenly interjected.

Hirakawa Tetsufumi looked at her.

The girl smiled slightly: "This is what I like."

Tetsufumi Hirakawa was stunned for a moment, then he also started laughing.

"Well, that's true... I'm not nervous, but I like her... I like Shiori."

"..."

Shinohara Shiori lifted her long hair and put a strand of hair over her ear.

"It's rare to see a teacher like Mr. Hirakawa who is so straightforward."

“It shouldn’t be that rare, right?”

"It's only been a few times in all this time. Besides, except in dreams, every time Mr. Hirakawa was so straightforward, it was to reject Shiori."

"..." Hirakawa Zhewen was speechless.

After thinking about it, it seems that this is really the case.

Once he admitted in real life that he liked this young lady, it was all to pave the way for the subsequent rejection... Really...

Tetsufumi Hirakawa couldn't help but chuckle.

He responded to Miss Shinohara's gaze and said, "But this time is an exception."

Miss Shinohara tilted her head in confusion: "Is today the only exception?"

"Hmm..." Hirakawa Tetsufumi looked at Shinohara Shiori, pondered, and then shook his head, "No, it should be said that the past was an exception. From now on, all such things will be the norm."

"What does this mean? What does normal mean?" the eldest lady pressed on.

"Do you have to explain it in such detail? Shiori is just playing dumb, right?"

"So what?" Miss Shinohara chuckled and admitted it without any concern, "This is what Mr. Hirakawa told Shiori, right? You should be more frank when expressing yourself."

“…I’ve been given a counter-education.” Hirakawa Tetsufumi sighed, “Okay then – but…”

He looked at the position next to Shinohara Shiori.

"Can you come closer and talk?"