I, Laffey, am a good ship girl!

"In fact, I have thought about it. If I told him at that time, we could live together."

"Will everything be different then?"

"Because I couldn't muster up the courage, because I didn't think I was worthy enough to stand by him, because I was afraid of being rejected."

"So, after he died, I couldn't even tell his compatriots that he was not wrong. The one who was wrong was me, and the one who was wrong was an arrogant ship girl named 'Kaga'."

"I'm not his ship girl. As a free ship girl, what qualifications do I have to defend him?"

"With this ridiculous idea in mind, I lived in a daze, blaming everything on the Siren."

"If it weren't for the Sirens, nothing would have happened. If it weren't for the Sirens, so many compatriots wouldn't have died. If it weren't for the Sirens, I wouldn't be in so much pain."

"It is said that shipgirls are elves born from the beautiful fantasies of human beings, but when we fall into the human world and our hearts are shrouded in haze, can we still be called perfect shipgirls?"

Just like the first snow in autumn and winter, the fox girl smiled faintly and said without any attachment: "Disintegrate me, I can't go back. Even if I am forgiven this time, I will continue to make mistakes next time."

"because--"

Kaga's body was slightly illusory, and the crystal that carried her existence was held in her hand.

The Rubik's Cube, which should have been a blue one, was stained with the color of distortion and ominousness starting from the deepest part.

"I am no longer the Kaga you know."

The Purifier's Mind Cube emitted a blue light from its deepest part, whereas Kaga's soul network gave birth to dark filth from its deepest part.

The ship girl named Kaga might have died in the battle ten years ago. What is still alive now is just a shell with no shape left.

He doesn't even understand the meaning of his own existence, and exists only for revenge.

When she realized that no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't kill her enemy

She lost even her last value.

"Disintegrate me."

The empty shell of the human figure once again stated his request.

"Before I completely fall."

......

Chapter 31 Forgetting and Rebirth

"What should we do? Are we really going to sink Kaga-senpai? Although she attacked the Purifier, isn't it natural for the ship girl to attack the Siren?"

Subconsciously unfolding the soul network and connecting with other ship girls, Denver said with a frown.

Why did she have to get into this kind of thing? If Senior Eugen was here, it wouldn't be her turn to speak on behalf of the gendarmerie.

She is a weak light cruiser girl and is under a lot of pressure, okay?

"The problem is that when Kaga attacked the Purifier, he also implicated innocent shipgirls."

Aurora rarely expressed her opinion. If the people attacked were simply the Purifiers, and as long as no innocent people were implicated, there would be plenty of reasons to exonerate Kaga.

But the problem is that Kaga not only attacked the Purifier, but also implicated Z36. Instead, it was the Purifier that protected Z36, otherwise Kaga's first round of attack would have sunk Z36.

Because of Kaga's carrier-based aircraft, many people did not dare to approach the scene of the incident, and they were not quite sure what exactly happened.

But those who should know will definitely know, and it cannot be concealed. Given the personalities of the ship girls, they will definitely not deliberately conceal this matter.

Right is right, wrong is wrong. When it comes to major issues, the KanColles have always been able to tell the difference.

But they couldn't be cruel enough to break up with their comrades who once fought alongside them.

That's why I'm struggling here, trying to find a way to convince myself and protect Kaga at the same time.

"That ship girl herself has given up hope of living. Even if you force her to live, all you'll get is an empty wreck. In this case, you might as well fulfill her wish and let her accompany her dead commander."

An outsider's speech appeared in the chat room of the legendary ship girls. Rafi leaned back in her chair and helped the Purifier put on her clothes again, saying expressionlessly.

"Senior Rafi, this is too cruel. I know you have complaints against Senior Kaga, but aren't Z36 and the Purifier fine?"

Denver said, frowning.

"You call this okay?"

Rafi tugged at the Purifier's empty sleeves and said coldly, "The Purifier is a Siren. She deserved to be attacked by Kaga. Even Rafi can't say much."

"But Z36 is innocent. If it weren't for the protection of the Pure Night Raid, Group Lu ', and Aurora didn't help stop Kaga, how could a destroyer with a training level of only survive Kaga's attack?"

"Because you can't win, you want to commit suicide. How ridiculous! Laffy doesn't remember that Kaga from the First Carrier was such a cowardly ship girl."

Lafite's straightforward remarks made Denver a little embarrassed. She wanted to say something, but saw Kaga looking over at Aurora beside her.

"You were the one who fired at me before?"

Denver was stunned for a moment, then he remembered that they seemed not to have told Kaga that Aurora also contributed to stopping Kaga.

How did Kaga know?

and many more!

Denver suddenly realized that Rafi had not only invaded their soul network, but also connected to Kaga's soul network.

Doesn’t this mean that Kaga heard everything they said just now?

Aurora on the side was stared at by Kaga, but she was not panicked at all - they were all legendary ship girls, their training levels were similar, so who was afraid of who?

She nodded decisively: "It's me..."

But before she could finish her words, Kaga looked away and denied it: "Forget it, it can't be you, a mere light patrol, you don't have the ability to do that."

Aurora: "Tut(>皿<) tut!"

Do you have the guts to say that again? I promise I won't kill you! What's wrong with a capital ship? Can a capital ship look down on a vanguard ship? If I hadn't escorted you back then, you would have been sunk by the Siren bombers hundreds of times.

Speaking of Aurora and Kaga, the two had a bad relationship in their early years. Although it was a story before they became legendary ship girls, they did partner up for a period of time.

Later, Kaga went to be an instructor and Aurora continued to stay on the front line. After becoming legendary ship girls, they each led their teams on expeditions. They might not see each other for a year or two, and their contact gradually became less and less.

Even though she thought Kaga was a nuisance, Aurora didn't want to watch her sink.

After all, there are fewer and fewer ship girls from the same era as them.

Ignoring Aurora, Kaga turned to look at Laffite and said calmly, "You are right. I am a cowardly ship girl. I have long since lost the glory of the First Carrier Battle."

"But what's the point of continuing to fight? What can I get, what can I gain? No, nothing, I can gain nothing."

"The reason why the ship girls fight is to protect humanity, what else?"

"If I were a weapon, please erase my feelings and let me fight as a weapon."

"If not, tell me the meaning besides fighting."

"Tell me, how am I supposed to survive?"

Tears slid down the girl's cheeks. Time could not erase the traces of time on that delicate face.

There is no trace left on the body, but the memory remains.

If the Mind Cube is regarded as the heart of the ship girl, then Kaga's heart is like the shadow filled with filth, and it has already been covered with scars.

So, if you don’t want to fight anymore, just give up. As long as you are disintegrated, you can get eternal peace.

"Then why don't you try again?"

Rafi's voice brought a hint of confusion to Kaga's eyes.

I only heard Lafite say: "Lafite can make you forget your past temporarily and start over. This may not change anything, but at least you can try a new life."

"Don't get me wrong, Rafi doesn't feel sorry for you, he just doesn't want to waste a decent fighting force."

Rafi explained with a stern face: "Rafi's soul network is stronger than yours. As long as you give up resistance, Rafi can isolate your memory and leave a blank part."

"You can experience a brand new life on a ship, learn new things, and make new friends, just like a new ship girl."

"If one day you wake up and want to stick to your current ideas or want to continue to survive as a ship girl, it is your freedom."

"The decision is yours. Lafite is only giving you a chance to choose for the sake of Guanghui and the others. If you don't want to, Lafite can send you off right now."

As he spoke, Lafite patted his slender waist. Although there was no torpedo hanging on it, Kaga felt as if he was being stared at by some prehistoric beast.

"Why not give it a try? There's nothing to lose anyway."

Warspite said.

"That's right, let's just pretend that Kaga is dead now, so that Kouki and the others can report to the higher-ups... What are you doing? While Kaga is still alive, I have to say a few words to her, otherwise I won't have the chance in the future."

Aurora slapped away Denver's hand that was trying to cover her mouth and said arrogantly.

"So, Kaga, what's your decision?"

As Guanghui spoke, the decision finally fell into Kaga's hands.

Should she forget the past and find the meaning of her existence as a ship girl, or just wait for death and disintegration.

Looking at the two options before him, Kaga was silent and then made a choice.

"I......"

……

On an unknown coast, artillery fire roared, and a majestic steel battleship slowly sank into the sea as countless shells fell.

Probably not many people know that in such an unknown corner, a legendary ship girl named Kaga chose to end her life in another way.

"Rafi, did you really delete all of Kaga's memories?"

On the shore, looking at the slowly sinking battleship, Guanghui tied up her wind-blown hair and asked.

"What are you talking about?"

Rafi really wanted to pout, but in the end she replied with her usual cold and delicate face: "Rafi's soul network is very strong, but not strong enough to change the soul of a ship girl at will."

"Lafite simply added a lock to Kaga's mind cube, causing Kaga's own consciousness to fall asleep, turning her back into her original confused self who knew nothing."

"Rafi doesn't know how long this lock can last. Maybe today, maybe tomorrow, maybe forever."

"Because Rafi doesn't know whether Kaga is willing to wake up."

Hearing what Lafite said, Guanghui shook his head and laughed. Kaga was deceived by Lafite.

If Kaga knew that Rafi couldn't delete his memory, he might have made a different choice.

After all, Kaga at that time had really given up hope of living.

"If Kaga wakes up, will the current Kaga disappear?"

Guanghui asked another question.

"Who knows?"

Rafi looked up and seemed to see a girl slowly approaching from the sea, being discovered by a group of ship girls on a distant coast.

"I can find enough enemies here? Well, from now on, I am yours. This is probably some kind of fate."

Recalling the lines in the game, Laffy muttered in his heart: "What a good ship girl, who knows which bastard will get her in the end, it shouldn't be that easy to get her."

The image of Kaga lying in the arms of his new commander appeared in his mind, and then the memory of the past suddenly awakened.

Wow, it’s too beautiful to look at.

In short, Kaga's story ends here.

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Chapter 32 The Devil Idol Wants to Confess

Z36 moved back to her own shipgirl dormitory.

The girl who looks innocent and immature is actually sensitive and delicate inside.

Otherwise, I wouldn’t have been unable to make any friends in the past year and had to play alone.

If you really find an important commander, no matter how many ship girls are around the commander, you must squeeze in even if you have the guts to do so.

Can the relationship between the ship girl and the commander be called a harem? That is to contribute to the cause of peaceful and stable development of mankind.

Of course, Z36 definitely doesn’t understand what it means to have a harem in her little head. She also heard it from other ship girls.

Some ship girls may look small, but they are actually very smart and know everything. When it comes to telling dirty jokes, they are just as good as experienced old captains.

But her commander is not human, and the ship girl beside the commander is not a ship girl either.

Light is always so short-lived.