They are in the music show, but I am a stranger to them

After a while, Gao Songdeng, who was on the other end of the line, spoke in a tired, confused, yet slightly surprised voice:

“… Xiangzi?”

"Deng, can I meet you and everyone in your band?"

At this moment, Xiangzi's tone suddenly lost the weakness she had when she was scolded by Mu. On the contrary, her tone became particularly firm, and even her eyes flashed with an extremely resolute expression. She said word by word to the depressed Gao Songdeng on the other end of the phone:

"I will explain the details, but what I want to tell you now is that now is not the time for you to fall into depravity. Whether you can find Chen Qi or not, in the end, still depends on your ability."

"And this time, I will temporarily stand with you - I will help you find Chen Qi back together."

Chapter 82: Takamatsu Deng’s awakening, Deng’s true self!

It was rare for Gao Songdeng to sleep so late like he did in the past two days. Because of the habit of living with Chen Qi for more than ten years, Gao Songdeng's daily routine has become basically the same as Chen Qi's.

But in the past two days, Gao Songdeng couldn't sleep all night. The reason... was undoubtedly related to her brother who ran away in front of her.

It was a devastating test. Takamatsu Deng didn't even dare to choose a song that could really express her twisted feelings for her brother. Deng really didn't sing "Sixth Star Night" with the intention of getting her brother to accept her twisted feelings.

After all, Deng had tested her brother's acceptance of this abnormal relationship for half a year! She knew that her brother would never accept her in this regard. Having experienced the feeling of losing her brother once, Deng would never show any emotion to Chen Qi again.

The reason why she finally chose the song "Night of the Sixth Star" at Su Shi's instigation was largely because this song represents her and her brother, their more than ten years of getting along, and her dependence on and memories of him.

For Deng, the song he sang was a gift from his brother, and it was also his own voice to his brother.

The nature of this song should be similar to the song "Gray and Blue" that the brother once sang to Xiangzi.

Deng had anticipated that her brother might cry and become a little emotionally unstable after hearing the song she sang... But according to Deng's idea, her brother should have shed tears because he felt her remembrance of the past six months since he was gone and recalled the relationship between the brother and sister who had been together for more than ten years.

But Takamatsu Deng could never have imagined that her performance in that live performance was not problematic, and she was very sure that her twisted emotions were not revealed.

She just really wanted, really hoped that her brother could come back to her.

No, it's not just about returning to her... Deng hopes more that they can go back to the past and pretend that his impulsive behavior never happened, so that his brother will no longer worry about him and will not mind getting along with him anymore.

Deng really just wanted to be a younger sister. Facing a brother who might leave because of disappointment, she really didn't dare to ask for more. How could she dare to hurt him again?

But the lamp still miscalculated.

Faced with her brother leaving again, Deng really collapsed. She finally ran out of ideas and her mind went blank... But in the end, Xiangzi's suggestion helped Deng and allowed her to grab the last straw.

Just two days ago, Deng finally revealed to his parents the real reason why Chen Qi left, which he had hidden from them for so long.

"Deng, are you saying... you don't just regard Xiaoqi as your brother now? Do you now regard Xiaoqi as a person of the opposite sex you like?"

"--Yes."

Because he lost his brother again, all his inner defenses had collapsed, and he could no longer hide the slightest hint of what was happening in his heart. Finally, facing the surprised gazes of his parents, he lowered his head and spoke his true words.

However, Deng is a little self-contained and sees the world differently from other people, which also causes her thoughts, values ​​and ethics to deviate from those of ordinary people.

But Deng knew from his brother's strong reaction that his idea was unhealthy and not recognized by the public.

Therefore, Deng has always been worried about sharing her forbidden feelings with her parents. She is afraid that after her parents know about this, they will react as strongly as her brother did, and she and her brother will never see each other again.

However, what Deng did not expect was that just when she was mentally prepared to face the scolding and even horror from her parents, after a strange silence, the unexpectedly gentle voice from her father interrupted Deng's uneasy thoughts.

"Then... Deng, when did you sense this? Was it before Xiaoqi ran away from home?"

"Yes..." Deng lowered her head even lower after hearing that. This also made her fail to notice that her parents looked at each other and smiled at each other.

"That's still really...how to describe it? Unexpected, but reasonable?"

"There's nothing we can do about it. After all, the lamp is so special. Until now, only Xiaoqi has walked into her heart and let her let down her guard."

Gao Song's mother didn't seem too surprised by this. The only thing that might have surprised her was that it was not Chen Qi who took the initiative to bring up this matter to them, but rather their daughter who had kept her heart closed?

But from another perspective, even Deng, a child who is not very good at expressing his inner feelings, couldn't help but reveal his emotions to them so clearly. It can be seen that the child's inner thoughts have already overflowed and he can't hold it back, right?

Thinking of this, the couple looked at each other in bewilderment, and it was Gao Song's father who, for the first time, asked his daughter in a slightly serious tone:

"Well, Deng, mom and I are going to ask you one more question, and you must answer us truthfully, okay?"

"Besides, if your answer does not satisfy my mother and me, then we may not be able to help you find Xiaoqi, and we may even have to let Xiaoqi leave this home."

"!" The words from her father also made Deng raise her head suddenly - this was the first time that Mr. and Mrs. Gao Song saw their daughter's eyes so bright and showing such strong concern.

How should I put it... Are they incompetent parents? They have also lived with Deng for more than ten years, but in Deng's heart, they are probably not as important as the adopted Xiaoqi, right? The Gao Song couple thought in their hearts with some frustration.

But soon, Gao Song and his wife adjusted their mindsets and then asked softly to Deng:

"Deng, are you really sure that you have developed a romantic relationship with your brother, with whom you have been living for more than ten years? And it is not because Xiaoqi dotes on you and indulges you that you have misunderstood your dependence on Xiaoqi?"

"Can you really guarantee that you don't like 'brother', but you like Xiaoqi as a person?"

This is what Gao Song and his wife wanted to confirm first, because they were too worried that their daughter, who was closed-minded and had different ideas and thinking from ordinary people, might not be able to distinguish between family affection and love.

However, Mr. and Mrs. Takamatsu thought that their question would make their daughter fall into deep thought.

But Gao Songdeng never expected that he had already figured out the answer to this question half a year after Chen Qi left him for the first time.

This was the answer given to her by the "dark" side of her heart that she didn't want anyone to know. But this time, with nothing to lose, Deng no longer hesitated and expressed it clearly:

"I... like my brother, and I also like Chen Qi."

"Hmm?" The Gao Song couple looked at the lamp in surprise, but they only heard the lamp's voice getting louder and louder, and the emotions became more intense as they said:

"I like my brother's gentleness, his attention to me, his patience, and the brother who belongs to my whole world."

"I like his occasional distress and helplessness, the way he tolerates my coquettishness and temper, the way he worries about me, the brother who picks food for me, coaxes me to drink milk, covers me with a blanket in the middle of the night, and blows my hair..."

"Brother...Qi, I love everything about him! I love him the most!"

"Whether it's a relative or a lover, I like Qi the most."

Normally, Takamatsu Deng would talk more endlessly about his brother than about the stones, insects and leaves that he was interested in. This time, in desperation, he burst out with unprecedented obsession.

Yes, obsession. Gao Songdeng has long believed that his brother is the person he cannot give up the most in this world.

If it weren't for such persistence, Gao Songdeng wouldn't have been so eager to find Chen Qi after he left, and even tried his best to go back to the past with his brother and have that kind of relationship without any sense of distance.

Deng's sudden inspiration this time even shocked the Takamatsu couple who had already prepared themselves mentally.

They had anticipated that a child like Deng might become very emotional once he had an emotional outburst, but they were still surprised by the words that Deng said at the moment of his emotional outburst.

However, it is understandable that Deng's emotions are so heavy... After more than ten years of relationship, Xiao Qi has probably become a part of Deng's life that he is absolutely unwilling to give up.

The Takamatsu couple, who understood this, couldn't help but smile bitterly as they looked at each other... Their daughter's decisive answer made them hold back many of their questions.

It seems that Deng is unlikely to like anyone else except his brother Xiaoqi...

"Mother, what do you think?"

"It's indeed a bit troublesome to explain this to the neighbors..." Gao Song's mother shrugged her shoulders. In fact, she was not such an open-minded parent from the beginning. It was just because she had such a unique daughter, so she compromised for her daughter again and again and lowered her bottom line again and again.

By now, Mrs. Takamatsu, who had long since gotten used to her daughter's strange behavior and thinking logic, found that she was surprisingly calm when faced with the fact that her daughter liked her adopted son, an event that would definitely make a normal family furious.

After all, her eccentric daughter finally fell in love with a boy like a girl. As a mother, she was so happy that she couldn't wait to stop her.

In particular, the character of the boy that my daughter likes has been tested by their parents for more than ten years!

"——But if you really think about the light, mom and dad can accept it."

"Really, really?!"

Gao Songdeng also never thought that he would handle it so easily, after he listed convincing his parents to accept his twisted feelings for his brother as the second most difficult thing? For a moment, Gao Songdeng felt it was unreal.

But before Deng could smile, Gao Song's father waved his hand in advance, interrupting Deng's words, and said with a smile:

"But it's useless to just convince us, Deng. What you should be worried about now is what Xiaoqi thinks of you, right?"

"If Dad's guess is correct, the reason why Xiaoqi ran away from home is because he couldn't accept your feelings, right?"

Gao Songdeng said nothing, but nodded again with dim eyes, and said in a low voice:

"Brother... He seems to only treat me as a sister and can't accept my feelings."

"When I first told my brother about my feelings, he was so scared... I... maybe my brother doesn't have that kind of feelings for me..."

"——Really? Dad, I think that Xiaoqi is not necessarily completely unshaken."

However, what Takamatsu's father said at this moment made Mrs. Takamatsu and Deng, who were both embarrassed, look at him in surprise.

After all, they all knew Chen Qi's character very well. If he was unwilling to accept Deng, no matter how earth-shattering Deng's confession was or how persistent his feelings were, the ultimate result would only scare Chen Qi away. Deng had even experienced two such failures herself.

However, facing this confused mother and daughter, Takamatsu's father, as a man, smiled slightly, turned his gaze to his daughter, and said softly:

"Deng, think about it. If your brother's personality is such that he only sees you as his sister, then when you first confess your feelings to Xiaoqi, do you think Xiaoqi will run away, or will he reject you clearly? And then guide your feelings out?"

"This……"

But the words from her father made Deng's eyes narrow slightly. This... was indeed something she had not thought of.

At that time, Deng only remembered that after hearing her voice, her brother left home in a panic the next day. She was also panicked at that time and did not think that such behavior was indeed a bit of an overreaction for her brother...

Yes, my brother was so indulgent. I had been lost before, but my brother encouraged me and guided me time and time again, and led me to the right path. Why did I completely lose my mind that time?

According to my brother's personality, he should talk to me first after being surprised, right? At least try to correct her feelings in a more gentle way instead of running away like that.

Noticing Deng's obviously surprised look, Gao Song's father also smiled slightly, and said to Deng in a decisive tone:

"Dad, I can't say for sure, but I think the reason why Xiaoqi ran away is probably because he realized that he didn't completely regard Deng as his sister."

"However, unlike Deng, Xiaoqi has no way of accepting her own feelings. After all, Xiaoqi is so precocious, and she must have thought about more things than Deng."

"That's why Xiao Qi left because he wanted to protect you, Deng. He didn't want to hurt you because of his own hesitation."

Deng: "Brother... did you also think of me as a girl?"

However, such bombshell news made Takamatsu Deng, who had witnessed his brother's death twice, fall into a long daze.

Unconsciously, Deng's face, which understood the meaning of these words, couldn't help but blush a little... Even the light in his eyes was restored a little because of this news.

"——Having said that, it is not easy to get Xiaoqi to accept Deng's feelings."

"Deng, how can you find your brother and make him waver again? Maybe it depends on you."

However, this time, Gao Song's father did not let Deng think too long. As an adult, he expressed his opinions to his daughter who was just beginning to fall in love and gave her his greatest support.

"This time, Deng, I think you should obey your brother's wishes and let him see your growth as well as your changes... Haven't you always admired your brother? Then try to make yourself the second Xiaoqi."

"As for how to convince Xiaoqi... leave this matter to me and your mother. We will help you negotiate with Xiaoqi."

Becoming the second brother...?

Does dad mean that he wants me to transform into a person like my brother, so that my brother can feel that I have faced myself and become strong this time?

After receiving advice from her father, Takamatsu Deng once again regained a strong belief in her heart, but she was in a dilemma in the next two days... She didn't know how to change herself.

She even didn't know how to get her brother back. Although her brother had replied to her message, she thought that after such a big shock, her brother would not want to see her in the short term. How should she call her brother back?

With songs? With performances? But after the departure of my brother and Xiao Mu's rebuke at the time, the new band has now...

For two days, Gao Songdeng had been thinking about these questions, looking at her blank notebook, but she couldn't write anything. She... didn't know what kind of song she should write to make her brother willing to come and see her performance again.

After two days of struggling without any progress, Takamatsu Deng was inevitably a little depressed. But at this moment, Takamatsu Deng unexpectedly received a call from Xiangzi, which finally gave the confused Deng some ideas.

"Xiangzi...are you saying that you want to join us in finding your brother?"

"It's just temporary." Xiangzi didn't care too much about Gao Songdeng's voice that changed from worry to joy. She knew that Deng's mood change was not because of her return, but because he saw the hope of finding Chen Qi back.

"I just received a call from Mu... Mu told me that Chen Qi will have a performance next week at RiNG. She hopes to invite us to watch Chen Qi's performance and listen to Chen Qi's voice."

"Deng, if you want to undo the damage done to Chen Qi by that Live, next week's performance will be our last chance."

“But, Aine-chan and the others…”

On the other end of the phone, when Gao Songdeng heard that Xiangzi was really willing to cooperate, he couldn't help but feel happy. After all, because of Mu's departure, the band is now missing a member. If Xiangzi is willing to help, then his idea of ​​finding his brother back would not be empty talk.

Especially Xiangzi, he can also help me with the lyrics and music that I am currently at a loss for. One week... although it is very tight, it should be enough!

But what worries Deng more is the band's current disunity... When he thinks of Mu's words back then, which made Aiyin, Su Shi and Li Xi so worried until today, Deng has no confidence that he can get them all back.

After all, the main reason why her brother ran away from that performance was because of the song she sang... Xiao Mu had made it very clear at the time.

Will they really forgive themselves for hurting their brother?

Thinking of this, Deng couldn't help but retreat a little, but at this moment, the words from his father once again echoed in Deng's mind.

"Try to make yourself the second Xiaoqi."

...Yes, I can't retreat anymore!

I want my brother to see my changes, to see how far I can grow for him - I am no longer the sister that my brother must protect.

This time, I want to let my brother see the real me! The real Takamatsu Deng who has no worries and no secrets!