They are in the music show, but I am a stranger to them

At that moment, Gao Songdeng could clearly feel that her brother only had her in his eyes. Whether it was Xiangzi, Aiyin, or Chuhua who had just held hands with her brother on the stage... At that time, there was no extra figure in her brother's eyes, only her.

Gao Songdeng understood that this was because her brother was afraid that she could not bear such pressure, which would lead to her mental breakdown... Her brother had always been most concerned about and cared about protecting her heart from harm.

Then...if I could behave like I did today, a little more vulnerable and fragile.

Will my brother focus more on me?

No, no, no, this won’t work. What on earth am I thinking?! My brother is already under so much pressure. He has already shouldered so much for me. Why do I want to add to his burden?

Suddenly, Gao Songdeng, who had come to his senses, frowned unconsciously and forcibly drove away the dark thoughts that had arisen in his heart again.

However, Gao Songdeng didn't know that the moment the idea came to his mind, it was like a seed that had already taken root in the soil of his heart...

……

Chen Qi stayed with Deng until Deng's breathing seemed to calm down, then he tiptoed out of the hut.

Outside the house, Chihaya Aine, who had deliberately stood a little distance away from the hut to show that she was definitely not eavesdropping, turned around after hearing the noise and asked Chen Qi who was walking towards her with a little concern:

"Brother Qi, is Tomorin okay?"

"It's okay." Chen Qi turned his head and glanced in the direction of the cabin. Although he was a little uncertain, he did not put any pressure on Aiyin. Instead, he comforted Aiyin:

"I have taken care of Deng for more than ten years. No one is better than me at soothing Deng's emotions."

"Deng is like this, like a small animal that is always afraid of encountering natural enemies around it. She is always uneasy and afraid. I am the slightly larger adult animal next to Deng. With me by her side to raise the alarm and protect her, Deng is not so afraid anymore."

"...Qi-nii, you really take good care of Tomorin."

However, listening to Chen Qi talking about his feelings for Deng word by word, Aiyin couldn't help but feel a little bitter in her heart, and she whispered with a bit more sourness in her tone.

Aiyin couldn't remember how many times she had been jealous of Deng.

She thought that she had lived with Chen Qi for more than ten years. Logically, no matter how much a sister loved her brother, they would become more unscrupulous and even feel some disgust towards each other after being together every day.

Aiyin herself has a deep understanding of this. Even though she knows that her parents love her very much, sometimes she still feels helpless and annoyed when faced with their love without any sense of distance or privacy, day after day.

After all, isn’t that what family is all about?

But now two weeks have passed, and Deng has been staying at Ain's house for so long that her mother would even prepare a set of bowls and chopsticks specifically for Deng and Qi Ge at dinner time.

You're not even tired of this? Is this the way siblings should get along? This is simply—

It was exactly like the feeling she had when she was with Brother Qi...

Yes, in Chihaya Aine's sixteen years of life, if there is someone in this world who, no matter how long she stays with him, she will never feel bored, nor feel that the other person cares too much, nor feel that her privacy is violated, and who gives her a sense of security, then this person may only be Chen Qi.

Although the two had only been together for half a year, their experiences had made Aiyin have almost no secrets in front of Chen Qi. Even her "self-esteem", which she regarded as a taboo, had been shattered in front of Chen Qi several times.

She couldn't even complain and vent to her parents without worries, but in front of Chen Qi, her disguise and strength seemed to be useless. No matter what kind of grievance she had, she could vent it out in front of Chen Qi.

And Deng...the trust she had in Brother Qi was exactly the same as her own.

Can a brother and sister who have been together for more than ten years really be so frank? For more than ten years, they have always regarded their brother as the person they trust the most, even trusting him without any privacy... Is this really normal?

However, whenever Chihaya Aine thought of this, she would always shake her head and lament that she was thinking too much.

However, everything that happened today, especially when Li Xi questioned Chen Qi repeatedly, but Chen Qi still did not answer, as if the answer to that question was his bottom line, a bottom line that absolutely could not be touched, made Aiyin feel a little suspicious.

If it is said that the reason why Brother Qi left and disbanded the band was not because of Xiangzi's withdrawal... then what other possibilities are there?

After the band disbanded, Qi Ge, whose mentality did not collapse, was left with only Deng besides his uncle and aunt who adopted him, right?

The reason why Qi-ge ran away from home without saying a word, and Deng's unconditional trust in Qi-ge... For some reason, Aiyin always felt that there was some strange connection between the two.

So, facing Chen Qi in front of her, Aiyin pondered for a moment before cautiously asking:

"Brother Qi... there are only two of us here, can you tell me?"

"Brother Qi, the real reason for running away from home?"

Brother Qi, with the trust you have in me, am I qualified to know the truth of this matter?

After all, Brother Qi would not refuse my request, right? In the past six months, Brother Qi always responded to my requests, and this time, maybe...

“…It’s better if we don’t bring this up, Aine.”

However, after a moment of silence, Chen Qi smiled bitterly. He rarely dared to look directly at Aiyin's eyes, which had gradually turned from expectation at the beginning to dim.

“Don’t look at me like this, Aine. There are some things that can never be said in your life, and some secrets should never be known by others.”

“If Aine still wants to get along with me like before, I think it’s better for us to end this topic.”

Aine: "...Is that so? If this continues, I won't be able to be friends with Nori-nii anymore."

But, I also want to know everything about you, Brother Qi.

Brother Qi accepts everything about me, my hypocrisy, my vanity, my weakness... Why, Brother Qi, don’t you believe that I can share the pressure in your heart?

However, maybe it was because he noticed Aine’s gloomy expression, but facing this girl who had always been as warm as a little sun in front of him, and who was the first to enter his world when he was the most depressed and lonely.

After a moment's silence, Chen Qi opened his mouth slightly, and for the first time, he felt a little shaken about the secret he had been keeping.

But in the end, his reason made him control this impulse, and he turned to Aine in front of him and said in a casual manner:

“I can only tell Aine…I had my own reasons for leaving home and leaving everyone behind. I’m not a completely innocent victim in that incident.”

"It's my own fault, so I chose to exile myself. Besides, if it weren't for that incident, you might never have met Aine in this life."

As he spoke, Chen Qi looked at Aiyin's face, which was gradually recovering, and said to her with an embarrassed look:

“That’s the limit of what I can say. Are you satisfied? I haven’t even told Xiangzi, Mu and the others this yet. You’re the first one, Aine.”

"Well... never mind, Brother Qi, you've passed."

As expected, when Chen Qi said that Aiyin was the first, Aiyin's originally gloomy expression recovered at a speed visible to the naked eye. Aiyin, who was considerate, also saw that Brother Qi really had something to hide, and finally gave up the idea of ​​finding out the truth temporarily.

Besides... Chen Qi's words just now also made Aiyin feel a little uneasy. She felt that if she really knew the truth one day, she might prefer to be kept in the dark forever.

What's more, Aine had a feeling that she would figure out the truth sooner or later.

"Okay, let's not talk about my business anymore." Seeing that Aiyin let him go, Chen Qi changed the subject in a relaxed tone.

Chen Qi took Aiyin's hand actively and naturally, and the two sat down on a row of swings in the courtyard that had not been used for a long time. Chen Qi turned to Aiyin and asked about their band.

"So, next week is the first Live, how are the preparations going?"

"It was OK... Although Li Xi didn't come up with any new songs, we are already very familiar with the two old songs we are supposed to play, so there shouldn't be any problems."

However, when it comes to the band, Aiyin is full of bitterness. She bends her slender waist, supports her cheeks with both hands, reveals a very unhappy expression, glances at Chen Qi and says in a subtle tone:

"But, based on what happened today, it looks like Li Xi won't be back for training tomorrow."

"Don't worry, I'll go find Li Xi tomorrow."

Chen Qi also rubbed Aiyin's little head. He knew that what happened today was a big blow to Lixi. Lixi must have been unable to accept the huge contrast from blaming Xiangzi and Chen Qi for disbanding the band to being the "culprit" of disbanding Crychic.

Whether Li Xi’s inner turmoil can be resolved may only be solved by Chen Qi himself... Of course, Chen Qi also needs a little help.

Before going to bed later, should I send a message to Hailing? I didn't throw away my old SIM card. If Hailing goes with me, I believe Lixi won't do anything to him.

"By the way, Brother Qi, is there any song you want to hear at this Live?"

However, Aiyin was not aware of Chen Qi's inner thoughts, but she suddenly remembered that she had been practicing old songs from the Crychic period with everyone in the band every day for the past two weeks. Although Aiyin was familiar with every song, she had not yet decided on the songs to play.

At present, the only song the band has confirmed to play is "Spring Shadow", but as for what song to play as the second song, especially Su Shi, she seems to be very concerned about this matter and has not been able to decide.

"Me? As for me, of course I would encourage you to create new music."

Chen Qi was also very concerned about this issue. After staring at Aine and thinking for a while, he couldn't help but express his inner expectations for MYGO. He said:

"Of course, what I want more is to see your performance. I hope you can grow up independently even when I'm not around."

"As for the songs... Of course it would be best if you could have new songs. Of course, I would also be very happy if you could play the old songs I left behind with a different flavor."

"——In this way, I can rest assured. You can walk the rest of the way on your own."

……

However, in that dim hut, Gao Songdeng, who was not really asleep, quietly opened the window of the hut at some point.

I saw Deng hiding his body quietly under the window, listening to the conversation between Chen Qi and Ai Yin outside, but there was a hint of hesitation in his heart.

Brother, you want to witness our independence? And then... leave?

Doesn’t that mean that if we perform perfectly in this live performance, my brother may never return to the band?

When Takamatsu Deng heard the news, it was like a heavy punch to the heart. She thought that her brother would no longer be in the band, and as her brother became more and more famous in the future, he might never appear in her band again.

Can I endure this kind of thing...?

In the darkness, the girl's heart was in turmoil, but countless thoughts flashed through her mind at this moment. She kept clenching her fists, and then repeatedly loosening them, and repeatedly hesitated between making up her mind and hesitating...

But everything seemed to be just a matter of finishing touches. Just a slight external factor might affect the balance in her heart.

……

"The voice of the heart, the voice of the heart... sing out the voice in your heart?"

At Goto's house, which was far away from Aine's house, after the performance, Goto Ichiri, under Ryo's persuasion, did not go to find Chen Qi, but chose to go home, and did not choose to sleep late at night.

There is only one week left for their assessment, and the band's progress seems to be smoother than that of MYGO.

After accepting Liang's encouragement and guidance, Pochi gradually mastered the method of writing lyrics, which is to write about her true inner feelings, and also completed her first creation, "Guitar, Loneliness and Blue Planet".

And Ryo was inspired by Pochi-chan's lyrics and quickly completed the demo of the new song. Now, everyone in the band is practicing this new song in full swing.

But today, after watching the performances of Chen Qi and Chu Hua, and experiencing the completely different side of Chen Qi and "LOSER", Pochi seemed to have gained some inspiration.

"Senior Chen Qi, it turns out that you don't just have that wild and fearless side. Even when you write about reminiscence and longing, you can be so delicate."

"So... can I also write a song like this? A song that just expresses what I want to say in my heart..."

Hiding in the dark closet, Goto Ichiri, with the help of faint light, faced a blank notebook and fell into long contemplation.

After all, this is an area that Pochi-chan is not good at... Most of the lyrics she writes are dark and lonely, but lyrics that depict delicate emotions have always been a completely taboo side for her in the past.

But this time, Chen Qi's song "Gray and Blue" made her understand that when expressing emotions, there is not only "love" but also "friendship" can be so affectionate.

So, if we avoid the word "love", what other emotions can we write about?

"Senior Liang said... what Senior Chen Qi wants to see is our independence, and that we can work hard to move forward even when Senior Chen Qi is not around."

"So, what is the feeling that has always inspired me about Senior Chen Qi..."

For some reason, the words that Ryo used to encourage everyone two weeks ago once again echoed in Goto's mind. After a moment of contemplation, Goto Ichiri seemed to have made up his mind and wrote the name of the second song he had composed on the blank notebook.

"Little Sea".

I hope... this song of mine can convey my feelings to Senior Chen Qi once again. At least, let Senior Chen Qi hear our efforts.

Late at night, two sleepless girls, one was writing furiously in a dark closet, while the other was curled up on the soft bed, in deep confusion...

And fate seemed to have quietly changed that night. The two girls' completely different performances seemed to have divided their future destinies...

Chapter 62: A sudden call from Miao Meng? Chen Qi meets Li Xi’s bad friend

The next day, what woke Chen Qi up from his sleep was the ringing of a cell phone. But before the sleepy Chen Qi could get up from the tatami, the cell phone beside his pillow had already been taken away by a small hand.

...Who is this? Gao Songdeng looked at the note named "Meow Mengqin" and searched his memory carefully, but he couldn't find a face that matched this nickname.

But, this nickname doesn't look like a note for a boy at all.

With this thought in mind, Gao Songdeng's finger couldn't help but tap the "Answer" button, put the phone to his ear, and timidly greeted:

“…Excuse me, who is it?”

"Huh? Why is it a girl's voice?"

As Takamatsu Deng expected, the voice on the other end of the phone was a female voice that was obviously not that of a high school student, but was extremely mature.

The moment the girl heard Gao Songdeng's voice answering the phone, she was obviously startled. After a period of silence, she confirmed that the number she dialed was correct, and then she asked tentatively:

"Hello, meow? I'm looking for Xiao... ahem, I remember, his name is Chen Qi? Is Chen Qi by your side? Who are you to him?"

"I am Qi's sister." Facing a girl he didn't know, Takamatsu Deng showed some vigilance. Looking at his brother who had stood up from the tatami in a daze, Deng asked after a moment:

"So, who are you?"

"Ah, she's Xiaoqi's sister. I heard him mention her before~"

However, after learning about Deng's identity, the girl on the other end of the phone revealed an expression of sudden enlightenment that even Deng found inexplicable. The next moment, the other party's tone suddenly became much more intimate, and she immediately said to Deng:

"As for me, you can just call me Meow Mengqin~ Your brother and I are good friends, and we are also partners~"

"However, Xiao Deng, you are actually by your brother's side, which is really surprising. Has your brother's stubbornness been cured? Is he finally willing to go home?"