They are in the music show, but I am a stranger to them

"I have planned to customize a song for each person in Crychic. Lixi, if possible, you can tell me your ideas and I will customize a song for you."

"I have a share too?" Li Xi blinked in surprise, but soon, a teasing smile appeared on Li Xi's face, and he smiled at Chen Qi in a rather strange tone:

"You don't really think you know me? Do you really think you can create my own solo song?"

"Why not?" Facing Li Xi's question, Chen Qi seemed particularly calm. Without thinking, he smiled and answered Li Xi:

"Don't I know Lixi well enough?"

Li Xi: “…”

For a moment, Chen Qi's words made Li Xi at a loss for words. And Hai Ling's words at that time also inexplicably echoed in Li Xi's mind, and once again made Li Xi start to think about this problem.

What is the relationship between him and me? Why do I trust him so much? And when did he know me so well?

"——What I mean is, I don't need you to write for me. I will write my own personal song by myself."

"Ok?"

However, Li Xi's words seemed to surprise Chen Qi. Facing Chen Qi's surprised look, Li Xi did not hide his displeasure and asked Chen Qi in a cold tone:

"What's wrong? Do you think that with my level, I can't write a song that suits me?"

Chen Qi: "...If you ask me to answer honestly, Li Xi, then I do think so."

Li Xi: “Asshole!”

However, Chen Qi's particularly straightforward words also ignited Li Xi's temper. Li Xi almost pounced on Chen Qi without hesitation, and the next second, she skillfully bit the piece of meat on Chen Qi's shoulder to express her strong dissatisfaction.

But this time, Li Xi did not bite Chen Qi until he bleed, but just taught this guy a small lesson.

Of course... Li Xi realized belatedly that her actions were indeed not like what a normal girl would do to a member of the opposite sex with whom she was not close, so she stopped halfway.

"Anyway, don't worry about my personal song. I can handle it myself!"

Li Xi, who had quickly left Chen Qi's body, took advantage of the time when Chen Qi had no time to argue with him to forcefully set the tone of the matter, saying word by word:

"I'll go to Xiangzi to learn about composing music, and I want to write the lyrics completely in my own style. This time, you must not interfere. Do you understand?"

Yes, this time, Shiina Riki did not allow anyone to interfere with her creation. She wanted to write a song by herself, a song about the voice deep in her heart, a song that represents herself.

Shiina Ritsuo hoped that the paper in his hand was still blank, and he imagined how he could fill it with his own voice and melody.

And... what Shiina Riki didn't tell Chen Qi was that, according to her conception, this song not only represented herself, but also represented many questions in her heart, especially her thoughts about Chen Qi...

What kind of relationship do I have with him? What kind of feelings do I have for him?

Shiina Riki thinks that she cannot describe it all in words, so at least she doesn't want to deceive herself with the lyrics.

This time, she decided to express all her emotions in the form of lyrics. Perhaps only then would she be able to truly understand her own feelings, her own inner thoughts, and...what kind of emotions she had towards him.

At that time, no matter what the result is, whether it is the sister's admiration for an ideal brother, the little girl's first love, or the admiration for the admirer... Shiina Tatsuki will accept it frankly.

Because this song represents her own inner voice, which she can only express to the one and only special person.

Chapter 65: Shiina Riki's memories: Hate, hate, and forget you forever

“Should this be written here?”

"No, it feels a bit too sentimental. It's not my style. Change the words."

In an almost dark room, Shiina Riki, wearing headphones and sitting in front of a computer desk, had long forgotten how long she had been immersed in the world of composing music and writing lyrics. She stared at the screen intently, listening attentively to the music she had composed herself, while her hands kept writing lyrics on paper.

Shiina Tatsuki, who was multitasking, looked at the lyrics he had written in his hand. He thought that they were in line with his mood, but he couldn't help frowning. After thinking for a long time, he tore off the paper, crumpled it into a ball and threw it on the ground.

"No, this is probably not what I want to express most in my heart. Let me think about it..."

Muttering to herself like this, however, the focused Li Xi did not notice that her sister had quietly entered her room. Looking at her sister who had become a little "obsessed", she couldn't bear it anymore and walked up to her and snatched Li Xi's headphones.

"You--" However, Li Xi, who was interrupted, just raised his head and wanted to say something, but after meeting his sister's gaze, he silently closed his mouth and chose not to say anything.

"It's already evening, little Lixi. You've been sitting in front of the computer since this morning and haven't eaten a single bite of food yet. You're busy composing music. I won't say anything, but you have to go to bed now."

Sister Shiina put down the headphones while speaking, and looked at her sister who seemed a little unconvinced. She twitched her lips and continued:

"Or do you want me to call your Xiaoqi? Tell him that you, Xiao Lixi, have finally resumed your normal routine, but now it's messed up again because of him?"

Li Xi: “…Okay, I understand.”

As expected by Shiina's elder sister, when she moved Chen Qi out, her stubborn younger sister also chose to compromise without saying much after a brief silence. She saved the data, shut down the computer, and cleaned the table. All the actions were done in one go without any delay.

In the past, Shiina's sister would be surprised that her sister would compromise so easily, but now, she has become a little numb, and even her mouth is twitching a little.

So, I, your elder sister who watched you grow up, am not as good as your boyfriend whom you have only known for half a year, right?

No, he's not even a boyfriend. It seems that this silly sister of mine hasn't made any further progress with Xiao Qi until now. But whenever I bring him up, my sister loses her temper!

You two are obviously not dating yet, why is your sister so obedient to him?

Sister Shiina's heart cried out like this more than once. At the beginning, when she saw that Chen Qi really influenced her sister's daily life and guided her in a better direction, she was quite happy in her heart and even wanted to bring the two of them together.

But now, facing this sister who would compromise without any reason as long as Chen Qi was removed, Shiina's sister began to feel a little jealous. Chen Qi had taken her sister away.

The main thing is that these two people have never interacted with each other, nor have they become sworn brothers and sisters. They are just friends in the same band - that's all!

Such a relationship actually surpassed the relationship between her and her sister which lasted for more than ten years! She was not convinced!

Of course, this thought only lasted for a moment in Shiina's mind. After turning on the light in the room, Shiina drew the curtains and looked at the floor full of waste papers thrown by her sister. She couldn't help but ask Li Xi with concern:

"Xiao Lixi, still no progress?"

"Yes..." When Li Xi mentioned the new song she was having trouble with, a hint of melancholy flashed across her face. She looked at the scraps scattered all over the floor, and couldn't help but take out one of them and spread it out again. She looked at the melody and the lyrics she had written, and said with a slightly frustrated tone:

"The arrangement is easy... I learned from Xiangzi and that guy before, and I have basically determined the rhythm of my song, but the lyrics... I'm really not good at it."

At this point, Li Xi also held his forehead with his hand and complained with a headache:

"Only after I have finalized the lyrics can I create a melody that is more suitable for them. But I still have no idea how to write the lyrics. I have written so many, but I am not satisfied with any of them."

Sister: "I can't help it. This is what you said, Xiao Lixi. You don't need your sister or Xiao Qi to help you this time."

Sister Shiina shrugged helplessly, collected the scraps one by one, and curiously spread them out to take a look. After a brief silence, she couldn't help but look up and said to Li Xi:

"But I think the lyrics you wrote, Lixi, are pretty good. They have a lot of feeling, and the writing is pretty good, and they rhyme well, so why not use them?"

Li Xi: “That’s not the question…”

Shiina Riki couldn't help but sigh. She wasn't worried about her writing style. She had previously looked for Takamatsu Deng and borrowed his notebook to study it.

After reading the whole article, although Lixi didn't dare to say how much she understood the world in Deng's heart, she still comprehended some of Deng's charm from the jumping thoughts and imaginative descriptions in Deng's notebook - her lyrics were actually the voice deep in Deng's heart that no one understood.

But Deng has her brother who understands her words and comprehends the world in her eyes...but Li Xi, she doesn't even know what the world in her heart is like.

It was as if, even though she had already determined that this song described what she wanted to say to Chen Qi, she had no idea what exactly she wanted to say to Chen Qi, nor how she actually viewed him.

It's not that there were no lyrics in Lixi's drafts that made her feel satisfied. On the contrary, there were a few sentences that even Lixi felt quite proud of, and she even felt that they were not inferior to the lyrics of the personal songs that Chen Qi wrote for other members.

However, every time Lixi wanted to continue writing along this line of thought and start the second verse of the lyrics, her thoughts seemed to be interrupted.

The emotions that had already surged into my heart seemed to be exhausted all at once, so that compared with the first paragraph, the second paragraph of the lyrics was either too bland or simply a repetition of the previous paragraph with a different sentence structure.

But every time Li Xi planned to start over, he found that the emotions expressed in the lyrics he wrote next time were completely different from the previous one.

There were so many discarded drafts... Li Xi had written about admiration, gratitude, complaint or liking, friendship, family affection and even love, but none of them could stick to the end, and Li Xi felt that he could find satisfactory words that could fully summarize all his feelings towards Chen Qi.

As a result, Li Xi not only failed to write lyrics, but also became increasingly confused. She was increasingly confused about her feelings for that guy.

"How about that, Xiao Lixi, why don't you collect all the lyrics that you are most satisfied with and try to integrate them together?"

After hearing the reason why her sister got into trouble, Shiina's elder sister also offered some suggestions. She smiled softly at the suddenly silent Li Xi and said:

"My sister has used this method before. After all, inspiration is sometimes intermittent, but if you can gather the fragments of inspiration together, you might be able to create a better work~"

"is that so……"

Li Xi was silent for a while. Faced with the suggestion made by his sister, he was slightly startled. Li Xi's eyes seemed to be clearing up, and became brighter and brighter.

The next second, Li Xi hurriedly bent down and picked up the waste manuscripts thrown on the ground one by one, and said anxiously to his sister beside him:

"Sister, have you thrown away the garbage I left at the door yesterday? There were a lot of my manuscripts in it!"

Sister: "Don't worry, Xiao Lixi, I have been keeping your scraps for you, just in case you need them someday. I will get them for you then."

When Shiina saw that her stubborn sister finally came to her senses, a smile appeared on her face. After closing the curtains, she casually mentioned a problem that she had been concerned about recently:

"By the way, I don't think I've seen you practice much recently, Li Xi. Although I know that your first Live was a great success, it's not a good idea to relax so quickly, right?"

"Especially recently, I haven't seen you take the initiative to look for your Xiaoqi and those friends. Did you two have a fight?"

Li Xi: “…”

However, this time, facing his sister's question, Li Xi suddenly fell silent. He even paused for a moment in picking up the waste manuscripts on the ground. Obviously, this seemingly insignificant question had a significant impact on Li Xi's mood.

And in the final analysis, Li Xi himself didn't understand why he cared so much about this matter - he just discovered it by accident.

That was before the first Live. After everyone had held the "special training summary" meeting, Li Xi, who was still stuck in a creative bottleneck, planned to ask Xiangzi and Chen Qi for more knowledge on composing.

But that time, Li Xi was unexpectedly rejected by Chen Qi.

"I'm sorry, Li Xi, but I have to talk to Xiangzi about the revision of the new song today, so I may not have time to teach you."

...Chen Qi’s excuse is a bit lame.

Although Li Xi's relationship with Chen Qi is not very good in the eyes of other band members, she herself knows very well that Chen Qi understands her character better than she does. Although Li Xi has not reached this point yet, she cannot be fooled by Chen Qi's words.

After all, when they were teaching me to compose music, they were so busy flirting with each other that they forgot to care about her. It had happened before. Why did he suddenly care about her this time?

Li Xi felt something was not right and did not choose to leave with doubts. When everyone else left, he returned to "RiNG" alone and looked for the two all the way to the door of the recording studio where they had just checked out.

And there, Li Xi, who was hiding in the corner, discovered the scene that she still can't forget...

That Toyokawa Shoko, who had always been so strong and gentle in front of everyone, was even the only talented girl who far surpassed them in talent and ability before Chen Qi joined the team. But at this moment, she threw herself into Chen Qi's arms, and couldn't even hide her tears.

Facing such a scene, Chen Qi's expression remained normal, but he didn't smile at all. He stroked Xiangzi's light blue hair again and again, whispering in a low voice:

"Xiangzi, don't worry, your mother will be fine..."

"You have to be strong. You are Aunt Fengchuan's last belief, so you must be strong. Do you understand?"

Although Li Xi only heard a few words and fled quickly for fear of being exposed, from the information she learned, she had guessed something that others did not know - Xiangzi's mother was likely in critical condition.

After accidentally hearing such news, even though the relationship between Shiina Riki and Xiangzi was not very good, she couldn't help feeling a little melancholy in her heart, so she did not choose to jump out, but gave Xiangzi and Chen Qi enough private space and did not disturb them.

After all, in Li Xi's opinion, the person Xiangzi likes is Chen Qi... and now, Xiangzi's mother is critically ill, and Xiangzi should need a spiritual support like Chen Qi.

That guy... is indeed a very reliable person. Li Xi thinks he has the right to speak on this point.

Therefore, in the following period of time, Li Xi visited Chen Qi less often, because she knew that Xiangzi needed Chen Qi's company more than she did. She also stopped complaining to Chen Qi, because she knew that Chen Qi was exhausted physically and mentally just dealing with Xiangzi's affairs.

It was because of this that, after the live show, when Xiangzi hugged Chen Qi with tears of joy... I didn't say anything.

After all, right now, the person who is most vulnerable and needs the most care is Xiangzi.

And since those two people like each other, it’s really hard for me, who is just a “friend”, to say anything.

Therefore, even though Li Xi wanted to speak up several times about the fact that Xiangzi temporarily possessed Chen Qi, he finally chose to keep his mouth shut.

Up to now, Crychic has not held a training session for several days in a row. Lixi learned from Deng that during this period, Chen Qi spent most of his time with Xiangzi, and she didn't know what her brother was busy with.

Therefore, Lixi focused most of her energy on her own creation, on the song that she snatched from Chen Qi and has not been completed to this day.

Li Xi knew that no matter whether Xiangzi's mother could escape danger by then, that guy must be very tired mentally, and the string that had been taut for some time needed an outlet.

And Shiina Tatsuki also wanted to use this song, this personal song to express her feelings and gratitude to Chen Qi, so that this man who has been her "tree hole" for so long can vent his inner emotions in front of her.

This may be the only thing I can do for him.

At this moment, suddenly, a message alert sound came from the mobile phone, which made Li Xi, who was about to go to bed, react. When Li Xi was still confused, he found that in the Crychic group chat, Toyokawa Shoko, who had been silent for a long time, actually sent a message for the first time.

Toyokawa Shoko: [Tomorrow, everyone will see you at RiNG's recording studio. I have a few words to say to everyone.]

Soon after Xiangzi's message came, everyone in the group chat also sent greetings. Most of them were asking about Xiangzi's situation during the time she disappeared, and that everyone was worried about her.

But only Du Xi, after learning that Xiangzi would return to the band tomorrow, immediately realized one thing - the situation at Xiangzi's home might have been dealt with!

So that means tomorrow is the time for Chen Qi and Xiangzi to return to the band and confess to everyone what has happened in the past few days?

And yet, I haven't made any progress at all so far?

"——I'm sorry! Sis, I had to stay up late today to finish the song!"

"Hey? Little Lixi?"

However, before Sister Shiina could react, Lixi started his computer again, put on his headphones again, and spread out all the scraps that he had thrown on the ground in front of him one by one.

Tomorrow is the time when the band will get back on track, and it is also the time when that guy has dealt with Xiangzi's matter and needs rest and understanding the most.