They are in the music show, but I am a stranger to them

However, although he felt a little strange in his heart, Chen Qi did not hesitate. He just faced Miao Mengqin, who was looking forward to it, with a little embarrassment, and his tone became a little more serious as he whispered:

"Sister Miao Meng...is this okay?"

"——It's ok~ Xiaoqi, you're so good~"

Miao Meng was a little surprised that Chen Qi would be so serious about addressing her this time. After a brief moment of surprise, she responded to Chen Qi with the calmness of an adult. She rarely couldn't help but stretch out her hand, stood on tiptoe and gently rubbed Chen Qi's hair.

Chen Qi also found it funny, but did not spoil Miao Meng's fun. Instead, he obediently lowered his body slightly, until Miao Meng had kissed and rubbed her to her satisfaction, then he turned his gaze back to the other side, where Mu's expression was still calm.

"Okay, Mu, come and eat, and try on the new clothes that Sister Meow Meng bought for you later to see if they fit you."

"We'll shoot a video together then~ Xiaoqi, you and Xiaomu come together, it's our rare collaboration~" And at this time, Miao Mengqin clasped her hands together and smiled expectantly at Chen Qi and Mu. She had already begun to look forward to the performance that her rookie artist brother could bring to her.

Mu: “…Yeah.”

In her heart... she was a little irritated. Mu seemed expressionless, but in fact, because of the intimate interaction between Miao Meng and Chen Qi just now, she felt extremely awkward in her heart - but she did not show it, because Mu did not want to destroy the relationship between Chen Qi and Miao Meng because of herself.

In particular, Miao Meng should be the first person who offered a helping hand to Chen Qi when he was most dispirited... Just based on the help that Miao Meng gave to Chen Qi, Mu thought that he should not hate her.

But, he still felt a little uncomfortable... Especially after Miao Meng and Chen Qi became "sister and brother" right in front of him, Mu felt even more uneasy.

This reminded Mu of Deng, the sister who had been taken care of by Chen Qi for more than ten years but had never given anything in return...

I hope Qi didn't trust the wrong person this time. Mu could only think so in her heart. She and Chen Qi were both living under someone else's roof now, so how could she say anything excessive to Miao Mengqin who lent a helping hand?

——Wait, why do I care so much about Qi’s interpersonal relationships like them now?

Suddenly, Mu came to his senses and realized what the difference was between what he had just been thinking about and what he had broken up with before.

I have already received Qi's promise that he will always be by her side. What else can I ask for?

I must never become a person like Deng, Li Xi and Xiangzi.

Mu quickly shook his head, then came to his senses and forced himself to focus on the breakfast in front of him. He ate the warm sandwich in small bites and occasionally took a sip of milk on the side.

"Eat slowly, Mu. No one will rush you here." Chen Qi watched Mu silently from the side and reminded him with a chuckle.

"Um……"

In response to Chen Qi's casual concern, Mu paused for a moment and then responded to Chen Qi softly after a moment of silence.

Everything was very peaceful after that. Miao Meng and Chen Qi, who had already eaten, did not disturb Mu. Miao Meng was browsing her phone by herself, while Chen Qi was staring at the doll girl beside him intentionally or unintentionally, as if he was thinking about something.

Everything here is so ordinary, and compared with the treatment Hemu received in the Ruoye family, it can be said to be too simple.

But, no one disturbed her, no one chattered in her ear about her next plans, there were no irrelevant characters, and the only person in the world who cared about her was sitting next to her.

Can I really have such a life? Mu Qing couldn't help but start to imagine this. Compared with her life in the past fifteen years, this was so easy and unreal...

But can such a life really continue forever?

Although Qi promised her that he would not abandon her, in what capacity should she stay by Qi's side?

"Mu, the milk is dripping."

Chen Qi also noticed that Mu was a little distracted, so he took out a tissue and just when he was about to wipe Mu's mouth, his fingers paused slightly, thinking that his behavior was a little inappropriate.

After all, Mu and he had never had any intimate actions before. At most, he carried Mu on his back once in a hurry yesterday, and then he and Mu held hands. Before that, the sense of distance between him and Mu had always been healthy in the past six months.

However, when Chen Qi hesitated, Mu looked at the tissue in Chen Qi's hand, but did not dodge or evade. Instead, he took the initiative to come forward and rubbed the tissue in Chen Qi's hand.

"Thank you, Qi."

"Ah... um."

...Forget it, I'll think about this problem later. Now I should devote myself to him and enjoy the time that belongs to him alone.

Looking at Chen Qi in front of him, Mu felt as if the warmth of the sun was shining on his body, and he couldn't help but reveal a faint smile. He quickly forgot about the idea of ​​smelling the scent on Chen Qi's coat.

After all, the scent of the sun is right beside her, so why should she crave for that lingering scent?

Mu, now I finally understand what Xiangzi felt at that time.

……

Hong Xia: "Hey? Senior Chen Qi, are you really willing to invite us to 'RiNG' and participate in your next public Live?!"

After Mu finished his breakfast, Chen Qi and Mu recorded a new video with Miao Meng. Then Chen Qi and Mu went to [Fanxing] together, leaving Miao Meng alone at home to edit the video.

Here, Chen Qi also shared his next plan with the four girls who had ended the band in front of Mu.

"RiNG! I remember the scale of the performances there started with a hundred people, right?"

Facing Chen Qi's invitation, the four girls who finished the band were all shocked. And Pochi-chan was also trembling and counting her fingers, as if she was imagining how big the performance of a hundred people would be, and she became more and more terrified.

A performance with hundreds of people is a huge challenge for a fledgling band and a guitarist whose social phobia has improved a lot but not completely overcome.

"To be precise, I hope to invite everyone to help me complete this performance... I really can't get a band together to accompany me in such a short period of time."

Chen Qi was actually quite helpless. Although he was considered an officially debuted artist, he did not have many connections, and it would be inconvenient to ask everyone at [sumimi] for help with the band's affairs.

If I don't rely on Chuhua's power and connections for this performance, the scale of it will definitely not be as large as the last time. If I invite everyone from [sumimi] again, it will delay the popular idol band's profit, and I won't be able to give them much in dividends.

The situation is different for the Ending Band, they are a new band, but judging from their performance the day before yesterday, their coordination and strength are definitely more professional than most amateur bands. There is absolutely no problem for Chen Qi to invite them to perform for him.

"As for the dividends, after I discuss it with the staff at 'RiNG', we will divide them. I'll take 30% and everyone else will take 70%. What do you think?"

"No, no, no! We are already very grateful that you invited us to perform at a livehouse as big as 'RiNG'! As for the money..."

Hong Xia was also extremely surprised when she heard this. Although it might not sound nice, the scale of "Fanxing" was indeed not as large as RiNG. With the band's current fame, if they wanted to perform in such a big livehouse, they would probably have a long way to go without Chen Qi.

There are generally two types of livehouse performances. One is completely non-profitable, and is a performance held for the purpose of boosting popularity and publicity. There are no performance requirements for this type of performance, and the band must register to be eligible to participate. In general, many bands in large livehouses use this method to boost popularity.

Deng and her friends’ previous performances were of this nature.

The other type is the need to make a profit, like selling tickets for a concert, where the audience must pay to watch the performance. For example, the concert where Chen Qi and Chu Hua sang together was filled with thousands of seats thanks to the popularity of [sumimi].

As for the members who have left the band, even if they perform for the purpose of profit, they can only attract a dozen audience members at most. In a place like "RiNG", where there are hundreds of people, their popularity does not support them to achieve the target of hundreds of people, and they will really be losing money by holding the concert.

"Don't say that. You are a band after all. If you are a band, you need to make a profit. You can't live by just drinking water. How can we use you as labor for free?"

When Chen Qi saw Hong Xia's refusal, he felt amused, but his attitude became much more friendly as he replied:

"Or, Hongxia, you have no intention of turning the band into a professional one? Do you want to keep playing the role of a friendship band?"

"…Senior, you really do say whatever you want to say."

However, Chen Qi's question was rare, which made Hong Xia speechless. But just when Hong Xia was still struggling to figure out whether everyone in the band could adapt to such a big challenge, Liang came up and said to Chen Qi first:

"If the profit is split 70% to 30%, with a target of 100 people, minus the half share of the livehouse, each of us can probably get more than 10,000 yen."

"Okay, I agree to this performance on behalf of Hong Xia and everyone else who has finished the band."

"Liang?" Hong Xia was a little startled when she saw that Liang represented her opinion. When she was about to step forward to stop her friend who was only interested in money, she unexpectedly discovered that there was not even a trace of greed for money in Liang's eyes.

On the contrary, Liang, who was only one step away from Chen Qi, stared at Chen Qi intently, as if looking directly into Chen Qi's soul, and asked him:

"But, I want to ask, Senior Chen Qi, is this performance just for fame and profit, and to help us by the way?"

"Or do you have other plans, Senior? Are you planning to use this performance to win back someone?"

However, Liang's soul-searching question immediately attracted the attention of everyone present. Suddenly, everyone realized that there was something wrong with Chen Qi's sudden plan to perform.

Because of Chen Qi's coma the day before yesterday, and Miao Meng's retelling, everyone who ended the band already knew that Chen Qi's emotional breakdown this time was actually caused by his sister and the band that was composed of Chen Qi's former band members.

Having just experienced such tremendous mental damage, Chen Qi's mood had only just calmed down for less than two days. He hadn't yet completely recovered from the trauma, but he was already anxious to start his next performance... This made them wonder what Chen Qi's plan was.

"Qi?" Mu, who was standing by, also realized Chen Qi's plan. With his eyes slightly fixed, he couldn't help but ask a cold question:

"Are you still planning to pay anything for Deng and the others?"

"...I really can't hide anything from you guys."

However, Chen Qi was stumped by Liang's soul-searching question and raised his hands in surrender helplessly, acknowledging his plan. It was indeed for the lights and the band that had been shattered because of his escape this time.

However, Chen Qi's acquiescence was met with a strange silence. This time, not only was it harmonious, but even the four girls who finished the band looked at each other and showed some unwillingness.

After all, although they did not witness the situation that day with their own eyes, Chen Qi's coma and mental breakdown did happen in front of them.

Although they did not have much contact with Chen Qi, this senior whom they respected, who had always guided them and helped them move forward, fainted in front of them. It was hard for them not to feel a little dissatisfied with Gao Songdeng and the others.

And now, facing Chen Qi who was determined to perform for them even if he was hurt, whether it was Kita and Bochi who admired Chen Qi as a senior, or Liang who regarded Chen Qi as a friend, and even Hong Xia who was an archangel, they all rarely spoke.

Chen Qi, of course, understood the reason for their silence, and explained to Hong Xia and the others with a wry smile:

"Everyone, I know what you are thinking... But, I want to tell you that the reason I ran away at that time was more due to my own reasons, and had little to do with Deng, Aine, Su Shi, Li Xi and the others."

"Besides, Deng and I are siblings, and I've been friends with Aine, Suyo, and Riki for a long time... I really can't bear to see them feel resentful because of my departure."

"But, Qi, it was still their performance of that song that caused you to break down."

However, Chen Qi's words might convince others, but they could not convince Mu who witnessed the whole process.

Mu remembered very clearly that when the band played "Spring Shadow" and "Lost Days", everything about Chen Qi was normal. It was only when Deng took the initiative to perform the song "Sixth Star Night" that Chen Qi suddenly lost control of his emotions.

Although Mu couldn't guess the reason, the song that Chen Qi wrote for Deng must have brought back some bad memories for Chen Qi, and Deng was definitely aware of this! Otherwise, with so many brothers in Crychic, why did she choose this one so accurately?

There is no doubt that Deng knew best which song could shake Chen Qi's emotions the most, and Deng did it knowingly!

"Mu... After all, Deng is my sister. I can't watch her be so sad and do nothing."

However, facing Mu who was still defending himself, Chen Qi, who was the only one who knew the reason, could not help but half-squat down with a wry smile. Facing the rare bit of indignation on Mu's cold face, he chuckled and said word by word:

"And Aine, Sushi, Riki... They are all so sad because of my leaving. At least, they are innocent."

"I promise, Mu, if I really can't bring them back for this performance..."

Chen Qi's tone also paused for a moment. Finally, he seemed to have made up his mind. He suppressed his emotions and said calmly:

"So, as for this band thing, I'm really not going to be involved with it anymore, okay?"

At this point, if Chen Qi didn't notice how much impact his existence had on the original MYGO, he would be a fool. He realized that although MYGO seemed to be complete, it was actually just a pile of loose sand, a sand fortress that would quickly collapse once he left.

Chen Qi could not have imagined this situation, and he had no ability to change it... Unless he really joined MYGO and guided them forward as he did in the past... But would that really be a good thing?

He made them all revolve around him, a band that couldn't do anything without him. Once he collapsed, the whole band fell apart. Is this considered a normal band?

Then my plan to build new friendships among everyone is nothing but empty talk.

Therefore, this is probably Chen Qi's last effort for MYGO. If Chen Qi still can't unite everyone in MYGO this time...

Then, it can only mean that his intervention has really made everything even more of a failure. I have really made up my mind to never intervene in their world again.

"For the last time..."

Chen Qi's answer also made everyone fall into silence. Liang, who was standing in front of Chen Qi, was the first to smile at Chen Qi with understanding after a brief contemplation.

"I hope, Senior Chen Qi, you can do what you say."

"——Then, have you prepared the songs for Senior Chen Qi's performance this time? What type is it? Sadness? Love song? Or rock?" Liang, who was also very curious about Chen Qi's creations, couldn't help but ask.

Liang's topic quickly attracted everyone's attention. However, no one noticed that Liang's change of topic had already quietly finalized this controversial performance, and this time, no one objected.

"...No, this time, I want everyone to see the real me."

And after a brief silence, Chen Qi inadvertently revealed a smile mixed with warmth and bitterness. He had already determined the style of his own singing repertoire, and he knew that only by doing so could he possibly call back these former companions.

"I want to tell them something from my heart. I have been hiding my inner fragility from them all this time... letting them rely on me and overly believe that I can do anything... I am also very tired."

"This time, I don't want to make such a mess. I want them to know a side of me that no one knows about."

"pray……"

And the first time they heard Chen Qi express his fragility and exhaustion so clearly, everyone in the band could not help but stare in silence at this senior whom they had always believed to be omnipotent.

It turns out that seniors can also be fragile and sometimes they can't do it? Boqi-chan silently watched Chen Qi with his eyes downcast. Facing Chen Qi who showed a helpless expression for the first time, she felt a little touched in her heart...

Mu, who knew Chen Qi's hard work best, was a little reluctant and took the initiative to hold one of Chen Qi's hands. But soon, Chen Qi, who had recovered, responded to Mu with a gentle smile, and then said to everyone who had finished the band again:

"The song is already in my mind, I can write it down now, guys, please help me just this once."

"——No problem, Senior Chen Qi!" X4

Chen Qi's voice was quickly responded to by the band. Under Chen Qi's gaze, Xi Duo beside him quickly took the paper and pen from the counter and placed them on the table.

Facing Chen Qi sitting at the table, Kita, Liang, Hongxia and Bochi-chan, who were all curious about Chen Qi's song this time, understood what he meant and came closer. Only Mu, who was the shortest, was left aside. Facing the crowded table, he had no idea what to do.

Soon, the four girls who saw Chen Qi write down the song title, after a moment of silence, could not help but whisper the song title with a hint of heaviness and depression:

"…'I once thought about ending it all'?"

Chapter 81: Mu and Xiangzi's complete break? Xiangzi and MYGO team up for the first time!

"I once thought about ending it all..."

"If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes... to be honest, I couldn't imagine that lyrics like this could be written by Senior Chen Qi."