Who says those who retire at the speed of light are not heroes?

He went to Jiang Lingxue's room a few days ago. Jiang Lingxue had a cold face. He sat next to Jiang Lingxue, put his arm around her waist and asked her why she wasn't asleep yet. Then Jiang Lingxue grabbed his arm, bit him and drove him out of the room. The door was closed heavily. He felt helpless and went back to sleep.

"It's reasonable for her to be angry. Whether you coax her or not is your business, instead of trying to avoid it and making excuses by saying that she never asked you to accompany her. It's obvious that you just need to admit your mistake, but you're too proud to admit it."

"Yes, am I just trying to save face?" Lin Cheng asked back stutteringly.

"Isn't it? If you interpret Jiang Lingxue's statement that she doesn't need your company as her wanting to save face, then your current behavior is also about saving face."

Lin Cheng went over all the conversations in his head. After five or six seconds, he lowered his head and said, "My bad."

"Admit your mistake?"

"Admit your mistake."

"What's wrong?"

"I don't know. If it's wrong, it's wrong."

"So you're willing to admit you were wrong, but you're not willing to change?"

Lin Cheng raised his head, "I just won't change. As long as she doesn't say she needs me, I will never accompany her. If she doesn't say it, then don't say it. At worst, no one will accompany the other. It's not like we can't live without each other."

Lizhi reached out and rubbed his temple.

She suddenly wanted to tie the two men together, pour gasoline on them, pick up a torch and set them on fire. They would both die together, what a lunatic.

She raised her white and tender little feet, and before Lin Cheng could react, her white and tender little feet had reached his throat, and her toes lightly tapped his Adam's apple. Lin Cheng stammered and couldn't speak. He wanted to struggle but in his head he was thinking about accepting the defeat. Lizhi was so angry that her chest trembled with her breathing.

She was scary when she got angry, so Lin Cheng had no choice but to obey her wishes.

Anyway, he has been shameless in front of Lizhi for more than a day or two.

Her toes were painted with pink nail polish, with the white and tender color intertwined with the light pink color.

Hey, it’s strawberry ice cream!

He could still hear Lizhi say coldly, "I just took a shower."

"Oh, it smells so good." Lin Cheng lowered his head and muttered to himself.

He and Lizhi were silent for a while. Lizhi crossed her white and tender legs and looked at him. "Why aren't you talking?"

"I was wrong." Lin Cheng stood up and lay down on his big soft bed. Looking at the ceiling, he suddenly said, "Am I a weird person?"

"Not very, it's special, especially, very, super twisted."

Lin Cheng smiled bitterly, "You may not believe it... But I always doubt whether Jiang Lingxue really likes me."

"Why?" Lizhi was stunned.

"Maybe it's just my weird thoughts that are playing tricks on me. I always think that if I like someone, it doesn't matter if I let go of my pride a little bit, but she seems to be always so proud."

"But aren't you just as proud?"

"Where on earth am I so proud..." Lin Cheng answered dejectedly, "I really don't know, tell me."

"You just won't say you like her."

"Because I don't even know if she likes me or not."

"Why would she do it with you if she doesn't like you?"

"The first time she did it with me it wasn't because she liked me, it was because her body was being tortured by the deep desire and was going crazy. That's why I lived with her. It had nothing to do with liking her."

Lizhi was stunned, "Then what?"

"Then I took care of her while she lived in my house. She had a bad temper at that time. I always thought that although I was just a tool, I still slept with her. Although she didn't ask me to be responsible, I always had to be nice to her. I can't explain why one day when I woke up and saw her curled up in my arms, I suddenly wanted to kiss her. Maybe at that time I began to doubt whether I was in love with her. But how could I know whether she liked me or not?"

"Didn't you later cure the effects of the abyss on her body?"

"But the habit is still there. There's no need for a reason to do it, just like eating and drinking. It doesn't matter who you do it with. I think when I wanted her to walk downstairs with me, it should be the beginning of my confirmation that I like her. I hope our world is no longer just muddle-headed, but we can also do things that couples in love do together, such as taking a walk, watching a movie, and enjoying the breeze. But she has been rejecting me. I really don't believe that she doesn't know that my invitation to her means that I like her. She subconsciously wants to push me away again and again. It's her own psychological problem. Because she hasn't been loved by others for a long time and has been alone for too long, so when others have expectations of her, she starts to fear. She never has expectations of anyone, and never talks about her need for love."

"Why are you so partial to her? She obviously never said she needed me, and my attitude was so obvious. I needed her, I needed her to go out for a walk with me, to bask in the sun with me. I had already put aside my pride and invited her, but she kept rejecting me, saying that she couldn't feel my love. It was just an excuse she used to deceive herself. She really deceived herself. It was obvious that she had always been afraid of being loved... because she was afraid of losing her one day, so she habitually had no expectations, so she avoided starting, and then kept torturing herself. She had been lying to herself. The definitions she gave me were actually about herself, but the most terrifying thing was that she herself was completely unaware of this."

"So I'm waiting for her to say that she needs me. As long as she needs me, I will appear by her side. However, she seems to have gotten used to our past relationship model. What she calls needing is to come to me for sex. Has it not been the case recently? She has always used the excuse of coming to me for sex to escape, to escape her need for love. Maybe I don't give her enough sense of security, but I have no choice. I can't take care of myself. I am a special, especially, very, super twisted person."

"Does she really like me? If she did, why did she move out? I wanted her to date me, but she wanted to stay in her room like a puppy, escaping from the outside world and my liking for her. Then she felt annoyed with me and moved out. What about me? Who will fill my loss? I will be very sad too... Please, she is the first girl I have liked in my crappy life. She doesn't want me anymore, not me. Why are you speaking up for her?"

"She is sensitive, she lacks love, she is proud, she is in pain, so should she be favored? What about me? I am fine with being more miserable, I think I am also quite miserable, I have lived alone for so many years and no one has ever loved me. If I had a choice, I would rather die at the age of fifteen in the hands of the abyss, rather than wearing that broken mask to become a destiny master. In the end, I got nothing and even lost the qualification to be a human being. During those years in the abyss, if I hadn't thought about the promise I made to take good care of you in the future... I would not have come back. I would rather die in there, then I will never suffer again."

175 Preparation before taking a bath

The room became quiet.

After a long while, I heard Litchi whisper, "I'm sorry."

Lin Cheng sat up from the bed and scratched his head, "What's the point of apologizing?"

"I shouldn't have stepped on you."

"Hey, it's okay, it smells nice, sizzle." A funny expression appeared on Lin Cheng's face again. Lizhi was silent for a long time. Perhaps it was because she had seen him so lively and frivolous for too long that she almost overlooked the fact that he was not that kind of person.

Just like Lu Xiaoxiao's coldness, this is just a cocoon used to protect herself.

"Maybe... you really need to sit down and have a good talk with her." Lizhi hesitated to speak.

"I'm not good at this kind of thing." Lin Cheng shook his head. "I'm not really angry with her. After all, it was my fault. Maybe if I was more frank and expressed my love for her earlier when we lived together, she wouldn't be so worried all the time. She and I are very similar, so we are attracted to each other, but sometimes we both hate the similarities between us."

Lin Cheng scratched his head. "But I can't find any solution. I can't promise her that I will never go to Lu Xiaoxiao's place again when I coax her. Forget it. I'll go see her tomorrow..."

"Why not... now..." Lizhi's eyes inadvertently looked at her mobile phone on the table. She put her phone back and looked at the call that had been connected for a long time.

"No, I want to go find Xu Wanyue to heal my wounded heart."

Lin Cheng got off the bed, came to Lizhi and gently pinched her face, "You should go to bed early too, don't worry about me and her. They are just children sulking, they will probably calm down in a couple of days."

"If you say what you need to say nicely, maybe it won't happen again?"

"What's important is not what you say." Lin Cheng was about to pull back his hand that was pinching Lizhi's little face, but Lizhi suddenly grabbed his wrist, bit his finger lightly, licked his finger gently with the tip of her pink tongue, looked up at him, and waited for his next sentence.

"What's important is whether you are willing to change." Lin Cheng said seriously.

"Ok?"

"Her pride and sensitivity all come from her loneliness. Because she has been alone for too long and has not received the support of love for a long time, she feels lacking, so subconsciously her need for love is very low. When I express my love to her, the first thing she feels is not joy, but fear, because she has become completely accustomed to the state of lack and scarcity. She only needs a little bit of love from herself to survive, so she will feel scared and subconsciously want to push me away, because pushing me away... her subconscious will feel safe."

"It sounds illogical, right? But that's the truth. Because we've never had it, we're afraid of losing it. The fear of losing is far greater than our desire to be loved. So in order to avoid the possible outcome of losing, we avoid the beginning of being loved. That's why we're like this now."

"Perhaps she herself is well aware of this, but if a person is accustomed to a certain lifestyle, it is very difficult to change it, unless one is extremely dissatisfied with the pain brought about by the current situation. However, this will lead to two results: either trying to change in extreme pain, or entering a state of learned helplessness."

"Learned helplessness?"

"At first, the dog was locked in a cage. Whenever a buzzer sounded, it would be given an unpleasant electric shock. The dog could not escape the electric shock in the cage. After many experiments, the cage door was opened when the buzzer sounded before the electric shock. At this time, the dog not only did not escape, but fell to the ground and began to moan and tremble before the electric shock appeared. It could have actively escaped, but it desperately waited for the pain to come, and no longer struggled or resisted. This is learned helplessness."

Lin Cheng looked at Lizhi's pink and tender tongue, it was so astringent, he really wanted to kiss it.

He went on to say, "All I can give her is some opportunities. Changing things is not something you can achieve by seeing some great truth. People can't just rely on others to help them. People can only save themselves. All I can do is hold her hand tightly when she wants to reach out."

"But if she didn't reach out to me, even if I caught her, she would still fall again."

Lin Cheng bent down slightly and leaned close to the cheek of Lizhi who was sitting in front of him, "What a cute tongue."

Lizhi's lips parted slightly, and the tip of her tongue swung gently, "Want a kiss?"

"Want to kiss."

"If you kiss me, you can't kiss her when you go to see Xu Wanyue."

"Well...deal."

So Lizhi leaned in close and gently touched his lips. The soft and tender tip of her tongue brushed across his lips, bringing a slightly moist touch. Lin Cheng stood up again with satisfaction, "Okay, okay, go back to sleep. I'll go see Jiang Lingxue tomorrow."

"I thought you were angry."

After Lin Cheng turned around, Lizhi spoke softly behind him.

"I'm not angry, I just feel a little aggrieved. I'll explain it to you clearly. If you understand, I won't feel aggrieved anymore."

..........................................

At nine-thirty, Lin Cheng gently knocked on Xu Wanyue's door.

But after a while, no one opened the door. Lin Cheng only heard Xu Wanyue's weak voice, "You... wait a moment."

"If you can go in, you can go in. If you can't go in, you can't go in. What does it mean to wait a while?"

"I told you to wait a moment, just wait a moment, be good." Xu Wanyue's voice trembled slightly.

The door was locked by Xu Wanyue. Lin Cheng seemed to understand what she was doing immediately. "How long do we have to wait?"

"A, a little while..."

But Lin Cheng did not stand by the door and wait obediently. Instead, he said a few words every few tens of seconds to urge him. Xu Wanyue would always answer him quietly to ask him to be obedient. Then there was silence for another few tens of seconds. When Xu Wanyue came to open the door, she was wearing a white nightgown with a clean and tidy hem. Under the hem were white lace calf socks that wrapped her calves tightly.

"Hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry!" Xu Wanyue stretched out her fingers and poked Lin Cheng's chest hard several times.

"Hmm? Don't you think my constant urging will make you nervous? Is it exciting?" Lin Cheng blinked at her. Xu Wanyue's cheeks turned red in an instant. She turned her face away guiltily, "No, I was just playing games... in a team."

"really?"

"Really!" Xu Wanyue nodded.

"Then how come you sweat so much playing games?" Lin Cheng came to Xu Wanyue's side and looked at the beads of sweat on her neck. Xu Wanyue replied guiltily, "Because it's hot."

"Oh... my nose is very sensitive."

Xu Wanyue reached out and held Lin Cheng's face, and made a zipper-like motion on his lips, "Shut up."

"Got it." Lin Cheng obeyed obediently, but the next second he suddenly hugged Xu Wanyue and started crying, "I'm Yuyu."

"Why is Yuyu here again..."

Xu Wanyue was held tightly by Lin Cheng. She did not struggle. She reached out her hand and gently patted his back with a soft tone.

"I had another fight with Jiang Lingxue."

"Hmm? Why are you arguing?"

"Because I was with Xiaoxiao and not with her for the past few days, she got angry."

"Hehe, you deserve it for having multiple relationships at the same time."

"You hurt me too. I'm going to cry."

"But she likes you so much. If you stay with Xiaoxiao all the time, she will definitely be jealous."

"You're not jealous at all."

"I'm not jealous because I like you just a little bit." Xu Wanyue raised her face slightly and answered with confidence.

"I really cried for you to see."

"Okay, okay, just find a chance to coax her tomorrow. She likes you so much, she must be easy to coax."

Lin Cheng put his arms around Xu Wanyue's slender waist, but his fingers playfully grabbed the strap of her bra and gently pulled it, then flicked it on her back.

Xu Wanyue stretched out her hand and twisted Lin Cheng's waist, "Can you play it again?"

"I was wrong." Lin Cheng didn't have to be too decisive in admitting his mistake.

"Have you taken a shower?"

"not yet."

"Go take a shower obediently." Xu Wanyue broke free from his arms, and Lin Cheng looked at her expectantly, "Can we take a shower together?"

"Eh... Think about it."

Xu Wanyue really thought about it seriously, then shook her head, "No."

"So what were you thinking about just now?"

"Because... my shyness has intensified recently, so I'm afraid you'll do something bad to me in the shower."

"But I really want to take a bath together."

"Hmm..." Xu Wanyue thought seriously for a while, then tilted her head. She walked to the bed and sat down, gently swinging her slender legs in white lace calf socks. "Then I have to make sure you can't do anything bad to me... before I can feel at ease."

Lin Cheng closed the door and locked it. Locking the door is a good habit.

Xu Wanyue's fingertips grasped the bed sheet and she lifted her calves slightly. She took out the jasmine essential oil for massage from the storage ring, opened the small bottle and dripped it on the back of her feet. The wet liquid quickly wet her white silk feet, which looked slightly shiny. She rubbed her two feet together to spread the essential oil more evenly. Her white socks were slightly transparent, revealing the white and tender soles of her feet. She looked at Lin Cheng and whispered, "I've also read a little bit of the book you read before, and learned a lot."

"Is this, like this?"

"But putting it in high heels and wearing it outside is absolutely not allowed."