Who says those who retire at the speed of light are not heroes?

"Huh?" Xu Wanyue was stunned.

Jiang Lingxue's attitude is so strange.

It seemed as if all the pride and coldness before were shattered at this moment, and she looked like an awkward little girl instead.

"What do you want to ask?" Xu Wanyue asked puzzledly.

"I...had a fight with him...If, if I want to apologize to him...what should I do...for him to forgive me?"

Xu Wanyue was stunned for a long time, feeling dizzy.

I don't know how to answer this question, because usually he is the one who acts coquettishly and affectionately with me, and we have never had any arguments.

177 Release

Xu Wanyue began to think hard.

But she had never seen Lin Cheng when he was angry. That guy obviously had a very good temper. Even if you wanted to send him home, he would just act like a spoiled child for a while, and when he found that there was no other way, he would leave obediently. Even if he wanted to be mean, as long as you said no, he would behave himself. In Xu Wanyue's eyes, Lin Cheng was simply the easiest person to talk to.

"Apologizing to him...should be easy, right?" Xu Wanyue answered tentatively.

"It shouldn't be that simple for me." Jiang Lingxue lowered her eyelashes, "That's why I want to ask you for advice."

"I, I'm not sure either... Maybe, if you hug him he won't be angry anymore?" Xu Wanyue thought so, but there was only uneasiness in Jiang Lingxue's eyes.

"Once the cracks start, is it impossible to repair them?" Jiang Lingxue seemed to be asking Xu Wanyue, but also seemed to be muttering to herself.

"So why were you fighting?"

Jiang Lingxue didn't know how to say it. Her mind was in a mess. Was this a quarrel? Perhaps not at all. But if it was a child's sulking, then how could she make up for the disappointment brought by her past expectations?

It seemed as if she had been blindly craving for love, but she turned a blind eye to it again and again when it was in front of her. Maybe what Lin Cheng said made sense, but was it too late to realize this now?

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Lin Cheng didn't make it in time for breakfast. When Xu Wanyue came to ask him what he wanted to eat, he asked Xu Wanyue to make him some instant noodles. At that time, he was sitting in front of the computer playing games.

When the instant noodles were ready, his game was over. He held the bucket and slurped them, feeling very satisfied.

He was clearly still with Yu Yu last night, but after hugging Xu Wanyue for a whole night, his mood suddenly became much better. Even the gloomy sky outside the window looked so pleasing to the eye at this moment. Lin Cheng drank all the soup from the instant noodles. Xu Wanyue sat aside, looking at him and blinking.

"Well, what's the matter?" Lin Cheng looked at her in confusion.

"Well..." Xu Wanyue thought for a moment, "Do you want to go see Jiang Lingxue..."

"Ah..." Lin Cheng thought for a moment, "Let's wait and see, until she calms down a bit, so she doesn't bite me again, it's very painful."

"Tell me, is there a possibility that she is not angry and wants to apologize to you?"

Lin Cheng's eyes widened, "Absolutely impossible!"

"Why is it impossible?" Xu Wanyue looked at him dimly.

"Because I was wrong in the first place. I ignored her and kept her company with Lu Xiaoxiao for several days. It's natural for her to be angry. Since she has a legitimate reason to be angry, why would she bow her head?"

"Well...would you like to bow your head a little? Maybe there will be a surprise?"

"No." Lin Cheng answered innocently, "My patience is limited. She has disappointed me many times. I have never promised to be responsible for her life. So, everything is obviously her own choice. She hurt me and proudly thought it was my fault. Then it is my fault. I plead guilty and accept the punishment. I can't afford to offend her, but I can't afford to hide from her?"

Xu Wanyue suddenly felt that the problem seemed a little serious.

"You...really think so?"

"Because it's really annoying. I've had enough."

"Maybe...she really, really wants to come and apologize to you."

"I didn't see anyone."

"Maybe, maybe you will forgive her because she doesn't know what to do? You're afraid that the more you say, the more mistakes you'll make..."

"Isn't it just a matter of saying sorry?" Lin Cheng asked in confusion, "It would be enough if she just said sorry. As long as she apologizes to me, I would apologize to her, but she never does that. My expectations of her are worn out time and time again."

"Maybe in her heart, she feels that it's not as simple as just saying sorry?"

"..." Lin Cheng was speechless, unable to explain himself. His head felt dizzy, so he lay back on the bed and pulled the quilt over his head. "I'm going to take a nap."

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Lin Cheng couldn't fall asleep.

Xu Wanyue lay beside him, watching over him quietly. Lin Cheng rested his head on Xu Wanyue's thighs, but many things from the past kept coming to his mind. Many times he couldn't tell whether it was because his expectations were too high that he always felt disappointed. Sure enough, it would be better not to have expectations from the beginning. Without expectations, there would be no disappointment.

"Okay, I've figured it out. I'm going!" Lin Cheng finally sat up. Xu Wanyue suddenly hugged him gently from behind, leaned close to him and kissed him on the cheek.

"Okay, okay, let's talk it out and get back together."

"What if she bites me again?"

"Will not."

"Yes, she is an unreasonable woman."

"I've already told you I won't do that. Just go."

Lin Cheng still stood up, put on his slippers, walked to the door of Jiang Lingxue's room, stretched out his hand and knocked on the door.

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The door was not locked at all. His knocking opened the door a little. Lin Cheng said, "I'm coming in."

He walked into the room. Jiang Lingxue was sitting on the bed, covered with a quilt. Her dark eyes were looking out the window, but the moment she heard his voice, she turned her head and her eyes became flustered and uneasy.

Her bed was strewn with torn paper towels.

Lin Cheng looked at the bed full of tissues and asked, "Is this some kind of performance art?"

Jiang Lingxue didn't know what to say. Lin Cheng looked at her dark eye bags and asked, "Are you going to COS a panda with these dark circles under your eyes?"

Jiang Lingxue lowered her head, "Why are you here?"

"Because I promised Lizhi to come and see you."

"I...it's okay..."

"Then why don't you sleep?"

"Can't sleep."

"You weren't cursing me all night and couldn't sleep, were you?"

"No."

"So what are you thinking about and not sleeping?"

"do not know."

"Then what do you know?"

Jiang Lingxue was speechless again. In fact, she had never been good at speaking. Instead of speaking, she preferred to do it. She didn't need to say anything while doing it. When she looked into his eyes, she would feel inexplicably satisfied, as if he belonged only to her at that moment.

Lin Cheng sat down beside the bed. After a long while, he hesitated for a long time and sighed softly, "It's my fault."

Jiang Lingxue's body suddenly began to tremble.

She couldn't explain it, but her chest suddenly hurt. What should she do after apologizing? Say goodbye? Or has she completely lost hope?

"Lu Xiaoxiao kept holding me back those days, and I had no excuse to get away. I kept thinking whether you should send me a message or something, so that I could escape from Lu Xiaoxiao, but I didn't see you send it. Of course, I don't mean to blame you for not sending it... I just feel... how should I put it, I feel that needs should be expressed out loud, and if you only want me to guess, then there will always be times when I can't guess correctly."

Lin Cheng turned to look at her, "But I didn't expect you to be so angry. Maybe it's better to say this earlier. If you want me to accompany you, I will come unless there is a special reason. Even if I can't come, I will explain the reason to you."

"I came to you that night to coax you, but you bit me and provoked me. You know, I'm not very good at coaxing people, and you become withdrawn and ignore people when you're angry. When we lived together before, I waited until you calmed down before talking to you properly. But the day before yesterday, you came to quarrel with me again. I don't want to quarrel with you. I think we don't need to quarrel. Maybe many things really just need to be said. As long as they are said... maybe there won't be so many awkward things, and we don't have to guess anymore."

"There were indeed many things I couldn't say before, but now... it seems that it doesn't matter if I say them out loud. When we lived together before, I couldn't tell exactly when I suddenly started to like you. Maybe it was because I saw you sleeping peacefully in my arms? I have been alone for so many years, and no one has ever been by my side, so the year we lived together was a very beautiful memory for me."

"Last time you said that I never said I liked you, so I swear now and tell you that I really, really liked you at that time."

"But I really don't know whether you liked me at that time. If you liked me, why did you always lose your temper with me? Why did you always make unreasonable demands? Why did you repeatedly reject my wish for you to go out with me? It seems that the only thing that can prove that you liked me was that we did it many times every day at that time. But I can't help but make dark guesses, guessing that you just thought it was fun to do this kind of thing and it had nothing to do with love."

"So I never said I liked you. According to your temper at that time, what I said should have been a disdainful sneer, and then said that I was a cheap bone. I still liked you when you treated me like this... I was no different from a male dog in heat. If you want to refute me, think carefully about it yourself. What was the probability of you saying such a thing that year?"

Jiang Lingxue thought seriously for more than ten seconds, and she found that she could not refute Lin Cheng.

She should have really said that at that time, because she had lived alone for too long, subconsciously avoiding everything about the people around her. The word "like" was too heavy for her and made her feel uneasy.

"Then you moved out. For the first half of the year, you left all your stuff with me. I thought maybe you were just angry and would come back someday. I kept the things you asked me to throw away, but you didn't contact me for a long time. Maybe you didn't need me that much. During those days, Xu Wanyue always came to my house to cook for me. At that moment, I suddenly figured it out."

Lin Cheng suddenly smiled with relief.

"When we lived together before, I was very self-righteous. I thought that as long as I treated you well, you would gradually become obedient and accompany me to cook and share the housework, just like supporting a wife. At that time, I fantasized about how happy I was. After all, you were so beautiful. Picking up such a beautiful wife was like the male protagonist in anime, with great luck. But later I found that it seemed that I was just fantasizing for no reason. Why did you seem to become more and more unreasonable the better I treated you? I really didn't know what to do. But when Xu Wanyue stayed at my house and cooked for me for a few days, I suddenly figured it out."

“Obviously I never have to do this.”

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Jiang Lingxue's fingers were tightly clenched on her thighs. Her body was shaking, her cheeks were numb, and tears were welling up in her eyes, gradually blurring her vision.

Lin Cheng was not looking at her when he said those words just now. He was looking at the gloomy sky outside the window. Because of the elemental turbulence, it had been raining for the past few days.

"What's the meaning?"

It was clear that she seemed to have guessed the ending, as if she had been sent to the gallows, but at this moment she could only wait quietly, waiting for the moment to be hanged.

"What I wanted to say was that at that moment I suddenly realized that all my efforts were stupid. They were just what I thought was a feeling of being touched. A dog who licks the sack will not die a good death."

“So…” Jiang Lingxue’s tears fell from the corners of her eyes. She lowered her head and stopped looking at Lin Cheng’s back. She just said softly, “I should… leave, right?”

"Where are you going?" Lin Cheng turned around and looked at her at this moment.

"I don't know... If you stay here... and you get annoyed when you see me... I'll leave..."

Lin Cheng turned around completely, walked to the bedside and held Jiang Lingxue's face, "If I say now that you are a very insecure little girl, would you admit it?"

Jiang Lingxue's cheeks were covered with tears, and her voice was choked with sobs, "I, I am..."

"I've been thinking about this for half a year, and only recently did I figure out how I should treat you so that you feel safe." Lin Cheng looked into Jiang Lingxue's eyes, but her pupils kept dodging him. He lifted her chin a little more, "Look at me."

Jiang Lingxue's eyes were blurred.

"Look, as soon as I said all that, you started thinking the same thing as when you left home. You thought I was tired of you and wanted you to leave. That's the result of your subconscious thinking of the worst. If I didn't make it clear at that time, I'm telling you seriously now."

"From the moment I decided to like you, I was ready to stay with you for the rest of my life. I may be a very conservative person. I think once you like someone, you should aim to be with him/her for the rest of your life. No matter what happens to you, I will stay with you and will never abandon you for anything. I hope you understand that I will always be by your side. You always seem to be worried that I want to abandon you, or that I like other girls more, or that I will not like you because of your bad temper. So you are always worried about gains and losses, and you use your bad temper to challenge my bottom line again and again, to test how much I like you. But because of this, expectations will be dashed again and again, and patience will be exhausted.

If I haven't said it before, I swear to you now. From now on, I will always be by your side. I have a lot of time to wait for you to accept me until you stop torturing yourself. "

"If what I said in the past seemed too soft, then I'll say it another way. From now on, you belong to me. I picked you up and raised you for so many years, and now you want to run away? I won't give you this chance. You can only stay by my side and you are not allowed to go anywhere. You can only like me in this life. If you dare to like someone else, I will kill whoever you like. My possessiveness is just that excessive."

Lin Cheng's fingertips lightly touched the tip of Jiang Lingxue's nose, "Do you understand?"

Jiang Lingxue's shoulders kept shaking, and her voice was a little unclear due to sobbing, but Lin Cheng still heard it clearly. What she said was, "I... I... I'm afraid I... I'm afraid I... It's still... It's still the same as before..."

"It's impossible for you to get worse anyway. Just slowly change for the better. Aren't you much better now?" Lin Cheng reached out and pulled her face, "Don't cry."

Jiang Lingxue couldn't stop crying. Lin Cheng lifted the blanket from her body. She was not wearing any clothes at all. Lin Cheng came to lie down beside her and hugged her slippery body in his arms. "Didn't I tell you not to cry? If you cry again, I'll put a small clip on you."

Jiang Lingxue couldn't stop crying. Lin Cheng took out a silver chain from his ear clip. There were two delicate little clips at both ends of the silver chain. He pinned it on Jiang Lingxue and turned her cheek over. Jiang Lingxue's shoulders were still shaking.

Lin Cheng leaned close to her lips and said, "Kiss you, be good and stop crying."

As if by magic, Jiang Lingxue's tears gradually stopped. She looked into Lin Cheng's eyes, her voice still choking, "Why?"

"what why?"

"Why...I, I hate...you so much...you still...still like me?"

"Because you are pretty." Lin Cheng suddenly laughed, "Because you are pretty, it is hard to be angry with you when I see you crying. Anyway, you will always be pretty in the future, so I will always like you. Can this reason make you feel at ease?"

"Then, what if one day... you... you get tired of watching..."

Jiang Lingxue was picked up by Lin Cheng and sat on him. Soon, she sat on Lin Cheng's body almost as if it was a habit. Lin Cheng looked into her eyes and said innocently, "Why do you have so many questions? I'll punish you by making you do 300 squats. Count a number for each one. If you make a mistake, start over."

Jiang Lingxue slightly stood on tiptoe, but was pulled into Lin Cheng's arms. Lin Cheng sniffed the faint fragrance on her body and looked at the corners of her lips that were still stained with tears. "Let's kiss for a while."

Jiang Lingxue's lips were warm. After a while, she raised her toes a little more and began to count the number of squats she had done. It was fine at first, but when she counted to thirty or forty, she couldn't help but want to count faster. However, she would make mistakes if she counted too fast and had to start over again. It took her an hour to finish counting the three hundred numbers. Even though she was sweating all over and could not bear counting so slowly, Lin Cheng just looked at her innocently. As she counted, she inexplicably wanted to cry and cried as she counted.

"Hehe, this is your punishment for not sending me a message in the past six months. You are not allowed to get out of bed until I finish counting today."

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