Conquering the world from the Kaiser's driver

Lin Shangzhou said to the bartender, who looked at him suspiciously. His request was very strange. He wanted to keep serving him beer until he started crying. What kind of ridiculous request was that?

However, the other party had already taken out the mark, and the bartender couldn't refuse his request. He took the mark and served Lin Shangzhou a glass of beer. Lin Shangzhou picked up the glass, sniffed the beer, and then spent ten minutes drinking the beer bit by bit.

After he finished his beer, the bartender took it and gave him another glass of beer as requested. It took Lin Shangzhou more than 20 minutes to finish the second glass of beer, and then the third and fourth. Each glass of beer was close to 500 to 600 milliliters, and the time he took to finish a glass of beer became longer and longer, from ten minutes at the beginning to nearly half an hour later.

Every time he took a sip of beer, he would recall the past. Lin Shangzhou hoped to use the drunkenness and memories to make himself cry. He wanted to vent his emotions, but no matter how he thought about it or how he recalled it, his heart was indifferent. Maybe there was a moment when he wanted to cry loudly, but soon such emotions disappeared for unknown reasons.

In order to make himself cry, Lin Shangzhou drank beer one after another, and his condition became worse and worse with the help of beer.

Lin Shangzhou didn't know how much time had passed, and he didn't know how many beers he had drunk. When he was about to ask the bartender for another beer, he heard a familiar voice.

"Fritts, I finally found you..."

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Chapter 178 The Bartender's Advice

Hearing the shout, Lin Shangzhou turned his head and saw Letitia walking towards him with an anxious look on her face. He turned his head back to look at the clock hanging on the wall. The hour hand on the clock pointed to the direction of 7.

(It’s already 7 o’clock…)

Lin Shangzhou then realized that he had been out for an entire afternoon and it was time to go back. He picked up the glass and drank the beer in it. At this time, Letitia also came to his side.

Letitia was very angry about his sudden disappearance. After seeing that Lin Shangzhou was missing, they waited for a while and then began to look for Lin Shangzhou. She called him but he didn't answer. She spent an entire afternoon searching before she found him in this bar.

"You ran out to drink without saying anything, and we couldn't contact you. Do you know how worried we are about you?"

Letitia blamed Lin Shangzhou unhappily. On normal days, it didn't matter what Lin Shangzhou wanted to do, but now his mental state was not good. What if something happened?

After hearing what Letty said, Lin Shangzhou felt very guilty. He lowered his head and said to Letty: "I'm sorry for making you worry. Let's go back now."

Although he had been sitting here drinking beer for several hours, Lin Shangzhou was relatively conscious. He held onto the table and tried to stand up. After he stood up, his body swayed and fell to the side. Seeing this, Letitia quickly supported him and let him sit back on the chair.

"How come you're so drunk that you can't even stand. How much did you drink?"

Letitia frowned and sat on a chair beside her. In his confused mind, Lin Shangzhou recalled how many beers he had drunk in the afternoon. However, judging from his confused mind, he couldn't be expected to figure out how many beers he had drunk.

The bartender wiped the glass in his hand and said to Letitia: "Your friend drank 13 glasses in total."

"13 cups?"

Letitia was very surprised. She would get drunk after drinking one or two glasses, but he could still apologize to her soberly after drinking 13 glasses. How good was his alcohol tolerance?

(No, no, now is not the time to think about this, we need to take him back)

She quickly threw away the thought in her mind and said to Lin Shangzhou: "Felitz, can you walk? If not, I will use the communicator to ask Louis to drive over..."

Before Letitia finished her words, Lin Shangzhou waved at her and said, "Don't bother him, I can walk back."

After saying that, he stood up again, supporting himself on the table, and without paying any attention to the bartender who was about to give him change, he turned around and walked towards the door. Letitia took out a 100-mark bill, slapped it on the table, and said without looking back, "No need for change."

Seeing the guest put a hundred-mark note on the table, the bartender hurriedly shouted to her: "Miss, he has paid, I am going to give him the change."

Hearing the bartender asking for his change, Lin Shangzhou stopped and scratched his head, wondering why he had forgotten about it. When Letitia saw him stop, she said to him, "Fritts, wait here, I'll go get the money."

Lin Shangzhou nodded, then sat down in a seat near the door.

Letitia returned to the bartender and waited for the bartender to give her the change. While waiting, she turned her head from time to time to see if Lin Shangzhou was still there. She had finally found Lin Shangzhou, and if she let him run away alone again, then her efforts would be in vain.

Seeing Letitia's worried look, the bartender took out some change from the drawer and said to her:

"From the state of your friend, it seems that he has been through a sad thing."

After hesitating for a few seconds, Letitia nodded to the bartender and said, "Well, his uncle passed away yesterday, and his condition has become very bad since then. Although it may seem that he is just a little sad, I think it is actually much more serious."

The bartender sorted out the marks and coins in his hand and put them on the table. He glanced at Lin Shangzhou and said to Letitia, "I think he might need a good cry."

"what?"

After hearing what the bartender said, Letitia, who was about to leave with the change, turned around and looked at him hesitantly. The bartender continued, "There were not many customers in the store today, so I focused all my attention on him. I noticed that he wanted to cry several times, but he didn't cry in the end."

Letitia turned sideways and looked at Lin Shangzhou who was sitting at the door, thinking carefully about what had happened from yesterday to now. In her impression, Lin Shangzhou had indeed never cried, at least she had never really cried when she saw Lin Shangzhou.

(Could Fritz's strangeness be related to the fact that he has never cried so hard?)

Letitia thought to herself, if this is the case, then this is a breakthrough. If she lets him cry and vent his emotions, his condition might get better.

"You are his friend, right? If you are, then you should say a few words to him and comfort him. He looks pitiful sitting here drinking alone, wanting to cry but unable to."

The bartender said to Letitia, and his words made Letitia suddenly realize the dereliction of duty of herself and Louis and others as friends of Lin Shangzhou. He did refuse contact with her and others, but even though he refused, she could still talk to him. As for whether he would listen or not, that was his own business.

"Thank you for your suggestion."

Letitia sincerely thanked the bartender, who chuckled and said, "You're welcome."

Then Letitia came to Lin Shangzhou, helped him stand up and walked out of the bar.

After the two left, the bartender continued with his work. At this time, a customer sitting in the corner came over, put a few coins on the table and left the bar.

He came to the door of the bar and looked around for the two people who had just left. Then he saw the backs of the two people on the sidewalk on the right. After finding them, he followed them.

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Chapter 179 A Big Cry

Letitia supported Lin Shangzhou as they walked on the sidewalk. The bartender's words just now made her decide to have a good talk with Lin Shangzhou. Now she was hesitating about when to start talking about this matter.

Should we talk after we get back to the apartment? Or should we sit on a bench nearby and talk to him outside?

Letitia looked around. On the opposite side of the road there were benches for pedestrians to rest, and a little further ahead was the channel of the Spree River.

She looked up at Lin Shangzhou's cheek and found that his expression was a little painful. Letitia said hurriedly: "Fritts, let's go over there and rest for a while."

Lin Shangzhou didn't say anything but just nodded. He felt that if he opened his mouth and made any sound, he would vomit out directly.

Letitia helped Lin Shangzhou to sit on the bench across the road. He felt a little better after sitting down, but the relief was only temporary. After a few seconds, the feeling of nausea came up again. This time, Lin Shangzhou stood up and rushed to the river fence, lying on it and venting everything in his stomach into the Spree River.

When he stood up, Letitia followed him to the fence. She patted Lin Shangzhou's back with moderate force, hoping that this would make him feel better.

After vomiting everything in his stomach into the Spree River, Lin Shangzhou felt much better. He raised his hand to wipe his chin with his sleeve, then saw the handkerchief handed over by Letitia, and heard Letitia's soft voice: "It's so dirty to wipe it with clothes, Fritz, are you a child? Use my handkerchief."

".……Thanks."

Lin Shangzhou hesitated for a few seconds before thanking the girl next to him and taking the handkerchief. He wiped his chin with the handkerchief, then turned around, slowly slid down against the fence, and finally sat on the ground.

He did not return the handkerchief to Letitia, but held it in his own hand. Although the handkerchief itself is a cleaning tool, it was too dirty after wiping his chin. If he wanted to return it to Letitia, he had to wait until he washed it clean. If this handkerchief had no special meaning to Letitia, he could just buy her a new one.

"Fritts, are you feeling better?"

Letitia leaned over and asked with concern. Lin Shangzhou looked up at Letitia's face and nodded. Then he saw Letitia extending her right hand to him.

"Aren't you going to give me my handkerchief back?"

"It's too dirty. I'll go back and wash it and give it back to you."

Lin Shangzhou shook his head.

Looking at the somewhat stubborn Lin Shangzhou, Letitia showed a faint smile on her face. She stood up with her hands behind her back and said to Lin Shangzhou who was sitting in front of her: "This is a disposable handkerchief that Aunt Elena gave to our maids. There are still many in Wuyou Palace. There is no need to wash it specially."

Listening to Letitia's words, Lin Shangzhou lowered his head and thought for a while, then raised his head and said to her: "Is that so... Can I throw it away?"

"of course can."

Letitia said nonchalantly.

After getting Letitia's permission, Lin Shangzhou raised his left hand and threw it up without thinking. The clenched handkerchief fluttered in the air with the wind, floated on the Spree River for a while, fell on the dark river surface, and finally disappeared into the darkness along with the flowing water.

Letitia stared at the scene in front of her blankly. She never expected that Lin Shangzhou would actually throw the handkerchief directly into the river. She scolded: "Fritts, it is wrong to litter. How can you throw things into the river?"

After saying this, Letitia noticed something was wrong. Why did he throw things around so casually? The trash can was just a few meters away, but why did he throw the handkerchief into the river?

(Because he was drunk?)

Thinking about the conversation between her and Lin Shangzhou just now, Letitia came to the conclusion that although Lin Shangzhou looked conscious and did not seem drunk, his behavior was not like what he would normally do, let alone what he would do in the past two days.

"It's just a handkerchief..."

Lin Shangzhou said in a low voice, Letitia's reproach made him realize that what he did was wrong, and now he didn't understand why he did that just now.

Letitia thought that now was a good time to have a heart-to-heart talk with Lin Shangzhou. When he was drunk, he would most likely open up to her. Knowing what he was thinking, she could think of a way to help him get out of his grief.

So Leticia took a step to the left and came to Lin Shangzhou's right hand side. She took another step forward and came to the fence. Leticia turned around and slowly sat down against the fence, sitting next to Lin Shangzhou.

"Letitia, why are you sitting down?"

Lin Shangzhou turned his head and asked the girl sitting next to him in confusion.

“I want to sit here.”

Letitia replied, and Lin Shangzhou shrugged. She wanted to sit next to him and he couldn't stop her.

He turned his head back to look at the street ahead. After sitting there for more than ten seconds, Letitia said to Lin Shangzhou, who was laughing softly, "Fritts, you drank thirteen glasses of beer today. If it were me, I would probably be drunk after two or three glasses. You can drink much more than me."

When talking about herself, Letitia recalled what happened that day. Her cheeks couldn't help but get hot, and a layer of blush flew onto her face.

However, Lin Shangzhou was looking at the car driving on the road ahead and did not notice the changes in the girl beside him. His confused mind did not recall what happened that day. After examining his own state, he said to Letitia: "I don't know whether I am drunk or not. Maybe I am not drunk."

Letitia was amused by his ambiguous words. After laughing for a while, she said to Lin Shangzhou: "Fritts, I think you should be drunk."

"Why do you say that? I don't even know if I'm drunk or not, how do you know?"

Lin Shangzhou turned his head and asked Letitia curiously.

Letitia looked into his eyes, smiled and said, "Because I have been watching you these past two days."

"If you weren't drunk, you would definitely say something like 'Letitia, I want to be alone' and send me away instead of letting me sit next to you like this."

This sentence surprised Lin Shangzhou a little, but it was a reasonable answer after careful consideration. Letitia would definitely be able to see the changes in him compared to before. He also remembered his attitude towards his friends in the past two days. He knew why he did that at that time, but now he didn't want to treat Letitia like that.

"That's right..."

Lin Shangzhou leaned against the fence, looked up at the dark, starless night sky and sighed.

"Fritts, can you tell me why you came out to drink alone? You drank for the whole afternoon. We called you but you didn't answer. If I wasn't lucky, I might not have found you tonight."

Although there was no complaint in Letitia's words, Lin Shangzhou felt guilty towards Letitia and the others. He really needed to be taken care of like a little kid...

He opened his mouth to apologize to Letitia, but Letitia said before him: "Answer my question first."

Lin Shangzhou turned his head and looked at Letitia with a serious expression, swallowed his apology, and then said, "Because I want to cry."

"Cry?"

Because of the bartender's previous suggestion, Letitia was not too surprised by his answer. It seemed that Lin Shangzhou was drinking to relieve his sorrow just for the sake of doing so.

But why did he want to cry so much?

Letitia knew the answer without even thinking about it, but in order to find out what was on Lin Shangzhou's mind, she decided to ask him the question. Only by letting him speak clearly himself could the problem be solved.

"Why do you want to cry so badly?"

Letitia asked doubtfully.

After she asked this question, Lin Shangzhou was silent. After a minute, he sniffed and said to Letitia: "Because my only relative... my only uncle is gone. My uncle cared about me so much and took care of me so much. When I couldn't sleep well at night, he bought me a phonograph and records. I like to eat light breakfast, and he got up early every morning for ten years to make breakfast for me..."

Lin Shangzhou sniffed hard, took a deep breath, and continued, "I didn't like dealing with Germans before, so my uncle indulged me to stay at home for ten years. He knew I didn't like going to school, so he didn't force me to go to school. He followed my wishes and didn't enroll me in a school. He taught me German at home...

"He knew I had grown up, but he still couldn't let go. When I went to Strasbourg, he wanted to go with me to take care of me. He even took a leave of absence from Berlin to visit me in Strasbourg because he was worried about me. He has been thinking about me since I was a child, but I, his nephew, have never done anything for him. In the end, his death was caused by me..."

Lin Shangzhou confided his inner thoughts to Letitia in a trembling voice. After saying this, he took a deep breath, suppressed his almost collapsed emotions, and then said to Letitia: "I had a nightmare this morning. In the dream, a person who looked exactly like me said that I didn't love my uncle at all, and didn't... didn't... didn't regard him as my uncle."

"Because from the time my uncle passed away yesterday until now, I haven't shed a single tear for him..."

Lin Shangzhou didn't finish his words. He bit his lower lip hard to avoid the pain and let himself break down. It was obvious that he only needed to cry for a short while to prove to Nightmare that he loved his uncle, but for some reason, Lin Shangzhou just didn't want to cry.

He wanted to cry, but he didn't want to.

He lowered his head and tried hard to suppress his emotions that were almost collapsing, but after a few seconds Lin Shangzhou felt a pair of hands holding his cheeks, and those hands slowly exerted force and slowly lifted his head up.

When his head was lifted up, Lin Shangzhou saw Letitia in front of him. It was Letitia who held Lin Shangzhou's cheeks with her hands and lifted his head up.

"Fritts, you obviously want to cry. Your eyes can no longer hold your tears. They have already flowed out, but why don't you want to cry out loud?"

Letitia's expression was very serious, but her eyes and tone were extremely gentle. She looked into Lin Shangzhou's eyes and wiped away the tears that overflowed from the corners of his eyes with her fingers.

"Because... because I am crying for the sake of crying. I am crying because of what I heard in the nightmare. If I... I... I... if I cry, then my crying is not for my uncle, but to confuse my heart, to make my heart that doesn't care about my uncle think that I care about him..."

After saying this, Lin Shangzhou was almost on the verge of collapse. In order to prevent himself from crying, he bit his lower lip, and blood flowed from the corner of his mouth. Letitia took out another handkerchief from her pocket with a look of heartache, and used it to gently wipe the blood from the corner of Lin Shangzhou's mouth.

Then Letitia hugged Lin Shangzhou tightly in her arms. She held Lin Shangzhou's back with one hand and gently stroked the back of his head with the other hand. She lowered her head and said softly to the person in her arms: "But you remember so clearly what Uncle Forle did for you. If you didn't care about him, you wouldn't remember it so clearly, right?"

"You remember Uncle Forge making breakfast for you every morning; you remember Uncle Forge buying you a phonograph and records because he was worried about you and wanted you to sleep well; you remember Uncle Forge teaching you German at home; you remember Uncle Forge always worrying about you, you remember all the love Uncle Forge had for you..."