I already said this is not a life simulator!

Xi Wang was still smiling, looking a little creepy.

"Because I can do it. I can do it. As the one who decides the [End], as the [Herrser of the End], I can do it!"

"Then why shouldn't I do it?!"

"The past has proven time and again that if you allow yourself to drift with the world and continue as you wish, the final [end] will be filled with sadness, and even the process will hardly make people feel any joy..."

“What if I fill my life with peace and gentleness? What if I put all my complaints behind me, suppress all my resentment in my heart, and melt everything I have into a song, and give it to you and the world?”

"The final [ending] is still so sad."

"Three times, three times in total, I didn't take the initiative to do anything, but the final result was still so... unsatisfactory."

"But what happened later? What about when I took the initiative to try to do something? What about when I took the initiative to let go of those boring emotions and persistence, and took the initiative to [end] everything? In the end, what was the [end] that we got?"

"You know, 'that time' I didn't even understand what had happened, I didn't return to 'mother's' arms, I didn't accept the 'memories' of rain, even the recognition of 'blood relatives' was done with great difficulty... But even so, what did we finally gain?"

"It is our own evolution and people's sublimation. We have reached a new level!"

"In that case, why shouldn't I continue?!"

Xiwang said so.

"You ask me why I do this? Because it has been proven before!"

"I can do it all, I can do it all! So I'm going to do it!"

“I can do better and make everything better!”

“I will rewrite this [ending] bit by bit until I am satisfied and it becomes what I want it to be.”

"...You've gone crazy, Xiwang."

Kosmo said so.

"When did you develop the delusion that I wasn't crazy?"

Xi Wang asked back in confusion.

"........."

"You should know it very well after reading the past."

Xi Wang smiled, still with that gentle smile, and tilted his head slightly while reaching out and lightly tapping his head with his index finger.

"From the first time, I was crazy, wasn't I?"

"If something of that magnitude happened to you, as long as you could persist and not choose to destroy yourself, I would admire you, Kosmo."

"……Feel sorry."

"I don't want your apology, and I don't need it."

Xi Wang's expression changed, and his originally gentle smile became expressionless... He was a little angry.

"This belated and sympathetic apology is of no use at all, and it makes me feel like I'm using your guilt to further influence you to agree with me and do things for me...which makes me feel uncomfortable."

"I gave you 'blood' so that you could be accepted by the 'mother' and have access to your 'past', but not for you to use it to hold guilt and immerse yourself in the 'past'."

Xi Wang's tone was no longer as gentle as water, and the smile on his face was gone. All that was left was calmness, a seemingly crazy... calmness.

"Move forward, only forward, and only forward, just like time can only move forward but cannot go back, everything that was once has passed, everything that was once can no longer be made up for, and because of this, we can only move forward more firmly, try to make ourselves better, try to do better."

"Because it's the only thing I can do."

"........."

Kosmo was silent for a long time, but finally he had no choice but to turn around and seemed to be leaving.

"Where do you want to go, Kosmo?"

"...Go find Mebius and try out this [Echo/Power]."

Kosmo did not look back, but raised his hand and gently grasped the pendant on his chest. After responding to Xi Wang, he took another step and prepared to leave.

“…Hehe, sure.”

Xi Wang's gentle smile returned to his face again, and his words were still so gentle.

"Otherwise, I'm afraid I'll have to try to let you face Destobia... After all, the "Fire Moth" has made a big move against us recently, right?"

“I’ll go there too.”

Kosmo paused again, said something to Xiwang again, and then continued to leave quickly... At this time, Xiwang made him feel more and more unfamiliar, and somewhat... scary.

"Ha ha……"

Xiwang didn't say anything more, just watched Kosmo leave... If nothing unexpected happens, after Desdobia joins, Kosmo will also accept "Thoughts".

"Did you lie just now, Blood Relatives?"

Skadi, who was still lying in Xiwang's arms, slightly propped up her upper body, looked up at Xiwang, blinked, and asked softly.

"Blood relatives said that they don't need to feel guilty... But, I still felt that he felt guilty just now..."

"...Yeah, yes, "blood relative", I lied."

As for Skadi, Xiwang naturally acknowledged it openly.

"Because this is something that cannot be avoided no matter what... Once I bring up this matter, their emotions will change to some extent, which will in turn affect their attitudes. This is a very normal thing... After all, people are such emotional creatures."

"Will it make you unhappy if I do this, Blood Kin?"

"Unhappy? No, blood relatives are important, and they have never lied to me."

Skadi tilted her head in confusion, as if wondering why Xiwang asked that.

"Blood relatives must have their own reasons for doing this. I will support them. After all...blood relatives are important."

"Ha...really, I feel a little embarrassed when you say that."

Xiwang smiled, hugged her gently, and touched her hair tenderly, making her look happy.

"But... rest assured, my 'blood relatives', no matter what the final outcome is, we will always be there for each other."

"After all, we are connected by blood."

"Besides...I will make this all the way I want it to be."

"To do this, I will use everything I have..."

"And finally..."

Xiwang's voice was as soft as water.

“Everything will be paid for.”

Chapter 5529: Scenes from the past often overlap with the present ()

wow-

On the coast, the sound of waves crashing is endless, and the humid air in the air recedes and comes back over and over again, which makes people somewhat impatient.

As the "sea storms" become more and more bizarre and more and more difficult to deal with, humans can be said to have "modified" the entire coastal area. Cliffs and mountains are built up with soil and rocks, and the landforms are changed by manpower in order to guard against the constant influx of seawater and "sea storms".

On the cliff, there is only the human defense line and the "lighthouse" built by humans. After Mei and Weiwei provided new technology, the soldiers can hold out on the defense line longer and are less susceptible to temptation.

After reducing the mental burden, the pressure on the defense line has also become much better. At least there is no need to worry about a soldier suddenly going crazy under the influence of Honkai and "Kaiji", and then passing this madness along with all kinds of sadness and negative emotions to other companions... That would be a serious blow to morale.

But now there is no need to worry, the "lights" illuminate the surroundings, conveying a reassuring feeling... I don't know if it is the soldiers' illusion, they always feel that this new technology related to "lighthouse" is a bit like the "lantern" left by Xiwang, at least it feels very similar.

...Forget it, no matter what, as long as it's useful.

In short, the "lighthouse" is now truly a "lighthouse" in the hearts of the warriors. As long as the "lighthouse" does not fall, as long as the "light" is still shining, there is no need to worry too much about being destroyed and bewitched by the "Sea Si"... This at least ensures that when the "Sea Si" is not attacking, the warriors will not suffer during the rare rest time.

Of course, that only applies to ordinary soldiers. For fusion warriors... the mental intrusion has eased a lot, but it still exists.

This also led to... the "newcomer" Padufils being somewhat uncomfortable, not to mention that as a fusion warrior, she had to shoulder the heavy responsibility of fighting on the front line. This double physical and mental burden made Padufils, who always loved a leisurely daily life... somewhat uncomfortable.

"Ugh..."

During the break, Padua Felice lay limply on the table, with her ears and tail drooping down, looking listless... If she didn't want the stains on her body to stain her clean bed, she would have gone straight back to her lounge and fallen asleep.

"Pado, you can't rest yet. Go get some disinfection first. You can't leave those blood stains on your body."

Elini, who was in charge of helping her adapt, wiped her new rapier to make sure there were no traces of blood from "Hai Si" before putting it back into the sheath. The [lantern] hanging around her waist also emitted a soft light, which was completely different from the dazzling appearance on the battlefield before.

"Okay... okay... I'll go right away..."

As it was about the "Sea Successor", Padufils did not find an excuse to rest for a while longer, and she did not even say something like "Just for a while, let me rest for a while".

She simply propped herself up with her hands and slowly moved to a special room to be cleaned and disinfected. She handed over her combat uniform stained with azure liquid to the person in charge of handling it. After changing into a clean combat uniform, she didn't even have the energy to drink water or eat. She just fell straight on the sofa, her chest rising and falling with her breathing, her eyelids began to droop, and she was about to fall asleep.

"Haha... this is really..."

Elini on the side was also somewhat helpless, but she did not remind Padofelice anything... She had seen Padofelice's fighting spirit when resisting the attack of the "Sea Heirs". Padofelice was really trying hard to play her role as a fusion warrior, trying her best to block and kill every "Sea Heir" that tried to climb ashore.

And Elini also saw that Padufils was not suited to fighting by nature. When she first went to the battlefield, she was no different from an ordinary recruit. Even though she had undergone sufficient training and was even led by other warriors to perform some simple tasks, she was familiar with the battlefield. Moreover, she was a fusion warrior...

But even so, when Padofelice first arrived at the front and fought alongside Elini, she was still shaking with fear, and her mental state became extremely unstable. Elini once worried whether she needed to use "light" to give her some extra comfort, or let her go to Aponia first to receive some help and psychological mediation.

If all else fails, you can go to the new doctor, Su, and get some help.

But surprisingly... Padofelice actually overcame this psychological fear on her own in the end. Although it took her nearly half an hour of adjustment on the battlefield to alleviate the fear and she could move on her own, she was still restrained in combat and was obviously still a little afraid.

But this is already a huge improvement, and in the following battles, Padofelice performed better and better... The only problem is that Padofelice has to spend a lot of time adjusting her mentality before fighting, and this problem seems to be impossible to change.

Obviously, she was not born to fight, but she was unwilling to leave the front line and insisted on continuing to exert her strength as a fusion warrior on the front line...

It seems that the previous incident between Blanca and Grayshu had a great impact on her, so much so that Padufils, who was naturally resistant to and even afraid of fighting, made up her mind to go to the front line and fight against "Kaiji".

"……Ugh."

Thinking of this, Elini couldn't help but sigh. The changes in Honkai and the appearance of "Kaiji" changed too many things.

Sometimes she felt that Padofils was quite similar to her. Both were lucky enough to survive the attack of "Hai Si", and both were the only survivors in that incident... Oh, no, Padofils was better than her. At least in Padofils's incident, the only people who were actually wiped out were the other people in her shelter, and there were no losses to people farther away.

However, this is not something to be proud of.

"........."

Elini searched around for a while and found a thin blanket, and covered Padufils with it to prevent her from catching a cold... Although it was highly unlikely that she would catch a cold given the physique of a fusion warrior, it was still a good precaution... After ensuring that Padufils had a good rest, Elini checked the table and chairs that Padufils had just been on...

Although she had already cleaned and inspected the place before Padofelice left to conduct the inspection and disinfection, she still checked again to confirm that there were no traces of "Hai Si" left here.

This is the experience she gained from fighting time and time again. Now that "Hai Si" is becoming more and more difficult to deal with and his methods are becoming more and more bizarre, people cannot afford to be careless... You know, she has experienced it before. A certain soldier was too tired, so he did not carry out the corresponding cleaning and disinfection after the battle, and he did not even do an inspection. He fell asleep at his post.

Seeing that he was too tired, his companions just covered him with a blanket and did not wake him up. Then...that night, the soldier disappeared, and a "Hai Si" suddenly appeared on the defense line, almost tearing a hole in the defense line from the inside.

The only thing to be thankful for was that Elini, a fusion warrior, was present, so she killed the "Sea Si" in time and no disaster occurred... But because of this, "cleaning and disinfection must be carried out immediately after the battle" has become a mandatory rule for the "Fire Moth".

After becoming a fusion warrior, Elini has witnessed too many tragedies caused by Honkai and "Sea Successor"... For this reason, she has to be cautious and work hard to do everything to the best of her ability.

Everything is for the purpose of protecting humanity.

In order to prevent the collapse of civilization, it was destroyed by "Kaiji".

"........."

Elini sat at the table, took off the [lantern] hanging around her waist, placed it on the table, and looked at the swaying "light" in it, Elini was speechless for a long time.

She recalled the original scene. Every time she looked at the [lantern] given to her by Xiwang and the swaying "light" in it, she could always imagine Xiwang's appearance, and... the scene when the "Herrser" used Xiwang's appearance to fight them.

"teacher……"

Elini closed her eyes, clenched her hands unconsciously, and murmured softly.

I have to admit that the "Herrser" did a really good job. This way of fighting while pretending to be a human being... is really "disgusting" and makes people feel irritated every time they think of it.

What’s even more annoying is…

【Ire……ne……】

This is the kind of sound that will ring in your head whenever you stay at the coast, as if it is a call from the ocean.

The tone was like that of a mother calling her child, expecting her to come back [home]. It was really gentle, but also very...annoying.

"Hush...huh..."

Elini adjusted her breathing. For her who had been on the front line for a long time, this level of pressure would not have any impact on her. She just slowly opened her eyes, her eyes were full of determination. The [lantern] she had been carrying with her also flickered slightly at this moment, and the bright light of the "light" instantly became a little dazzling, and even briefly covered the surrounding lights.

The reassuring warmth quietly dissipated, and the call from the ocean along the humid sea breeze seemed to be afraid of the lit "light" and quietly faded away.

【Par...do...felis...】

"Ah! Here it comes again!"