This is not the date I wanted.

Shidou slowly opened his eyes, yawned lazily, then stood up from the bed and looked around.

The time shown on the alarm clock was just past six in the morning. The weak sunlight made the room dim. Whether it was the walls, desks, swivel chairs, or other furniture, they all seemed to be stained with a gloomy color, making Shidao inexplicably feel a little depressed and breathless.

"Where...is this?"

Looking at the furnishings of the room in confusion, Shidao couldn't help but blurt out that for some reason, he felt that this place was somewhat familiar, yet there was an indescribable sense of incongruity.

Shidou couldn't help but scratch his hair.

"You got up really early today. Mana should be getting ready for the Kendo Club. Let's make breakfast. Mio...?!"

The words stopped midway, Shidou suddenly opened his eyes as if awakened, but his body froze as if petrified.

"I, I am..."

A thin layer of sweat appeared on his forehead. Shidao opened his mouth hesitantly, with a hard-to-bite stone in his mouth. He took a lot of effort to break it into pieces and squeezed out these few words from the depths of his throat.

"…Itsuka Shido."

The moment he pronounced this name, Shidou finally felt a little more grounded.

"That's right. I'm Gokawa Shido, this is my home, I'm in my own room, in my own bed."

As if giving himself a hint, Shidou pressed his face and emphasized to himself.

However, even so, the indescribable sense of disharmony lingering in my heart still cannot be dispelled.

Shidao lifted the sheets and climbed out of bed, ignoring the sticky cold sweat all over his body, and began to rummage through his bookcase in his pajamas.

"This is a photo taken when Kotori celebrated her twelfth birthday. This is a photo taken when I entered high school. This is a photo taken when we were all at the beach. This is..."

Shidou flipped through the photo album while recalling the contents of the photos.

Rather than reminiscing about the past, it is more like arming oneself. Ever since he used the "Sealing Master" to unlock the seal of his memory, Shidao felt that the dam separating dreams and reality seemed to have cracks. Every time he woke up from a dream, the memories and emotions in the dream would gradually permeate Gokawa Shidao's reality.

"I am a demon awakened from the red moon. The sins of the world are engraved on my body, the evils of this world flow in my blood, and the rage that burns the sky has condensed my skeleton. Now that I have awakened, I will carve scars on the ignorant world and impose an iron hammer of punishment! I am the avenger from the abyss - the fighter Liwan!"

After digging out the sealed dark history and reciting it powerfully, Shidao finally found his pace.

"call……"

Shidou let out a long breath and wiped the sweat from his forehead.

(If this continues... it's not good.)

Although he managed to dispel the discomfort caused by the dream with the shame of his dark history, the impact of the dream did remain in his body, like a stain on clothes that is difficult to wash off.

(If I continue to have that dream...what will I become?)

Thinking of this, Shidou swallowed and couldn't help but smile bitterly.

"But... we can't just give up."

If you give up here, all your efforts will be in vain. Instead of worrying about it, you should think about whether there is any way to deal with it.

(How about...writing a diary?)

Shidou suddenly had an idea.

Although it may only have a little psychological comfort effect, if you write down what you experience as "Gokawa Shidao" every day and read it every day, it may reduce the impact of dreams.

Thinking of this, Shidao took out a blank notebook and pen and began to record what happened yesterday.

"Um... Yesterday was... the 15th. I woke up to Kotori's candy dropping on my feet..."

——Dong dong.

Just when Shidou was writing in his diary, there was a light knock on the door.

"Who?"

"Sir, it's Liu'er."

Rokuko's voice came from outside the door.

"Rokuko, come in if you're alright. The door is not locked."

"Then, Liu'er is sorry."

After hearing Shidou's reply, Rokuko opened the door, looking a little nervous and worried.

"Sir, Liu Er just heard a strange sound, is everything alright?"

"Strange sound?"

"Well, Liu'er heard words like 'devil', 'sanction', 'revenge', etc. Is there an enemy who wants to harm you?"

“——Ahem!”

Hearing Rokuko's words, Shidou couldn't help but blush and cough twice, and replied awkwardly.

"Sorry, that was just a little soliloquy on my part. Sorry to have made you worry."

"It's okay, as long as the sir is fine."

Rokuko shook his head, and then turned his gaze towards the notebook on the desk with some curiosity.

"Is your Excellency writing?"

"Ah, no, I'm just writing in my diary."

Shidou smiled bitterly and waved his hand.

"Diary?!" Liu Ku's eyes suddenly lit up, and he said excitedly, "This is a good idea. Like you, Liu Er also has the habit of keeping a diary."

"Rokuko, do you keep a diary?" Shidou was a little surprised.

"Since living here, Liu'er likes to record his daily life in a diary."

Speaking of this, Rokuko couldn't help but smile happily.

"In this way, every time the night is deep and the day is about to end, Liu'er only needs to look back at the things recorded in the diary to know how happy he is, and he can fall asleep peacefully without worries."

"I see, there is such an idea."

Shidao couldn't help but admire him. Apart from anything else, just taking the time to write a diary every day was an amazing thing.

"Rokuko's diary? I kind of want to read it."

Shidou's unintentional words made Rokuko's cheeks turn red.

"No, no! Sir, you must not look at it!"

"I, I understand. It's true that a diary is not something that can be shown to anyone. Sorry, Rokuko."

Seeing Rokuko's resistance, Shidou hurriedly put his hands together and apologized. However, Shidou didn't know that Rokuko's refusal was mainly because in addition to the diary itself, he often mixed some very shameful erotic fantasies in the book.

Especially the kind that Shidou can't see.

"Just let your Excellency know... Just continue writing your diary. Liu'er will take a rest here for a while and will not disturb you."

Having said that, Rokuko sat quietly on Shidou's bed.

"Well, I see."

Shidou nodded, picked up the pen and continued writing in his diary.

(Well, like Rokuko said, it’s rare to write a diary, so why not write it happily?)

After hearing Rokuko's experience, Shidou gave up using boring narration and instead used a light-hearted and cheerful style to describe yesterday's experience.

But in fact, it doesn't take much time to write a diary. By the time he put down his pen, only about fifteen minutes had passed.

(It’s only this time… Today I happen to be in charge of cooking, so I get up early, so I’ll go and prepare well.)

"I'm sorry, Rokuko. I need to change my clothes next. Can you wait for me outside?"

"Wait a moment, sir."

Just when Shidou was about to go to the closet to get his private clothes, Rokuko suddenly grabbed his sleeve.

"What's up, Rokuko?"

Turning to ask Rokuko, Shidou was speechless for a moment.

Rokuko was seen sitting on Shidou's bed with his legs bent in a duck-like position, with the pillow on the bed placed under his abdomen, propping up the two plump and soft fruits above, naturally forming a "Y"-shaped groove in front of Shidou.

For Shidou who was looking down, it was a truly beautiful sight.

"Official..."

Maybe because of shyness or other reasons, Rokuko raised her head, her pink face flushed a little, and her gently closed cherry lips uttered a charming sound, and her golden eyes stared at Shidao deeply like autumn water.

"Liu'er... do you have a favor to ask?"

"W-what?"

Looking at the beautiful Rokuko, Shidou couldn't help swallowing.

(No, you have to calm down, Gokawa Shidou. You...are devoted to Mengyue. Besides, it's too early for Rokuko to talk about this.)

"Please do it with Liu'er once..."

"No, no, Rokuko. You should pay more attention to yourself."

"Spinning Candy Girl Killer Foot."

"……what?"

Hearing Rokuko utter a very strange move name, Shidou couldn't help but frowned in surprise.

"Rokuko... I'm sorry, I don't think I understand the current situation. Can you explain it to me?"

"That's natural."

Rokuko nodded, took a deep breath, and began to speak slowly.

"Yesterday morning, Liu Er woke up and went to the window to enjoy the fresh air. He happened to see Qin Li kicking the sleeping official."

"Oh……"

"At first, Liu'er was very dissatisfied. Even if they were family members, they shouldn't be so violent. So he argued with Qinli in private after the meeting."

"Um...and what did Kotori say?"

If I remember correctly, Kotori's headband was black at that time, and Shidou had a bad feeling.

"Kotori said: 'Shidao is a hidden severe masochist who can feel happiness in pain that ordinary people cannot understand. I did this just to make Shidao have a pleasant morning.'"

"..."

The corner of his eye twitched slightly, and Shidao sighed and said helplessly.

"Rokuko... you don't have to take some of what Kotori said seriously... really..."

"Well, at first, Liu'er didn't believe it completely. But just now, Liu'er happened to see the official's diary, which recorded that he was very happy about what happened yesterday."

"Forehead--"

Shidao was speechless. He never expected that he was the one who dug the hole.

"It's your turn to guard the official today. Liu'er is in charge of the early morning. I have been looking forward to waking you up, but things don't go as planned. I wonder if you can beat Liu'er and help him realize this little wish?"

(Author: No, I can’t write any more ancient style qwq.)

"Well... okay."

Under Rokuko's pure and innocent gaze, Shidou looked embarrassed, but finally gritted his teeth and nodded.

So...

"Brother, the sun is high in the sky, and it's almost noon. Get up! Get up!"

"Well...it's still early...let me sleep a little longer."

"Since my brother is too sleepy to get up... Liu Er... I have no choice but to resort to this last resort."

"bring it on……"

"Sure move - Spinning Candy Girl Killer Kick!"

“——Puka!!!”

……

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February 2th, Friday, sunny.