The Devil Fallen Fairy wants to regret and make amends? You are not worthy

Um.

Xu Qingyan once thought so too.

She may never know, maybe forever.

There was once a young man who brought her hope and fame to the world. He dispelled all her troubles and gave her all the help. His only wish was that she would not leave.

But.

She just gave him a look and a sword.

That sword.

It was as if the dome of a boy's world had been split open, and it was more than just a crack.

It is a code that will reopen a certain scar if you say something like that.

When I see her eyes, I will remember how cold it was on that snowy day.

Xu Qingyan had to admit that people always easily forget the kindness others have shown them, and tend to remember the little bit of hatred for a long time.

It's not just her.

The same is true for myself.

So he seemed to be fussy and resentful at the moment.

If you don't care...why do you keep remembering it?

He told her.

"From the beginning till now, I have been telling you, Master, that no matter I say I think you are good, or that I think you have indeed changed... it does not mean that I belong to you, or that you belong to me. And I really don't like you always talking about your so-called prophecy... Master, to be honest, until now... I think that the only way for us to last a lifetime is to maintain a master-disciple relationship."

Teenager's words.

Like the nail in the coffin.

Every word seemed to make my heart sink deeper and deeper.

Each sound seemed to make her chest hurt more and more, and more and more stuffy.

She didn't like the feeling of almost suffocating due to the pain, even though his tone was quite gentle.

Obviously...he was standing in front of me without any defense.

There are obviously so many possibilities.

But why do I feel so much pain? It seems like... I am telling myself that no matter how hard I try, there will always be an invisible gully blocking me from walking towards him.

In other words, don't let him come to you.

What exactly is this gully? What is the thing that I still don't understand?

She stared at the boy in a daze. She didn't know what to say in response to such words. She could only follow her instinct.

The heart that was so paranoid at the moment was strongly unwilling to give up.

"Then why do you still...still..."

"Do I still need to give you a bath?" Xu Qingyan said what the other party wanted to ask, and then smiled, "Isn't this what you asked for, Master? You regard it as the content of a transaction, so if I want to get the other side of the transaction, I naturally have to follow your conditions. As for other things, it seems that they are not in this transaction."

The woman's face gradually turned pale.

The water drops hanging on her snow-white neck made her look even more pitiful.

Xu Qingyan frowned, then sighed and sat down on the small bench again.

He was outside, looking at the woman in the bathtub.

It's like looking out from outside the besieged city.

He said.

"If you want to have something happen with me, physical contact, or something more romantic. To be honest, I won't really refuse."

Before Lin Yan could even think of any hope, he quickly said softly.

"After all, you are Lin Yan. Besides being my master, you are also a very charming woman. You have a good figure and beautiful looks. No man can refuse you. I also know very well that if you put forward such conditions, there will be countless men who are willing to focus on you and never think about anything else."

"But does this mean that I will agree to your conditions? If there are no such conditions, no such burdens, perhaps I will be happy to accept such a 'pie in the sky'. If the price is that I belong only to you and will never have any contact or feelings with any other woman from now on, then I cannot agree."

He looked at the deep incomprehension in the other person's eyes, and then heaved a long sigh.

Looking at the ceiling.

The hot air has dispersed somewhat, which means that the water temperature is not too hot in this weather.

Will it be cold?

Will the woman inside catch a cold?

Will she be sad because of what she said?

Or has he been hurt so deeply that he has become a completely different person, and has become a kind of hatred instead of his current obsession with himself?

Um.

He doesn't really care about these.

He just wanted to tell Lin Yan one thing.

"As my master, I respect you very much and I trust you in many things. But if we are a man and a woman, I don't like you that much. If I put it this way... you should be able to understand."

Lin Yan bit her lips tightly.

Sitting in the bathtub, unable to stand up, she was like a drowning person.

It's like an innocent person who doesn't know how to get to shore and is about to drown.

But who is truly innocent?

Who can be sure that you, who are innocent now, will appear in front of me with the most indifferent face in the future and swing your sword without looking back?

Nothing is guaranteed.

Unless I am your only escape route.

She finally said the first sentence after the boy's long string of "heartfelt words".

"So... in your eyes, what are the changes and efforts I have made these days?"

Xu Qingyan shook his head.

"No one has ever asked you to make these efforts. You are willing to believe that these efforts will make me agree to your request. In the end, it is just your wishful thinking."

yes.

Wishful thinking.

It's like he never admitted it.

Is the prophetic dream that I have always believed in true? Does he have a similar experience to mine? Does he also have the same dream?

These are my own speculations, which then become evidence that I firmly believe in.

He never asked himself to become anything, nor did he ask himself to please him more.

In the final analysis, it was only my own paranoia that caused all this, and I only wishfully believed that this would make him belong to me.

Before... losing him.

Before that possible prophecy comes true.

Just why...

Why?

Why can he remain calm until now? Why can he control my emotions all the time, let myself be controlled by him, constantly waver, become like myself, and don't even recognize myself.

Even when she sat in front of the mirror and watched herself putting on rouge and powder even though she never wore makeup, she actually felt strange.

Why can he not change anything, like he has a heart of stone and is not moved at all?

How could he say such things to himself?

"Do you... have to talk to me like this?"

Her eyes trembled uncontrollably, perhaps out of reluctance or weakness.

Is it an accusation or a plea?

She looks very pitiful now, so pitiful that one would like to touch her delicate face, kiss the corner of her lips, and melt away the sadness between her brows.

But the boy just sighed.

"I have tried to talk to you nicely before, but now I think you might take it as my wavering, which would give you unrealistic hope. Well... I don't like this, and it's not good for you either." Xu Qingyan paused when he said this.

He refocused his sight on the other person's dazed eyes.

"This is not good for you either. I am not soft-hearted. I am respecting my master. If you continue like this, there will be no results. Don't ask me what you should do... In fact, you don't need to do anything. Time will give us the answer."

Lin Yan didn't say anything, her lower lip was almost bleeding from being bitten by her.

Xu Qingyan took a deep breath.

"Master, is this over? Our deal still stands."

Listen to him emphasize the word transaction.

Lin Yan's eyes were almost bloodshot.

She squeezed out a word from her hoarse throat.

"roll."

Xu Qingyan nodded, propped up his knees, and stood up.

"Come out earlier, the water is no longer hot. You won't catch a cold, but you will still feel uncomfortable."

After saying this, the boy turned around, walked towards the door, opened it, and then closed it.

"The first thing I do when I get ashore is to kill the person I love..."

Xu Qingyan did not let her hear these words.

He disappeared in front of Lin Yan.

With his clear footsteps, he walked further and further away.

Only this woman with skin as white as snow was left, sitting in the bathtub looking lonely.

The water surface without ripples, the water was cold and the woman did not move at all for a long time.

She seemed to be withering.

Like a broken sculpture.

In fact, Xu Qingyan understood one thing very well.

Don't worry about Lin Yan's past life, just focus on the present.

Would her emotional attitude have been aroused to such an intense degree if it had not been for the so-called prophetic dream in her mind?

In other words, if she were to be replaced by someone else, someone calmer and less moved, would she become the Lin Yan she is now?

Obviously the answer is no. If these interferences had not occurred, if it had not been a joke of fate, then there would have been no way their relationship would have become like this.

She would just walk on the familiar path like Lin Yan, whom she knew best, and then pursue the path to heaven, or die on the way without her help.

Therefore, Xu Qingyan did not need to feel any guilt for the current situation, nor would he feel soft-hearted and upset because of the grievance she showed.

Every time when such impulses arise.

Every time you start to imagine: Will this time be different?

Will the same mistake not happen again this time?

Will there be a perfect future and future this time?

Just ask yourself this.

'How many times do you have to be fooled and hurt before you learn your lesson?'

The sun is shining and it hasn't rained in the past few days.

Soon it was the day that had been set for Bai Yingluo to enter the No. 15 Tianzi Cave Paradise for a retreat and breakthrough.