Miss White Wolf's Terra Travel Journal

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"Tell me about it quickly."

"No, you'll run away if I tell you."

A strong sense of curiosity surged into Miss White Wolf's heart. Curiosity has always been one of her biggest weaknesses.

"Don't run. Talk to me. I want to hear it. I must hear everything about you."

"You will regret this."

"I do not regret."

“I wonder how a natural person can become a person who exists here.”

"Okay." Miss White Wolf was immediately excited when she heard the other party say this. She pressed Miss Dragon Girl's thigh, leaned back, and asked eagerly, "How is it? Psychoanalysis or behaviorism, or cognitive theory?"

Tallulah put her hand on the back of White Wolf's hand: "I don't understand what you are talking about. I am thinking about environmental factors now."

Miss White Wolf felt embarrassed. She didn't mean to touch Xiaota's thigh, but he was holding her hand and she couldn't take it away. She suddenly had an idea and gently pinched it with her hand, then stuck out her tongue:

"Whether it's environmental determinism or not, 90 percent of academic monographs at national universities take the position of environmental determinism."

"White Wolf, you are so happy, do you know what I want to analyze?"

"You said you wanted to analyze yourself, right? I'm good at it."

"You're so excited, your ears are twitching, it makes me want to take a bite."

"Don't bite." Miss White Wolf covered her head, "It's just for fun... No, no, you didn't hear anything, ahem, this is a very serious matter, Xiaota, the screening of mental illness is extremely critical, I am Doctor Bai of the organization, it is necessary to help you pass this level."

"Aren't you a specialist in trauma?"

"Hey, don't worry about it, let's get started."

"You'll be scared away."

"Oh, I'm a psychiatrist. I've seen everything. How could I be scared away?"

"Okay, I've reminded you twice, but you insisted on listening. You can't blame me."

"Yeah, I don't blame you. Tell me quickly, tell me quickly."

Chapter 2023 Environmental Analysis 02-20-12 00:02:

No way, Tallulah thought.

Miss White Wolf, doesn’t she understand?

The other party was just thinking in a fun way. If I told him the whole thing, he would definitely run away halfway through listening.

Well, if the situation is good, he will crawl into the bed, cover his head with the pillow, and leave a tail outside. If the situation is worse, he will even run back to the Marquis.

Oh no, it would be bad if she was left alone.

Should I just make excuses? But if I keep making excuses for this kind of thing, when will I be able to make further progress?

Perhaps, you can speak more obscurely, talk more about irrelevant things, and determine what step to talk about based on the actual situation. In that way, you can avoid accidents and it will be beneficial to yourself to some extent.

Thinking of this, Tallulah had an idea in her mind. Her fingers moved unconsciously. After thinking for a moment, she whispered:

"White Wolf, remember, you often said that I speak very straightforwardly."

Miss White Wolf was struggling with Miss Dragon Girl's hand. She clasped her five fingers together tightly, but the other party always tried to put her fingers between her fingers.

"Well, that was before. You're much better now, normal most of the time, except for sometimes when you talk a little strangely."

"It's normal to have changes. I've always been learning from the people around me. After leaving Koschei, I've traveled to many places in Terra, interacted with all kinds of people, and continued to understand their ways of dealing with people. You think I speak strangely and openly, but that just happens to touch my defenseless side. A long time ago, I was almost always like that."

"I see. Is it related to your childhood? That is, the environmental theory you talked about?"

"White Wolf, why can you always guess what other people are thinking?"

"I...I was just saying it casually, your hint was too obvious."

"It may have something to do with what I said before."

"Of course. I am very concerned about Xiao Xiaota's life."

As she spoke, Miss White Wolf realized that the Dragon Girl's little trick had been successful. The other party's fingers entered between her fingers and crossed and clasped her hands together at the back of her hands.

She immediately lost interest in the game and allowed the other person to hold her hand.

"You can think carefully about my living environment." Tallulah continued, "It is basically isolated from the outside world, but not completely isolated. Kosice would take me to some places, such as the place where the nobles divided the spoils, the slums where the infected gathered, and so on. He sometimes let me get to know some people, and then suddenly killed them."

Miss White Wolf clenched her fingers, and Tallulah immediately felt the force and heard the suppressed hatred: "If that person is still alive, I will go to the ends of the earth to give him the most miserable death."

Tallulah pressed closer to the White Wolf, kissed his cheek, and whispered:

"He didn't do this to destroy my spirit. He obviously had a deeper intention, but I still can't figure it out because many of his actions are inconsistent. Sometimes I feel that his influence is one of the reasons why I can get along with the infected people."

"I only know that she bullied you. She bullied you when you were very young. I hate this person."

Miss Dragon Girl suddenly felt that she didn't want to continue talking. She just wanted to hug her White Wolf and indulge herself in it little by little. Why could Miss White Wolf always make her go crazy with love?

She realized that the other party was waiting, so she continued:

"As you know, Kosice gave me a weird and abnormal living environment. I grew up in that environment. What I lacked could only be supplemented by books. I began to become a very special person."

"When I got rid of control and traveled all over Terra, my previous concepts were naturally greatly impacted. At that time, my body also underwent some changes. I thought more and more, always observing and wondering why things had to be that way and not like this."

"Ordinary people may be able to tell that this is normal and that is abnormal. They have a self-evident subconscious that can tell them that the world should be this way, but I don't have that thing that makes the world be this way."

"I don't have any preconceived notions. To me, there seems to be no such thing as normal or abnormal. Maybe I will gradually be assimilated along with the consciousness of outsiders, but I suddenly met you. So, on a certain question, I have a relatively certain answer."

"But it's not that simple. Humans are too complicated, and I am too complicated myself. I spent a long time thinking about this problem. You should have guessed it by now. If you don't want to hear it, just cover your ears and I won't say anything."

Miss White Wolf lowered her head and said nothing, nor did she cover her ears, so Tallulah continued to speak.

"At first I thought based on my own situation that my feelings for you were that of a girl to a girl, like the Victorians, but later I realized that was not quite right."

"When it comes to things related to you, my hostility towards the opposite sex seems to be beyond the norm. Sometimes I even have strange thoughts and imagine myself as the opposite sex. This may be related to another experience, but the situation itself makes me feel that my feelings for you are the same as those between opposite sexes."

"But later on, in fact, recently, I found that the previous idea was still inappropriate. I will not describe the process, but only the result."

"I found that the two ideas seemed to be mixed together, and there was no way to separate them. I thought of some theories in the book, and tried to find my own cognitive construction materials and compare them with others, so that I might find the reason."

"I did make some discoveries. I found that normal people tend to subtly accept one of the two gender cultural consciousnesses at a certain age, but I understood and analyzed these two consciousnesses at a specific point in time, and thought about the research in my own way."

"Later, I met a lot of people, including you. I had just finished learning the theories from the books, and then I suddenly went to the battlefield. My brain was turned upside down, and all kinds of things were superimposed on each other."

"White Wolf, we may not have been together for a long time, but you torment me every day and night."

"..."

"Well, should I not be talking about this?"

"It's okay." White Wolf shook his head. "These will help me understand you better. However, since I'm involved in this matter, it feels very strange. I really didn't mean to 'trouble' you."

"I certainly know that during that time, I would have thought about similar questions."

"So, the individual 'White Wolf' is your trigger?"

"To be precise, it's the lover I've been thinking about day and night."

Chapter 2023: Reserved Sincerity 02-21-12 00:02:

There is a special state in Miss White Wolf, which can be called the "thinker" state.

When entering this state, she often exhibits external characteristics such as deep thought and daze, while gaining an objective perspective. She can study and analyze anything calmly and discuss it with others calmly, just like a doctor on the operating table who is not surprised by the various structures of the human body.

This kind of moment is when her "defense" is the strongest.

If Miss Dragon Girl knew this, I wonder if she would feel proud, because she could easily break Miss White Wolf's defense in this state.

Just like at this moment, Miss White Wolf is still analyzing why Tallulah likes her. She has come to a preliminary conclusion that she plays a very special role in her life.

However, before she had time to organize her words and express her rigorous academic opinions, she heard what Tallulah said to her.

Just like a tornado brutally destroying a thatched cottage, her thoughts were forced into the vortex of "the lover she had been thinking about day and night". The so-called professional analysis was blown to pieces in an instant, and she felt dizzy.

Miss Dragon Girl didn't think there was anything wrong with what she said, she was just speaking her mind. Bai Lang had told her before that she should be more sincere.

She continued, "You said you wanted to be my psychiatrist. Have you thought about how to treat me?"

Tallulah's tone was serious and calm, and this calmness allowed Miss White Wolf to find an anchor in the chaos. She also tried to calm down and tried to give the opinions of her original organization.

She opened her mouth, but no words came out. She found that what she had originally thought suddenly became inappropriate after the 'strong wind' blew past.

She thought for a long time, and finally rubbed her temples in distress: "Xiaota, I can't think of how to be a psychiatrist for you. If it is a disease, then I can't find a way to treat it."

No treatment is needed, Tallulah thought, some diseases do not need treatment, she was just asking.

Looking at Miss Dragon Girl's expressionless eyes, White Wolf suddenly felt ashamed. After all, this was the first time she made a boast in front of Tallulah, but came back empty-handed.

She cleared her throat and tried to restore her dignity in an unnatural tone: "But I kept my promise, didn't I? You thought I would run away, but I didn't. I listened to everything."

It was not until this moment that Miss White Wolf finally realized what she had heard before. Not only the last word "lover", but also a lot of things before that. That strange way of liking someone, actually... actually...

She suddenly felt breathless. As her body was in Miss Dragon Girl's arms, she bent down and pretended to adjust her boots. The bending down movement allowed her body to curl up, which made her feel better and relieve her panic.

When Miss White Wolf bent down, the white tail wrapped around one side of her thigh was exposed. Tallulah grabbed the tail in her hand. Because she had been holding it for a long time, the tail now felt unusually warm.

She stroked his tail and said affirmatively: "Yes, you didn't run away. I thought you wouldn't listen, but in fact, you not only kept your promise, but also behaved very bravely."

Tallulah was indeed complimenting the other person, but that was not what she really thought.

That's because she said it very subtly, she thought secretly. She deleted almost all the explicit elements and deliberately spoke in the academic tone that the other party liked. If she really said it directly, how could Miss White Wolf maintain that pedantic attitude?

Escape is inevitable.

My desire is almost as hot as fire. When it burns, it is really hard to describe. Therefore, I need to be sincere with reservations to Miss White Wolf, rather than being completely sincere.

This is a technical job, and the right balance is very difficult to grasp, but Tallulah feels that she is becoming more and more adept at it.

Miss White Wolf, who was 'adjusting her boots', was also thinking.

Yes, she has made great progress indeed.

Can most people remain calm and composed in such topics?

She reviewed her performance carefully and did not find any flaws. Although she was confused, she did not show it. Even the way she bent over was logical and seamless.

So, this time, not only did she not lose face, but she behaved very decently.

She straightened up, wagged her tail proudly, and said in a tone of 'I knew it would be like this': "Didn't I tell you this a long time ago? I'm not afraid of what you say. You even said that people would regret it and run away. Ha, you're acting like I'm a child."

Tallulah quietly covered her mouth, trying not to laugh out loud: "I was wrong. I shouldn't have underestimated Miss White Wolf."

The latter waved his hand generously: "It doesn't matter, it's a pity that I can't really help you."

Miss Longnu rolled her eyes and suddenly said in a sad tone: "Yes, look at me now, I'm like this, saying a lot of weird things, are you still willing to accept me?"

"Of course, it's nothing, Xiaota, don't think you're weird." Miss White Wolf consoled him earnestly, "Everyone in the world is weird, and they all suddenly become philosophers at some point. You're just expressing your confusion."

"But life remains the same. We remain the same as we should be. Thinking can change some things, but only a small part. If an idea comes to mind, it will immediately shake one's will. Then nothing can be accomplished. So, no matter what, you are still my little tower."

Miss Dragon Girl put the tip of the white wolf's tail on her right cheek and smiled: "You always say that you are just like ordinary people, no different, but in fact you are different. You are too special. I will never meet another person like you."

"Although I am happy to hear you say that, it sounds like I am some kind of unique species."

"That's right, you are the only Miss White Wolf. I won't meet another one, but I don't need to meet another one either."

"You said it as if your brain had been eaten by the love bug."

"Then eat it. I don't mind."

Miss White Wolf curled her lips: "You are so weird."

"Hey." Miss Dragon Girl smiled happily, "You just said I'm not weird."

"I take back what I said, Xiaota is the first 100th monster on Terra."

"Why did you become a monster again?"

"I want to say this, do you have any objection?"

"No, whatever you say is what it is."

"Hmph, you have some good taste."

"Then Miss Ditto wants you to go and rest. Are you going?"