They all pushed me!

"Taeji, can you step aside? This is something very important."

"I know, I know. I'll go in first."

After seeing the back of Gotanda Yasushi disappear completely as he walked into Shozengu with smacking his lips, Kitagawa Ryo turned around again and spoke seriously:

"I know that actors who are experiential often cannot distinguish between their roles on stage and themselves off stage, because it is not uncommon for them to be so absorbed in how to play a role that they become obsessed. However, there is a difference between on and off stage. One's own emotions and the emotions of the character may be similar or even convergent, but they can never be completely consistent, let alone confused."

"The most important thing is that you can't just hope to convey emotions through the words and actions of the characters on stage, because this is also a kind of comfort zone. After talking too much, when you really want to confirm it, you will find that you can't open your mouth."

Hoshino Ai wasn't able to truly say "I love you" until their wedding long after they confirmed their relationship. He also didn't dare to say it to Rumi in writing until yesterday. He'll probably have to wait until he returns to Tokyo to say it face to face, even though both of them, as an idol and an actor, have said it so many times in the past to other people without any psychological pressure.

"If you say a lot of things too much, they will feel cheap, like lies, and no longer special. It takes a long time to confirm and identify sincerity."

"If Akane still holds the same thoughts in a few years, she can ask me out again as Akane Kurokawa and tell me everything in person."

"This is my promise to Xiao Qian."

Kurokawa Akane stared into Kitagawa Ryo's pupils for a long while before nodding vigorously. He stretched out his right hand and held his little finger with his little finger:

"Ah."

"It's a word."

Miyazaki, in front of the Sheraton Grand Ocean Resort Hotel.

"Good morning, Taizhi. Didn't you sleep well last night? Why are you up so early?"

Because he went to bed early last night, and Kitagawa Ryo has always had the good habit of not recognizing his bed, after a night of fine and full sleep, Kitagawa Ryo got up early in the morning and prepared to go downstairs to the open space near the hotel for morning exercises. Unexpectedly, he ran into Gotanda Yasushi who was wandering downstairs like a ghost. He trotted over curiously and patted the other's shoulder from behind.

"Oh, it's Ryo."

No

Chapter 4: Because I'm an Actor (5k)

As an actor who has been acting for two lifetimes, Kitagawa Ryo is actually somewhat resistant to actors on stage putting too much personal emotion into their performances. Even if they are so-called experiential actors, what they should experience and reproduce are the emotions of the character itself. This is the key reason why he felt that he had some difficulty talking about this topic with Ai on the set of "Tomorrow" last year, but found a kind of cordial identification and familiarity with Akane Kurokawa at that time.

Kitagawa Ryo has also heard some things about the new generation director named Shima Masanobu who Gotanda Yasushi told him this morning. Although his series of speeches sounded like a high-sounding cover-up, Kitagawa Ryo himself would still agree with one of the beautiful "formal remarks", which is that "the sense of accomplishment and satisfaction of shooting an excellent work is actually greater than making love", or in other words, as actors and directors, their job should be to make works that make the audience feel more comfortable than making love and can get spiritual pleasure and satisfaction.

In the month since the filming of "Pest" officially began, Kurokawa Akane's state has actually begun to converge in the direction of love. Personal will and emotion completely overwhelmed the role itself, and she herself was even one-third of the screenwriter of this drama, so Kitagawa Ryo did not discuss the script with Kurokawa Akane again like the last time on the set of "Tomorrow".

The environment and background of the discussion had changed a long time ago, just like the last time he casually chatted with Kana Arima and Akane Kurokawa about a few script passages during lunch. The two of them were completely trying to probe his tone and attitude in veiled ways, speaking their own thoughts through the characters' mouths.

However, at that time, most of Kitagawa Ryo's mind was focused on the affairs of Ai and Rumi, so he did not take the initiative to speak up and explain the matter. Now that the family affairs have been dealt with, he has no intention of covering it up anymore and tells Kurokawa Akane his thoughts very frankly.

He really felt that both he and Kurokawa Akane needed a cooling-off period. After all, ever since the tragedy in Akane's family, the feeling he had from him was completely different from before. Kitagawa Ryo couldn't tell whether this change was a temporary reaction after the accident or some other situation, so he also needed more time to observe and confirm.

Kurokawa Akane is a girl with a very delicate mind who likes to keep things in her heart. This has been even more true since she began to teach herself psychology at a young age. Kitagawa Ryo had realized this fact a few years ago, but just like a fortune teller finds it difficult to predict himself, it is difficult for her to understand and grasp her true thoughts. This is one of the reasons why she had unconsciously shown a tendency to imitate others before, whether on stage or off stage.

Kitagawa Ryo herself could notice very clearly that in the relationship between Arima Kana and Kurokawa Akane, until this year, the former had actually been secretly in control, so when she was in Miyazaki, she was able to easily convince Kurokawa Akane with just one phone call, and let her give up the audition competition between the two and turn all her energy into the work of the troupe. Arima Kana, who entered the entertainment industry earlier than Akane and was forced to mature earlier by her original family, has always been able to easily grasp the other's thoughts, as if all of Kurokawa Akane's psychological activities are in her sight.

But since this year, this situation has obviously reversed. Winning the audition for "Tomorrow" over Kana Arima last year was undoubtedly a very important experience for Akane Kurokawa. Compared to Kana, who debuted as a talented child star, the description of "slow and steady wins the race" can be said to be fully reflected in Akane. Apart from her acting skills, what is more important is her own change of state of mind and her rapid maturity, or accelerated ripening.

Thinking about it carefully, Kitagawa Ryo himself felt a little helpless. It seemed that the girls around him were all beyond the common sense of simply judging by their physical age. Compared with them, Kitagawa Rumi, as a reincarnated person, seemed even more childish.

Kitagawa Ryo was sure that, at least until now, Rumi was still completely unaware of what her good friend Kurokawa Akane thought of him. Anyway, before coming to Miyazaki, when he heard his sister smilingly talking about how she and the two of them went clothes shopping together and even took the initiative to help them choose clothes, the corners of his mouth were really a little bit tense.

While sorting out the various chaotic thoughts and ideas in his mind, Beichuan Liang stepped into the Songquan Palace Hot Spring. This hot spring located in a vast pine forest is quite spacious and fully equipped with various hot spring facilities, including separate hot springs, independent hot springs, medium baths, large baths, etc. At the same time, each hot spring is designed with the ancient poem "The bright moon shines among the pines" as the artistic conception, and each one is named with the name of "moon", such as three-day moon, new moon and lunar eclipse.

Crew members setting up filming equipment and arranging scenes can be seen everywhere. A team of more than a hundred people are nervously preparing for the upcoming filming. From time to time, you can hear some quite harsh reprimands, which is the norm on the set.

Between actors and directors, actors and actors, actors and staff, staff and staff... when the number of people reaches a certain size, some conflicts are inevitable. After all, the crew is not a machine. Everyone has their own ideas, but they can only suppress their emotions as much as possible and maintain a rather fragile balance between each other.

To some extent, actors like Kitagawa Ryo, who rarely make NGs, and Gotanda Yasushi, a director with a more easy-going personality, are already the most popular combination among those in the industry. After all, most of the people in the crew are diligent workers, and the filming of a TV series is the kind of thing where once a mistake occurs in a certain link or a certain person, the overall progress will be dragged down and others will have to work overtime as well.

As we all know, the actors are the ones most likely to go wrong during the entire filming process. For the crew members, the reality they least want to face is that the actors cannot perform the effect that the director wants and thus get into endless "stuck shots" and reshoots. Kitagawa Ryo had encountered a similar situation when he was filming before. The new actor in that scene was almost crying on the spot, and the atmosphere on the entire set was quite depressing and even frozen. In the end, the director gave up overtime and reluctantly announced that this shot had passed. Only then did everyone's faces thaw again.

After recalling the past events, Beichuan Ryo greeted several staff members who passed by. When he walked into the preparation room, the makeup artist who had been waiting there immediately invited him to a seat, opened the makeup box in her hand in front of the mirror, and began to apply makeup to his face.

The makeup artists in the crew are usually restless. It is normal for them to chat with the actors while putting makeup on them. Beichuan Ryo had just sat down when he spoke quite naturally:

"It's quite a distance from here to the hotel, and it's an open-air path. After I finished soaking in the hot springs here last night, I walked back slowly in the night breeze. It was very comfortable."

Kitagawa Ryo responded with a polite smile and a hum.

"Come to think of it, when I was walking back to the hotel from here last night, I saw Magana and Kurokawa Akane. They must have taken a hot spring bath together. They were wearing the same yukata style, but different colors. I've heard about their relationship from a friend who worked on the set of Tomorrow before, but you have to see it with your own eyes to believe it. After all, there are fewer and fewer children of the same age who have such a good relationship in the industry. They greeted me together when they saw me. It's rare. I guess it's all because of your good teaching, Kitagawa-san."

"No, but Kana and Akane are both very good kids, that's for sure."

Beichuan Liang looked at himself in the mirror, turned his head slightly as instructed by the other party, and answered with a faint smile.

An actor's reputation is not only built on the audience's side. It is also important to get recognition from professionals in the entertainment industry. And not just the glamorous directors, screenwriters and producers. The attitudes of lower-level industry insiders such as makeup artists, assistant directors and script supervisors are equally crucial. On the one hand, you never know whether these lower-level practitioners will seize the opportunity one day and become big names in the industry. On the other hand, they themselves are also one of the people who like to act as anonymous whistleblowers and gossip the most.

Since the tone of the whole play "Pest" is realistic and true, the costumes and props are also trying to be close to this style, so Kitagawa Ryo's makeup time did not take too long, which allowed him to leave this somewhat talkative makeup artist earlier.

As time went by, most of the actors arrived at the scene one by one, and the corridor which was somewhat empty just now began to line up. Fortunately, Kitagawa Ryo's side was the preparation room dedicated to the leading actors, and besides him, only Magana and Kurokawa Akane could enter and use it. This was one of the reasons why the makeup artist could chat so comfortably.

When Kitagawa Ryo had just changed his clothes and walked in from the locker room, Arimaka Na and Kurokawa Akane were already sitting in front of the dressing table, chatting and laughing.

"Have you finished your makeup, Ryo-senpai? It's a little hard to tell. I remember you always put on more mature makeup before."

As Kitagawa Ryo opened the door and walked into the room and sat down, Arima Kana, who saw him in the mirror, turned around and asked.

"When the male protagonist's mental state improves, his appearance will naturally change, and the same goes for his makeup. After all, appearance is determined by the heart."

After casually answering Arima Kana's question, Kitagawa Ryo turned his gaze to Kurokawa Akane, who was pursing her lips and having lipstick applied lightly by the makeup artist, so she couldn't speak. Just like in the past, camera lenses would make people look fatter, the actors seen in front of the camera are actually quite different from the actors seen on the set. Many seemingly exaggerated makeup looks offline are just to present the best effect on the big screen.

"I feel that Ryo-senpai's current look is more in line with the image of the male protagonist Tsuzaki Hiramitsu that I saw before in "It's Not Easy to Escape, But It's Useful"."

As soon as Kurokawa Akane finished his conversation, he jumped off his chair, as if he was not affected at all by the conversation between the two of them an hour ago. As usual, he took two quick steps to Kitagawa Ryo, came closer and took a serious look before making such an evaluation.

"Indeed... After all, I was too young when I played in "It's Not My Fault That I'm Popular". The original novel clearly stated that I was a programmer in his early thirties."

Upon hearing this, Kitagawa Ryo adjusted his glasses, which looked a bit dull. At that time, he chose the script mainly to create momentum for his and Ai's wedding in the final time. The plot was not very exciting, and the characters did not match well at first glance. Although in the end even the original author of the comic, Umino, was conquered by the performance he and Ai presented.

Some roles do require one to reach a certain age and have enough experience and relevant insights before one can truly act out that feeling. At least Kitagawa Ryo himself feels that his performance in the special episode of "It's Not My Fault That I'm Popular" filmed two years ago was better than in the earlier episode.

But on the other hand, just as there is no way for Kana Arima to recreate her most shocking crying scene in "Spider", Ryo Kitagawa also cannot go back and play the role in "He Once Lived" in its original form.

Kitagawa Ryo still watches many of his past videos over and over again. Those messy videos are stored on his computer's hard drive. There are clips of him and Ai at their wedding, Kitagawa Rumi's birthday Vlogs, and more are various movies, TV series, and rehearsal and performance videos kept by the LALALAI troupe. Ever since he learned about these things, he asked Kindaichi Toshiro for them all.

This is also an important reason why he likes the profession of actor and acting, because unlike most people who can only use photos and memories to preserve themselves at different stages of their lives, each of his works is a symbol imprinted by him at that time, a carrier of memory, and a proof of growth, as if recording this dynamic and flowing self in the long river of time.

After Arima Kana finished her makeup, the three of them left the preparation room together. On the shooting site over there, the huge lighting source and dozens of sharp glances cast in their direction made Kitagawa Ryo squint his eyes unconsciously. Gotanda Yasushi was already sitting in a chair there with his arms folded.

"I remember that Xiaoqian and Kana both said that they continued to be actors because they enjoyed performing, right?"

One minute before the official shooting started, Beichuan Ryo suddenly said this for no reason.

"In fact, I had the same mentality at the beginning, but now it has become another stronger mentality, or a desire."

Hoshino Ai and Kitagawa Rumi are both Ryo Kitagawa's favorite people in life, but they are not the perfect partners for Ryo Kitagawa as an actor to cooperate with.

"Every time I act, I want to create one, two, or many eternal images. I want a future where we are old or even long dead, and people will still remember us and the names of those characters fondly."

This is the only thing that Beichuan Liang has insisted on without interruption in two lifetimes. It has even gone beyond the realm of obsession and become an almost instinctive idea.

"And every time I act with Akane and Kana, I can clearly feel that this future is getting closer, because you are real actors in your soul."

After the conversation in the early morning, Kurokawa Akane, who had already seen through Kitagawa Ryo's thoughts in the detailed analysis afterwards, nodded vigorously and said:

"I see."

Her eyes were simply sparkling, and she even forgot about Magana and the allies on the other side. At this moment, there was only one thought in her mind.

The young girl Akane Kurokawa's immature feelings still need time to grow before they can bear fruit.

But as an actor, Akane Kurokawa, this is something that can be done for him right now.

Chapter 58: This is the chess move I made several years ago!

Miyazaki Prefecture, Japan.

After finishing a whole day of shooting and returning to the hotel to rest, Kurokawa Akane was quietly lying in a bathtub that had been filled with hot water of a suitable temperature. He raised his head and looked at the misty and therefore unclear ceiling in a daze. The whole bathroom was soaked in rising water vapor and warm yellow light.

The field of vision was filled with lazy and soft tones. Kurokawa Akane changed into a more comfortable posture. He felt his whole body slowly relax. His entire mind seemed to be like a sponge that had been filled with water and became swollen. His thoughts and ideas were bloated and slowly floating up and down in it.

In the past two years, she has stayed at the Kitagawa family many times. At that time, Rumi had not moved out yet, and the two girls would take a bath in the bathroom on the second floor and sleep in the bedroom at night. Among these pleasant memories, what Kurokawa Akane remembered most was the stuffed bear in Kitagawa Rumi's room and the display cabinet used to hold trophies. After all, these two things were Rumi's treasures, and she herself had the experience of helping to maintain and wipe them.

But in fact, Kurokawa Akane also has a small trophy display cabinet in her own bedroom. Just like Kitagawa Rumi solemnly places the Best Newcomer trophy in the middle, she also specially picked out one of the trophies she won in various drama awards in the past few years and placed it neatly in the most conspicuous position in the center.

To be fair, her official debut as a drama actress in "Matilda" was quite stunning, and she had a good reputation and exposure in the industry. At that time, some people even said that just based on this play, Kurokawa Akane was qualified to win the Best Newcomer of the Year award.

But the final result of that year was that she herself could not withstand the malicious comments on the Internet in the second half of the year and her mentality exploded. It was also for this reason that Kurokawa Akane missed the annual newcomer award that was already within her reach during the annual selection.

The chain reaction of this incident caused Kurokawa Akane to start escaping from reality and performing during that period. She stopped practicing with the LALALAI troupe and hid directly in the Kitagawa family. Her cooking skills also began to improve by leaps and bounds during that period.

In fact, for Kurokawa Akane at that time, the affected mentality was only one aspect. More importantly, she did not fulfill the promise she made to Kitagawa Ryo, that is, as long as she won the Best Newcomer of the Year award, Kitagawa Ryo would serve as the award presenter as a senior in the industry and present the award to her on stage.

Kitagawa Ryo handled the incident quite properly at the time. He first acquiesced to the fact that Kurokawa Akane came to his house to make trouble. After her psychological pressure was gradually relieved, he used the guise of individual guidance as in the past to help her resolve her doubts and reiterated his previous promise, saying that it was still valid. Finally, he took out the contract he had prepared long ago, inviting her to join his personal firm, expressing his determination to always believe in Kurokawa Akane.

After a whole series of combined punches, Kurokawa Akane returned to the drama stage with full confidence again. Finally, in the second year, with her excellent performance throughout the year, she won the Imperial Drama Award for Best Actress (Junior Group) without any controversy. Kitagawa Ryo also fulfilled his promise. He was basically not interested in this kind of award ceremony, so he specifically informed the jury, came to the stage of the evening party as an award presenter, and personally handed the trophy to Kurokawa Akane.

Kurokawa Akane still remembers that night when all the related news used the modifiers such as "inheritance", "taking over", and "the next Kitagawa Ryo". After all, as a member of the LALALAI troupe and receiving the Best Actress trophy from the troupe's predecessor, Kitagawa Ryo, a recognized talented actor in the industry, it really gave people a trance feeling of the transition between the old and the new.

But what Kurokawa Akane remembers more clearly is actually the brief few seconds when she and Kitagawa Ryo shook hands and hugged under the magnificent lights and amid the cheers of many spectators, then received the trophy and took a photo together. She still has the relevant video clips saved in her mobile phone and occasionally revisits them to this day.

Beichuan Ryo half-knelt beside her, keeping their heights at the same level, with one hand on her shoulder and the other hand holding the trophy with her. This photo was basically a standard feature of the news reports that day.

However, Akane Kurokawa, the person involved, and the sharp-eyed audience noticed another detail at the time. That is, when Kitagawa Ryo was presenting awards to other actresses and doing the same movements and postures, he did not actually put his hands on their shoulders. Especially when facing adult actresses wearing one-shoulder dresses, he always maintained a gentleman's empty handshake. The same was true when hugging. Kitagawa Ryo's hands around their waists were all clenched into fists, deliberately avoiding skin contact between the two.

But when facing Kurokawa Akane, Kitagawa Ryo put aside all these, gave her a warm hug, and put his hand on her shoulder affectionately. However, because Kurokawa Akane was only eleven or twelve years old at that time, and both of them were from the LALALAI troupe, it did not attract much attention from the media.

All the memories of those few seconds were carried by the trophy of that day, which was carefully and neatly placed in the center of the display case by Kurokawa Akane. For a long time afterwards, she was very satisfied with this contact, so in the following years, the identities of the two were fixed as award presenters and award-winning actors.

But this open and aboveboard intersection was too short, like a dry well whose bottom can be seen at a glance. No matter how hard Kurokawa Akane tried to win two more awards or how many times he replayed this footage, it was only a little bit.

After all, the protagonists of this kind of award ceremony are still the actors who receive the awards. No matter how powerful the award presenters are, they only say a few official polite words and then hand the trophy to the winner. Even when the awards are presented, the big screen above their heads will only play real-time footage of the actors and the winning plays and characters, and the final group photo session is also very far away.

She wanted more shots of the two of them together. From some point on, Kurokawa Akane had this idea vaguely. To be more specific, she no longer wanted to be an award presenter or winning actor, but to be awarded as the best actor (actress) in the same year.

The reason is actually very simple, because these two people have the most shots together, no matter whether it is the award ceremony or the final photo session, they are standing together in the center of the stage. Japan is accustomed to hyping up CP and popularity, and many male and female actors who were originally unknown will be brought into the spotlight just because they won awards at the same time. Various micro-expressions and details will often appear for demonstration.

The most proud success story of these people in recent years is actually the pair of Kitagawa Ryo and Hoshino Ai. Some time before the two officially announced their relationship, netizens dug out some of their tacit interactions, little glances and micro-expressions in "Don't Be Fooled by the Wolf", and concluded with certainty that the two had already had a very close relationship a long time ago.

But in fact, for Kurokawa Akane, this was an almost impossible task when her work had not yet officially crossed over from the theater industry to the film and television industry. After all, in the past two years, Kitagawa Ryo's performances in the LALALAI Theater have become less and less frequent, and they are basically 2.5-dimensional stage plays of big IPs. However, it is almost impossible for this new type of drama to be recognized by the traditional and conservative jury, and winning an award is even more nonsense, although Kindaichi Toshiro and the LALALAI Theater are making more and more money every year.

But now, she seems to have regained her chance as she has started to play a leading role in a TV series, especially after learning about Kitagawa Ryo's wish today.

Ryo wanted to create an image that would last forever.

This is a difficult yet simple wish. It is difficult because, in a sense, it is the ultimate goal for every actor, and it is simple because it is not an unusual idea. It can even be said to be a simple wish that comes naturally to every actor.

Why do you want to be an actor?

At first it was because I loved performing, but later I wanted to create a timeless image.

Frankly speaking, when she first heard Kitagawa Ryo say this, Kurokawa Akane herself felt a little melancholy in her heart, as if missing others when she was lonely would make the feeling seem insincere. Maybe she was also expecting a more radical development.

Because in fact, Kurokawa Akane had no doubt that no matter what kind of vision Kitagawa Ryo said at that time, she would smile and nod in agreement, and say lightly something like "I understand" and "I will try my best".

However, Kurokawa Akane was immediately relieved again, because his vision and her answer did not need to appear special or even extreme, as if only in this way could this relationship be given the poetic and romantic color of the previous literary one. Kitagawa Ryo answered her in such a normal and ordinary way today.

As a man, Kitagawa Ryo is willing to reconfirm his feelings for her after two years, and as an actor, Kitagawa Ryo hopes to become the best actor with her and create an eternal image.

Kurokawa Akane slowly lifted her feet and put them down again, creating a little splash of water. She seemed to think she had soaked enough, so she simply stood up and walked out of the bathtub.

She never thought that it was the family changes that made her certain of her feelings. Rather, it might be more appropriate to apply this view, which is similar to the Electra complex (Oedipus complex), to Arima Kana in the next room.

Her parents gave her a complete and happy childhood and also taught her how to love.

So, when she grew up, she just fell in love with someone in such a normal way.

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"Wow, they actually won awards in the same year, the 10th Seiyuu Awards for Best Actor and Best Actress. And watching the award ceremony, it seemed like they were a really good match. It seems like their CP is also very popular on the Internet? It seems like some people are already looking forward to their offline promotional activities."

"Are you talking about Matsuoka-san and Minase-san? I'm not really sure, but I think the live dubbing effects of both of them are pretty good. So far, I'm quite satisfied with the animation production of Tokyo BLADE."

Samejima Abiko was drawing on the digital tablet at a fast speed while answering casually while others were drinking tea and discussing the PV1 of "Tokyo BLADE" which was officially released today on the official website.

"Yeah, judging from the PV1 that has been released so far, it feels like both the quality of the animation and the voice actors are super luxurious. When the time comes, the animation will drive a wave of sales for the comics... I feel like I'm about to achieve financial freedom in my life."

MEM啾 said this with a smile, and it was obvious that she was genuinely happy for her friend's success.

Kitagawa Rumi, who was sitting next to her, pulled the progress bar back again, watched it again, and paused the "Tokyo BLADE" animation PV1 at the last published STAFF page. Looking at the two names of 'BLADE - Matsuoka Yoshitsugu' and 'Shell Princess - Minase Inori' on the list, she smiled contentedly:

“I also feel that it is a very good match.”

"After all, they are all well-known voice actors in the industry, and their voices are quite consistent with the characters I created. There seems to be no problem with the animation version—"

When Samejima Abiko said this, she put down her pen, stretched her body, and winked in the direction of Kitagawa Rumi:

"I just don't know what the 2.5-dimensional stage play version will be like. I'm quite strict. If Ruby really can't play the role of Shoji well, then I'll have to give it to someone else. The LALALAI Theater Company... The leading actress seems to be Akane, right?"

Listening to her bestie's deliberately funny and elongated voice, Kitagawa Rumi also waved her hand confidently: