They all pushed me!

Then, she gave Arima Kana a gentle smile that seemed no different from usual:

"Well, I see."

Chapter 35: We love each other with all our hearts

"All the shots for this scene have been successfully completed! Miss Kurokawa, you have worked hard. Please go to the actor's rest area to the side and take a break. The next scene is expected to be filmed in ten minutes. The makeup artist, please come and help Miss Kurokawa with her clothes and hairstyle. In post-production, check the footage just taken. The camera at position 2 can start. Let's cut to the prepared exterior scene first. Can the power of snow machine No. 3 be increased?"

The live-action film shooting set of "Tokyo BLADE" is filled with a bustling atmosphere. All the actors and staff are pushing forward the progress in a tense but orderly manner under the coordination of an experienced director. But judging from the number of people on the scene, the related equipment used, and the size of the shooting venue, this is almost the most well-funded and grand film shooting that Akane Kurokawa has participated in so far.

Following the director's instructions, he walked carefully back to the actors' private rest area. After closing his eyes slightly and letting the makeup artist who came to him touch up his makeup, Kurokawa Akane moved towards Kitagawa Ryo, who was also resting with his eyes closed not far from him. His tense nerves relaxed, and he leaned back in his chair, feeling a little tired and satisfied as he let out a long sigh.

"How do you feel? Is there anything you are not used to?"

Feeling Kurokawa Akane approaching, Kitagawa Ryo opened his eyes lazily, turned his head towards the other person, and asked her with concern.

After all, it has only been a few years since Akane Kurokawa officially started filming TV series. Although he has produced several excellent works that have won both good reputation and box office in the past two years, he basically collaborated with directors who are more familiar in the circle, such as Yasushi Gotanda and Hirokazu Oeda, and the atmosphere in the crew is generally more relaxed. Therefore, Kitagawa Ryo is a little worried that he will not be able to adapt to the atmosphere of the current crew of "Tokyo BLADE".

As a pure commercial blockbuster project that is designed to break the 10 billion yen box office, Tokyo BLADE has spent a lot of money to invite top people in the industry, both in terms of the production team and the cast. But this also means that the phenomenon of small groups similar to those that appeared during the rehearsal of the stage play has become more rampant. Actors from different agencies from all over the world have been brought together, and the director, screenwriter and others in the production team are all people that Akane Kurokawa had only heard of before. The entire crew operates like a large industrial machine, easily creating a huge but invisible mental pressure.

"Hmm... I feel like in this situation, I can only focus on doing my part. It's exhausting just to do this."

Kurokawa Akane nodded in empathy. She had always been an actor who liked to figure out the script and the role according to her own ideas. She was also keen to communicate with other actors, directors and screenwriters to express her own ideas. However, in such a shooting environment, she had no time to do these things. She even had the illusion that if she did so, this large machine that had been running with great difficulty would suddenly jam. She could not afford such consequences.

"Well, just like Chiyin said, we just need to do our part in this situation. The director and acting instructor here are both veterans who are highly regarded in the industry. It's better to say that Chiyin has never been asked to stop performing so far, which is a recognized performance."

After giving some encouragement to Kurokawa Akane, who was visiting such a large-scale filming set for the first time, Kitagawa Ryo bit the straw and took a sip of the mineral water in front of him to moisten his throat:

"Generally speaking, they will deliberately slow down the pace during those particularly critical shots, which are the moments concerning the quality and judgment of the work."

"On the other hand, this is also the moment when they truly decide and judge the ability of the actor in their hearts. Because first-class actors have already been pointed out the direction of progress by the role they play in their minds before they speak out their opinions and make their own instructions. For an experiential actor like Chi Yin, it should be easy to understand what I said."

Kurokawa Akane nodded in understanding. Just as he was about to answer, Kana Arima, who had also finished filming a scene, squeezed over from the right. As a loyal fan of the expressionist school, she spoke nonchalantly:

"It's not as mysterious as Senior Liang said. There is not only one mainstream acting school in the world, the experiential school. It's just that this acting style is suitable for various forms of secondary creation and plot development, and it has been used by many works in recent years."

"Being too immersed in the role can indeed allow actors to give a shocking performance, but the aftereffects of this harmful emotional indulgence can also bring about self-deceiving illusions. I knew before that a pair of actors who played a couple started dating and broke up at the speed of light after the filming. There seemed to be rumors that they would go to a nearby hotel to book a room at the end of every day during the filming."

After saying that, Arima Kana proudly took out a pendant from her bag that she had to take off for the photo shoot, and waved it in front of Kurokawa Akane while continuing:

"For us expressionists, acting only requires knowing ourselves and understanding ourselves. If we can control our thoughts, emotions, language, expressions, and body movements in detail, we can also perfectly enter the role."

Facing Arima Kana's remarks, which were exactly the same as what they had said ten years ago when they were arguing about which faction was better, Kurokawa Akane had no intention of refuting her this time. Instead, she nodded in approval, which even made Arima Kana feel as if she had inexplicably fallen into a trap set by her.

"Senior Liang told me this a few years ago, so since then, I have never confused the relationship between performance and reality, and it is even more impossible for me to fall into the situation mentioned by Kana."

In response, Kurokawa Akane just smiled slightly.

In fact, her transformation in acting was already quite obvious during her audition for the stage play of "Tokyo BLADE". If we say that in the original "Tomorrow" and the subsequent "Pest" with stronger personal traces, Kurokawa Akane was almost always substituting, experiencing, and replacing the converging emotions between reality and the role, but after being pointed out by Kitagawa Ryo during the filming by Miyazaki, she has been trying to change in the following years.

In a sense, Kitagawa Rumi had defeated her in the audition for the stage play of "Tokyo BLADE" by using her best experiential skills. After all, the experience of living together with Kitagawa Ryo for so many years is an inexhaustible treasure trove for experiential actors. She can find similar feelings for any kind of emotion that Shoji has for BLADE in the script, and then replicate it in reality.

However, the experientialist Kurokawa Akane can also extract, replace and reproduce the emotions that are similar to the characters in these daily events, and can even do it better. This is her area of ​​expertise, and she and Kitagawa Ryo have left behind many unique and precious memories.

Kitagawa Rumi can extract herself from the regret, annoyance and possessiveness for not confessing her identity as a reincarnated person to Kitagawa Ryo at the first opportunity. She can certainly also detach herself from the memory of failing to audition for "Shoplifters" with Arima Kana when she was young and could only watch her favorite seniors and actors act with another person who also occupied the status of "junior".

But in fact, during the original audition process, Kurokawa Akane was only immersed in the psychological activities of the role of Shoji from beginning to end. She no longer took acting for granted as a form of meal replacement, but sealed those precious gem-like memories and her true emotions in the last page of the girl's mind, unwilling to confuse the two together again.

Perhaps, she was just being careful to avoid a situation like the one Magana gave.

The fact that Shaoji likes BLADE is the plot of the original work and also the setting of the script.

The author and screenwriter can fill in one, two, three, four, five, six, seven events in this relationship to try to prove the rationality of this result and try to make readers believe this setting.

But no matter how the plot is designed, the script is only a stack of words and the length of the movie is less than three hours. Compared with what they have experienced in reality and the long time they will experience in the future, they are actually just a tiny part.

Therefore, although Kurokawa Akane will still experience the lives of his characters as an actor and conceive of their thoughts and actions in a profiling way, he will no longer allow the boundary between performance and the real world to become blurred and without boundaries.

Her name is Akane Kurokawa, her stage name is Akane Kurokawa, she is an actress, she is seventeen years old, and currently lives with her mother. She has good grades and is teaching herself psychology. Her cooking skills should be pretty good among her peers, right?

Also, she is secretly in love with someone and is ready to make a formal confession.

There are many reasons why she likes him, at least she talked to her mother about them the whole night and couldn't finish.

But what she was sure of was that these things, like Shoji, Sachiko, mailboxes, etc.

None of it matters.

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After today's filming was over, Kurokawa Akane's agent, Mr. Izaki, suddenly had something urgent to deal with and was unable to drive her home as before. In the end, he asked Kitagawa Ryo to take her home. When he drove the car to Akane's door and dropped Akane off, Kitagawa was about to leave when he was about to leave when he suddenly saw Kurokawa Akane's mother standing by his car door and gently knocked on the window twice.

"What's matter?"

"I'm sorry to bother you, Kitagawa-san, to bring Xiao Qian back today. If it's convenient, please come in and have a cup of tea before you leave."

It was different from the feeling we had when we occasionally met. Although his tone was still as polite and courteous as always, there seemed to be some other emotions mixed in. Beichuan Liang looked at the other person's slightly wrinkled eyes and pupils for a while, nodded, and answered seriously:

"Okay, sorry to bother you then."

After parking the car in a nearby parking lot, Kitagawa Ryo followed the other person's footsteps into Kurokawa Akane's home, sat quietly on the sofa in the living room, and watched Kurokawa Akane run directly into his room and close the door. He already had some vague guesses in his heart.

He stood up on his own initiative, bent slightly and took the freshly brewed tea from Chiyin's mother with both hands. Then Beichuan Liang sat down again and waited for the other party to speak.

Frankly speaking, perhaps because of his own identity, when communicating with Kurokawa Akane's mother before, Kitagawa Ryo could always feel the other party's obvious restraint and unnaturalness, especially after Kurokawa Akane's father passed away. The other party's attitude towards him, a "big shot" who could decide his daughter's acting career with a single thought, was even more so.

But at this moment, all these past emotions seemed to disappear without a trace in an instant. Kurokawa Akane's mother looked him in the eye naturally, with a serious expression on her face. After a long while, she said:

"Beichuan-san, I have always been very grateful for your care for Xiao Qian and our family over the years. Although I don't fully understand this, I also know that you are Xiao Qian's acting teacher. Xiao Qian's ability to become such a great actor today is inseparable from your help."

Without waiting for Beichuan Liang to say a few words of modesty, she continued speaking at a rapid pace:

"That's why I'm willing to sit here and talk to Mr. Beichuan about this."

Although Kurokawa Akane had already explained all his thoughts to her, she had never thought of stopping her daughter, and would even continue to support her daughter unconditionally as before, but before this last moment... she still wanted to talk to Kitagawa Ryo alone.

As the mother of Kurokawa Akane.

Kitagawa Ryo also realized this. In a sense, this was the first time he had encountered such a situation. After all, whether it was Ai and Rumi, or Arimakana, there was no such process of paying respects to the parents between him and them.

Thinking of this, Kitagawa Ryo took a deep breath, placed his hands on his knees, one on each side, and under the gaze of Kurokawa Akane through the crack of the half-closed door that had been secretly opened at some point, he sincerely bent his upper body slightly towards the mother.

Beichuan Liang's tone was firm, without any hesitation, and he did not deliberately lower his voice. It would be better to say that he wanted everyone in this space to hear it:

"I like Xiao Qian."

He looked directly into the eyes of Kurokawa Akane's mother, and at the same time, he slightly turned his body towards the altar in the living room where the tablet of Kurokawa Akane's father was enshrined, and repeated his words:

"——I like your daughter, Kurokawa Akane."

"I want to spend the rest of my life with her forever."

Chapter 36: Where the love begins, it grows deeper

How can we determine his feelings towards his two juniors, Kana Arima and Akane Kurokawa?

During the rare period of unemployed time in the past two years, Kitagawa Ryo would unconsciously ask himself questions many times. While Arima Kana and Kurokawa Akane were waiting for time and growth, waiting to fulfill the promise they had made to him, Kitagawa Ryo himself had been seeking answers to his questions.

Perhaps it was because today on the set of "Tokyo BLADE", he once again saw the familiar scene of the two arguing about the issue of acting schools like they did ten years ago. In addition to some emotion and a little bit of laughter, Kitagawa Ryo couldn't help but recall many things from the past, following the memory line of acting schools all the way back to the past of the long river of time, and suddenly he discovered in a trance that the answer to this question had already been given at that time.

Arima Kana is a well-deserved expressionist, and one of the most prominent characteristics of expressionism is the emphasis on all external expression techniques.

Body, voice, language, all external expressive aspects are given special attention. For expressionist actors, all they have to do is to be able to control them at will, and among them, voice training is the most important link.

Kitagawa Ryo still remembers every word his acting teacher in his previous life said to him. She told him that "a truly measured change of tone has immeasurable power. A shout with the right pitch for the situation can move the audience more than all the beautiful external movements in the world. Therefore, actors should first study pronunciation," and told him to train his voice to be "particularly soft, expressive and varied in tone."

At the same time, it is also necessary to change according to the requirements of the role, gentleness, smoothness, fawning, sarcasm, rudeness, eagerness, kindness, disappointment, all emotions must be mastered, just like grasping the changes in timbre of everything from the flute to the horn.

The ultimate goal is to try to easily bring tears and laughter to the audience just by pronouncing a word.

This is why Kitagawa Ryo thought Kana Arima was a natural expressionist when he first met her. Her ability to cry in crying scenes and even the label of "can cry in ten seconds" has already shown her talent in this area. It also shows that in addition to her voice, Kana Arima also has easy control over her appearance and expressions. This is the realm that the masters of expressionism pursue.

Therefore, in her past acting career, Magana was regarded as a talented actress who shines like the sun on the audience's retina, so she would naturally reveal emotions like "please look at me carefully" every time.

Expressionism Expressionism has always pursued the ultimate outward expression.

Kitagawa Ryo was the first person to notice this, and later, as a senior, he brought out this quality of Arima Kana to her full potential by playing to her strengths and avoiding her weaknesses, because this is the talent and ability that only a main character of the heroine's level can bring out to the fullest.

Just like the joke he made to Kana Arima in the early years, 'I can't imagine that Kana would one day fall to the point where she has to perform with newcomers who have almost no acting experience', because this kind of self-satisfied mediocre cooperative acting has never been suitable for Kana Arima. In Kitagawa Ryo's heart, she should have been shining in the center of the stage and under the scorching spotlight from beginning to end.

The fact is that both he and Kana Arima have indeed achieved this. Kana Arima has truly become a popular star since she was a child star at the age of four or five.

Looking back now, it was Magana who had always been the active one in their relationships over the years. This self-confidence accumulated over more than a decade was the key among the keys.

Therefore, the result of their relationship was officially concluded with the kiss during the filming of "Today's Sweetness". Kana Arima was the one who was most accustomed to and best at expressing herself.

Kitagawa Ryo was willing to admit that late at night after the fireworks display, it was Kana Arima who held his hand and stood on tiptoe, and even though her lips were stained with marshmallow threads, she insisted on helping him wipe them off, and finally gave him her first kiss gently, which really moved his heart.

At that moment, Arimakana's whole body, from every hair to every toe, from the bottom of her eyes to the tip of her tongue, was expressing strongly the emotion called love, expressing her love for his short line.

All the confused and complicated feelings about each other in the past were unified at this moment, so Beichuan Ryo chose to kiss back and ended their agreement with an affirmative answer.

But the situations of Kurokawa Akane and Arima Kana are different.

Although Kitagawa Ryo has repeatedly defined the emotional issues he faces between the two of them in simple terms: 'Do I really love her' and 'Does she really love me', the former corresponds to Magana and the latter corresponds to Kurokawa Akane, but in fact the problem is much more complicated than that.

Just as Kana Arima is a genius in the expressionist school, Akane Kurokawa is definitely the most talented person in the field of experiential acting that Kitagawa Ryo has ever seen in his two lifetimes. If we want to trace the root of this and find a reasonable explanation, it should be related to Akane's own interest in psychology.

But this explanation seems quite pale in front of Kurokawa Akane's acting skills. Kitagawa Ryo has seen masters of the experiential school before, and he himself is also a leader in this field, but he is still surprised by Akane's performance every time.

If the experientialists pursue the goal of becoming the character in the script, then Kurokawa Akane is even more mysterious, aiming to be possessed by the character. Kitagawa Ryo still remembers that Akane, who had just joined the LALALAI troupe not long ago, once briefly imitated Rumi's hairstyle and even her tone of voice and other small movements, which sometimes even made him feel dazed for a moment.

In Kitagawa Ryo's opinion, no matter what style of acting, during the performance, the actor actually has two self-consciousnesses in his body. The first self is the actor, and the second self is the role. Which self occupies the majority, or how to make them achieve dialectical unity, is the fork in the road to identifying the actor's acting style and strength.

For the experientialists, the character's self will definitely occupy the body and control the mind more during the performance, let alone a talented actor like Kurokawa Akane who has almost reached the end of the experiential path.

From this perspective, every performance of Kurokawa Akane is actually a self-imprisonment. The more she tries to perfectly piece together the fragments of each role, the more she will be trapped by this role, not only in the eyes of the audience, but also for herself.

As an idol at the time, Hoshino Ai could not get over the hurdle in her heart for a long time just because she said and sang things like "I like everyone" and "I love you" to her fans on stage, which she knew were lies. She even experienced hysterics during that time. Finally, on the day of their wedding several years later, she truly said the heartfelt "I love you".

What's more, in every performance, Kurokawa Akane experiences the emotions of the character truly flowing in her heart. The boundaries between performance and reality, the actor's self and the character's self are more blurred in her heart than anyone else.

Kitagawa Ryo even had no doubt that if Kurokawa Akane really continued in this direction, one day in the future, these emotions that did not belong to her would remain in her heart. She had experienced it too fully and imitated it too much, and in the end she might look like a completely different person, just like the Ship of Theseus in the myth.

To give an inappropriate example, although Kurokawa Akane now lives with his mother and has always been a filial and sensible child, when he first became famous as a drama actor and encountered a certain amount of online violence, he still stubbornly wanted to bear it all by himself. He even cried in Kitagawa Ryo's arms and said, "I don't want to make my parents worry."

But if at this time she is assigned a role that carries anger, sadness and other extreme emotions, and asked to play the role in depth or even become this role, will she suddenly forget her mother and family because of these remaining emotions, suddenly be willing to give up her own life, and become able to say or even do the same extreme things in real life, such as killing people?

Although it was just a personal delusion that seemed completely impossible to realize, Kitagawa Ryo still chose to explain all this to Kurokawa Akane at an early stage when this sign appeared, that is, during the filming of "Pest". He did not want Akane to confuse the boundaries between the character and reality, or confuse the character with his own emotions.

To be honest, Ryo Kitagawa really likes Akane Kurokawa.

Unlike the entanglement he felt when facing Arima Gana, this was something he could be sure of.

But what he likes is Akane Kurokawa, who has always been diligent and hardworking in the LALALAI troupe, who is willing to take on the responsibility of supporting the entire family and taking care of her mother after family changes, who is good at housework and cooking skills, and who has an absolute competitive spirit and desire to win as an actor.

Shoji, Sachiko, Mailbox and many more characters all belong to the suffix of the name of actor Akane Kurokawa.

And the life she has lived so far, everything she has learned, understood, the friends she has met, the people she likes, and the long future that lies ahead, all belong to Akane Kurokawa.

and so.

In the living room of the Kurokawa family, when facing the other person's mother, Kitagawa Ryo could clearly hear the words coming out of his mouth.

The pronunciations of Kurokawa Akane and Kurokawa Akane are the same, just like the mysterious thing called mental age which only you know. At the moment you say it, in fact, only you know which name you are saying.

That's why he said this first.

"I like Xiao Qian."

This was the nickname he had called Kurokawa Akane in private for a long time.

Then, Beichuan Liang continued to speak to the parents here:

"——I like your daughter, Kurokawa Akane."

"I am willing to spend the rest of my life with her forever."

As soon as these two sentences fell, before Kurokawa's mother, who was sitting on the sofa, could say anything, Kitagawa Ryo had already heard the sound of a door being pushed open not far away.

Seeing her daughter, who could take two steps and a thousand steps quickly, suddenly standing in front of her and holding the slightly bent Kitagawa Ryo in her arms, Kurokawa Akane's mother could only shake her head helplessly. The momentum that she had managed to hold up just now also disappeared. She lay back on the back cushion of the sofa, feeling tired and relaxed. She could clearly feel the corners of her mouth curling up, but when she wiped her face with her hand, two tear marks were clearly seen.

"This kind of words... at least you should say it to the person involved first."

Kurokawa Akane gently put her arms around his neck and leaned her head on Kitagawa Ryo's shoulder. After a long while, she pursed her lips and said these words in his ear a little shyly and a little annoyed.

"Then I'll supplement it for Xiao Qian now."

Feeling the unique breath of Kurokawa Akane so close, Beichuan Ryo reached out and hugged her waist, and softly repeated the words just now:

"I like Akane-chan."

"Uh-huh."

She finally nodded contentedly and agreed, her voice dragging out with satisfaction.

Kurokawa Akane gently held Kitagawa Ryo's face with his hands, one on each side, and slowly lifted him up from his chest. Following the sound of his heartbeat that was almost like thunder, he once again turned his emotions into words and looked directly into his pupils.

Without the prefix of "senior" in the career path of actors, Kurokawa Akane said to Kitagawa Ryo: