They all pushed me!

It has been almost four years since the idol group B-Komachi was founded, and Nino, one of the original four, has also left for some time. Gao Fenghe frowned and swallowed another mouthful of salad. He looked at himself in the mirror and suddenly remembered that afternoon in the fast food restaurant.

Four years is not a short time. A cute girl of twelve or thirteen may return to an ordinary level when she grows up to sixteen or seventeen. The idol industry is ultimately an appearance association. Although good-looking people will be preferentially treated everywhere, they are already a lifeline in the idol industry.

Nino, one of the original four, was forced to graduate for this very reason. His facial features had grown and he looked mediocre, so he was judged to be no longer suitable to be an idol.

Gao Feng's current situation seems to be within the killing line.

The reason she became a model for a fashion magazine aimed at junior high school students four years ago was her strong desire to express herself, her courage and lack of stage fright, which were among the best among her peers, and her cute round face with some baby fat, which was a plus for a junior high school student.

But today, several years later, the original advantage has not only disappeared, but has even become a disadvantage, and has become a point of attack for fans who are dissatisfied with him, such as "Have you gained weight?", "Looks childish?", "Not mature at all".

Otherwise, she wouldn't be here eating these inedible green leafy vegetables like a rabbit.

After Nino withdrew, B Komachi introduced a new member. However, not long ago, she was jealous of Hoshino Ai and did irrational things like spreading rumors and stealing her cosmetics. After being investigated and confirmed by President Saito, she was immediately fired and expelled.

Then, in order to fill the vacancies, President Saito immediately introduced two new members, and the girl who just spoke to the two was one of them.

Because they were both veterans who had been in the group since its inception, Gao Fenghe and Watanabe Seiko naturally formed a small group. Of the two girls who had just joined the group, one had a more indifferent personality and always kept to herself, while the other was too jumpy and always wanted to join their small group.

But after experiencing so many events, both Takamine Kazu and Watanabe Seiko have actually come to terms with the fact that they are just dancers that President Saito found for Hoshino Ai and are completely disposable. Even if all four of them stick together, in the eyes of the company, they may not be as important as Hoshino Ai alone.

However, this does not mean that they are willing to be a foil wholeheartedly. They also have jealousy in their hearts, but they will not take extreme actions like the previous girl.

While Gao Feng and Ku Dahen were fighting desperately with the vegetable salad, Watanabe Seiko on the other side took the initiative to bring up the topic:

"Come to think of it, Kazu-chan, don't you think our new single is a bit too much?"

“The overall style of the music is very different from our past styles.”

The reason why Watanabe Seiko chose to become an idol in the beginning was very simple. She wanted to wear cute clothes, be liked by others on the dazzling stage, and meet many big names that she had only seen on TV before.

Originally, these goals were actually achieved step by step.

But things began to change after Hoshino Ai recently resigned from her position as a regular actor in the LALALAI Theater and returned to B Komachi full-time.

Hoshino Ai, who had always been like them, letting the company arrange everything including songs and schedules, has become proactive. They have seen her having long conversations with President Saito more than once.

The first result of the transformation is the next single that has already been confirmed.

In the past, B Komachi was actually no different from most girl idol groups. The music style was light and bright, and the lyrics often used words like "love", "dream", "sweat", "effort", and "like".

But this time, the single, which was arranged and written by Ai Hoshino herself, is completely different in tune. Instead, it is full of alternative and rebellious flavors.

"She didn't really think that she was an artist after two years of acting in a play, did she? Didn't she come back to be an idol in the end?"

(Artist is the transliteration of アーティスト, which is the Japanese word for artist. In the idol circle, this word is often used to mock idols and is a derogatory term.)

Watanabe Seiko kept complaining:

"If President Saito hadn't insisted on his own way, Kazu-chan should have been the center from the beginning, not Ai-chan."

"not like this."

But Gao Fenghe shook her head. She looked at Watanabe Seiko, put down her chopsticks, and denied it seriously:

"Maybe it was the same as you said at the beginning, but in the past two years... ever since Ai became a formal actor of the LALALAI troupe, B Komachi's center position will only be her."

"Shengzi, do you think being an idol is tiring?"

"Of course it's tiring. I have to rehearse and train every day. Although I can travel to various parts of the country through touring performances, I actually don't have time to sightsee when I get there. I'm also forced to go to school less often. From junior high school to high school, many classmates don't even remember that there is someone like me in their class..."

Watanabe Seiko unleashed a long list of complaints without hesitation.

"But in the past few years, love has always been about both sides, and neither side has been neglected."

Gao Fenghe smiled, propped up her chin and continued slowly:

"To be honest, we are just a bunch of cowards."

"Son, if I ask you to be the center of this single, would you be willing?"

"…How is that possible? Those fans I love will scold me to death."

Watanabe Seiko quickly waved his hands.

"So, if you don't want to be the center, but you also don't want to be the center that can't be moved, then wouldn't it be painful to stay in this group every day? But why don't you quit?"

Gao Fenghe's words left Watanabe Seiko speechless for a moment.

“Because we all can’t bear to leave.”

"Because as long as love is always the center, we as members of the same group can enjoy a steady stream of joint benefits, even if it is just a bundled sale."

"Because as long as love is always the center, our public opinion will always be infinitely positive. If you perform well, you will be praised occasionally, but if you perform poorly, no one will care at all. All praise and slander will only be directed at the center who is both the star and the target."

Facing the completely speechless Watanabe Seiko, Gao Fenghe lowered his eyes:

“Love does change.”

"But maybe some things have never changed, but we ourselves are afraid to face them and don't want to admit them."

“…I’ve seen it.”

"Her phone unlock code is still 45510."

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On the other hand, Kitagawa Ryo, who arrived at the MV shooting site in advance, has already started listening to the song's accompaniment. It's a bit regrettable that due to various considerations, his agent Mr. Izaki finally did not agree to his participation in this MV, not even a one-shot cameo.

"Ken Himura's song. I didn't expect that Ai had such a good eye."

Kitagawa Ryo took off his headphones. He had just listened to a sample of the accompaniment. He looked up and said to Hoshino Ai beside him with a surprised smile.

As a musician who has just debuted for a few years, Ken Himura's fame is not actually among the top among the new generation, but he is a very rare all-round singer-songwriter in the music scene. All the singles released by his group in recent years were written and composed by him alone.

"Because Liang always told me to find something cheap and good."

Hoshino Ai raised her chin a little proudly:

"Besides, I haven't been in the LALALAI troupe for nothing in the past few years. The troupe is so famous, and as a formal actor in it, I have to get to know other people in the circle."

Although he wanted to complain that Hoshino Ai's current expression was very similar to Ruby's expression of begging for praise after winning the first place in the dance competition not long ago, Kitagawa Ryo still nodded very politely:

"As expected of an active and super popular beautiful girl idol."

Hoshino Ai accepted the compliment complacently, but immediately curled her lips:

"It's a pity that the other cheap and easy-to-use director Gotanda has no experience in shooting music videos, otherwise we would have asked him to come over."

"Everyone has their own specialties. It's ok for a film director to occasionally shoot a story commercial, but it's really difficult for him to shoot a music video."

Beichuan Liang spread his hands helplessly. He looked at the props and costumes that had been prepared, and couldn't help but sigh again:

"But this is the first time I've seen idol costumes that are so revealing - after all, they can't really be considered idol costumes."

“It was designed this way on purpose.”

Hoshino Ai took a piece of clothing and gestured.

The main color is deep dark blue, with long sleeves and the hem of the skirt goes all the way past the knees. It looks more like a school uniform that students in a strict girls' school are forced to wear than an idol outfit.

"I'm a little curious about how you convinced President Saito. If other idol groups adopted such a single and MV, the plan would be rejected eight times halfway through."

"President Saito trusts love too much."

"Of course, because I'm Hoshino Ai."

Hoshino Ai confidently made a vow:

"I will definitely lead B Komachi to the Tokyo Dome stage."

“This single is the first step.”

Her pupils were bright and she looked directly at Beichuan Liang without fear:

"If everything an idol shows is a man-made character, then why not make this character a little more special?"

“Maybe it will be easier to give the audience a refreshing feeling.”

Having said that, Hoshino Ai also took a few deep breaths, and then continued:

"Besides... I'm the oddball among idols, the discordant one."

"From the very beginning, before I heard the term "expressive acting" from Ryo, I have been subconsciously using this kind of acting to become, no, to act as an idol."

"Because what I thought at that time was that if I became an idol, maybe, maybe I could learn to... learn it."

“Although I did eventually learn it, it wasn’t in the idol job.”

Hoshino Ai put her hand on Kitagawa Ryo's face and rested her forehead against his:

"It's in my work as an actor with Ryo."

Just when Kitagawa Ryo wanted to clarify Hoshino Ai's completely vague speech, the other members of B Komachi, the cameraman, and the MV director came here together, talking and laughing as they walked in.

【It’s not the right time yet.】

Hoshino Ai let go of her hand. She glanced at Beichuan Liang, who had just celebrated his twelfth birthday, with a complicated look. She resisted the urge to say the most straightforward words, and the moment she stood up, she returned to her original smile:

"Ryo, don't worry about B-Komachi's atmosphere. I'll take care of it today."

After saying this, Hoshino Ai joined the four girls very naturally and took part in the discussion. The five of them walked into the dressing room in a very harmonious manner, ready to change into the prepared MV performance costumes.

Beichuan Liang, who was sitting in the corner and disguised, did not attract anyone's attention. He looked like a logistics staff.

He looked at B Komachi, who had changed her clothes and walked into the camera lens.

It is still like the moon surrounded by stars, with Hoshino Ai as the absolute C position.

Although Kitagawa Ryo still didn't know what Hoshino Ai meant when she said that he was an "oddball" and a "dissonant voice" among idols, he was very sure that in the entire B-Komachi, Hoshino Ai had become that "dissonant voice".

Although they seem to be maintaining a good relationship on the surface, one can feel that there is a clear transparent high wall between Hoshino Ai and other members.

The MV of "Dissonant Sounds" basically has no plot elements. It is made up of dance moves that combine sound and pictures. Because it had been prepared for a while, everyone got into the state very quickly, and the entire MV was shot in just over half a day.

Then we went to the recording studio to record the official song, and finally combined it with the MV through post-production editing.

On the way to the recording studio, Hoshino Ai took the initiative to sit in the same car with Gao Fenghe and Watanabe Seiko. What surprised the two even more was that Hoshino Ai suddenly, even a little abruptly, brought up what happened that year.

"Do you remember the blog account we created together?"

The two looked at each other. They had never expected that Hoshino Ai would suddenly bring this up.

"Actually, when Erye just left the group, I wrote a blog post on it, but I didn't dare to post it. I thought... maybe you guys will see it one day."

At this point, Hoshino Ai showed a somewhat nostalgic smile:

"Just like the single I chose for us."

“These are all my true words.”

Watanabe Seiko was stunned for a moment, and she subconsciously clenched the lyrics manuscript in her hand. Although this new song is an idol group song, in fact most of the lyrics are sung by Hoshino Ai alone, and the other four people are mostly responsible for the harmony and a few words.

Because she disliked the style of the song, she didn't even read the lyrics carefully.

Beside her, Gao Fenghe opened his cell phone with mixed feelings.

In fact, after that day, she never logged into the blog account that the four of them had created together, and she was sure that the other two people hadn't done so either.

Obviously, in Gao Fenghe's impression, the one who acted most indifferent at that time was Hoshino Ai.

After entering the login password of 45510, Gao Fenghe found an article in the dynamic editor of the blog that was not open to the public and was only visible to me:

"To Gaofeng, Niino-chan, and Watanabe:"

“I really miss this page. Every time I see it, I am reminded of the time when we had such harmonious and friendly times in the beginning.”

"I still remember the day we went to Ueno Zoo. Although the giant panda named Xiang Xiang has been taken back to China, I can still remember the four of us going there together."

"Right now, isn't the relationship between B and Komachi very strained?"

"It's all my fault, and I really feel sorry for you."

"It may be hard to believe, but my desire to get along with everyone has never changed since the beginning."

“Maybe everyone hates me, but I don’t hate everyone.”

"If you can, just talk to me like you did before. You can treat me like a fool. You don't have to be so polite like you are now. It's okay if you want to get angry."

"It doesn't matter if you say 'Is love stupid?' just like when we first met."

"I want to make peace, I want to be good friends with everyone."

"You guys are the ones who know best, right? I was never a popular idol or an artist from the beginning."

"After all, you were the ones who took me there when I first saw a real, moving panda."

This article ends here.