They all pushed me!

She would have to sleep with these memories in her arms for the rest of the winter.

Sarina Tendouji turned sideways, perhaps because it was the last day, Kitagawa Ryo did not draw the partition curtain today. He curled up slightly and seemed to have fallen asleep.

It seems that I can already foresee how much I will miss you tomorrow night.

How much would you miss him and wish to see him in your dreams? Or would you be afraid of missing him and therefore not dare to dream about him?

Just as Tendouji Sarina was tossing and turning for the first time in a long time, Kitagawa Ryo had already noticed her abnormality and half-opened one eye and asked:

"Can't sleep, Sarina?"

During these fourteen days of close contact, he has almost completely understood her personality. However, unlike the well-behaved and sensible image she appears to show, there is actually another side to Sarina.

But Kitagawa Ryo has no intention of uncovering this deepest scar. He deliberately ignores it and plans to leave it in the movie and show it through his performance.

Because this is the most sharp and the most selfish idea.

"Hmm...did I wake Ryo?"

"I wasn't actually asleep, so there was no question of waking me up."

"Can Ryo come over here for a moment?"

"it is good."

Kitagawa Ryo nodded, he got up from the bed, and sat down beside Tendouji Sarina's bed as he had done in the past, and naturally held her thin right hand.

During these fourteen days, Tendoji Sarana's parents not only did not come to visit her, they even called her only once to greet her, and the total time from the time the call was connected to the time the call was hung up was one minute and thirty-four seconds.

If we calculate only from this perspective, during these fourteen days, the time Kitagawa Ryo spent with Sarina was 12,868 times that of those two people.

"I remember that Liang's role in this movie was also a seriously ill child, right?"

Tendouji Sarana's tone was slow, as if she was hesitating and confirming.

"Although I don't know if it will help Liang, I want to tell Liang some of my thoughts."

Beichuan Liang felt his heart tightened for a moment, and he quickly shook his head and refused:

"Sarina doesn't have to tell me."

"I am a talented actor. As my fan, Sarina should be the one who believes this the most."

Tendouji Sarina seemed to have expected Kitagawa Ryo to say this. She blinked and changed her words:

"It's just my own complaint, okay?"

The girl's overflowing emotions spilled out a little, and then the rest of the words came out like a flood.

"I don't really like Daddy...and Mommy."

"It's not entirely because they work in central Tokyo, but it's like they've been pretending not to see me, ever since I got sick."

"In fact, they may have given up on me, and may even be planning to have a new child."

"So... I started to act like an optimistic and well-behaved child when I was sick. I told every doctor and nurse that my parents cared about me a lot, but they couldn't visit me often because they were busy with work."

"Tell them that being their child is the greatest blessing that can happen to them."

"But they were all lies."

Kitagawa Ryo listened quietly to what Tendouji Sarina said. In fact, during their previous interactions, the other party had already revealed some clues.

In a previous hospital, he had seen a daughter with heart disease hugging her mother and crying, saying that she hoped to still be her mother's daughter in the next life, but she never wanted to get sick again and never let her mother worry about her again.

But what Tendouji Sarana said to him that night was completely different.

Sarina Tendoji hopes to reincarnate into an artist's family. At first glance, this may seem like she is full of pessimism about her life, but it actually also reveals some of Sarina's other thoughts.

That is - she doesn't want to be the child of her current parents again.

The source of all this is:

"I don't want to die."

"If my parents really hated me, I might not even be in the hospital right now."

"So you can't be unreasonable, you can't make a scene, you can't cry or beg."

In the pediatric department of the hospital, there are always farces between parents, children and doctors.

She acted like a spoiled child, rolled around, and begged, trying to avoid injections, medication, and hospitalization.

But all of this has nothing to do with Sarina Tendouji.

If you fail to act the role of being obedient, serious, sensible, and considerate of your parents, even the last bit of warmth will not fall upon you.

Without her parents, the sick Tendoji Sarana would not even be alive today, not even the twelve years old now.

This is the most acute and unexpressible thought.

Because you will definitely be scolded, and because absolutely not many people can understand.

But this is exactly what a little child really thinks after becoming seriously ill.

"I want to live."

So I can't say that I hate them.

"I don't want to die."

Even if you are alone in the ward.

I just want to survive.

It is not someone else's wish, but your own wish.

Although I know that I will die one day, although I understand that not all my wishes can be fulfilled, although I understand that this process is painful.

Even so, I still hope to continue living in this world.

Kitagawa Ryo remained silent, he still held Tendouji Sarana's hand tightly.

Perhaps this is also a clear answer.

Even though the palm of my hand is so fragile, the thought contained within it is stronger than anything else.

Sarina Tendouji told him the last characteristic of this character. Although it was difficult to say, Sarina was still willing to dig out this not-so-glorious content from the deepest part of her heart and show it to him.

But in fact, Beichuan Liang already knew it. He wrote that paragraph on the last page of the script last night:

"The more brilliant the will to live, the more moving the moment of death will be."

The next morning, Ryo Kitagawa left the hospital and left Miyazaki Prefecture.

There are many birds living in the forest, and there are many bird nests of different sizes built on the trees along the road.

As the car drove past, Beichuan Liang clearly saw a crow flying past the window.

Tendoji Sarana didn't have a toothbrush this morning, and she wouldn't pick up the wrong toothbrush again. After washing up, she returned to her bed. The feeling of loneliness came faster than she had imagined.

Let’s recall from the very beginning.

Warm them up, hold them in your arms, and prepare for the arrival of winter.

Let’s start with Kitagawa Ryo walking into the ward and picking up the Hamlet poster.

Sarina Tendoji played the video of "Hamlet" and hugged a pillow to refresh her memory.

On the pure white screen, the plot began to advance and someone was humming a gentle tune in a low voice.

“And will he not come again?

And will he not come again?

No, no he is dead.

Go to the death-bed, he never will come again.

—————"Hamlet and the Death of Ophelia"

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Tokyo, in front of the building where the LALALAI theater company is headquartered.

Beichuan Ryo had just got out of the car when the middle-aged man waiting on the roadside couldn't wait to come up to him, picked him up and held him in the air.

"Put me down."

With the same calm tone as always, Beichuan Liang's only hope now is to grow up faster so that he won't be treated like this by this unscrupulous uncle every time.

"It's really boring."

Kindaichi Toshiro curled his lips, but he was still honest enough to put Beichuan Ryo down again:

"I heard that your filming was going very smoothly? You even returned to Tokyo early."

"That's about right. Anyway, I've already finished filming my scenes."

Kitagawa Ryo nodded and replied as he walked palm forward into the building.

After bidding farewell to Sarina Tendoji in Miyazaki Prefecture, he immediately joined the filming of the movie. With the official arrival of winter, the nearly two-month filming finally came to an end.

What remains is editing, promotion and official release, but that is not something Kitagawa Ryo needs to worry about.

He came here today on the one hand to complete the work he had promised to Toshiro Kindaichi, and on the other hand to avoid the things at home.

Beichuan Liang's adoptive mother has been pregnant for nearly five months now. Her temper has become more and more irritable. She has been diagnosed with prenatal depression, and her attitude towards Beichuan Liang has become worse.

His adoptive father, Kitagawa Jin, naturally stood on the side of his own flesh and blood at this time. He tried to smooth things over at first, but later he was so tired of it that he just let his wife take her own course, hoping that the birth date would be faster.

"I've also heard about the shit going on in your family, so Beichuan is just a piece of shit. I still say, do you want to be my son?"

Toshiro Kindaichi followed behind Ryo Kitagawa, rubbing his hands and talking about the past with anticipation.

"If you are really interested in becoming a father, wouldn't it be better to just go to an orphanage and adopt one? You don't have a wife or children anyway."

Beichuan Liang turned his head and rolled his eyes. He had transferred part of his assets to a trusted broker at the beginning. His experience in his previous life had taught him the importance of financial independence.

Even if he really breaks up with the Kitagawa family one day, he can still live a pretty comfortable life.

After all, there are at least hundreds of thousands of people on online forums who are willing to be his mother.

While complaining about Kindaichi Toshiro's thoughts, Kitagawa Ryo turned a corner and bumped into someone head-on. Although he didn't fall to the ground like in the animation, he still staggered and touched his forehead in frustration.

"It hurts, it hurts, it hurts..."

But the other party's reaction seemed to be much greater than his.

Beichuan Liang raised his head and saw the girl in front of him hugging her upper abdomen with her arms. She was one and a half heads taller than Beichuan Liang, and it seemed that she had just hit the area under her chest.

However, because she was looking down and wearing a baseball cap, Beichuan Ryo couldn't see her face clearly.

Just when Beichuan Liang was about to apologize and ask if she was okay, the girl suddenly raised her head, and her pupils, dazzling as if cast from red and blue gems, met Beichuan Liang's dark eyes.

"You are……"

Beichuan Liang heard the other party suddenly shout out in surprise.

“Orange flavored toothpaste!”

Because today is Sunday, I plan to rush for next week's click list, so the update will be posted regularly at 12 o'clock.

If you are a reader of my old book, you all know that this book means a lot to me. I hope it can achieve good results.

In my personal opinion, I can't continue reading Tui Zi's fan fiction if it doesn't fundamentally solve the problem of love. Even if love didn't die under that knife, if you get too serious, it's still about being cheated by a scumbag. So the timeline of this fan fiction of mine is placed very early.

In short, I hope to let everyone see a complete Tui Zi fan fiction, thank you for your support!

Chapter 7: The Bad Boy Who Tells Lies

Orange flavored toothpaste.

This was the first time that Kitagawa Ryo was called like this by someone, but before he could react, the girl who he seemed to have an impression of before and whose name seemed to be Hoshino Ai had already approached him again.

As if she felt that the overlooking perspective caused by the height difference was not good, Hoshino Ai immediately squatted in front of Kitagawa Ryo. However, she was only a twelve-year-old girl, and by squatting like this, she was actually a section shorter than Kitagawa Ryo.

But Hoshino Ai didn't seem to notice this at all. She took out her phone from her pocket very seriously, entered the password 45510 familiarly, and then handed it to Kitagawa Ryo with an overwhelming momentum:

"Can you take a picture with me? I've always liked... um, Bei... Senpai!"

As if he had suddenly forgotten her name, he could even feel that the girl in front of him seemed to have bitten her tongue. Beichuan Liang found it a little funny and half-knelt down to make his eyes level with her:

"It's Kitagawa Ryo."

"As for taking a photo, it's almost time for class, so let's do it after class."