The villain's way to tame the protagonist

It is obvious that he is not the same person as the original Anser, and he can obviously change the world for the better. If that thing had not happened, he could even stand on the same side as the heroes.

Was it because of Hydra, because the Old Deus had to be destroyed? But Flamel had clearly created a miracle that caused Hydra to fall from the rank of the Old Deus. As long as he and Anerissa could live out their last days in peace, happily and happily, and walk to the end willingly, then Anser had no reason to choose to become an Old Deus and walk to the inevitable end of madness.

So... why did fate do this? Why did fate send down this meaningless suffering? Was it to tame him? Was it to tell him that in this world, even if he was the only alien that could not be fully predicted, even if he knew everything, he had no choice but to submit to this great power, to submit to such absoluteness, and not to disobey in the slightest?

If that's the case, if that's the only reason I have to take away everything from him...

Then Ansir Hydra will have only one goal left for the rest of his life.

Kill...Destiny!

"But Mr. Devil, you don't care about this kind of pain at all. You never take this kind of pain to heart. Not only do you ignore it, you take it for granted."

"...Otherwise, you wouldn't have said that you didn't lie to Miss Wolf and Miss Doll."

Anser's fingertips trembled unconsciously.

When his mind became clear to this point, of course he immediately understood what Xin meant by this sentence.

The changes that have taken place in Ming Furo and Xitana have been completely completed. The whole process has only had some twists and turns at most, but overall it has been very smooth.

Why? Because in this process, Anser no longer hesitated or worried about his choices and decisions. He did not have a hard time choosing between himself and them like he did in the West.

But was he so determined from beginning to end?

No, obviously not.

In Donggang, he had sought Ming Furo's opinion more than once. He wanted to know whether the changes he made to them were correct. The scholar lady gave an affirmative answer without any hesitation - no matter what kind of person they became, they would support Anser's decision.

But did this answer make Anser completely determined? No, not really, because the arrangements Anser made for Xitana after arriving in the North had nothing to do with determination.

He had already taken it for granted that he would change Hitana's mind... This was a mad, evil will born from the erosion of the abyss.

Ansel is using the abyss's erosion on him to ensure that he can carry out the change in the beliefs of Xitana and Ming Furo. This is why he has never let the two girls share the erosion and why he thinks this erosion is necessary.

"You were clearly hurting, and you were allowing yourself to be hurt, but you still promised them... that you wouldn't hurt yourself, Mr. Devil."

"I believe you. You won't lie to Miss Wolf."

No matter how hard he tried, he could not truly mend the mottled and dark soul. He murmured sadly:

"So that means, Mr. Devil, you sincerely believe that you are not hurting yourself, it's just a matter of course."

It was natural for Hydra to be eroded by the abyss. He just made good use of this erosion. How could it be called a lie?

"You've been hurting yourself, Mr. Devil, including in that dream."

"You said you no longer cared about the pain it represented, you said you had moved on from it, it no longer meant anything to you... but if that was the case, why did you dream about it?"

"..."

Because...it is needed as a warning.

Keep that future in mind, keep in mind the fate of Hydra, use the pain of the past and the despair that is yet to come to force and urge yourself to move forward at all times, and never... never stop.

Anser felt as if Xin was holding his face again.

The illusory, unreal face was right in front of him. Although it was almost impossible to see the face clearly, Ansher could still see his face reflected in those holy blue eyes.

There is also pure compassion, pure...sadness.

"Pain should be abandoned and let go, Mr. Devil."

Her voice was like the wind blowing from afar, no longer real: "But you used it as food, as a weapon, and by hurting yourself... you defeated the enemy that I never knew about."

It is worth reliving the pain you have experienced over and over again just to let this despair provide you with motivation, even if it is just a little bit more.

How sick this is, how...crazy.

So... what was the reason? What was the reason that made Anser hate those sufferings while trampling on himself?

For Xin, the answer is obvious.

"Mr. Devil, I have never doubted your strength for a moment. You really are... a remarkable person."

"You said I was late. Miss Wolf, Miss Doll, and even Miss Crow, they all made you, who was already very powerful, even more powerful."

"Mr. Devil, you don't need to be loved."

Anser saw the pain in those eyes.

It was not the pain of having one's soul shattered and annihilated, but the sadness and pain that came from seeing Ansel's heart.

"You... don't love yourself."

Ansir Hydra does not love himself.

So, on the one hand, he hated the sufferings bestowed by fate and all those who succumbed to the so-called destined weakness, but on the other hand, he ignored the pain he endured every moment, and even repeatedly experienced the despair he had experienced and tasted the humiliation he was unwilling to suffer.

He didn't accept this fate, he just felt...he deserved it.

He felt that this was the price he had to pay.

Why? Because just as Xin said, Xitana, Ming Fuluo, Marina...they helped Anser grow step by step, making him strong enough, but in turn, they also made his choices less and less.

Xitana made Anser no longer face his fate with absolute rationality and cold thinking, Ming Fuluo freed Anser from the madness of sacrificing everything, and Marina made Anser finally have supporters who were absolutely on the same side with him...

They turned Anser from a monster who would use everything and exhaust all he could to overcome fate, into the person he is now, with ties and inseparable emotions.

But the problem is that Anser's hatred for fate will not decrease because of this. In fact, the more things he cares about, the less he can sacrifice.

Until now, he simply couldn't sacrifice the people around him. Even if he wanted to change Xitana and Ming Furo, he had to rely on the erosion of the abyss to ensure completion.

So his choice is... to hurt himself.

Since seeking outside is still not enough, then use all means possible to squeeze out everything you can.

I... don’t love myself.

Anser thought this in a daze.

When Xin said this, he finally understood why Marina said this was his only weakness.

Because he really never realized it for a moment. He never realized for even a second that he didn't actually love himself.

And it is precisely because he does not notice it at all that he feels that everything is so natural, so natural that he cannot even understand the most basic contradictions. In fact, if Xin had not used such an extreme method to force Ansel to face reality, this problem would never have been revealed.

Because Ansel firmly believed in himself. When he faced Hitana and the others, he actually knew his hesitation and difficulty, and it was difficult for him to make a decision, rather than a sudden enlightenment in his heart.

But this time was different. He had never had such a thought before, so if he wanted Ansel to realize this, he had to be so decisive... and empathize with him.

That's why Xin was willing to leave with Mu, and that's why she said that this was the only way to save Anser.

"You want to..." Anser's voice was low and hoarse, "You want to use these words to make me stop neglecting myself, to make me... stop, right?"

This is... fate.

There is no doubt that this is fate's final warning before facing defeat.

Are you sure you want to continue like this? Fight me to the end even if it means you will be destroyed?

As Anser thought about this, the corners of his mouth slowly rose.

Very good... If it were just like this, it couldn't be better.

In the West, the threat of fate really made Ansher waver - because He was threatening him with Xitana and Ming Furo.

But now, after completing the changes on the two girls, fate can no longer use them to threaten Anser. In the end, the only one who can be used as a threat... is Anser himself.

But so what? If you don’t love yourself, so what?

"I'm so sorry, Xin... I've made you come this far, but I still have to disappoint your expectations and wishes."

Anser hugged the already ethereal Xin apologetically and said softly, "I won't stop."

If the price was only himself, then Anser would not have hesitated at all. Besides, he was no longer the Anser who was really crazy enough to gamble his life on an opportunity. No matter what, he would not go to the point of self-destruction.

It's just pain, it's just suffering, it's just words like this -

"I didn't mean for you to stop, Mr. Devil."

Xin leaned against Anser's cheek lovingly and whispered in his ear:

"Why would I...want you to stop?"

Anser felt extremely confused and stunned.

You're not trying to dissuade me...why?

"Do you think I went this far just to tell you this? I'm not that extravagant, Mr. Devil."

"I told you, I'm here to save you."

Unprecedented clarity, unprecedented... clarity.

After mastering the Abyss Sermon, Ansher had forgotten how long it had been since he had been so clear-headed. And it wasn't just for a short while, but for a long time, enough to last for years or even longer.

Even though the erosion in Anser's soul has not been completely eliminated, the remaining extent is no longer enough to affect his thinking at all. It's simply... a miracle.

"Mr. Devil, you have embarked on a wrong path. At that time, you must have had no choice, so you could only use pain and despair as food. You could only hurt yourself to achieve the victory you wanted."

"But...if you use this method as motivation, even if you can really achieve your goal, will you really accept it?"

...If I aim for pain and hatred to defeat fate, can I really get what I want?

This was a question that Ansel would never have considered before, both because the unrelieved hatred had obscured everything, and because the intrusion of the abyss made it impossible for him to think about this problem in a truly rational way.

But now, he can.

Xin gently pushed Anser away, and Anser could hardly see Xin's figure.

"So, I didn't intend to stop you. I just wanted to give you... a chance to choose again."

"Whether you continue to move forward with that pain or find a way to truly defeat your enemy, no matter what... I support your decision."

"I want to make Mr. Devil a hero... Actually, I don't want to make Mr. Devil a kind person."

The illusory figure moved closer to Anser's face little by little.

"Go be your own hero, Mr. Devil."

She seemed to be smiling and caressing Anser's face.

“Go do what you really want to do.”

Anser stared blankly at the air in front of him that was flashing with tiny spots of light. He subconsciously stretched out his hand, and countless spots of light just passed through his palm.

"No...it shouldn't be consumed to this extent. With your soul strength, it's impossible for you to collapse like this. Xin...what on earth is going on!"

Although Xin did something extremely exaggerated, the strength of her soul would definitely not be so strong that it would completely dissipate to this extent. Rather than dissipating, it would be more accurate to say... reorganizing?

Could it be that the feeling that was suppressed by Xin——

Xin did not answer Anser. The flickering light was like a fluttering butterfly, gently touching Anser's eyelashes.

"As expected, you look best this way."

In the fine spots of light, the clear and transparent sea-blue eyes without any impurities are reflected.

Xin had never been so grateful before. He was grateful that he heard Anser's call at that moment and truly understood... the true meaning of that call.

[Can I become a hero?]

Her Mr. Devil may have wanted to be a hero, but he knows that he can no longer do it. He does not have regrets, nor does he still have the ideal of becoming a hero. He is just confused about how to get to the end of this road.

So Xin gave Anser a second chance to choose, whether to be a hero or a villain, whether to continue to bear the pain or find a new path... As long as Anser can clearly understand himself, as long as he will not be confused, that is enough.

If possible, I still hope he can love himself well.

The saint who had finally completed the rescue whispered happily:

"Ann...it's great that you don't need my love."

Chapter 1.3: Love Part (W)

After shedding his demonic form, he now looked like a slightly mature boy, standing there in silence.

Someone once said the same thing to Anser.

Do what you want to do and what you think is right. When you can't make a choice, live for yourself.

She also gave everything she had to Anser, just to... give Anser a chance.

It was not until the moment Xin disappeared from his sight that Anser recalled the fragments in the depths of his memory that he dared not touch.

"Mother……"