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【cheer.】

【praise.】

[The calm and quiet atmosphere was broken in an instant. Almost at the moment when the first person shouted, hundreds of heads looked over at the same time. Only a few people who were sitting didn't have the chance to stand up.]

[If they are given a chance to choose, they will definitely not choose to sit down, and will definitely not lose the opportunity to see you for this. ]

[Your charm is extremely special. This flawlessness from a beautiful girl is a purity that no one in the world can refuse.]

[Even if you think you are numb, even if you are on the verge of collapse every moment, even if you think all this is just a poisonous mushroom deliberately having a bright appearance in order to attract others and hurt others. ]

[——You can’t deny your own beautiful charm after all. ]

[You don't need to say anything or do anything actively. Just a little bit of natural behavior and just standing there quietly can gather countless fans who are willing to give everything for you. ]

[This nature is not surprising, because people always have a natural protective psychology towards beautiful things, and they long for beauty to exist forever. ]

[Your numbness and sadness will not only not fade your beauty, but will add a layer of sorrow to this beauty, which will make everyone in this world feel pity. ]

【——Beautiful, strong and miserable. 】

[In the eyes of most people, you can probably be called by these three words. ]

[Although if someone really calls you this, you will definitely be rejected by others, thinking that it is not specific enough, not gorgeous enough, not beautiful enough, and cannot truly show your beauty and transcendence. ]

[All of these combined are enough to create a terrifying charm, not to mention that in a sense, you are the creator and savior of this place. ]

[Although Qianjie has more things to do and is busier on duty, all matters big and small in the town need to be decided and judged by him. ]

[This person, who was the first resident of the Eternal Paradise saved by you from the very beginning, has never added a single bit of merit to himself.]

[He is still as honest as before, even if you describe him as having a sharp tongue but a soft heart, it is not an exaggeration. The tofu is still very tender. 】

[People who encounter disasters also need spiritual sustenance, enough to let those quiet beliefs. ]

[No matter how much we say that God is dead, no matter how much we deny the existence of God, it is undeniable that people's hearts ultimately need something sacred, whether this sacredness is a simple deity or a specific belief.]

[Essentially, they are placing their emotional reliance on something they believe is absolutely stable. ]

[It can be the sun, the moon, a natural phenomenon, a god made up in your imagination, a national institution or something else. ]

[In the past, people's disputes were usually about a deity that existed in fantasy.]

[The delusions of two different groups of people can set off a war that lasts for hundreds of years, killing millions of lives and even overthrowing a great empire.]

[Humans always have the highest fighting power and the lowest IQ when they are in groups. They will only blindly follow the crowd and chase after the person who picks up the napkin. ]

【And now. 】

【They saw the Daughter of God in reality. 】

【Who can refuse? 】

【Who can deny it?】

[No matter how much one denies existence, one cannot deny the existence of the goddess who actually saved him from danger.]

[My admiration and respect for you have, in a sense, become the most common and important thing in this rebuilt town.]

【although……】

[——You don’t like this kind of worship.]

The rosy lower lip was bitten too tightly by the white teeth, and the slender white and tender fingers that were gently holding Jiang Cheng's palm involuntarily clenched a little, as if she was afraid of losing her beloved again.

The pink starry eyes, like petals blown by the breeze, fell into the pupils, trembling slightly and blinking constantly, with a light of fear flashing in them.

Even her steady breathing seemed a little excessive. Her chest, which was wrapped in pink satin with only a tiny gap showing, suddenly rose and fell violently.

The fat and soft flesh was overly tightened and squeezed, forming a pulp that was full and stretched, and even the cloth that should have been strong made a slight cry. A piece of snow-white, soft and beautiful flesh was revealed in the gap of the dress.

—literal fear.

Alicia was already in a panic. Even though she could still feel the boy's breath beside her, her body was shaking uncontrollably.

It’s not that I simply don’t like being surrounded by others, or that I don’t like hearing people cheering.

It is the cheers that prove that this is an eternal paradise.

Just like the cheers of people recorded in fairy tale books.

If a place is dead silent and only appears beautiful, without even a smile on people's faces or a cheer, then that place cannot be called a paradise, it is just a pink prison.

This fear, this trembling, this emotion that almost makes the young heart stop beating, makes happiness disappear in an instant.

——So similar.

……

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PS: Chapter 81 has not passed the review today and needs to be deleted. We will continue to work hard.

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 86. Alicia: There is... nothing to be afraid of anymore.

It's so similar.

The memories buried deep inside are clearly awakened, and the mind that refuses to recall still inevitably reappears the scenes of the past in the mind.

That was the girl’s second mistake, and that was her first loss.

The boys who had never been apart.

The boy who had never been lost.

The boy who would always be by her side and could always be seen by her, so she could always feel at peace, was lost by her.

This picture only lingers in the deepest nightmare of my heart.

Even this sadness has been squeezed to the bottom due to the continuous and excessive tragedies and the even more horrific and cruel disasters.

Until now...

Until now...

——The girl was caught up by her past.

Even the details were extremely precise and completely engraved in the depths of her soul. The girl could even see that the expressions on the faces of the people gathered around her did not change at all, as if they had transcended time and space.

The only thing missing, the only thing that cannot be seen, the only difference is that the young man who should have been standing in the corner seemed to have disappeared in the crowd.

Do not……

don't want……

I beg you.

I beg you.

I can accept anything, and I can bear any kind of treatment, but I absolutely don't want to do this one thing. This one thing is absolutely not allowed.

The fear buried deep in her heart was awakened once again. Her pink starry eyes were filled with mist, and she was almost about to cry.

His hands were clenched tightly, and no matter what he was holding was the air or the boy's palm, his slender and tender fingers were clasped together in his heart at the same time to pray.

Please...

——Never do this again.

……

And at this moment, the young man who helped the girl overcome the disaster like a hero and a prince, just like the first time he came into the world, had almost the same fear and sadness flashing in his dark pupils.

——Because he was also a personal witness.

Even more profound than that of a girl.

It's far sadder than this fear.

It is a sadness that I truly felt in the first person, a sadness that has been lingering in my heart ever since then, without any trace of obscurity or concealment.

Since this closed and locked heart will only react to contact with Alicia, and since it is cut up at will like a rag doll, the distorted memory only has the past with Alicia.

Then, as the one who experienced the most pain and sorrow while getting along with the flawless girl, it will naturally occupy the largest part of the boy's memory.

——Birthday party.

A party that was nominally a birthday party, surrounded by people.

what……

It’s so beautiful and so luxurious.

At the exchange meeting of Shenzhen University, there was a bustling crowd, everyone was happy, everyone was cheering, and everyone was happy for this grand event, for this wonderful banquet that could almost be regarded as a festival.

Apart from……

The theoretical host of the party.

The person who is actually celebrating his birthday.

The one to whom even gifts are not given in person.

Without the memory of Weiwei, this disaster would have no end, and this extremely dark nightmare would never find its end.

There is no such thing as a girl with strong motivation to act at all costs, who would cross the abyss without hesitation even if she knew there was an abyss in front of her.

Even a small matter would be extremely difficult for someone with extremely low self-esteem, but the girl named Weiwei could make such a choice with no room for retreat, and even put all the little warmth in her hands into it just to save the boy.

If there hadn’t been such an inferior yet courageous girl like that who spared no effort.

——How could an ordinary boy escape from a nightmare?

……

Even if I squeezed out every detail from my memories, all I could piece together was fifteen years of time spent with Alicia.

Compared to the extremely narrow life span of a human being, we can only be important friends.

Terrible.

Even though the time we have spent together is as short as fifteen years, it is difficult to occupy even half of our entire lives. Among them, the time that can be called good and worthy of the name "good" is only five years.

The time between the time when a girl is picked up and brought home and the time when she is five years old can be called childhood sweethearts with whom you have a good relationship, rather than an ordinary passerby.

chase.

chase.

It's always a one-sided pursuit.

Always the stranger who is ignored.

He couldn't even get more smiles from young girls, and he had never even accepted a gift from others at his own birthday party.

No one cares.

No one cares.

It's just a background.

It's just the background of the world.

Just as the protagonist of a story always needs some supporting characters to set off him, countless small fry are always needed to fill the world that belongs to only one person.

Other people’s affairs, disasters, encounters, happiness…are all just stepping stones and ladders for the protagonists to move towards a new story.

Even if it is nominally a birthday party held for others, how many of the people who have come from far away to celebrate and participate in the seemingly lively party would think that it is a birthday party rather than an exchange meeting for the protagonist alone?

Fragmented memories, tattered memories, because of the wishes of others, the most precious memories in life are lost.

If the truly beautiful part of the memory is deleted, if the part that truly constitutes one's strength is deleted.

So……

What is left?

……

——The boy put on the most exquisite dress and started preparing for what he was going to do a day in advance, trying his best not to reveal any mistakes or problems, and attended his birthday party with full expectations.

It wasn't because he was greedy for the cake and the excitement of the party, but simply because it was a birthday party that Alicia prepared specifically for him.