Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Although for me now, I not only don’t have any negative feelings about the pain inflicted by Jiang Cheng, but I am addicted to it.

It seems like I'm really broken from the beginning to the end~?

That's not bad either.

If I were not a broken person, if I were a healthy and growing person, I would definitely become like myself before I made the first option, arrogant and wanting to save everyone.

They completely ignore the limits of their own abilities and also ignore the fact that human beings as a form of existence are inherently destined to be unable to do everything.

The girl once remembered a novel that said, weakness and stupidity are not the causes of death, only arrogance is the reason for destruction.

This sentence is not written in a comprehensive way, but is more to highlight a certain truth, because under the great collapse, no matter how arrogant you are, life will be easily harvested like a wheat field, and a large area of ​​it will be blown down by the wind.

But in its emphasis on the misplaced nature of arrogance, this statement is absolutely correct: the greatest pain in life is wanting to do something that you cannot do.

Just as the greatest pain is not never seeing the light, but having seen the light and then returning to the eternal, cruel darkness.

The more you think, the more you ponder, the more you try to change, and the more you do, the more things you will not be able to do due to your own limitations.

If you fail to do what you want to do, your emotions will be affected, you will feel sad inside, and you will ask yourself if you are incompetent.

In most cases, we try to greedily hold on to more things, and even lose the little we have in our hands the moment we let go.

Alicia will never make such a mistake again, and will never repeat the same mistake again. If all she really needs to hold on to is just a little bit, why does she need to be arrogant and tolerate more, save more, and try to change more things?

……

[You just need to seize this moment, and find a way to extend it again and again, until it lasts forever.]

[This is the only thing you need to do. This is the only thing that is right for you. This is the only thing that is truly right. ]

[Now the progress of the collapse has stagnated, perhaps because the civilization constructed by humans is too weak, but too advanced in self-preservation, reaching astonishing heights in biology and physics. ]

[Relying on the defense system left by Jiangcheng, and part of the backup plan from Weiwei that you deliberately leaked to Mebius.]

[The current multi-layered defenses are no longer something that can be penetrated by a simple Honkai energy. Even a major Honkai energy cannot cause a disaster.]

[The final efforts of the two geniuses have brought unprecedented vitality to the hands of Mobius, who has now completely turned to Honkai energy. 】

[Humanity uses cities as its main base, abandoning most of the unnecessary defense lines, and only radiates the breath of life outward with the radiation circle of the mandala.]

[Multiple layers of defense barriers surround everything. Even the air has achieved perfect self-circulation and will not accept any outside air. Not even a gust of wind can reach the city.]

[There is no natural wind in the world today. There is only the disaster full of Honkai energy. A light blow is enough to make the world cry. ]

[The success rate of the fusion warrior experiment has been improved again, and it has completely entered the stage of mass production. Only a simple heart injection plus an activation experiment is needed to ensure the minimum emperor-level combat effectiveness. ]

[Perhaps this power is not enough to survive in the current world, but if you just hide in the safe zone in the city, this power is enough for ordinary people to live as comfortably as before. ]

[Until now, the core combat power has been integrated with the warrior experiment and multiple branches have been launched at the same time. 】

[Including but not limited to the transformation of quantization. ]

【It is possible to carry out complete collapse state reconstruction. 】

【Try to maintain the anchoring of self-awareness.】

[The Chimera Project attempts to stitch together different Honkai beasts to create an ultimate warrior that is superior to the Emperor level and even the Judgment level.]

[Although currently only one person named Kevin has volunteered to be a test subject for this project, it has only deviated slightly from the level of creating a new folder.]

[Nowadays, as long as you fire a few shots, you can get the precious experimental materials in the past. Even if you collect all the materials needed for the Chimera Project, it probably won't cost much. ]

[Everything here is the result of mankind's efforts to resist disasters, and it is also the result of Mebius's complete interpretation of his ideals.]

[Perhaps she also hopes to suppress the disaster of collapse, lead mankind to crush this suffering, and let Jiangcheng experience beauty again. ]

[Let the person who gave me a fresh cake, a delicate gift, and warm blessings on a birthday that she didn't even know she had, while she was still eating instant noodles and working overtime for surgery, experience the beauty of life.]

[That was the first time she felt that just a few simple, meaningless words could be more attractive than the gifts she gave.]

[Even though the gift was made of royal-level ingredients, it seemed that it was not as precious as a cake made of dairy products and carbohydrates.]

[That time, it should be the first time that Mobius received a birthday present in his life. 】

[That doctor was so cold and arrogant that no one would have a problem with him being called a demon scientist.]

[Even her assistants and friends mistakenly think that she is a great person who is so strong that she doesn't need emotions, forgetting that her heart is still soft and she is a human being who can also feel pain and happiness.]

[No matter how talented Mobius is, his heart and essence are still a human being, sometimes sad, sometimes lost, sometimes excited, sometimes excited.]

[Isn't the torture and anger I inflicted on you when I was making the Key of God the greatest proof that Mebius is still a human being? ]

[People always seem to regard those who are good at enduring certain things as enthusiasts of that aspect, making those who can endure hardship suffer more.]

[With the wholehearted efforts of this world's top genius, at least holding on under the threat of collapse shouldn't be a difficult problem. ]

[The Eighth Herrscher who was born before, the Herrscher of Fire, whose temperature was even higher than that of the sun, did not pose as great a threat as before. 】

[I only burned down 80% of a city's defenses, causing the shield's energy to be in danger, and then you rushed over and easily shot me to death with one arrow.]

[The number of casualties was only a few hundred thousand, which was insignificant compared to any previous major collapse attacks.]

[The disasters that were so frightening in the past do not seem so hopeless now. The long darkness does not show any light or brightness.]

[At least for you, the real threat was not the so-called collapse from the beginning. ]

【Um……】

[Jiang Cheng seems to still have the energy to explore the town. ]

【Let’s squeeze it more thoroughly today. 】

……

[At the age of thirty-seven, I woke up feeling empty again. I felt as if everything had been drained out of me. Even opening my eyes was difficult.]

[You can’t remember how long this period of enjoyment and exhaustion has lasted, probably about a year.]

[I fall asleep every day, and when I open my eyes, I see Alicia. When I close my eyes, I see Alicia. Even when I go out, Alicia accompanies me.]

[The girl seems to have no sense of shame at all, relying on her ability to create a space isolated from the world to exploit you everywhere.]

[It's a good thing that you are a Herrscher, with a body that is almost immortal. If you were a normal person, you would have turned into a mummy by now.]

……

It seems...

Are you living a happy life?

Alicia was also very satisfied with all this.

Perhaps it's because I know that all this is a foregone conclusion.

Perhaps he had already seen this tragedy which obviously could not be rewritten or changed, so no matter what Ellie did, he could only choose to accept it.

Perhaps as time goes by, I will find a way to resurrect, and let Weiwei smile in this world with me, and erase that abrupt period that should never have been drawn, and turn it into a comma.

This is definitely not something that can be resolved in a short period of time.

It may not even take several years.

At least until Alicia is satisfied.

At least you have to wait until the right opportunity.

No matter what you do before this, nothing can be changed or rewritten, except to make this period less peaceful.

So compared to continuing to worry and be troubled like this, when the next option comes, there is no point other than to completely lose what you have now by acting irrationally out of resentment, leading to tragedy.

Jiang Cheng can only hope that the time can be extended as long as possible before the possible tragedy comes, so that he can have room to rewrite something.

——At least I hope Alicia can recover to normal.

——Alishia is very abnormal.

Although the curve of the girl's mouth was as beautiful as in her memory, it truly came from her heart's satisfaction and happiness with everything she had.

She was really satisfied with it all, very satisfied with what she once had, which was insignificant compared to what she should have had.

As a childhood sweetheart, as a boy who has that smile imprinted in his heart and was left with a deep impression by Alicia at the very beginning of this simulation, he can also clearly see the distortion and helplessness beneath that beauty.

——Alisa is sad.

No tears.

No crying.

It's just raining in my heart.

The endless, continuous drizzle, gloomy, day and night, never stops beating the heart that should not harbor beautiful thoughts.

It brings a sadness that may not be that heavy, but never stops.

I almost accepted this pain as a daily occurrence.

It's really a daily routine.

Because from the first moment of her resurrection, the girl reflected in the ruthless blue pupils that were already dotted with starry sky had been crying.

In the next two years, although Ai Lishia seemed to be smiling, the gentleness and liveliness at the corners of her mouth were like a blooming flower, the tears never stopped for a second, they just turned from the outside to the inside.

As the closest person to Alicia in the world, the boy knew clearly the reason. He knew why the girl who seemed to have found happiness and got what she wanted was like this?

The answer is not difficult at all. Anyone who has seen the original Alicia and her pure, beautiful and lively appearance knows it.

Because Alicia put on a mask, she suppressed everything about herself in the shadows, imitating the movements and postures of others.

The girl could no longer see any trace of herself from beginning to end, and the fairies from the paradise in the past seemed to have disappeared completely.

At least Jiang Cheng could only see Wei Wei's appearance, Wei Wei's clothing design, Wei Wei's cooking skills, and even Wei Wei's way of playing.

But Alicia still greedily enjoys the life between her and him every day.

Nothing belongs to me at all.

There is not a single bit of breathing space left for myself.

Even plants will wither and die because they cannot feel the light and love, let alone fairies who need love from the moment they are born?

Compared with this sadness, this pain that could almost be described as being cut into pieces, it was no surprise that Alicia had learned about Velvet's daily life so well.

The girl couldn't impose such a heavy punishment on herself. Wouldn't it be easier to learn how to find other people's information and imitate Weiwei's behavior?

This behavior is just like the one that Jiang Cheng saw in the new plot of Genshin Impact, where the character Funina played the role of another person for five hundred years before traveling through time.

Even what Furninha experienced could not be compared with that of the girl. At least she knew that she was doing the right thing, to save others, to save Fontaine, and her intention from the very beginning was enough to comfort her own greatness.

Funina's role is a noble sacrifice. No matter how bitter the journey is, she will get everything she deserves at the moment of victory.

No matter how sad, no matter how miserable, no matter how hard and helpless, what will eventually come out is only the satisfaction of realizing a century-old ambition.

Alicia...

They are nothing but despicable thieves.

It's just stealing the love that belongs to others.

Self-torture and anxiety about gain and loss are inevitable desperate situations. Feeling guilty and regretful all the time, any little bit of beauty you experience will be transformed into a sharp blade, piercing your delicate heart fiercely.

Because Alicia knew better than anyone that all of this was just stolen goods, and all of this beauty never belonged to her.

Every moment of life is filled with fear. Will I realize all this? Will I find out that all this is just stolen beauty?

Add a lot of sand to the porridge that should be sweet, throw the freshly baked buns to the ground, step on them, and leave them covered with footprints and dust. No one would eat them except someone who is starving to death.

In the end, wolfing down unclean and unhealthy food will only make the body weaker and weaker, cause more serious illnesses, and eventually lead to death.

The end of this road is only destruction, a destruction without even atonement or rest. Before dying, one has to worry about one's dirty work being discovered.

Except for a heartless person, who can spend dirty money with peace of mind?

But Alicia is not a big villain or a bad person.

The girl couldn't accept all this with peace of mind.

Even when you have it, you can't enjoy it with peace of mind.

what……

Why do you have to do this?

I never, ever resented you.

I knew from the beginning that the goddess named Alicia was bound to save the world.

……