Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

[All these gaps and twists are just because of a seemingly very positive commandment, which is to never lose hope against collapse. ]

[Even the seemingly word games and language-stuck bugs are not chosen at the first time, and things that are completely unrelated can be linked together. 】

[This ability is completely uncontrollable and even more brutal than a nuclear bomb that has no launch capability.]

[——How can this ability not be called evil? ]

[And now…]

【This evil power has been imposed on you.】

……

"What should I say?"

"As expected, before the plot in the paradise, almost anything in her long life could turn out to be the worst, Aponya."

Jiang Cheng no longer had the energy to let his emotions surge again. He could only quietly feel the waves from the bottom of his heart that had almost never surfaced in enough long time.

Even at the most recent point in time, it was when I first came to the town two years ago and witnessed the same memories, the same shadows, the same scenes as in the past, and was deceived by Alicia's sweet words.

Even at that time, the emotions in my heart were definitely not like they are now. Even without thinking deeply, I could clearly feel the waves surging.

Theoretically, as a Herrscher who has long since become a non-human, he would not be affected by the ability of Aponia, the phantom god of the civil war, who performs special attacks against humans.

No matter how powerful this discipline is, in a real battle, she will most likely still need to rely on the physical fitness and lightning of the fusion warrior.

This is essentially equivalent to materializing Cocolia's extremely confusing actions, forming a powerful ability called self-distortion.

Perhaps because he has humanity, he will be affected like Qianjie in the plot, and this predicament will definitely not be like Weiwei's, which is not even serious enough to require the permanent disappearance of one of his personalities.

It is impossible for all this to develop into those staff members who went crazy and killed Lin and Yingjie's sister just because they were given the commandments.

Theoretically, with so many factors combined, there shouldn't be any problems. Even the collapse that controls the Herrscher and suppresses his emotions has not yet been broken.

The ability of this pure civil war phantom god can only cause some impact before being eliminated, and it will only take a little more time to solve the sequelae.

It will not cause any irreversible blow or harm to oneself and the mind.

Inflicting serious harm is simply out of the question.

Among the heroes who were fusion warriors, except for Vilvi, there were also several who had accepted the commandments and did not suffer any irreversible consequences.

——This is how it should be.

If the boy had not been able to clearly feel the emotions in his heart, he might have really been thankful and held on to unrealistic hopes.

I think that once Aponya's abilities are over, I can continue to live a comfortable life.

But the emotions in my heart have clearly revealed everything, just like the feeling of being strangled by the neck that I felt at the beginning of my resurrection. Every inch and every part of my self is being distorted.

Too obvious.

Too clear.

It is indeed impossible for non-human special lives to be completely affected by the precepts, at least they will not be reduced to rag dolls like ordinary people.

Even Mei Raiden, who had just arrived in the paradise and was described by the heroes as being worse than the Herrscher of Thunder of the previous civilization, was not easily crushed and did not have the slightest chance to resist.

This weakness of being pulled towards oneself is even based on the loss of restrictions, the loss of all restraints and control over oneself and emotions.

After fate was shattered by Alicia.

The Hermits are no longer constrained as they were in previous civilizations.

Without a mission that must be accomplished, one naturally loses the firm will imposed by Honkai, and the self becomes more easily manipulated and modified by others.

But the premise for facing and resisting all this is...

——I am normal.

My thinking is normal.

My mind is normal.

My memory is normal.

My ego is normal.

There will not be any damage anywhere, no flaws will be revealed anywhere, and there will be no possibility of being penetrated at all. The distorted self-discipline will be directly blocked at the periphery of the self.

In essence, it is like a flood that forcibly breaks through and destroys countless free thoughts, and they can only be swept forward in one direction.

The uncontrollable and distorted nature of the flood makes it impossible for even the person who releases the flood to change and control the specific direction of the water flow.

Only an intact dam can withstand the endless floods, and only a defense line without any loopholes can protect itself.

But I, the Herrscher who is theoretically controlled by Honkai and does evil, can almost be described as having a heart of stone and no emotions.

Riddled with holes.

The so-called firm heart is simply ridiculous.

There are many loopholes.

There was no act of self-denial, and the boy was not a completely inferior patient like Vilvi, who would take all the blame for the slightest thing on herself, as if living was a sin.

It's just normal narration.

There is not a single bit of exaggeration in the description.

Use the most rigorous words that best describe the truth.

For something like this to just stand here and not collapse, it has already taken all its efforts, and it is already based on the efforts of others to maintain and save it.

Not to mention a flood, a mere gust of wind could cause it to collapse, and the slightest contact from a drop of water could cause it to shake dangerously.

——It’s totally incomprehensible.

……

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 100. The Girl I Can Never Forget

This was the first time that Jiang Cheng encountered something that was completely incomprehensible. Even his understanding of the plot was useless as he could not find the possibility that the Herrscher was so fragile.

In his eyes, which had been dyed with a dark color like the Herrscher himself without realizing it, there was only doubt reflected in the deep sea.

Why……

——My self will be shattered like this?

……

【This shouldn’t happen.】

This should never happen.

[No matter how stupid and foolish he was, no matter how many memories he had lost, the wisdom of imitating the person he loved the most was buried deep in his soul, and Wei Weiwei could no longer appear in his heart, and he became the ordinary boy he was at the beginning.]

[During this period, you have learned about the world from Alysia, and occasionally heard Qianjie, who is always out, talk about some things in other places. You also have some understanding of your own situation. ]

【——The Herrisher.】

[Natural disasters that destroyed the world, demons that descended from nowhere, apostles that announced the coming of the end of the world, the greatest and worst despair that mankind has ever experienced.]

[Even your best friend, the Fire Moth, which is now fully controlled by Mobius, is an organization that symbolizes the highest wisdom and power of mankind. ]

【Let’s work together with all of humanity and all of life to chase a ray of light. 】

[All the remaining people must work together as one and do their best to dedicate themselves to a future and hope that may not be found at all.]

[At most, they can only survive the disaster of the Herrscher, and can no longer call themselves the masters of the planet. They can only survive in the cracks as Mandragora or moles hiding underground, allowing the Honkai Beasts to roam the world. ]

[Even the headquarters of the Fire Moth was completely destroyed in a great collapse, so cruel that you can feel the pain in your heart just by listening to it. ]

[If I feel like I will be drained dry by Alicia in this kind of disaster and natural calamity, it can only be attributed to the special nature of being a goddess, a power that is more mysterious than that of a Herrscher, and the fact that men are naturally more prone to exhaustion than women.]

[With reason after reason and evidence that can fully convince you, you can accept that you are not as good as Alicia. ]

[Then the one who appears before you now is an ordinary nun in every way except that she is a little too big.]

[You have often seen it in the past two years. How could Aponya, who is absolutely unable to hide any power, be a threat to you?]

[This seems to have an inexplicable magic, even mysterious words. With just a few words, you feel that you can no longer control yourself. The powerful strength and authority of the past seem to be easily bypassed.]

[This should never happen. This situation should never happen. As a Herrscher, how could you be harmed by a passerby?]

[It is hard to understand.]

【I can't understand.】

[It is impossible to understand it anymore. ]

[You no longer have the opportunity to understand, no time to think about the final reason, and no room or surplus to think about the possibility of being attacked.]

[The fragile heart that was already extremely fragile and was only maintained by lies had already reached its limit. The so-called dam did not exist at all. It was just a few broken wooden boards blocked by the girl's love.]

[But Alicia is not by your side, there is no girl beside you, you can’t see that pink, and you can’t smell that fragrant aroma. ]

[Even if a breeze blows and a delicate and soft cherry blossom petal floats down, it is impossible to cross the dim room and convey that touch of pink. ]

[Allowing the self to be shaken, allowing this blockade to sway for a moment, no one can continue to give lies in time to restrain all of this. ]

[Until this power continues to approach, continues to shake, and continues to attack everything about you.]

【——Click. 】

[It was like the sound of something suddenly breaking, something indestructible, the chain finally cracked a tiny insignificant corner.]

[You clearly heard an inexplicable sound in your own self, a feeling that is almost impossible to describe with any words or sentences.]

[It is not the brokenness transmitted from the outside world. ]

【Any physical injury.】

[It comes from the endless darkness deep in the heart. It cannot be found. Even if you look directly with your eyes, you can only see the deep black place. ]

[There was no pain, no sense of collapse that comes from almost breaking your heart, even breathing seemed to become a lot easier, like a bird that is about to leave the cage and can finally flap its wings.]

[Even though all this is not over yet, and even though the only fragile parts are just a few wooden boards, the blockade constructed by the chains is still extremely tight.]

[This is enough for the bound bird to catch its breath.]

[It was also enough for a cool breeze to come through the gap. ]

[The second you are attacked by the spirit, a strange and incomprehensible scene flashes back in your sight at super high speed.]

[The cherry blossoms in full bloom, the uphill road with strong winds, the hat blown by the wind, the skirt swaying slightly, the dark golden panties, the first birthday gift, the shy and self-abased girl. ]

【ah……】

[You seem...]

[——I forgot something important. ]

……

"Now..."

“That should bring about change.”

Abonya's delicate fingertips hidden in the nun's robe pinched the fabric on her chest. The overly loose clothes were highlighted by her unusual figure. Her relaxed brows finally made her compassionate attitude fade a little.

It's all over. There's no need to keep being nervous. The disaster that might have come or the catastrophe that might have been caused will never happen again.

No need to worry about when the end will come, when disaster will hit the paradise, and when Alicia will cry.

The rules have been used to prevent Jiang Cheng and Ailishia from getting along.

It was impossible for the boy to get close to the girl anymore.

A change of this magnitude is equivalent to a huge change to the entire Eternal Paradise.

No matter what happens after the change, it won't be worse than the ending we see, where even the paradise will be destroyed and only the crying girl will be left.

Although Aponia was not yet a fusion warrior at this time, he did not have any strict understanding of his abilities, had not been to the depths of the Fire Moth, and had not conducted any related experiments or research.

Just because of the coming of the Great Collapse, she was an ordinary nun who had just left Dusk Street for a few years and lived a quiet life in another place.

The girl also has some exploration into the power that comes from herself.

Not a very deep dig.

There is almost no exploration.