Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Reality: When the thunder breaks the sky: 146. Raiden Mei: We agreed, see you tomorrow

Mei Raiden suddenly recalled the loss she felt when she saw Jiang Cheng leaving. She moved forward without any reluctance, as if she was about to lose him again. Her body unconsciously became limp and she collapsed to the ground, with only her hands subconsciously stretched out, as if she was eager to grab his collar and pull him back.

If we separate this time...

There will probably be no chance for us to meet again.

It was clearly an inexplicable and strange emotion, a tiny strand among the countless thoughts that appeared in every moment, but at this moment it squeezed out all other thoughts, leaving only the final worry and fear that should have been insignificant.

Perhaps extreme emotions are the easiest to detect, just like among a group of ordinary people, it is often the people with the most unique looks who can be spotted at a glance, and they are the only ones who can be remembered in a simple way in a very short time.

My body was shaking... I just instinctively thought that I would never see Jiang Cheng again, and that the things that had become my daily routine would continue to repeat endlessly. The panic seemed to flow from my fingertips along my nerves back to my heart from beginning to end.

Maybe she was never the Queen of Thunder and Lightning, but just a monster who was complacent in the insulation room.

But even monsters deserve to be helped.

At least Mei Raiden once accidentally read a novel in which there was a person who called himself a monster, and she met her own Sakura.

Although the ending wasn't very good.

Although Mr. Sakura did not have the courage to follow through to the end.

It has nothing to do with how long they have been together. People who have been shrouded in darkness for a long time will do their best to pursue the light even if they see it for a moment.

There is no difference between staying for a day and staying for a month, it’s just that you can use more factors when searching, and you can find the light faster.

Because humans are creatures of memory, they need to know all knowledge and common sense. Only when they see the light will they realize that they are in darkness, and only when they are awakened by others will they realize that what they have been experiencing is unfair.

But sometimes not knowing is better than knowing.

At least I know the fear after that...

It is truly genuine.

Just like the monsters in some myths and strange stories that will attack only when discovered, their lives used to be ordinary and even considered normal. After knowing that all this was not true, they finally showed their sharp fangs.

It was as if everything she had experienced in the past had not left her, but was just suppressed and waiting for the right moment to pull out the shining knife and stab her.

It wasn't until I saw the student ID card dropped on the ground that I saw the picture of Jiang Cheng, with a serious expression, like a puppet, without any emotion.

Unlike the talkative and knowledgeable boy he had seen before, the boy inside was like a tool machine that had lost all emotions and dreams.

The date shown above means that Jiang Cheng had already arrived at the school before, so the previous statement about him being a freshman was a complete lie from beginning to end.

Jiang Cheng already knew who she was.

Jiang Cheng knew everything that happened to her.

This is not a help that is decided on a whim alone.

For some unknown reason, Mei Raiden did something that was not polite - she picked up her student ID card and followed Jiang Cheng's footsteps, walking all the way here and then reaching out to knock on the toilet door. Only then did the emotions ease a little.

What happened next didn't matter.

It doesn’t matter if your heart is racing.

It didn't matter that I was instinctively worried that Jiang Cheng would be unhappy because of the excessive offense.

It doesn't matter whether she is considered not to be a proper young lady or something else.

She just wanted to wait here, waiting for external factors to break this stagnant life. If she wanted to have emotions, she had to at least wait until the chains were removed.

……

"It's okay. I'm not in the bathroom. My clothes are clean. Someone just sent me a message. Don't worry about hygiene. This place is not usually used as a toilet. Qianyu Academy is an aristocratic academy. At least it's not bad in this aspect. Although moral conduct is more important for students."

Jiang Cheng unlocked the lock on the door and gently opened the toilet door a corner, leaving a hole just big enough for a finger to fit in.

Perhaps because he had just experienced some irresistible tragedy caused by lack of communication, he subconsciously explained all possible misunderstandings, even the slightest ones.

"what……"

Still so gentle and considerate.

Gentler than before.

What exactly happened to Jiang Cheng in this short period of time?

It doesn’t matter anymore…

Mei Raiden let out a breath slowly, took out the student ID from the gap between her socks and thighs, gently passed the scented card through the gap, and went deep into the darkness with her right hand.

Perhaps it is because when people focus on something, their sensitivity increases. The contact between the skin and the door edge feels like being licked by an animal's saliva-filled tongue, causing a chill from the spine to the top of the head.

That is the proof that the stagnant water has been shaken, and it is the only manifestation of actively entering into something different from the past, something fresh and something never experienced before.

Even the sleeves were lifted up a little, revealing the jade-straight, perfectly plump arms and fair skin unreservedly under the light.

Until her hand reached a point where it could not go any further and would leave dust on her clothes without touching anything, the girl sighed silently in her heart and stopped this unprecedented behavior.

This somewhat excessive distance is enough to show the card in hand that is entering the bedroom without reservation.

——It’s a student ID card.

Jiang Cheng could see his own picture printed on it. He was new there and had just been beaten into a pulp by Gundam. He was still in complete shock and was basically too frightened to muster any extra emotions.

Maybe it was because he left in too much of a hurry. After all, a student ID card and the like could not be compared with a simulation. Even the school itself could not be put on the same level as the golden finger. It was normal to be in a hurry.

Before, I was just an ordinary person. I had not experienced any special enhancements before the resurrection match. I was still a mortal with some wisdom, and the settlement had not even been completed at that time.

In short, these are all unimportant things. Even if you really lose it, you just need to spend some time going to the Academic Affairs Office tomorrow to get a new certificate.

"Student Jiang Cheng, it may be a bit presumptuous to say this all of a sudden. I heard you say that you just came to this school. If you need me, I can..."

"Can……"

"I can show you around this school!"

……

——It’s a miracle.

As a well-educated Yamato Nadeshiko, who was influenced by the Confucian implicit culture and was immersed in relevant rules since childhood, she behaved like this.

——I can’t understand it.

Even if it was just an indirect invitation, it was too direct for a young lady to say so. Handing over a fan after the encounter would have seemed impolite.

For a person who is constantly bullied and humiliated... and whose life has almost no hope, even just raising his head is extremely difficult, and taking the initiative to move forward and reach out is completely impossible.

No matter how hard it is to understand or accept, it is better than not being able to meet someone who seems to be your friend when you are uncertain.

People who lack love do not have the ability to delay gratification.

This in itself is too luxurious.

Just as animals will only choose to store food when they are full and have enough water, even if the act of storing food is to save their lives.

For those who lack love, even the slightest bit of tenderness and care seems too precious, and even the slightest unmet desire seems like an unattainable miracle.

Someone once did an experiment in which they gave a group of children a candy each and told them that they would be away for a while. As long as they did not eat the candy before they came back, they would be given two candies when they came back. The hope was to use this method to determine the common characteristics of successful people and to believe that people who could delay gratification were more capable.

But those who conducted the research overlooked one thing. How could someone who has never eaten sugar resist holding the candy in their hands and looking at it without tasting it?

For people who have candy to eat every day, how can they possibly put all their attention on something they get cheap every day?

The final result was as no one expected. After decades, those who resisted eating sugar did live much better than those who couldn't.

This does not mean that one is better or worse. It just means that children who have candy can ignore the candy and focus their attention on other things.

The same goes for relationships. Long-term lack of something will make people subconsciously believe that they are not worthy of it, so every gain will be considered a fluke. Since it is a fluke, there will be no chance of being lucky a second time, so you must never gamble on having a second chance and you must seize everything that is in front of you.

Mei Raiden couldn't bear to see this encounter become a chance encounter, and she couldn't accept that someone who could become her friend was slipping away before her eyes.

Rather than letting the uncertain hope disappear before your eyes because of your own reasons, it is better to take the initiative to break the shell. At least this way you don't have to regret why you didn't try to keep it on another night of being bullied.

……

Well……

——Is this a super straight shot?

Even Alicia's rank at the beginning is not as good as hers.

Although true feelings can never be divided into levels, such precious things can be felt by one's own heart.

I just didn't expect the progress to be so fast. We were just chatting casually. It seems that Mei Raiden is really lonely at this time.

Although her rank is low, she is almost on par with Vilvi in ​​courage.

Just a guide or something...

Raiden Mei...

You should have known that this is not my first day at school.

It is clearly recorded on the student ID card. Can an encounter that started with a lie leave such a rich legacy?

I always feel like if I refuse now something terrible will happen.

Jiang Cheng summoned the Star Sea Harmony, stroked it gently, and felt the sticky feeling as if even his fingertips were being sucked, and decided to agree.

Anyway, I have basically acquired the strength, so even if I can only use it a dozen times, it will be enough. I can just think of it as walking around this academy to change my mood.

"Thank you very much. After all, this is a noble school. If there is no one who knows enough to act as a guide, I will be very troubled."

He took back his student card from the girl's tightly clenched hands. In the subconscious contact, his fingers were as soft as delicate petals in full bloom in spring.

"I'm free at noon tomorrow. I only need to attend half of the school's classes. Anyway, based on my grades, it doesn't matter if I don't attend the whole day."

"If you are also free, please come here as early as possible and wait for me."

……

"Great……"

"what……"

"I said yes, I will be there on time tomorrow."

Mei Raiden corrected her complacency - she gently pinched her fair face with the fingers of her other hand, letting the pain dispel her emotions.

This was the first time the girl made such a big movement after she was sure that Sword Saint Houm had left, because the fingertips of the hand that reached in were also rubbing, as if feeling the touch left by the unintentional contact with the boy just now.

Somewhat delicate.

There are almost no calluses on the fingertips that would appear on students' long-term pen holding or on working people's fingers. The fingertips are as perfect as a newborn baby's.

Even a young lady like her had rough skin on her knuckles that was difficult to remove due to her kendo training.

Not to mention being a normal person, even the tactile experience was quite different from the previous one. If the voice and tenderness inside had not changed, Mei Raiden would really have suspected that she was dazzled and misplaced her senses.

Maybe she was wearing some makeup or something.

She withdrew her fingers. The palm that once held the student ID was now empty, but something more important than the student ID was left behind - her fingertips had unconsciously touched it once during the previous action, and perhaps it still retained Jiang Cheng's body temperature and smell, which was definitely not a bad smell.

"That……"

"I won't bother you for now."

Mei Raiden patted her red face and stepped back step by step until even the shadow of the building gradually became blurred. Then she turned around reluctantly and walked towards her past and present.

For the first time, she prayed inwardly.

hope……

There could be fewer nails in the shoes.

……

what is this?

His first encounter with Weiwei was at least awkward, at a birthday party that was not his, and it was too strange for him to stay in the bathroom to deliver things.

Although he was not going to the toilet, he was just temporarily renting an excuse, a reason that would allow him to play in the resurrection match and witness more tragedies.

In a sense, it would be better not to fight. At least Alicia would not have her hope extinguished again. It was the cruelest and most desperate thing in the world, and it perfectly made up for the regret of not seeing her own death with her own eyes.

Don't make up for this.

……

PS: The outline of this volume has been prepared. The structure has been designed this time, and the viewing experience will definitely be better. It will not be like the first simulation where one person is persecuted all the time. **, flash point, lifelong regret and knife are all ready.

Although my writing skills are not very good, I will try my best. By the way, I will share the group chat. Wei Wei is the best in the world: 940764470