Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Perhaps it was because it was meaningless, or perhaps she couldn't face the whole world of life, the former girl could only surrender in the face of such malice.

Is it going to be the same as before?

Is my happiness going to be shattered again like before?

Do not……

No.

absolute!

Absolutely not!

Only this time it cannot be interrupted, only this time it cannot be interfered with by others, and only this time it absolutely cannot be destroyed at will!

Even if she was facing the fear of being hurt, even if it was like a person bitten by a poisonous snake seeing a more poisonous snake, the fear that she had faced countless times and was engraved in her instincts, the result of resisting in vain in her memory, knowing that she might not be able to resist, the girl could not treat it by silently enduring it as she had done before, only this time.

——This is a date with Jiang Cheng.

and so……

Mei Raiden moved her feet, and bit her lips again, which had been bitten countless times in a day. Her eyes stayed on the gift she had carefully selected and wrapped for a few seconds, and then she turned her head away without hesitation.

——Let’s go.

Just like I thought before, as long as I can avoid the predicament and escape from this place, and as long as I take Jiang Cheng away with me, I will never be caught up again.

You don't have to pay three times the price for a worthless kaleidoscope, and you don't have to buy it only in this one store. There are quite a few souvenir shops like this in this building that is designed to imitate the streets of the last century.

Although most of the people who come here are old grandfathers and grandmothers, and it is not very popular, it can at least be considered a half-tourist attraction.

No matter how unpopular a tourist attraction is, as long as it is not really in the middle of nowhere, there will definitely be plenty of shops specializing in selling souvenirs.

The girl was determined to leave here. After enduring silently countless times, she finally chose to resist for the first time. For the first time, she made up her mind to deny the worst outcome, until the annoying voice like a fat pig came again, as if she had predicted the worst result in advance.

"Do you want to go to another store?"

——The girl’s thoughts were easily pointed out.

……

"No~"

"There's no other choice, Mei-chan."

The manager of the souvenir shop tapped the glass counter with his short, thick fingers, and looked at Raiden Mei's pitiful tearful posture with a twisted smile, as if he was deliberately trying to stir up her emotions. His body, which was covered with grease like a fat pig, picked up the gift carefully wrapped by the girl and pulled the delicate purple satin roughly and vulgarly.

"Since she is the daughter of a financial fraudster, of course you have to raise the price, Miss Lei Dian. You don't want the person you are dating to leave with empty hands and end up with a disappointing ending, right?"

"I'm the only souvenir shop around here. If you don't buy from me, just pick up a stone from the road as a gift for him."

"I wonder if that person will be very angry and dissatisfied after receiving such a perfunctory gift, and will never contact you again~"

The deliberately fabricated tone was meant to provoke the anger of others from the very beginning, and the sense of provocation used to add insult to injury was fully exaggerated.

The fat that only exists in discrimination videos has made the striped shirt look like a watermelon pattern. Half of it is wet and dangles on the body, clinging to the swollen and greasy skin, with a greasy, rotten yellow color.

Even on a spring day with continuous drizzle and wind blowing, the air on the road still had a pungent smell from last night's dew and the fragrance of flowers, and even the slightly darkened skin and the whole body were covered with a greasy smell. Even the voice was short and rough, just like a pig grunting.

If it were a guy like this in the past, let alone standing in front of the girl and showing off, he would be blocked by the guards beside him just by approaching.

However, now, this guy who is like a stereotype taken to its essence can be the only souvenir shop owner and look down on the girl from a high position.

"How about it, do you want to buy it?"

"You only need to spend three times as much to get a date."

……

The triple offer was exactly what the girl had left, all the money she earned from working, including the reserve funds. Once used up, it would be impossible for her to live a normal life in the future no matter how she planned.

It was as if the other party knew the girl's bottom line from the beginning, and provocatively gave the result that she would have to pay everything in order to proceed reluctantly.

There was no expectation of selling from the beginning, it was just a deliberate attempt to stir up emotions and disrupt the happiness that seemed to be running smoothly.

How could anyone spend all their money, even all their savings, to buy a gift that can only be used as a souvenir?

The shop owner simply took pleasure in Raiden Mei's dilemma. He used his fat, short fingers to insult the gift that the girl had wrapped with so much love. His occasional urging made people feel so sick that they wanted to vomit. Even if they lowered their heads in disgust, the extremely strong fishy smell still kept pouring into their noses like a thorn in their flesh.

……

"Kill him..."

'Kill him now!'

It seemed that he finally couldn't bear to watch all this anymore, and a certain individual at a deeper level couldn't help but interfere with the girl who needed protection.

Sparks of thunder flashed at his fingertips, an outline that was only possible in the hottest weather due to static electricity, and was the result of high-speed flashes of lightning that would never appear on a rainy spring day.

Although it was weak and could not even attract much attention, it represented that the emotion called anger had accumulated to an excessive level.

It ignited in my heart for no reason, as if the dissatisfaction that was instilled in me out of thin air had turned all the provocations from the other party into fuel as the first flame rose.

The girl's emotions had already been accumulated to the limit due to various things, and with just the slightest push, they would inevitably explode on the spot.

Jiang Cheng's vague neglect, countless disappointments, and almost daily bullying, anyone could easily provoke and bully her.

These may be tolerable, or suppressed, but they only temporarily amplify the movement. Extinguishing the flame does not mean that the fuel disappears.

One could even faintly hear the sound of teeth clenching together, and as a warrior, he had to suppress his instincts patiently in order to avoid throwing punches.

Her delicate body was trembling in the rhythm of lightning. She had to use this method to avoid being slashed by the steel pipe next to her.

The girl is not cotton, nor is she mud that will not hurt if you rub it casually. The title of the Queen of Thunder and Lightning once represented a vigorous and decisive style.

The reason for silently enduring in the past was nothing more than the stress of being taken away from everything in an instant, being completely crushed by the cruel reality, and losing all the important and cherished things I had in the past.

Faced with the malice of the entire world and the harm from everyone, even the knife in your hand cannot solve everything. The person holding the knife needs to find a target before swinging the knife, and this specific target cannot be the world itself.

The educated and gentle girl could not do what the neighbor did, and really pick up a knife and chop all the people she hated to teach those who were too bad a lesson. This was the usual limit.

I give up because I am powerless. I know I can't do it, so I simply stop struggling and choose to face the world numbly.

Anyway, no one can withstand the malice of the whole world. Feeling the disgust of others with a normal heart will cause yourself to be worn out faster.

——It’s different now.

I am no longer forced to numb myself with the emotion called numbness as before. I am no longer forced to stay in the shadows helplessly, watching the darkness spreading all the time without a glimmer of light.

Regardless of whether the result is good or bad, the girl did crawl out of her shell a little bit, and the self-depraved ostrich raised its head from the sand. She could no longer hide her numbness, and everything was felt more clearly.

At least now, the shopkeeper in front of me happens to meet a clear goal and can also serve as a proof of taking another step forward.

For a guy like this, it doesn't matter if he gets beaten up.

Even those guys wouldn't go along with him.

No one should care about such a bad person more than me.

She raised her head fearlessly, and the mist disappeared completely. Raiden Mei no longer concealed her anger. She didn't need to look for a weapon, but clenched her five fingers into a fist. The first blow of resistance was imminent.

Even someone who had no idea about temptation could sense the change in the atmosphere. There was no doubt that the girl was no longer prepared to endure it.

It seemed that they had never thought that the girl, who had silently endured any bullying, would resist or even fight back with force instead of escaping.

Just as an extremely disgusting individual, he was invited by a blonde woman and showed the worst malice towards the girl along with countless others.

The owner's fat head suddenly tightened, and his belly, which was bulging like a sack filled with fat, began to shrink like a frog.

It was almost like a clown in a story entering reality. His ugly, bloated face instinctively revealed fear, causing the loose fat all over his body to tremble constantly, and a hot breath filled with masculine body odor emanated from his mouth and nose.

The feeling of being targeted as an angry individual is an instinct that even a complete idiot can feel. People who don't have this ability can only prove that they are completely alienated genetically and don't even have the instinct to protect themselves.

Although being aware and being able to resist are two different things, the only thing the store manager can do as a fixed impression in the video is to tremble in an ugly manner, fully demonstrating his own ridiculousness and guilt.

……

"Mei-chan, think carefully before you do anything."

"——This is a date."

……

Reality: When the thunder breaks the sky: 168. You don’t want your date with him to be ruined.

His body suddenly froze, his muscles seemed to be in spasm, and all the strength in his body seemed to be drained suddenly. He couldn't even move forward half an inch. The only thing left was his fist in the air, just a hair's breadth away from the store manager's ridiculous, ugly fat face.

The bony fingers were less than five centimeters away from the fat and loose face, yet it seemed as if a world away.

No matter how her anger burned or how dissatisfied she felt about it all, the only thing the girl could do was to control herself.

Or rather, now rather than being angry, rather than this inexplicable emotion that is burning my reason, I feel more relieved that I didn't continue the fight.

The belated rationality forcibly prevented the final and worst outcome from happening, leaving room for redemption of everything that exists, even if it is done in an extremely humble manner and with extremely clownish behavior.

I……

doing what?

Why would you do such a thing?

If I really did that, my date with Jiang Cheng would be completely ruined, and the impression left by our first out-of-school activity together would definitely be a bad one.

No, that kind of thing is absolutely not allowed. It is absolutely forbidden and unacceptable to leave a bad impression on Jiangcheng.

The girl is indeed not a weak and incompetent loser, but it is a pity that there are too many things that are universally called burdens.

If I chose to endure because I was numb in the past, now it is simply out of fear. I cannot accept that the little I have now will be lost. I try my best to hold on to the last bit of light in my hands and to close my fingertips, even if I will lose a lot as a result.

The fear of losing Jiang Cheng's will was even more intense than the nameless anger in his heart, and it replaced the raging flames in just a moment.

The insults and ridicules I suffered did not matter, and I could endure paying more money, but the only thing I must not lose was Jiangcheng.

Anger was replaced by a calmness that was considered cowardly in most situations, and Raiden Mei could only watch helplessly as the shopkeeper, who was only trying to add insult to injury and had just been frightened into an ugly state, began his provocation.

"——Picking quarrels and provoking troubles will lead to detention."

……

"It's been so long. You know the police officers here. Do you think it's easier to bully the offspring of a financial fraudster, or is it easier to be taken for tea as the manager of the only souvenir shop on this street?"

The store manager's ugly face was the result of no concealment, and the villain's success was portrayed to perfection, especially when the girl really stopped.

Seeing the ugly state of fear and the girl's resistance just now, he realized it belatedly and started to take advantage of others' misfortune. After all, the girl was just pretending and could stop with just one word.

A thunderous snoring sound came from his slightly opened thick lips, just like a living wild boar. His greasy and messy hair had not been washed or trimmed for who knows how long. His dark skin was covered with thick and dirty sweat stains, and was fumigated with sweat mist and heat waves that almost blurred his vision. The sour and smelly sweat unique to middle-aged men rushed straight into the delicate nose of the girl in front of him.

"——You don't want your date with him to be ruined like this."

……

Until this moment, the girl could realize more deeply her own weakness, incompetence and uselessness, and how strong the malice of this world was to her, to the point of wanting to completely tear her apart and even destroy her soul.

"it is good……"

"I'll buy."

……

——There is no longer any choice.

Mei Raiden was so clearly aware that it was a voice coming from deep within her heart, like an oracle from God that could not be disobeyed or stopped.

It was as if a talkative mynah bird was circling the girl, announcing the established facts. Will, consciousness, thinking... those seemingly gorgeous and dazzling things could not even last for a second under the pressure of reality.

It's just a bubble under the sun. It can only live in photos and fairy tales. It can't exist for even a second in reality.

It has always been like this.

This is normal.

Her eyebrows drooped weakly, and her face, which should have been filled with anger and humiliation, was now numb and powerless. When she was alone, the delicate and lovely young lady turned back into the way she was before the boy rescued her.

When the store manager said that, all the space was squeezed in an instant. It seemed that there were countless smarter ways to use it, countless other solutions, and even you could just turn around and leave without being taken advantage of. But in the end, only the stupidest one was left.

Because that idiot named Raiden Mei would never let Jiang Cheng's date have any shortcomings because of any of his own reasons. Even the possibility of the slightest damage would make the girl feel deeply bad about herself.

Yes.

Maybe you don't have to do this. Maybe it's not necessary.

Jiang Cheng should not be the kind of person who would leave too bad an impression because of a single date. Even if this date was really ruined, even if it really left a very, very, very bad impression on Jiang Cheng, he could still be invited next time. After all, his dormitory address was clearly written on his student ID.

Even if I might be considered a pervert, as long as I go to the dormitory and knock on the door, and squat there like a dog instead of going out, I will definitely open the door and listen to other people's requests.