Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

not right...

I...what am I doing?

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PS: When I was searching for information, I suddenly discovered something that almost no one knew. For a long time after Anti-Entropy was established, the combat effectiveness of Anti-Entropy and Destiny were almost equal, or at least not too different. From the beginning, Joyce was able to force Otto to throw missiles at the city, and Old Yang beat up Cecilia and Siegfried. Later, there was the mecha troops that completed the quantum technology and could provide large-scale support instantly. For a long time, Hua, who was the strongest on paper, would hardly make a move against Anti-Entropy... until the main storyline was approaching, and the gap in strength was realized because of the rise and fall of one and the fall of the other, internal unrest, and the appearance of the plug-in Orchid Dell.

One controls the New World - America, and the other controls the Old World - Eurasia.

Reality Chapter: When Thunder Breaks the Sky: 178. Mei’s social death…?

The girl finally regained some sense and recalled her previous behavior. She saw her own face reflected in the mirror of the simple makeup box in her hand - her soft face was already full of blush, and even her delicate and jade-like collarbone and round and fair shoulders were all showing something wrong. Her crimson-purple eyes seemed to be about to cry, and her slightly raised lips were even more regrettable.

There is no doubt that this is because she looks like she has suffered severe bullying and seems to be obsessed with things that only appear in books. She must be a girl who can arouse desire and pity.

At least if you look deeper into those tearful eyes, you will see that within those mosquito-repellent pupils there are a few lines outlining a strange love heart, as if she is really a fallen girl intoxicated by hair.

At any point in time, a girl would undoubtedly choose to stay away from such a person. People who have fallen into depravity cannot be saved or helped.

——If I hadn’t seen it in the mirror.

——If that person is not you.

The girl seemed to find it difficult to understand all this at the first moment. She subconsciously reached out her hand and pinched her soft and delicate face with her slender fingertips.

The pain came as expected, and I had no strength to control it, and it even made my right face even redder and more swollen, which even looked a little off.

what……

It’s me…

The fact that was enough to cause a mental breakdown still reached the heart. No matter how much one wanted to deny it or resist it, the truth was so cruel after all, so cruel that it did not even allow any chance for distortion or tampering.

I……

What on earth has it become? ! !

……

Mei Raiden was a little speechless. She hadn't opened her mouth yet, but her throat became hoarse without her permission, as if she had been hurt by the roar in her heart.

Incomprehensible.

Can not accept.

It is even more impossible to agree with.

The person in the mirror who looked like the woman in the mysterious legend turned out to be myself. I actually found myself in the place where Jiang Cheng was just now, and even started to have wild thoughts just because of the word "hotel".

She was a lady of high rank, although she is no longer so now.

As the Queen of Thunder and Lightning, no one recognizes her anymore.

As the daughter of the Raiden family, although she is no longer alive.

At least Mei Raiden received an undoubtedly orthodox education. Although her father was very open-minded in this regard, the well-behaved girl also accepted the requirements of a noble lady, among which etiquette and reserve were extremely important.

You must not be impolite under any circumstances. People who are too rude will be looked down upon. No one wants to play with a rude person.

If you behave too wildly, not only your father but everyone around you will hate you and no one will get close to you.

Although the girl no longer cares about etiquette because her father went to prison and she suffered from the malice, persecution and bullying of the world, the words from her home economics teacher have always been deeply engraved in her heart.

The reason why I don't care and don't maintain it is simply because no one is worth doing this for, because no one will be close to me anymore.

Since etiquette is for making friends, and there is no need for anyone to show off, then even if you are a little self-destructive, it doesn't matter compared to everything else.

The problem is that things are different now.

The girl has someone she must care about again.

A father is someone you should never lose and should never leave.

Even at this moment when there is only one of them, Jiang Cheng is more important than his father, like the only sun, the only light that cannot be lost. But even in this situation, the girl still behaves so abnormally.

He was obviously waiting for me.

He was clearly still waiting for me to move on to the next step.

But I started to let my mind wander just because of one sentence.

what……

I'd better die.

The girl, who was frightened by the truth and forced herself to regain her sanity, almost screamed. However, before the voice of self-denial, self-abandonment, self-loathing, self-disgust and self-hatred came, an extremely cold feeling came from her face - a drink emitting a chilly air was handed to her at some point and pressed mercilessly on Raiden Mei's red right cheek.

“Ah ...

……

"OK OK."

"Have a drink first and calm down."

The sound that had originally interrupted the girl's thoughts and forced an end to the vortex of her wild imagination once again interrupted the second increase in pressure. It was so close that even the hot air it blew out seemed to be sensed by her red earlobes.

A certain boy who had been a bystander from the beginning had clearly realized the girl's problem. He used the omnipotent and invincible gravity to buy an iced drink from the vending machine without leaving.

In order to protect her teeth and health, the girl may not drink Coke, so she might even buy orange juice which is relatively acceptable.

No matter what it is, as long as it is given by Jiang Cheng, Raiden Mei will accept it without hesitation, and orange juice is more suitable than Coke.

At least the girl did calm down a little after feeling the coldness. Her fingertips that were pinching her face loosened and she took the bottle of iced drink.

"Thank you, Jiang Chengjun."

"I really need... to..."

……

A sincere apology was made subconsciously. She held the cold drink carefully in both hands, using the coldness that had just come out of the freezer to thaw her fiery heart. Perhaps what happened just now was too exciting, and her heart was still difficult to calm down and support, so she subconsciously ignored it all, until a few minutes later, Mei Raiden realized who the visitor was.

and many more……

River……

Jiangcheng?!

It’s Jiangcheng!!

It's the Jiangcheng that I was concerned about just now! !

I was clearly paying attention, Jiang Cheng didn't leave! !

It’s over, it’s really over this time, it’s really over this time! The pictures haven’t been taken away yet, including the ones showing the panties, which look like perverts posing for photos, all of them are in front of me!!!

It was as if a talkative mynah bird was circling the girl, announcing the established facts, and its dry and rough voice spoke of the arrival of despair in a harsh and ridiculous manner.

Thoughts, will and even personality were suffocated by this sudden disaster. Everything that constituted 'Raiden Mei' was crushed so easily.

——The real collapse has come.

That is far superior to everything that just happened.

Because no matter how rude it was, no matter how perverted he felt, he never showed it, and was never discovered by Jiang Cheng, until now, until this moment, until the moment he came in person.

Click.

Something broke deep inside.

Even the drink in his hands seemed unreal. The fingers that once held a sword and won the highest honor of Mian Xu Jie Chuan could not even hold a tin can weighing several hundred grams. His steps became light and everything in his sight began to spin. His dizzy head seemed as if he would faint on the spot in the next second.

It's not bad this way.

If I could die like this.

Then I won’t have to see Jiang Cheng’s disappointed look.

Something called mentality has completely collapsed. Just like that girl named Weiwei, the only girl in the world has lost the meaning of living when she witnessed her most miserable side with her own eyes. Even life can be abandoned.

If Jiang Cheng says anything nasty, just point it at the wall next to you.

The girl made up her mind secretly.

The pupils were fixed on the sharp edges standing up in the gap between the doors.

Compared to the sun disappearing before your eyes and being shrouded by endless shadows again, dying before the night comes is a more understandable thing.

……

thump—

thump—

dong dong dong-

It's the heart that's beating.

The sound that was originally hidden in life and difficult to hear even if you were still and listened carefully without putting your hands on your chest was so clear at this moment, just like the bell announcing the approach of death and the footsteps of the god of death.

Perhaps it is because of excessive despair that both the body and soul have hit rock bottom. The most difficult thing about the death penalty is watching the time of beheading approaching step by step. The inner thoughts will be extremely chaotic. Even if you want to will and want to stop it, you are powerless and can only watch your thoughts continue to run wild.

I don’t know what kind of bad words the boy will use to express it.

Would you just say you hate it?

Would you say disgusting directly?

Or is there a tiny, insignificant possibility that is just a fantasy, that Jiang Cheng just likes something so perverted, disgusting and vulgar?

If I can leave a deep impression in this way, perhaps it can be considered a success.

what……

Yes.

Maybe even a bad ending could have a reversal.

Even if it is hatred, there is a chance that it will turn into attachment and obsession.

Adolescent boys are in the period of hormone surge, so they naturally have unrealistic fantasies about the opposite sex. Although this approach will completely kick off the etiquette mentioned just now, or abandon it rationally, in this case, the girl will not mind and will leisurely plan to become a part of the boy's fantasy, take advantage of the opportunity, and try her best to become the object of his dream.

It's okay to be mean.

Means or not.

Shameless is okay.

Isn't it enough as long as we can achieve the final result?

Just leave a trace in your heart.

That is my victory!!

however……

Neither the expected look of disgust, surprise, or even a little bit of obsession from the boy was there, nor was there even any gaze fixed on her. When she turned around, she could only see air.

"——Don't worry, I didn't see it."

……

The boy seemed to have anticipated this. As he handed over the drink, his footsteps sounded without hesitation, and at the same time, the plain voice arrived.

When the girl Shanshan raised her head belatedly, she could only see the boy who handed her the drink, standing outside the door as before, basking in the golden sunlight. The ends of his hair, occasionally blown by the wind, seemed to be shining, and his straight body showed no sign of compromise or evasion due to lying.

Not false.

Not a lie.

Not a comfort.

The boy did not see anything about the girl, or rather, he took the initiative to avoid seeing anything that would embarrass the girl.

Even when I was handing over the drinks just now, I handed them to them with my back to them, to make sure that my eyes wouldn't catch any details in the pictures.

The outlines of the edges are all absolutely negative behaviors. Since you are here to help, you must never add fuel to the fire. All firefighters have to do is to pour water.

As a top mine-clearing expert, even when facing a mine like the one Vervi was facing, he could accurately reject it after defusing it. She handed him a whip with spikes, ready for him to use his latest medical device that could heal most wounds within one minute.