Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

Rather than letting the boy be treated as a pervert.

It would be better to just admit that I am a pervert!

……

"I know."

An extremely calm and gentle voice.

It was almost in stark contrast to the incredible and unexpected thing that had just happened, as if one had returned to flat land in the moment of free fall after jumping off a cliff.

There is almost no polishing or process in between, which makes people doubt whether the cliff jumping just now actually happened. Is it possible that it was just an illusion?

For a moment, Weiwei even doubted her eardrums and her vision.

Jiang Cheng, who had inexplicably looked a bit naive in the accident just now and was almost socially dead, suddenly had a shrewd light in his eyes - the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, but disgust was revealed on his face.

"you will not……"

"You thought I didn't even know that?"

"Who am I in your eyes? Although I am indeed no different from a fool compared to you, it shouldn't be to this extent."

……

indeed.

With fat like this, no matter how naive you are, it is impossible for you to really mistake that for a hat.

Unless it's a complete perversion.

——The boy is not that kind of person.

——The boy is definitely not a pervert.

Even if he sometimes appears to be a person who doesn't care too much about his reputation, he wouldn't be such a pervert as to treat his panties as work clothes, and there are two obvious holes in them. It is impossible for him to be sincere in saying such things.

Chapter of Stars and Moon: 41. Please be more rude.

It's just that I was too anxious just now, so anxious that I didn't even have the ability to think.

In an instant, the mood changed from extreme depression and internal consumption to panic, fear and shock. The leap was more severe than falling from a thousand-meter cliff.

Or rather, my mood has been changing dramatically throughout the day.

From unwillingness to the awareness of moving forward even if there is no way back.

I was in an extremely tense mood but I got through it smoothly.

Then it collapsed suddenly over a small thing.

My emotions have been in a crazy ups and downs all day today. There has never been any ordinary calm, although this kind of calm and normality is an unimaginable luxury for some self-loathing patients.

……

"Your condition has reached level three all of a sudden. At other times, it would be a psychological issue that could not be resolved in a short period of time."

"This is really not normal. Don't worry, I won't do it next time. I just want to use something stimulating to wake you up."

"If I don't take drastic measures, my only two friends might have problems on my first day at work."

"My social circle isn't much wider than yours."

"Now we are no longer alone."

"I'm standing right in front of you."

……

what……

Is that so?

With the boy's detailed explanation, everything that happened just now became traceable, the ups and downs of emotions were replaced by rationality, and all the confusion was taken away.

calm……

Too quiet.

The perfect soundproofing did not disturb anything in the building, not even a gust of wind. The only sound that could be heard was the 'clicking' sound of the gears rubbing against each other in the spiral workshop, which was designed at great expense and was specially designed for the sake of coolness.

The emotional changes just now only existed in the girl's heart and did not have any impact on the world.

No matter how rough the waves are, if you stand at the foot of the cliff and watch from afar, you can at most see a few waves hitting the sea surface, splashing cold water. If you are a little closer, you may be able to feel the water hitting your face.

That's all.

——Except the boy in front of him.

He always adjusts the girl's emotions and worries about her when she is lost.

The girl's memory clearly recorded the trace of worry and concern that appeared on the boy's face at that moment.

"I……"

"Sorry, I'm distracted again..."

Unconsciously, she found that the boy in front of her was too close to her, and she could even feel his hanging hair scratching her forehead.

It was the first time that they had such close contact while being sober. There was no cold screen between them, nor was there a fine-tuned lens to observe them. The smell of the boy clearly and completely flowed into Weiwei's nose.

The fair little face has never been so rosy.

Shame, helplessness, all kinds of emotions instantly filled Weiwei's mind, causing her to close her eyes and not dare to look directly into the boy's eyes.

The emotions that have been pent up in my heart never seem to disappear, but are just constantly piling up and accumulating until the moment comes when they can no longer be suppressed.

Once again, the boy gave me warmth.

Once again, the boy helped.

Even if he has done such a perverted behavior...

If it continues to accumulate like this, it will definitely explode one day, and even the abyss will not be able to bear it.

Wei Erwei mustered up her courage and no longer avoided looking into the boy's eyes. Her silver-grey eyes had never shown so clearly the emotions that had been pent up to the extreme, and a decisive voice uttered from her cherry-colored lips.

"I don't dislike it, but I would rather ask for more of this kind in the future."

"Please be a little rougher."

"——My only master."

……

Once upon a time, pupils that seemed as deep as the abyss were flickering, which was the second proof of the girl's courage on the same day.

A person with extremely low self-esteem experiences a brilliant awakening when all the emotions brewing from being saved burst forth.

Under normal circumstances, the boy would probably admire the girl's progress, as she could finally break free from the shackles of her own heart and move towards a new world.

——If the girl’s words did not contain words that could be misunderstood by anyone.

“——What are you talking about?!”

……

Even if it was an invitation from the girl to the boy, that extremely autistic man would dare to face Alicia, who was perfect enough to make anyone escape from self-ashamedness, just to help and save one person. This matter itself was not really completely unacceptable and incomprehensible.

In a sense, this is even a necessity, an inevitable result.

Those who have never seen the sun cannot face it directly.

Like a moth to a candle flame, it will be burned alive.

However, the emotion brought by standing under the sun and being warmed is irresistible, and the desire for the sun accumulates doubly every day.

But those two words uttered by the girl with joy made the boy fall into a state of complete incomprehension for the first time.

"Ah... I said it wrong. I'm the owner of Spiral Workshop. Now I'm also one of the employees. I'm really sorry. I accidentally confused them."

The girl lowered her head slightly, hiding all the expressions on her face in the shadows, only her silver-gray eyes revealed a hint of loss.

It seemed that she was also embarrassed by her previous slip of the tongue, and was so shy that she didn't even dare to see anyone.

——If there is no loss buried deep in the pupils.

Rejected?

Too……

A normal person like a teenager.

He definitely wouldn't be as twisted, dark and perverted as me.

Thinking of handing over everything at once is too radical.

How can I form a closer and more inseparable relationship with the boy, to the point where it is absolutely impossible to separate, to hold this warmth in my arms forever, and to always be able to see and touch the perfect boy?

Can't think of anything.

I can't think of it at all.

Even with the girl's perfect wisdom, which had never been weakened, never divided, and never sealed in any way, she could not figure it out.

In other words, after eliminating all the despicable conditions that might hurt the boy and damage his mood in the slightest, it would be impossible to play the cards with just this thin and extremely weak hand.

If I could overcome the limitations of means, if I could treat the young man equally with a normal heart, if I would no longer be so self-deprecating, self-loathing and self-destructive.

This may be a question as simple as the answer of one plus one.

But as a savior, as a passenger, as a girl who has been sinking in the abyss for countless years, it is impossible for her to cross over and succeed.

So……

That's all.

Chapter of the Stars and the Moon: 42. Velvet's ○○ Knight Gets Down

【If only I had said the wrong thing. 】

[Otherwise it would be too heavy.]

[I don’t know if it’s your illusion, but ever since you became friends with the girl, she seems to have been obsessed with giving you everything she has.]

【Literally delivering everything.】

[It seems like she wants you to make the decision for her, or even go beyond just making the decision.]

[The girl seems to want to use this method to escape from everything she will experience in life, hiding behind you with peace of mind, and also use this method to establish a deeper connection with you, creating a one-sided inseparability. ]

[This is essentially handing over all of your independence to others, allowing them to easily decide your fate and everything about your future. ]

【You don’t like this. 】

【Controlling others is a very tiring and torturous thing. 】

[You have never understood why some people are obsessed with controlling the fate of others, something that is extremely troublesome and difficult and has no fun at all.]

【Maybe they don’t want to take responsibility. 】

[I like to watch others rushing in a certain direction at my command, and finally walking into a dead end and falling into the abyss.]

【--abnormal.】

[You can only call it that. ]

[This abnormal mentality does not belong to you. You cannot get pleasure from commanding others to fall into the abyss. You can only feel deep guilt.]

[The girl's talent and ability are too terrifying. Any decision she makes could change the world.]

[You refused to make any choices on behalf of the girl, only provided basic suggestions, and were determined not to accept anything the girl gave you.]

[Because if that happens, any choice you make will greatly change the girl's life and the path she will take in the future.]

[It's just too much to bear. Any mistake is enough to overwhelm you with guilt.]

【Let’s leave it at that for now.】

[You have plenty of time, and there will be more opportunities to help the girl get rid of her inner inferiority and contradictions and become a perfect person.]