Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

[No matter how much you want to deny it, no matter how much you refuse it, no matter how unwilling you are to do so, according to the logic of fairy tales, this story should not have happened at all. Even your spirit will choose to escape because of the great shock, and choose to forget this cruel and desperate fact.]

[——You will have to face it eventually.]

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Chapter of Stars and Moon: 70. Alicia must have gained a lot from her journey

[You can't even go crazy, because this body has never been a so-called human being, and the soul carried in the body is not a human soul. ]

[Escape is a human privilege, a privilege that a monster like you can never pursue. ]

【But why is the world like this? 】

[Why is the world like this?! ]

In the quiet private room of the coffee shop, Alicia was alone, covering her head. She even forgot about the stool and fell to the ground. Her plump thighs wrapped in white silk were helplessly crossed together, and the cooked soft flesh came into contact with the cold ground.

Why……

Would the world be like this?

Alicia knew that she was the only one who had no right to say this.

Because the initial disaster was brought upon himself.

This ending shouldn't have been like this, this ending shouldn't have been like this.

——Because of me.

But why...

Lianjiangcheng will also be implicated.

I am just an ordinary person who should be happy, but why do I have to go through so much suffering and tragedy that I shouldn't have to endure?

It's like a third-rate novel.

Good people never live long.

Instead, it was a scourge like himself, a disaster to the world——the Herrscher who survived to the end.

even……

The boy was still preparing a birthday present for himself before he died.

even……

The boy didn't know that he had taken away the flying flowers of the past life.

even……

This weapon is no longer suitable for me.

Perhaps saying this is to belittle and deny the young people's hard work.

But in fact, the weapon seemed to be prepared for a god, a god that only existed in fantasy, not for a normal human being.

What made the girl even more upset was that the original design draft that she still kept was the one that suited her best.

But why did it become the current version?

do not know.

I dare not know.

The girl, whose thinking was both elevated and depressed, saw things more clearly than herself, and the pain of being in two perspectives at the same time was even more sad and difficult to accept.

When I went to the boy's villa with beautiful visions and enlightenment and opened the door, with a flawless smile on my face, I suppressed all my worries, leaving only the emotions and love that touched my heart.

Strive to give young people the best experience.

She will definitely not be disappointed when it comes to experience.

What he saw was the cold body of the young man.

The smile on his lips froze, the opening remarks he had prepared stuck on his lips, and everything he had carried and everything that had helped him turned into pure...

--burden.

……

……

what……

At least……

He still remembers himself.

No?

Alicia could clearly hear herself descending. She saw the young man waving at her by the glass window and said with a smile.

"Hello."

"Goodbye."

It was as if it was the smile when we first met, facing the wind, facing the night, facing the flowers under the tree canopy, helping myself grab the drooping branches.

This at least proves that the boy has never forgotten himself.

This at least proves that the boy has never changed.

Yes.

The real meaning has never changed.

This is something that he should have known and realized a long time ago. In fact, the boy has never resented or hated himself.

Even if you have been ignored, even if you have been neglected, even if you have been chased countless times, you will not get even a moment of care and concern.

That gentle boy is still the same as when he said he wanted to leave with me when we first met.

The only person who truly chooses to escape, who truly thinks he is righteous and carries a burden, who truly looks at others differently, and who truly refuses to face things is just one person, a guy who cannot be called a human being and is essentially a monster.

Even to realize all this, I needed a love rival, a most annoying person, to tell me.

……

——What’s the point?

Can't the boy make himself happy if he doesn't forget himself?

Despicable, shameless...

This has no meaning other than showing the girl how ridiculous his inner self is.

And all this reached its climax when he saw the weapon. All emotions and all will were smashed to pieces by the heavy hammer.

——This is Jiang Cheng’s final evaluation of himself.

An extremely ironic answer.

I have completely denied the fact that I was born as a human being and no longer think that I might have had the slightest chance of becoming his lover.

Use the best and most perfect explanation.

Because only gods ignore individuals.

Only God loves everyone equally and watches over everything tenderly, not treating individuals as consumables or garbage, even though this nature has deviated from humanity and even from love itself.

And even this is an extremely ironic answer.

—still refuses to hurt himself.

It was not until this moment that Alicia deeply realized why self-harm is a good medicine and a necessary behavior to save oneself for people who are under severe mental stress and are almost mentally collapsed.

Pain needs to be shared.

There is a limit to the amount of pain you can feel at one time.

Compared to mental pain, sometimes inflicting some physical pain to alleviate mental pain is an act of saving oneself.

This behavior is essentially a diversion. It is meaningless and cannot change anything. It is just a way to take care of the things in front of you.

Although the girl did not feel as pretentious as others, she also thought that this behavior might be inappropriate. Facts have proved that people cannot understand each other until the same trauma brings the same pain.

——For those who are truly desperate and in pain, isn't it worth striving for the chance to live one more second?

Just as the highest sensitivity is insensitivity, when highly sensitive people with strong empathy encounter a tragedy that they are truly unable to resist or bear, their bodies will actively cut off emotions for the sake of self-preservation.

There is an upper limit to physical damage, and once it reaches a certain level, death or loss of senses will occur.

That's the limit of pain.

That’s all the living brain can carry.

But the pain felt in the heart is endless, can be infinitely superimposed and extended, and mental illness is more difficult to distinguish than physical illness.

Many heroes and brave men can endure physical torture but cannot accept mental blows.

This doesn't mean they are weak.

But this kind of harm is never something that life can endure.

Human beings were not created to resist such disasters.

……

【If this weapon is modified. 】

[Change it back to the original version, the version that should really belong to the girl rather than the god. Maybe add a flawless return after the realm of true self, and let the name of this birthday gift from the boy become...]

[——The realm of true self: flawless return.]

[Very romantic.]

[It is a perfect gift, proving the purity of this boy that has never changed from the beginning, and proving the awareness you have regained.]

[But unfortunately...]

[You were just a moment late, just a few minutes late, and just happened to pass by the boy for the last time.]

[——You are no longer qualified.]

[You even need to continue to insult the boy, insult the boy in your heart, insult the boy who actually exists - you need to transform this bow into the boy's appearance, even if it is just a shadow or a reflection.]

You will collapse.

【If you don't do this. 】

[You will really give up all will to live. ]

[Even though I know it is false, even though I know it is self-deception. ]

[This is a disaster that no human being can bear. One thing leads to another. The most tragic thing is that you seem to be able to change forever.]

[That’s right, you can choose any right thing at any point in the middle. You don’t even need to choose, just don’t hesitate.]

【None of them would have ended up like this. 】

【You can't do anything.】

【I can’t do anything.】

[You ignored the boy's expectations of you. Weiwei made herself Ikaros, blessing and cursing you to move forward, step over her body, fly to the sun, and save the boy, but you didn't do it.]

[No matter how many times you think about it, your body will be in great pain, and your heart will feel a faint sense of closure, making you really want to stop breathing. ]

[How can an incompetent guy like you who can't do anything survive to the end? ]

[But you can't die, because the boy wants you to live. ]

……

Perhaps because of some kind of imitation, some kind of similarity, after watching each other's lives for a long time, the two people have become inseparable.

At the last moment, Jiang Cheng left behind a device called will, which was the same as Wei Erwei's.

Abandoned regret.

Abandoned sadness.