Finally, I became their white moonlight

One just stood there stupidly, and the other, after being pushed down by Ming Hai, sat on the ground and couldn't get up.

"Do you want to... talk to them?"

Toyokawa Shoko withdrew her gaze and asked him cautiously.

After the initial shock and grief, she did lose her composure for a time. Despair and sadness almost engulfed her consciousness. She even thought that if something really happened to him, she would leave this world with him and face the fate of death together.

But after he regained consciousness, was able to speak, and seemed to be in a relatively stable condition, Toyokawa Shoko gradually regained her composure and rationality, forcibly suppressed her inner chaos, and began to chat with him.

As long as he could be sent to the ambulance conscious, there should be no problem - it might take a long time, and he might be left with some disabilities, but he would eventually be able to stand up from the ground and continue to stay by his side with a warm smile.

Once she reaches the legal age, regardless of whether Toyokawa Jiayue agrees or not, she will marry him, give birth to two children, and build a happy and warm family with him.

If he couldn't make money, she would support him as long as he could give her a kiss when she was tired; if he couldn't do housework, she would take care of everything at home as long as he could sit on the sofa and chat with her with a smile like this.

As long as Ming Hai can survive, Toyokawa Shoko can give everything, agree to any conditions, and endure any pain...

As long as he is alive.

She forced herself to ignore his pale face and the pool of blood that was almost drained from his body, and believed this more persistently and firmly than anyone else.

"No, forget it."

Ming Hai shook his head, looking at her eyes, which were obviously red from crying, but pretending to be strong and staring at him, with a faint smile on his lips: "Now is the time for young lovers to talk... Xiangzi, can you please listen to me?"

Xiangzi nodded vigorously: "Well, what do you want to say?"

"There's a USB flash drive in my room with a song I wanted to give you. I was planning to give it to you on Valentine's Day, your birthday, but unfortunately I can't wait until that day."

"……Eh?"

Standing stiff in place in a daze, Toyokawa Shoko opened her eyes wide, a dazed expression on her face, the color of blood was rapidly fading away, and her body began to tremble with fear again.

"No, y-what are you talking about... That's not true, right? My birthday is still half a year away, how could I not be able to wait..."

"I don't have any property left. I've already given you the house. Remember to sign for the property certificate when the time comes... You can sell it if you don't want to live here, but I'd rather you treat it as a secret base for [CryCHIC] so that I can have a sense of participation in your future activities."

"……do not talk."

“Please tell Su Shi and the others that knowing you is the second greatest happiness in my life. Don’t be too sad, live well, and let the music of [CryCHIC] resound in the hearts of people all over the world.”

“…Stop talking.”

"By the way, don't blame yourself too much and think that I got into trouble just to save you. I was already seriously injured when the power went out. If not, the lamp probably wouldn't have killed me... So, it's not your fault, it's fate's fault."

"——Stop saying these meaningless words!"

Toyokawa Shoko could no longer bear it, and hugged his body, screaming at him in anger and pain.

The originally beautiful and delicate little face was wrinkled and trembling ugly, and hot tears kept sliding down the cheeks, forming a river of sadness connecting the two of them.

"I don't want to hear your last words! You will never leave me! We will always be happy!"

"So, don't comfort me at this time, and don't decide the future on your own!"

"...Didn't you tell me that once you finally fall in love with someone, you won't give up easily..."

She sobbed, but Ming Hai couldn't lift his hands to wipe away her tears.

He could only smile bitterly, raising his neck as high as possible and gently kissing her cold and cracked lips.

Then he laughed softly.

"Yeah, so I worked very hard and managed to hold on until now."

I'll hold on until you come to see me, I'll hold on until I go to find you.

Death was like an impenetrable darkness ahead, constantly approaching him - until now, it was just around the corner.

Ming Hai leaned on her arm, the colorful world in his eyes was gradually blurring, and the twinkling light of the stars was also beginning to fade away.

The lost strength was like losing the source of nourishment, which could never be recovered.

He knew that there wasn't much he could say.

"I may not be able to fulfill some of my promises...but at least, when I was able to do it, I followed through, right?"

Ming Hai opened his eyes hard, even though the tears stung his eyeballs, but he wanted to see her face clearly and remember all the details about her.

He was still smiling, as if he wanted to use his smile to dispel her deep sadness and despair.

"Girlfriend, even if I'm gone, you have to live well."

"Maybe one day in the future, we will meet again."

"Also... being able to come into this world, to meet you, and to love someone so intensely are all happiness that I have never experienced before."

"So, I hope you can remember that there is a man in this world who loves you so much and has gained countless happiness from you."

The candlelight slowly went out, Minghai closed his eyes weakly, allowing the darkness to cover his consciousness, and letting his body fall back into the black ocean, no longer able to breathe the air filled with the scent of gardenias.

But at the end, his weak and gentle voice still clearly reached Toyokawa Shoko's ears.

"Xiangzi, I wish you happiness."

"…whether I exist or not."

At this moment, the consciousness named Ming Hai finally completely left the body that had lost all vitality and was in a broken state.

All that was left was blood on the ground and a girl with sky-blue hair who was crying and hugging him.

The glimmer flower headband fell to the ground, with a pattern of blood and amber intertwined, looking up at the deep night sky where the moonlight faded.

Volume 163: Chapter Chapter Return, Mission Settlement

I fall into sleep tonight with hope for tomorrow in my heart; until the end of one tomorrow after another, I face a peaceful death.

……

...

Really, peaceful?

Feeling her temperature and her breath moving away from me, the pain and numbness along with my body turned into nothingness, and my consciousness gradually faded away.

Even though his heart had stopped beating, Ming Hai could still feel his chest trembling with fear, instinctively afraid of what he was about to face.

'Why am I afraid?'

This was a cowardly reaction that shouldn't have happened to him.

——Because death to him is just a calendar that has been turned over once.

Back then on the battlefield, in order to save a child he didn't know, he was hit by several holes in the body by stray bullets from the clash of the two armies, and finally died in the bombardment of artillery fire. Not to mention frowning, his last thought before death was just to worry about the safety of the child, and there was no fear in his heart at all.

No matter his abdomen was pierced by a steel pipe or his bones were broken by a headlight, Ming Hai could always grit his teeth and smile, and continue to chat and laugh with others as if nothing had happened.

The pain in the body, the passing of life, the disappearance of consciousness...

Even though these were things that were impossible for him to get used to, he still calmly accepted them as if he was receiving a receipt from a supermarket clerk.

He thought he was strong enough, mature enough, and heroic enough to risk his own life.

——In that case, how do you feel now?

Why is he afraid to leave this world?

Why would he tremble in the face of a mere "death"?

Why……

Knowing that the outcome would not change, he still longed for time to go back and return to his peaceful yet pleasant daily life?

Ming Hai was very unwilling, but he couldn't understand where this cowardice came from.

——Until the sound of the girl's crying truly disappeared from my ears.

He finally understood.

"What?... So I'm so afraid of loneliness?"

The moment he realized this, Ming Hai couldn't help but laugh.

Although he had no idea whether he still had the strength to laugh.

……

The answers to all the questions, and the reasons why he had struggled to survive until now, were the same.

Because the important people are still here.

Because if he died like this, he would lose many, many important things and would leave this world full of laughter and warmth.

Leaving those people he loves and who love him.

For Ming Hai, death is no longer such an easy thing.

He would not be relieved by this, nor could he take away any happiness - he could only leave the sorrow to them and return to being alone.

"I like them more than I thought."

Many memories flashed by like a marquee, creating gentle and bright ripples in the darkness.

Not only Toyokawa Shoko, but also Nagasaki Motoyo, Takamatsu Tomo, Wakaba Mutsu, Shiina Tateki...even his socially phobic deskmate who was almost forgotten by him, all left unforgettable marks for him in this story of less than half a year.

There is no doubt that Ming Hai likes them, likes these characters who have passed through his second life.

I like you so much that I am willing to become weak, and I like you so much that I don’t mind being indecisive.

I love them so much that I don’t want them to cry because of my death, and I love them so much that I don’t want to say goodbye to them forever because of death.

"So... this pain that even death cannot eliminate is proof that I love them, right?"

Even though his consciousness was sinking in the ocean of nothingness, Ming Hai could still feel it. For the first time, he felt such a vivid sadness and reluctance, which were violently tearing at his heart and crushing his emotions.

I was the one who accepted the commission from the origin of the world, I was the one who didn't care about the ending of death, and I was the one who accidentally fell in love with them...

Even if he was killed by the system in such an old-fashioned way, Ming Hai would not blame the other party for the pain like a tantrum child.

He knew better than anyone that the person who wrote this ending was himself.

This is a story of one’s own doing.

-

So, Ming Hai began to ask himself questions and answer them.

'Have I done what I should have done?'

done.

Although some of his promises could not be fulfilled, he continued to struggle within the script of fate until he was helpless, trying to live until the last moment for them.

So……

'Have I protected her life and her dreams?'

What is Xiangzi’s dream?

"I will form a band by myself and convey my inner thoughts and will to the world through music" - I think it's about this?

Although the time was short, the scale of the Summer Music Festival stage with thousands of spectators was already large enough...

So, has it been conveyed?

Did everyone feel it?

The answer is beyond doubt, the feeling of being touched still remains in my heart; when "Spring Shadow" sounds in late summer, even the wind and rain are willing to stop and listen.

They did it, and so did he.

At last……

"Do I regret coming into this world?"

Of course, there is no way to regret it.

Even though I am extremely reluctant and heartbroken - it is better than never having met them.

"Really? That's fine."

Questions were answered and regrets were relieved.

Ming Hai gradually relaxed his consciousness that was unwilling to dissipate, and allowed his body to sink deeper into the sea.

Although he couldn't feel his facial muscles, he felt that he should have a smile on his face now.