Finally, I became their white moonlight

Nagasaki Suyo sighed helplessly and said bluntly: "Think about it carefully. That day, before we went on stage, didn't Ming Hai say a lot of strange things? And whether it was when the spotlight fell or when the lightning accidentally caused a power outage, he saved us at the most appropriate time... Don't you think all this is too coincidental?"

Her voice was calm and steady, like that of a detective slowly revealing the murderer's motive for committing a crime, without any doubt about the conclusion she had drawn.

Toyokawa Shoko moved her lips slightly, as if she wanted to refute her, but suddenly she seemed to think of something, and her face showed a slight hesitation.

As expected, Ming Hai said something to her... Accustomed to it, ignoring the jealous bitterness in her heart, Nagasaki Suyo continued without changing her expression:

"Because he knew that he would have an accident. This was all a stage and a script he arranged... and he also left a hint so that we can leave this nightmare in the same way as he did, so that we can see him off this stage."

"I've explained it so clearly, you should be able to understand, right?"

"..."

Toyokawa Shoko stood there speechless, her amber eyes less lustrous than before, and she looked into her deep, dull eyes, hesitant to speak, letting the silence gradually distance them.

It was not until Nagasaki Suyo began to get impatient that she lowered her eyes, sighed softly, raised her hand and took off her black lace hat, revealing her long sky blue hair that was no longer restrained.

Nagasaki Suyo was stunned: "Where is your headband?"

Toyokawa Shoko frowned and answered softly, as if not wanting to recall the past: "I put them away. I don't want them to be gone from me one day."

"Yeah."

Nagasaki Suyo didn't have this worry. Anyway, she would soon leave this world wearing this headband, so she just had to remember to tie it tighter before leaving.

"So, have you thought about it?" She tilted her head slightly, still staring at Toyokawa Shoko, "I know this requires courage, but for us, there is nothing more terrible than never seeing Ming Hai again, right?"

"…Yes, as long as I can make Narumi-kun speak again, I will gladly sacrifice my life."

Pressing the hat gently against his chest, Toyokawa Shoko responded to her gaze calmly. There was no more hesitation in his eyes. A stern and determined light was reflected from those gem-like eyes.

"But the premise is that it is not a false fantasy to escape reality!"

"——Moshiro-san, please wake up. Narumi-kun... has left us forever and will never come back."

The heartbeat gradually turned cold and stopped, and the blood flowing through her body went from warm to dry; even if she cried until her throat was hoarse, that broad and warm chest would not rise, allowing her to vent and rely on it to her heart's content...

No one understood better than Shoko Toyokawa the fact that his life slipped away from her arms on that day.

Precisely because it is so profound, so painful, and so cruel - we should not deny everything he has given.

What’s the difference between that and an alcoholic who uses alcohol to intoxicate himself and always escapes from reality?

"You're the one who's not sober, right? Xiangzi-chan."

Nagasaki Suyo was not angry about this. She just crossed her arms, a mocking smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, and she sneered at her sad and tenacious will.

"Ming Hai left so many messages, telling us that this was just a nightmare and we had to wake up to see him in reality...but you didn't want to believe any of it. Instead, you preferred to investigate the custom of marrying a ghost, disguised yourself with affection and strength, and tried to calmly accept the fact that Ming Hai had died in front of us."

"Can doing this bring you some comfort from your despair and pain? How is this different from anesthetizing yourself?"

"..."

The color quickly faded from her face. Toyokawa Shoko bit her lips unconsciously. She used so much force on her fists that they trembled slightly, but she could only squeeze out a low sob from her throat: "What do you know now... Do you think I am really willing to accept reality? Do you think I don't want to be like you, hiding in my room all day, hugging his photo and crying bitterly?!"

"If it weren't for Narumi-kun, he was at the end--"

Nagasaki Suyo raised her eyebrows slightly: "The last?"

"…Sorry, I don't want to continue."

Swallowing the words that were about to roar out, Toyokawa Shoko took a deep breath, locked all her emotions in her heart, and her voice returned to calmness like ice.

"Mr. Sushi, please let me retract my words... Your escape during this period did not help you recover from the pain. Instead, your spirit completely collapsed and you went to extremes, and began to have unrealistic fantasies."

"Unrealistic? Whatever you say."

Nagasaki Suyo shrugged nonchalantly.

Since she doesn't believe it, then I might as well not take her with me. This way, I can naturally have Ming Hai in reality all to myself.

"Since you like this nightmare so much, you can spend your miserable life here in tears every day... Don't worry, I will take good care of Ming Hai in reality."

"Sushi-kun, please wake up!"

Seeing her unmoved appearance, Toyokawa Shoko could not help but take a step forward, and shook her thin shoulders that seemed to be only bones with her palms, and said anxiously and solemnly: "Ming Haijun would not want to see you like this! Using madness to paralyze yourself will not bring any happiness, it will only-"

Snapped!

Before she could finish, Nagasaki Suyo raised her hands and looked down at Toyokawa Shoko.

"happiness?"

There was a sneer on her lips, and there was no warmth in her eyes, which were as cold and dark as a snowy night, without a trace of light.

"Unlike you—"

"My happiness disappeared that day."

The moment the spotlight fell, it wasn't just Ming Hai's body that was shattered.

And she also thought she was strong and relieved.

It was also at that moment that she finally understood a truth.

Only in a world where Narumi exists, can Nagasaki Soyo exist.

Her soul, life, future and happiness had long been intertwined with his, and not even death could separate them.

She loved him more than herself, and she longed for the love he gave her - no matter what form it took.

She couldn't accept the reality that she would never see his smile, hear his voice, or feel his warmth again.

——So, just be crazy.

If madness can help her find the meaning of her existence, Nagasaki Suyo doesn't mind being a reckless mad woman.

"He did leave me, but it's not forever. He's still waiting for me 'off the stage'."

Repeating this sentence without allowing any questioning, Nagasaki Suyo no longer paid attention to Toyokawa Shoko's reaction, and walked around her towards the door with a cold face.

"You don't even want to believe this possibility. Do you really like Ming Hai? Is he really more important to you than his own life?"

"Although he chose you...but in the end, I am more suitable to stand by his side than you."

As she stepped out of the door, she said goodbye softly:

"Goodbye, Xiangzi-chan."

But just after he finished saying this and before he closed the door, he heard Toyokawa Shoko speak quietly behind him:

"I won't let you do anything stupid. I'm going to call Aunt Nagasaki right now and ask her to come back and take you to see a psychiatrist."

"..."

Nagasaki Suyo paused, gnashing her teeth in annoyance.

You actually use this trick?!

She said so many words just to vent her emotions that she completely forgot that Xiangzi could directly overturn the table and report his parents, using the name of protection to prevent her from carrying out her next plan.

If I had known this, I wouldn’t have been so kind!

Although she could deal with her mother and the doctor by putting in some effort and pretending to be a good girl, Nagasaki Suyo didn't want to wait any longer. She wanted to leave this world and see Ming Hai today!

So, do it? Now, here?

"If I rush straight to the balcony, Xiangzi-chan won't be able to stop me in time."

Nagasaki Suyo touched the USB flash drive in her pocket, then looked at her clothes which had just rolled on Minghai's bed and were now messy and wrinkled.

"No, we must be fully prepared."

After thinking for a moment, she quickly turned around and went back to Minghai's house and snatched the mobile phone that Xiangzi had just taken out.

"Don't get me wrong, I have no intention of doing anything stupid."

"Really?" Toyokawa Shoko obviously didn't believe it, frowning and looking straight at her expression, "Leaving this world in the same way as Ming Hai... I think your meaning is clear enough."

"Of course I've thought about dying, but that doesn't necessarily mean I can wake up safely. Isn't there a study in foreign countries that says dying in a dream can very likely lead to the death of the spirit, and you end up becoming a vegetable or something like that."

Nagasaki Suyo lied without batting an eyelid, trying her best to comfort the troubled young lady in front of her.

Although a Cheng Yaojin showed up in the middle of the plan, what she was going to do did not change at all - she just added a step in the middle of the plan to "knock out Toyokawa Shoko so that she would not interfere with her."

As long as it is to escape this nightmare, Nagasaki Suyo doesn't mind using any means.

But before that, he had to gain her trust and dispel her doubts and worries about himself.

"I know you don't agree with my idea, but I still want to ask you to give me a chance... a chance to verify my guess."

As if she had completely given up on pretending, Nagasaki Suyo lowered her brows, crossed her hands in front of her abdomen, and rubbed each other with her ten fingers as if tangled.

She made her voice painful and her expression sad - making herself look like a poor girl who was forced to face reality.

Of course, Toyokawa Shoko would not be fooled by her so easily.

——Unfortunately, she underestimated Nagasaki Motoyo’s determination and persistence, and also underestimated her deep scheming and acting skills.

"Don't worry, what I'm going to do is very safe. It's just a small experiment. If I fail, I will accept the fact that Ming Hai is dead, just like you."

"Why didn't you tell mom? Because I didn't want to make her worry... Look, I didn't want to make her worry, so how could I do something stupid that would make her sad?"

"I'm sorry. What I said just now was just venting... Maybe I don't have the courage to really face death."

"But even so, I want to use my own way to pursue any possibility of meeting Ming Hai!"

"So, Xiangzi-chan, please."

"If I can't see Ming Hai again, I..."

She burst into tears, her emotions broke down, she knelt on the ground in grief, and almost hugged Xiangzi's thighs to beg her.

In Toyokawa Shoko's flustered, but gradually calmed, eyes full of pity and guilt.

Nagasaki Suyo lowered her head, a calm madness flashing in her eyes.

-

"What experiment are you talking about?"

While taking the elevator upstairs, Toyokawa Shoko asked in confusion.

Nagasaki Motoyo wiped away the tears that she had just forced out, and her expression had returned to calm, but there was still a bitter smile at the corners of her mouth.

"Well... you might laugh at me if I tell you this, but you should understand it by then."

——Actually, I just haven’t thought about it yet.

She was so busy acting that she had no time to perfect her lie and could only say a few perfunctory words.

"Really?" Toyokawa Shoko tilted her head slightly, looking at her profile in confusion, her eyes still full of suspicion, "Do you think I'm the kind of person who would laugh at you on such an important matter? Not to mention that it's related to Narumi-kun..."

"Of course not, it's just a little hard to explain." Nagasaki Suyo changed the subject as if nothing had happened, "By the way, Xiangzi-chan, weren't you dealing with Ming Hai's funeral? Why did you come back suddenly?"

When talking about this, Toyokawa Shoko's expression dimmed a little, her lips were slightly pursed, and the black lace hat cast a shadow on her pretty face.

As if she didn't want to explain further, she said softly: "I just want to find something to be buried with him."

"That's it."

Nagasaki Suyo didn't ask any more questions, as long as she successfully diverted her attention.

The distance on the first floor was fleeting, and she brought Toyokawa Shoko into her home and let her sit on the sofa.

I made an excuse to go back to my room, then went into the kitchen and made some relaxing vanilla tea.

"Have some tea and rest for a while. It just so happens that I have something else to tell you about Ming Hai."

Nagasaki Suyo took a few more cookies and placed them on the table, distracting her with small talk: "I found something in his room, which should be his relics that he deliberately hid. Did he tell you about it before he left?"

"His room?" Toyokawa Shoko picked up the teacup and was stunned for a moment. "Could it be, hidden under his pillow?"

"Well, he did tell you."

As expected, Nagasaki Suyo also picked up the teacup, but just squinted her eyes and smelled the fragrance without any intention of drinking it.

"Not really? At that time, he only told me that there was a USB flash drive in the room, and there was a song in it that he wanted to give me..."

Toyokawa Shoko drank a sip of hot tea, her frown slightly relaxed, and her voice became calmer and more relaxed: "At first I thought he put it in a conspicuous place like a table, but when you said 'intentionally hiding it', I remembered what he told me before..."

As if recalling the midsummer sunshine, she looked upward and smiled gently and happily.

"Boys' treasures and dreams are hidden under their pillows... Narumi-kun is so mature, but some aspects of his personality are still like a child who never grows up. It's funny and cute."

"..."

Not wanting to see that dazzling smile, Nagasaki Suyo lowered her eyes, slowly placed the teacup on the table, and then took out the USB flash drive from her pocket.