I was raised in the simulator, and I’m really not a bad woman in Ark!

[In the same year, Jie also unified and simplified the characters in Da Yan territory after the "Yan family" in accordance with the requirements of Da Yan Zhenlong and the pollution of the word sea. While getting rid of the remaining meme pollution of "Chi", it also further promoted the reform within Da Yan. ]

[Everything seems to be moving in a good direction. As long as you swallow up the last bit of 'idiocy', Jie will be able to escape from his responsibilities and live his own life like most of the fragments.]

[So Jie, who was tricked by the second sister to come to the capital and worked for hundreds of years in vain, is actually very happy. He even agreed with you to find an opportunity to get together and be happy for another ten years...]

【You also feel genuinely happy that you can help your brothers and sisters. 】

[But now, you have been so busy over the past year that you have long forgotten the questions in Jie's letter to you because of fatigue and the frequent use of power.]

[And this seemingly insignificant bit of forgetfulness has led to something you will never be able to let go of...]

[When you are about to devour the origin of 'chi' with the help of Jie. ]

[Wang, who was originally imprisoned in the capital as a prisoner, came here at some point. In front of you and Jie, who were exhausted, he defeated the Heavenly Master and the Candlelight Man who were protecting you with his 'Wu', which originally belonged to Zhongyue.]

[That 'Wu' is just a poor imitation of Zhongyue, even you can tell. ]

[However, because you have been hunting 'Chi' within Jie's authority for more than a year, your body, Jie, and the heavenly masters around you have all reached their limits.]

[Those officers and soldiers were completely useless, and were thrown to the ground in no time, unconscious.]

【Then Wang came directly in front of you, took a deep look at you and Jie, and then forcefully took away the ‘Chi’ that you were holding in your arms. 】

[You don't understand Wang's intention to do this, but at this moment you suddenly recall the abnormality in the second half of the letter Jie once wrote to you.]

[You seem to have noticed something. Because you are the dark side of the year, you are extremely sensitive to everything about the year.]

[And the moment Wang came into contact with the 'idiot' formed by the resentment of Sui, you clearly felt that Sui, who had been wandering in dreams all day long and whose consciousness was constantly dissipating, suddenly seemed to be slapped while sleeping, and there was a faint sign of waking up from the dream.]

[You realize that something is wrong. Jie doesn't understand what Wang wants to do, so he stands up and tries to snatch Chi back from this unpleasant second brother.]

【But unfortunately, it was too late. 】

[When Wang tried to touch the level that should not belong to him, his so-called good, so-called love, and so-called things he planned to do for his family...]

[It will only become the price he pays for his arrogance. ]

[As the dreamlike shadow appeared, Sui opened an eye that looked down upon all directions even though it was empty, extremely arrogant, yet also extremely terrifying.]

【Hope obviously failed, and almost became part of the year. 】

[And at this moment, you want to use your last power to save Wang, and then sacrifice yourself to let Sui fall asleep. ]

[But Jie was one step ahead of you, or maybe it was because Wang used 'Chi' as a medium to contact the consciousness of the year-old, so Jie was a few points faster than you. ]

【And when everything is over. 】

[All the memories of Jie in the world disappeared like a dream. Jie's sacrifice indeed made the consciousness of the year-old fall into that endless dream again.]

[But the dream that was supposed to be shattered after ten thousand years was shortened to just a thousand years. ]

[Jie died, died in front of you, died due to his recklessness. 】

[Your completely liberated broken authority now reveals all the malice it carried when you were created.]

【It's all over.】

[You looked at Wang who was unconscious in the corner, and for the first time, you felt hatred towards one of your brothers and sisters.]

[At this moment, you want to grab Wang's collar and ask him why he did this? Why did he make everything so bad when everything was supposed to be fine? Why did he touch something that he shouldn't touch? ! ]

[Under this surge of hatred, your obsession to protect and love your brothers and sisters, which has always supported you, began to waver for the first time.]

[Driven by hunger and new hatred, you first had the idea of ​​eating the fragments.]

[But in the end, your love for everyone still overcomes this hatred. ]

[You love Wang, even if he always rejects you with a cold face, even if he is always unwilling to accept your care. ]

[You also hate Wang, because he made you never see everyone reunited again, because he made you lose your beloved sister, because he... did something you can never forgive. ]

[But now you can no longer rely on self-eating to maintain your sanity. ]

[So you struggled to move your eyes away from Wang, desperately trying to suppress the hunger in your stomach, and turned your blurry vision to look at Jie who was constantly disintegrating.]

[At that moment, the string of reason in your heart broke.]

[When you regain consciousness, you feel only warmth and sweetness, and you stare blankly at your bloody hands and only a few pieces of torn cloth and hair accessories left.]

[You realize that you have done something that can never be forgiven.]

[The familiar taste in your mouth tells you that you have eaten Jie's body. Even though Jie was not killed by you, you have eaten your sister's body after all.]

[And this is also the first time you feel the emotion called despair. ]

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Chapter 53: Collapse, Leaving, Returning, and Ways to Recover

[Your body feels more relaxed than ever before, but your heart is filled with despair.]

[You stared blankly at the only trace of Jie in your hand that remained in this world. The sweet blood in your mouth made you instinctively recall the deliciousness and satisfaction you felt when you ate Jie before.]

[But the pleasure that is enough to make anyone sink only makes you feel a strong sense of nausea and stomach churning. ]

[You put your hand deep into your throat without hesitation, staining it with crystal saliva, and desperately want to vomit out the remains of Jie from your stomach. ]

[But no matter how hard you dry heave, what you vomit out is just some acid in your stomach, and Jie's body has already become a part of you, and has become your nourishment...]

[You don't know that your body has begun to recover gradually. The broken horns have grown back silently, and the blinded eyes have regained their sight.]

[The hunger that had been tormenting you has retreated into the darkness like a hungry wolf that has feasted on its food, leaving your body feeling more relaxed than ever before.]

【But at this moment, you can only feel infinite despair. 】

[When the second sister realized something was wrong, she rushed over in a panic and confirmed Jie's death.]

[Blinded by anger, she made the decision that she would regret the most for the rest of her life.]

[In a rage, the second sister ignored the unconscious Wang and protected him behind her. Then she angrily asked you many extremely sharp and soul-piercing questions, which made it difficult for you to answer.]

[It's as if Second Sister has already determined that you are the culprit behind all this.]

[Faced with the questioning from your second sister, you were trembling with trembling lips and unable to answer any of the other party's questions. After all, you knew very well how good the relationship between this second sister and Jie was.]

[Besides, you are in a state of confusion right now because you ate Jie's corpse. It is natural that you will not be able to defend yourself in the face of such questioning.]

[Although the Great Yan Imperial Guards behind my second sister have already forgotten everything about Jie, looking at the blood-stained cloth in your hands and the bloodstains around you, how are you different from the real murderer in their eyes? ]

【And when you want to explain something. 】

[The angry questioning from your second sister made you feel suffocated and overwhelmed.]

[Every word and sentence she used in her questioning was like a heavy hammer hitting your consciousness and heart, making your desire to explain feel like a fishbone stuck in your throat.]

[Especially when you mentioned Jie's death, you were sure that you had eaten Jie's body and you felt that your heart was being torn apart, and your thoughts were confused and your consciousness was blank.]

[After all, aren't you also trying to escape at this moment, and unwilling to accept Jie's death from the bottom of your heart? ]

[And when you gradually realize and are even forced to accept this fact because of your second sister's questioning. ]

[You almost completely collapsed.]

[You understand that this is not your fault at all, but you also clearly remember that you ate Jie's body.

This makes you feel very sick, and you start to hate yourself, thinking that you have become a monster and that you are not worthy of being forgiven.

[And your second sister's questioning and words only exacerbated the negative emotions in your heart. ]

[It reminds you of the letter, and makes you doubt yourself. You even ask yourself in your heart, if you had told Jie about the problem in the letter, would everything be different?]

[You don't know, but your extreme love and obsession make you feel that it will be different. ]

[So gradually... under the angry questioning of my second sister, my self-doubt, my inner disgust and avoidance.]

You start to feel like everything is your fault.

[The idea of ​​explanation also completely collapsed...]

[You even begin to think that it is the existence of the dark side of yourself that caused Wang's plan to fail.]

【That’s why Jie had to die, and even nearly killed Wang. 】

[You are completely in despair.]

【When the second sister saw that you didn't respond to her questioning, she gradually found it difficult to suppress the impulse and emotions surging in her heart.】

[If you are still able to explain a little at this moment, perhaps everything can still be saved. ]

[But unfortunately, with tears of sadness and anger on her face, the second sister slapped you in the face with a loud slap, and yelled at you with hatred to get out of the capital of Da Yan and never come back.]

[Nothing can be undone...]

[You left the capital of Da Yan like a lost dog, feeling distraught. ]

[Falling into despair and guilt over Jie's death, you did not look for any of the fragments, nor did you go back to find Xi.]

[You feel that you have lost the qualification to be their sister. ]

[After leaving the city gate, you cut open your abdomen with your hands in a small forest.]

[But apart from blood and acid water, there was no trace of Jie inside.]

[You, who had never cried before, cried for the first time after realizing that you couldn’t even erect a monument for Jie.]

[You buried the hem of Jie's clothes, which you were holding in your hand, in the soil as a cenotaph, intending to die here.]

[But when you think about your own dissolution, the consequence is that the fragments' life span in the human world will be shortened.]

[You can only let go of this thought and continue to live with the sin and condemnation in your heart.]

[After that, you wandered around in confusion for several years. You felt the presence of the fragments near you several times, but you were afraid that they were coming to question you about Jie, and you felt ashamed to see them again.]

【So you evaded several attempts by the fragments that wanted to take you home.】

[You even left Dayan, feeling guilty and wanting to find a way to revive Jie.]

[In fact, at this moment, because of your doubts about yourself, your entire existence is on the verge of disappearing, but the despair in your heart and the obsession of reviving Jie make you persist, and you don’t completely disappear because of your doubts about self-cognition. ]

[I just feel ashamed to face everyone, and I no longer think of myself as their youngest or eldest sister.]

[You just want to find a way to revive Jie, and then apologize to everyone. ]

[At any cost...]

[In the end, it was probably a bad fate, or it was destiny.]

[You met a giant beast named Ya, who was once expelled because of Sui, at the border of Da Yan. ]

[After a fight, you devoured Jie's body and gained some of his authority, and recovered some of your own authority. In the fight with Ya, you devoured everything of the other party bit by bit.]

[Therefore, you also know the way to revive Jie, and also get the method to make up for your own sins and completely untie the shackles on the fragments. ]

[——That is to replace 'Sui' and become the only 'Sui', then separate Jie and imprison your consciousness in a dream forever, never waking up, or to die together with 'Sui's' consciousness, in order to make up for the mistakes and sins you have committed.]

【And in this way, whether it is Jie's problem or the deepest problem in everyone's heart, it can be solved. 】

[As for the price, it's just that you need to fall into an eternal sleep like death, or completely dissipate. ]

[You think this is worth it. After all, as long as you complete all of this, you think you will be qualified to be everyone's relative again, right? ]

[So you got up and returned to Dayan. You didn't have the ability to learn everything from everyone and become a 'year-old'. ]

【But don’t forget, you are a glutton. 】

[You are the most perfect resurrected body prepared by Sui, and you are more qualified than Wang to try to replace Sui. 】

[You can't copy and learn everyone's power, so just eat it. ]

[Anyway, you have a way to bring everyone back to life, and you can preserve everyone's memories. You also have the confidence that even if you can't become Year, you can die together with Year, and let the fragments return to the human world.]

[So you started your action, and the first place you went to was Yumen. ]

[That’s where your journey begins…]

[You think Zhongyue will understand you, so you want to go see him, to gain Zhongyue's authority... and to gain the confidence to die together with Sui.]

[You will prepare enough trump cards, you will only succeed, and will never allow the possibility of failure. ]

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Chapter 54: Returning is a Strange Road