I was raised in the simulator, and I’m really not a bad woman in Ark!

Previously, she entered the first-person mode. Although she had an extremely realistic perception and experience of everything around her in the simulation, it was difficult for the "self" in the simulation to affect Ikaros, whether he had Originium disease or any other negative conditions.

In short, after Ikaros enters the body of "himself" in the simulation, he will not be affected by the negative feelings such as pain from "his own" body in the simulation.

Otherwise, the hunger that the 'Tao' experienced in the Great Flame simulation would be enough to drive Ikaros himself crazy.

But this time it was different.

After entering the simulated first-person mode, Ikaros immediately felt the weakness and pain from "himself" in the simulator.

Although it was still within the tolerable range, it was far less painful than the almost non-existent pain he felt the last time Ikaros entered the first-person mode.

This time it can be said that Ikaros's physical senses were completely integrated into the simulation.

This made Ikaros frown slightly, but considering that this might be due to what Ena had said before, the girl did not take it to heart.

After all, at this moment, Ekalos discovered that not only his own feelings became more real, but the simulated environment around him also became more real.

The aura of "dream" was also much less, and the physical sensation between reality and illusion gave Ikaros a somewhat novel experience, which was very similar to the way she performed her enhanced Originium skills.

Therefore, Ikaros didn't think it was a big problem.

...Well, probably.

However, Ikaros had no time to think about anything at the moment. After cleaning up the flower shop, the 'Ikaros' in the simulation had locked the door, stood up from the wheelchair, and walked with weak steps to a shower room in an inconspicuous corner of the second floor.

After taking a deep breath to ease the slightly nervous and complicated emotions in his heart, he opened the lock with a somewhat uneasy and complicated expression and pushed open the door.

At first glance, everything seems normal.

Although the wooden floor is not cleaned frequently, the good material and craftsmanship maintain its cleanliness and integrity. The guest room outside the shower room is still clean and tidy. Although the sheets and other places are covered with a light layer of dust, the neat layout still shows how seriously Ikaros cleaned the room last time.

This was actually originally a guest room of the flower shop run by Ikaros. It was occasionally used to entertain acquaintances from the past, and was also used by some well-behaved children from the monastery.

But ever since Ikaros picked up the sea urchin and adopted Skadi, this guest room has not been used for a long time.

It was like the room that Ikaros had prepared specifically for Gloria and Laurentina.

Although the latter is often cleaned by Ikaros.

To be honest, if Ikaros had not been desperate at this moment and was overwhelmed by her worries about Skadi and Laurentina, she would never have come here.

Although Hai Si had never shown any hostility towards her, and although Hai Si always gave her a sense of intimacy and a sense of calling in her blood.

But at the moment, the death of his parents still seems to be directly related to Hai Si.

Ikaros still didn't like the sea urchin he raised, even though he was always surrounded by a school of fish formed by sea urchins in his strange dreams.

But having said that, since Ikaros did not report this sea turtle to anyone, he would naturally take on the responsibility of taking care of it.

For example, they feed each other once a week, and change the water in the bathtub where the sea urchin lives every few days...

And today happens to be such a day.

Although Ikaros felt that his idea was somewhat crazy and absurd, he now had the idea of ​​backing out.

But since I'm already here, it doesn't matter even if the sea monster can't communicate with me.

At worst, you can just change the water and feed the fish as part of your daily routine.

I guess I found an excuse for myself...

Exhaling deeply, Ekalos stood in front of the shower room door. After finding an excuse for himself in his mind, he pushed open the door with a heavy heart.

I saw the dark blue sea monster again, which occupied most of the bathtub.

The salty and fishy smell mixed with a nostalgic scent that came to his face made Ekalos' heart beat faster and his eyes became more complicated. His understanding of his own identity began to waver again.

But she didn't hesitate for long, and shook her head to put the idea behind her.

The purpose of Ekalos coming here today was not to worry about his identity.

After all, it doesn't matter whether she is an Agor, an alien, or even a monster.

As long as she is still herself, she is still the being called Ikaros.

Then she would always be their sister, always the owner of this flower shop, a temporary nun in the monastery, and always the 'person' who cared about and missed the hunter.

And as long as that never changed, that was enough for Ikaros.

Chapter 92: Hai Si, Phantom Pain, Communication

Make the final mental preparation.

The blue-haired sickly elder sister walked carefully across the dark blue 'fungal blanket' on the floor that emitted a regular blue light as if it were alive, and came to the bathtub that was already entangled by the roots of the 'fungal blanket'.

In the stagnant water of the bathtub that was already emitting a faint fishy smell, Hai Si, who took up most of the bathtub, was closing his eyes and blinking regularly, obviously sleeping soundly.

“You’re so careless…”

Ikaros looked at the sea creature like this, feeling helpless or sighing. She had hoped countless times to see the sea creature baring its teeth at her and wanting to kill her after she arrived.

In that case, she would have a suitable reason to suppress the sense of closeness that came from deep in her blood.

It’s a pity that no matter how many times Ekalos comes, when he comes, or how much noise he deliberately creates.

Every time, this sea urchin would either sleep soundly while waiting for him, or wait quietly for him to approach like a puppy.

But there has never been a look that a beast or a monster should have when facing its prey.

Ikaros, who was gentle by nature, could not find any reason to resent or hate the other party. He even occasionally developed some affection for the sea creature because of strange dreams and the intimacy in his blood.

At one point, Ikaros wondered if he was really crazy.

And the doubts about one's own identity and destination also come from this.

Want to wake it up?

Ikaros looked at the sleeping creature, who was shaking from time to time and seemed to be sleeping particularly soundly, and finally gave up the idea.

Instead, he began to clean out the stagnant water in the bathtub and prepared a new water source for the bathtub.

only……

While gently cleaning the stains and dark blue marks on Haisi's huge body, Ekalos discovered that in the corners of his sight, in a few shadows that were not illuminated by the light, something seemed to be brewing at the moment, and indescribable black shadows seemed to be wriggling faintly in them.

Is this an illusion again?

Ikaros retracted his gaze, trying not to notice the abnormality over there.

How many times this week has this happened?

To be honest, the girl couldn't remember it clearly. She only remembered that since that strange dream, such strange phenomena and hallucinations began to appear from time to time in her life.

There was no fear or cowardice in Ikaros's blue eyes; her gaze was still calm and clear, but she did not realize that her shadow was now shattered, and that the indescribable monster was growing wildly and twisted in it.

Ikaros ignored these anomalies and just focused on the task at hand.

She knew that these were just illusions... they could only be illusions...

That’s right, it’s just an illusion… an illusion…

Dongdong——dongdong——

However, the sudden acceleration of her heart's blood flow made her weak body feel as if her heart was squeezed by an invisible hand, but she returned to normal the next moment.

"Are you reminding me that this isn't an illusion? ...This is really bad."

Covering his chest, Ikaros had a few fine beads of cold sweat on his forehead, and then it seemed as if to reward her for answering correctly.

Another stinging pain came from her right arm, causing the towel in her hand to fall into the warm water of the bathtub.

But at this moment, Ekalos was in no mood to care about the towel sinking into the warm water.

She was so weak that she barely found a place to sit in the corner of the shower bathtub. She leaned against the wall and the bathtub and slowly sat down against the wall, sweating profusely.

At this moment, Ikaros took off the nun's uniform she was wearing, and quickly unbuttoned it with her left hand, revealing her delicate collarbone and snow-white neck. The soft corners of the black tube top revealed a large area of ​​spring light.

But Ikaros didn't care about all that. He forcefully pulled out his right arm from the nun's uniform. As expected, he saw dark blue scales growing on the snow-white skin like maggots. The bulging, hideous blood vessels were like rootstock, constantly absorbing nutrients from the surroundings and growing the scales.

To be honest, this weird and terrifying scene is enough to scare many normal people so much that they may not be able to react for a while.

But the soft-looking Ikaros seemed to be accustomed to it. He just bit his teeth lightly because of the pain and frowned slightly.

Then he closed his eyes, silently enduring it all, bearing the pain several times that of having his body torn apart, constantly emphasizing in his heart his identity and who he was, until the abnormality gradually calmed down and the blue scales and scars gradually disappeared on the smooth arm.

When the changes and pains disappeared, Ikaros opened his blue eyes again, heaved a sigh of relief, and was thankful in his heart:

"Is it finally over again... It's really getting more and more real."

Looking at the arm that had become smooth again, even a little unhealthy and pale, Ikaros put on her nun's uniform again. However, she recently found that her hallucinations were becoming more frequent and real.

The symptoms began to gradually become more serious, making Ekalos feel fortunate that Skadi had left. Otherwise, it would not be long before Skadi would notice something was wrong with him.

"Am I still an Agor?"

After putting on his clothes again and gradually standing up with the help of the wall, Ikaros sighed again as he looked at the creature that felt close to him. However, he finally gave up thinking about this extremely mentally exhausting problem and continued to clean the body of the sea creature.

Perhaps it was because Ekalos' technique was too skillful that Hai Si, who was sleeping soundly, also felt comfortable.

Gradually, after Ekalos had cleaned nearly half of Haisi's body.

The sleeping Haisi also woke up from his dream, and when he saw his blood relative who gave him an infinite sense of closeness and affection, his eyes immediately lit up. He stretched out his dark blue tongue and licked the distracted Ekalos, which scared the girl who was thinking about other things.

But when Ekalos saw the Haisi in front of him, he was just like he usually was when he saw him, drooling, with half of his tongue sticking out of his sharp teeth, and his long thin tail floating out of the water and swaying from side to side, looking silly.

The brief tension in my heart disappeared without a trace under the influence of the blood-related closeness...

Instead, it made Ekaros want to reveal a helpless smile.

This thought was just a passing thought, and Ekaros suppressed it. After completing the final cleaning with the cooperation of Hai Si, he took out the paper he had prepared early in the morning from his pocket. He was a little nervous, but he firmly presented it to Hai Si in front of him and said,

"Mr. or Ms. Haisi? ...Can you understand what I wrote?"

Although his inner intuition told Ikaros that he could communicate with the Haisi in front of him, when he really started to try to communicate, Ikaros found that he had no idea where to start.

I can only start trying little by little.

And looking at the fiber-made object in front of him and the beautiful words written on it.

Hai Si tilted his head, expressing his confusion, and after 0.0001 seconds of deep thinking, he handed the document to Daqun.

Chapter 93 Hai Si: I don’t know

[Hai Si did not answer your question right away, and stared at you for a long time.]

[You looked at him for a long time but didn't get any response. You doubted your feelings and thought you might be crazy.]

……

Not to mention the following simulation, in reality, Ikaros, who had voluntarily chosen to exit the first-person mode, was now slumped on the edge of the bed, gasping for breath in a cold sweat.

Her long silver bangs covered her face, making it difficult to see the girl's expression at the moment.

But from the girl's curled-up posture and trembling body, it is not difficult to tell that Ikaros is not in good condition at the moment.

It's not an exaggeration to even say that it's a bit bad...

However, the reason why Ikaros was in such a bad state now was not because of an attack of Originium disease or a sudden serious illness.

Instead, it was the real sensory feedback from the simulation that allowed Ikaros to experience the pain that the 'Ikaros' in the simulation was going through.

The pain was several times stronger than the pain of a knife tearing the skin, and it went straight into the brain like a needle prick. There was also an indescribable muttering that was faintly heard around the ears.

Even though Ikaros quickly ended the first-person simulation.

But the phantom pain brought by the intense pain still made her roll off her bed accidentally.

The girl took a long time to catch her breath before she could barely recover from the pain that could not be described in words.

Ikaros is not a person who is afraid of pain, but this level of pain is no longer a question of whether he can endure it, but whether he can maintain a clear mind after enduring such pain.

It was too real, and the silver-haired Sakta girl, who was sweating profusely, began to regret entering the first-person mode this time.

After all, it really hurts!

Even if Ikaros is not afraid of pain, who likes to get hurt for no reason?

Besides, the feeling of a part that didn't belong to his body suddenly growing on his body was really weird. The feeling of his vitality being sucked away but being powerless to do anything was something Ekalos really didn't want to experience again.

"Huh... slow down for a moment."