Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

……call.

Qiu Hui let out a long sigh.

I was feeling a little down, like I was having an asthma attack.

It was already past 1:30 p.m. and the meeting came to a temporary halt.

I took advantage of the break to eat a little light meal provided by the hotel. It looked high-quality, but I couldn't remember what it tasted like, even though I had just eaten it.

After dinner everyone had a short break, but the meeting had to continue after two o'clock.

There are still many things that have not been decided. And among the things that have been decided...

After taking out the notebook and checking the contents on it, Qiu Hui frowned slightly.

Most of the content was a mess... I wrote down various things thinking they might be useful, but I found it impossible to read.

I'm not very good at taking notes and organizing them. If I had that ability, my deviation value should be much higher than it is now...

At this moment, Togawa Aie was walking in the corridor of the hotel. For some reason, she suddenly felt her legs and feet go weak, as if she had just done some strenuous exercise.

It's probably a stress response caused by too much pressure, Qiu Hui guessed.

She knew that she was not good at dealing with such situations.

"...After all, wasn't it because I wanted to avoid these things that I refused my family's arrangements and ran away alone?"

Talking to herself in a voice so no one could hear her, Akie realized once again how correct her father's opinion was.

So right, yet so disgusting.

After lunch, she did not stay with the members of the closing band, but wandered aimlessly around the hotel building after telling everyone that she "wanted to be alone for a while."

Noticing that there was a restroom ahead, Qiu Hui quickened her pace and walked in.

She didn't plan to enter the cubicle, but went straight to the sink.

She just wanted to wash her face and calm herself down.

She suddenly stumbled and hurriedly supported herself on the marble-patterned washbasin platform, then raised her head and looked at her reflection in the mirror.

The ill-fitting formal suit that was wet with sweat and stuck to the body; the cold sweat on the forehead and the pale face; the empty eyes behind the glasses...

“…What are you doing?”

Qiu Hui in the mirror showed a strange smile that was uglier than crying.

"Even if it's really a stress reaction, this is too outrageous, isn't it? It looks like..."

Akie, who was talking to herself, suddenly noticed the image of another person reflected in the mirror.

It was Mikado Hatsuka, who was walking towards the other side of the cubicle. She seemed to be planning to leave the bathroom directly, but after noticing Qiu Hui, she stopped.

Qiu Hui quickly closed her mouth, released her hands that were supporting the platform, straightened up, suppressed the sudden feeling of dizziness, and turned around.

"…Hatsuka-san. What's going on?"

Chapter 89: Chu Hua feels the same

"Nothing special." Chuhua took two steps forward and came to Qiu Hui's side. "You look like you are not feeling well. Are you okay?"

She came straight to the point with her ideas.

"…I'm fine. Thank you for your concern."

Although Qiu Hui answered the other party in this way, she regretted it as soon as she said it.

The way I look now...is not good at all.

Qiu Hui was struck by a strong feeling of dizziness, which was a bit like motion sickness, accompanied by a loss of balance and a strong feeling of nausea.

"Well……"

Qiu Hui wanted to continue speaking, but some strong physiological impulse made her cover her mouth involuntarily.

When Chu Hua saw her like this, he roughly guessed what the problem was.

"If you are under too much psychological pressure, it is normal to experience dizziness, weakness, or even retching." She said in a calm tone with a hint of concern, "I had a similar experience shortly after my debut. Don't worry too much."

Qiu Hui covered her mouth and seemed to want to say something, but ended up just coughing twice.

Looking at Qiu Hui who was still suppressing herself, Chu Hua seemed to realize the problem.

"If you feel embarrassed, I will..."

“…No need for that.” Releasing her hand that was covering her mouth, Qiu Hui shook her head, “I shouldn’t care about this kind of thing…”

She then turned around and faced the sink, coughing and retching violently.

Chu Hua looked at the tragic situation in front of him, hesitating whether he should go forward to help a little, such as patting the back or something.

However, after all, we just met for the first time today. Wouldn’t it be a bit abrupt to do this?

Although we are both women, some people are very concerned about physical contact. It is better not to act rashly.

So, Chuhua moved a little closer and observed Qiu Hui's situation from a relatively reasonable social distance.

After calming down, she turned on the faucet to wash her face, then stood up and apologized to Chu Hua.

“…I’m sorry.” Akie, who had just finished dry-heaving, looked very tired. “I let you see my ugly side.”

"This is not something that needs to be apologized for." Chuhua smiled and shook her head, "Qiu Hui is a little too strict with herself. This is what we need to pay attention to."

After witnessing the other person's misconduct, she did not have any opinion towards Qiu Hui. Instead, she inexplicably felt that the distance between them was shortened.

Therefore, even if these words sound a bit like criticism, they can be said without any psychological burden.

"Is it too strict?" Qiu Hui was a little confused after hearing what Chuhua said, "I just want to do my job well..."

"Negotiating with people from the office like that is not what a high school student should do." Chuhua shook her head slowly and firmly. "If you regard that as your responsibility, it means that Qiuhui is too strict with yourself."

Recalling Akie's behavior in the previous meeting, she continued, "Contract terms and other issues can be left to the adults. Akie doesn't seem to be particularly good at this kind of thing... Perhaps this question is a little presumptuous, so I'll just satisfy my personal curiosity. May I ask, why is Akie so obsessed with the specific contents of the contract?"

The other party's attitude was quite sincere, and considering his qualifications and status, it could even be said to be somewhat condescending.

Allowing for some basic sensitivity, Qiu Hui also sensed the other party's sincerity.

Although she was not quite sure why the famous Mikado Hatsuka was so concerned about her, a newcomer who had not yet officially debuted, but now that things had come to this, Qiu Hui felt embarrassed to hide it any longer.

So, after deleting the content that might involve commercial secrets, she briefly told Chuhua about her experience from the time she was selected by the library to the present.

"…The band was established for their dreams." Akie concluded, "I was an outsider who disturbed the situation, but they gently accepted me. Therefore, I should try my best to balance the interests of the agency and their autonomy."

"So there is such a factor involved." Chu Hua nodded in appreciation, "What a selfless idea."

Faced with her approving look, Qiu Hui did not intend to accept it so complacently.

"It's not like that. I just want to do something for them no matter what." Akie lowered her head slightly.

Can my behavior be considered a selfless contribution to ending the band?

Maybe it's not like that. At least, I definitely don't think so, Qiu Hui thought.

This is my "reward" for accepting me as I am offering it to everyone who has ended the band.

At the same time...there are also quite a few who do this not for the sake of giving back, but simply for self-satisfaction.

I watched Aine become depressed before but was powerless to do anything. I don’t want to experience that feeling again.

So, don't let concerns get in the way of action...or to put it more simply, don't let anything get in the way of action.

I would feel guilty if I didn't do something.

Just like once a production line starts, it cannot stop and must continuously input raw materials and output finished products.

Therefore, even if your efforts may not produce the expected results, you cannot use this as a reason to stop.

Even if you know that you may be just being stubborn, you will still want to try as much as possible until you really hit a wall, and then consider other possibilities.

If you want to regret, at least wait until you have done everything you can...

……

There seems to be a momentary fragment.

When I came to my senses, I seemed to be leaning in someone's arms.

"...You almost fainted again just now, Akie-san."

After making sure Qiu Hui could stand on her own, Chu Hua slowly let go of the hand that was supporting her.

"Really?" Akie responded dazedly.

"Yes." Chu Hua sighed, "I said you are too strict with yourself."

Somehow, some fragments from the distant past suddenly flashed through her mind.

That was a long time ago indeed.

At that time, Xiaoxiang and I lived on the island together. One day, I climbed up a tree to catch insects, and Xiaoxiang also insisted on joining me.

For a young lady like her, "tree climbing" probably wasn't part of her education since childhood.

So, she fell from the tree almost as her feet left the ground, and there was a long cut on her knee.

Chu Hua's mind flashed back to when she was helping Xiao Xiang deal with his wounds. His eyes were wet, his face was red, his lips were tightly pursed, but he just refused to cry...

...Why did I suddenly think of her at this time?

Chuhua himself couldn't explain it clearly.

She sighed softly, took out her cell phone and sent a message to Hitoshi Yazawa.

"Our agent is Ms. Yazawa Hitoshi. I just sent her a text message and asked her to help you keep an eye on the meeting this afternoon."

After sending the message, Chuhua looked at Qiu Hui seriously.

"She has already replied. I hope you can take a good rest in the afternoon. Akiie is still a high school student after all. It is unreasonable and a bit self-righteous to think that you should bear all the responsibilities by yourself. Akiie, please remember this."

At the end of his speech, in addition to being as kind as ever, Chu Hua also revealed a little bit of the dignity of a senior in the entertainment industry.

"I……"

Qiu Hui was about to say "I'm fine", but soon realized that such words would not be convincing at all.

Moreover, the office is also a kind of workplace in a sense. The delicate relationship between seniors and juniors in Japan also applies here to a greater or lesser extent.

"...I understand. I will have a good rest in the afternoon." She answered sincerely, "Thank you for your concern, Chuhua."

"Please don't say this in a tone as if you have completed a task." Chuhua said with a wry smile.

"Don't we have an audition tonight?" Akihime asked in a listless manner, "So, we really need to get a good rest. I'll pay attention."

Chu Hua smiled helplessly: "Really, if you understand it this way, wouldn't it make the pressure even greater?"

What a worrying junior, she couldn't help but think.

Chapter 90: The Greedy Goto

at the same time.

Goto Ichiri was standing outside the bathroom door, at a loss as to what to do.

How to do?

Do you want to come in with me?

Even though they are both girls...but following each other all the way to the bathroom still sounds too perverted!

Although Hongxia said something meaningful to her like "come on" before leaving, Yili still found it difficult to muster up the courage in front of the bathroom door.

Therefore, Goto Ichiri decided to wait outside the door timidly.

She always felt that something was wrong with Qiu Hui's condition.

Whether it was when I first arrived at the hotel or when I was on the way to the meeting, something was wrong.

This thought reached its peak when Akie hurried away after lunch.

So she said something to everyone, and quietly followed Qiu Hui all the way to the bathroom door.

There is a corner between the main entrance and the restroom, so no sound from inside can be heard.