Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

Qiu Hui's originally happy expression suddenly froze, twisted, and then quickly collapsed.

"……sorry."

Why did he suddenly start apologizing? Ruomai had a bad feeling.

“…I am… useless, right? I always mess up at work, and my housework is a mess… All along, it has been…”

Qiu Hui spoke in a halting voice with a slightly tearful tone.

"I understand! Talk to me nicely and don't cry, okay?"

Ruomai wanted to comfort her, but her own mind was a mess.

"I have never despised Xiao Qiu for being useless! I have never felt that you have caused me trouble! If I can help Xiao Qiu, I..."

Ruomai told lies that even he couldn't completely believe.

Xiaoqiu, who broke up with her family, could only seek help from me.

But after all, I am just a student...How much help can I give?

To put it bluntly, he is just taking advantage of this situation to satisfy his own selfish desires...

Ruomai stood up, walked to Qiu Hui's seat, reached out and hugged her in his arms as she was about to cry.

There was really little she could do.

She did not have the courage or ability to accompany Qiu Hui in making a mistake that would affect her whole life.

I can't be Akie's accomplice...

Ruomai was like drowning in the ocean of thoughts and could only grab this one floating piece of wood.

Even if it means betraying her...

I also……

I, Yutenji Wakamugi, made the "correct" choice "wrongly".

If I hadn't agreed to Miss Haruna's request at that time.

If I were more honest with what I call my own desires.

If I had not betrayed Xiao Qiu, but had always stood on her side, even if...

...Oh, forget it.

There's no point in talking about that kind of thing.

Actually, I, Miao Meng, am a very realistic person.

Although I also know that there will be extreme arguments that value feelings above all else, such as "it's a good ending if the CP I support dies together"... But, Miaomeng, I still can't treat living people in real life as fictional characters serving the needs of the plot.

So, I am actually surprisingly afraid of that kind of reckless love.

All in all, the story between Xiaoqiu and I is almost coming to an end here.

When I think back on what happened afterwards, I still find it boring and painful. So I'll make it short.

After that, I occasionally persuaded Xiaoqiu to try to talk to her family more, but it never worked.

She either kept silent or apologized to me in tears, begging me not to abandon her, and so on.

I don't know how to face her like that, because I can't give any guarantees at all.

Xiaoqiu still encountered many setbacks in finding a job. In addition, during that period, she tried to submit her manuscripts to the library, but the results of the first few times were all ignored.

The living expenses for two people also exceeded my most optimistic expectations at the time. Without Haruna's money, I had no idea how to fill the gap in income and expenditure.

Actually, I knew it a long time ago.

Perhaps it was because I had lived alone for too long and had seen too many bills and invoices, so compared to ordinary junior high school girls, I developed an awareness of accounting calculations too early...

...So, I soon realized that I couldn't afford the cost of carrying Xiaoqiu's life.

So, I accepted Ms. Haruna's request.

Having said that, these principles are meaningless to Xiaoqiu herself.

My repeated persuasions to her to go home may have gradually made her begin to doubt.

After that, she probably found out through some means that I was in contact with Miss Haruna...

……

"…How do you know that?"

"If you say that, it means you admit it, right?"

"Xiao Qiu, I..."

"It's okay. Ruomai did nothing wrong. It's my fault for causing you so much trouble."

"Xiao Qiu, please, at least listen to my explanation..."

"Ruomai, you are not my family. Therefore, you are not obligated to do anything for me. So, even if you accept money from my sister, I will..."

"No! I..."

"I've already told you, Ruomai, there's no need for you to explain."

Yutenji Wakamugi still remembers the expression on Akie's face at that time.

"…It's all my fault. From now on, I will try to find a solution on my own."

"What do you mean by think of a way? Xiaoqiu, you...you are not..."

……

After saying goodbye to me that day, she really went to "figure it out on her own."

After that, she didn't even go to school.

He neither goes to school nor goes home, in short, he just wanders around.

She may have made detailed plans for this, but in the end it was of no use.

Because, with the financial resources of the Togawa family, it would be very easy to capture a helpless female high school student.

This time, Xiaoqiu’s absence from home did not last long. She was caught and brought back home the next night.

It was at this moment that I realized that if I didn't agree to Haruna's request, those guys who looked like bodyguards might just come to my door.

In other words, I thought I was “making the right choice.” But in fact…

I had no choice at all.

On the third day, I met her at school. During that time, she was almost always followed by people like bodyguards, whether going to school or coming home, or even in the classroom.

Her classmates were all talking about her, but she just sat there listening to the class with a blank expression.

After that, Xiaoqiu never spoke a single word to me again.

The bodyguards didn't stop me from going to her, but no matter what I said to her, she never responded to me.

Not a word.

I don’t know what kind of life Xiaoqiu led at home during that period.

But the next time I saw Qiu Hui willing to talk to me, she was lying in the intensive care unit of a private hospital.

At first it was just a minor ailment, so Qiu Hui went to the drugstore to buy some medicine.

The reason she was hospitalized was not because of the minor illness she had at the beginning.

It was because she took the entire box of medicine - whatever it was - in one go one night.

Miss Haruna took a special leave and returned to Tokyo from Kyoto for this matter.

I saw her in the hospital. She looked like a broken doll.

I also met Qiu Hui, who said the first words to me since she left.

She asked me with a confused look on her face, "Why did you come?"

……

I don't know what Qiuhui's parents think about this.

But at least, I know that Miss Haruna seems to be frightened.

After that, she never mentioned letting Xiaoqiu go home again. Instead, she made the decision on her own and rented a house in the city for Xiaoqiu.

For the time being, she paid the rent herself, but later, after Xiaoqiu's submissions won the newcomer award and she gradually earned enough royalties, she began to pay the rent herself.

Xiaoqiu did terribly in her entrance exam, and so did I.

There is no need to explain Xiaoqiu's situation. As for me, because I was thinking about Xiaoqiu's situation... I really didn't focus on studying at all.

So, it is normal to fail in exams.

But, Xiaoqiu ended up going to Yuqiu, but I didn't.

Well, even though Xiaoqiu really hates her family, having rich parents can still be of great help at certain times.

"Why did you come?"

This was the last sentence Xiaoqiu said to "Yutenji Wakamugi".

Sometimes I hate her so much that I want to grab her by the neck and ask her what I did wrong.

But, thinking about it carefully, maybe I really did something wrong.

If I didn’t have the awareness of her life on my shoulders, then I shouldn’t have pretended to understand her and used her situation to try to get closer to her.

If I really want to occupy a unique position in her heart, then I should not compromise with Miss Haruna. I should always stand on her side, encourage her, give her advice, and help her find a better way to appeal to her family so that she will not fall into the situation of using such terrible means.

but……

...At this point, there is no point in thinking about these things anymore.

Anyway, today's "Miao Mengqin's Junior High School Love Secret History SPECIAL" segment ends here.

As for what the future holds...

...Who knows.

Chapter 1 Supporting Musicians

August is almost here, and Togawa Aie has a rare feeling that summer vacation has already begun.

But correspondingly, she also quickly realized that the summer vacation that had just begun seemed to be coming to an end for her.

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The publishing process of the new work has finally been completed, and it is time to meet readers in bookstores.

In order to build momentum, the agency also issued a notice related to recent activities some time ago.

I haven't had a few days off yet...

Togawa Akeie frowned and looked at the exaggerated recommendation written on the poster next to her and the life-size standee in front of her.

She is now in a bookstore, with her works displayed on the display case in front of her.

Standing next to her was Deng, who picked up a book from the pile in front of him and looked at the cover carefully.

Qiu Hui certainly didn't go to the bookstore specifically to buy her own book. Even if she needed it, as the author, she could get a sample after the printing was completed.

She happened to pass by the bookstore on her way to RiNG practice with Deng, and saw her book placed at the door.

As a fan, Deng was flipping through the booklet for trial reading very carefully, but Akiie, the author herself, did not seem to be appreciating her own work.