Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

Even if she forgives me, it seems...

Ruomai's thoughts became a mess.

Chapter 81: Respective Plans

...Perhaps, there is at least one thing that Ruomai can be sure of.

If you continue to hide things and lie, things will never get better.

There has already been one misunderstanding caused by not explaining things clearly.

At this point, if he makes the same mistake again, even Ruomai himself would not be able to forgive himself.

And...as Ms. Haruna said, I have to hurry.

If I can't confess to Xiaoqiu before she notices anything...

...if I had not "actively confessed" but had been "passively exposed".

That would be the worst possible situation.

You must make up your mind.

The clock ticked by, the sun passed across the noon sky and then sank to the west.

When recording videos, editing, cooking, and cleaning.

Yutenji Wakamu spent the day as usual, thinking about what he should do next.

I should confess. It's the only right way.

But if I just say everything...

In order to find an opportunity to get close to Xiaoqiu, I went to Haruna to obtain information. Do I have to confess this to her?

Recalling those painful past events, Ruomai couldn't help but feel a pain in his heart.

After learning that Wakamai tried to help Miss Haruna persuade her to go home, Akie left Wakamai almost without saying a word.

She didn't seem to have any intention of blaming Ruomai, but Ruomai believed that her behavior must have caused her great trauma at that time.

After failing to run away from home alone, Qiu Hui even got herself to the point where she needed hospitalization.

From then on, "Yutenji Wakamugi" was just an ordinary passerby classmate in her eyes.

In fact, it can be said that they are worse than real passers-by. Passers-by still have the possibility of further development, but for Akie at that time, she had already denied even this possibility.

So...should I tell you about my situation as well?

Because of her situation, I felt uneasy, panicked, and sad, and ended up messing up my entrance exams...

...No. That kind of thing has nothing to do with Xiao Qiu!

I was the one who messed up my life! It wasn't Xiao Qiu's fault!

Ruomai leaned back on the sofa and closed his eyes in pain.

Using my own self-inflicted pain to hold her hostage is a despicable act of the same nature as deception.

It is precisely because Xiao Qiu is the type who would be kidnapped by such a request...

...On the contrary, I absolutely cannot use this method to threaten her.

After strengthening this belief, Miao Meng felt confused instead.

There is nothing I can say except admit my mistake.

But if I just admit my mistake, will Xiaoqiu reject me again...will she not even give me a chance to explain myself?

At the very beginning of everything, Ruomai deliberately concealed his identity because he was afraid of this possibility.

She always thought that as long as she kept pretending, she would have new opportunities.

But now Haruna's suggestion shattered this fantasy and threw her back to the starting point.

“What should I do…?”

Yutenji Wakamugi muttered to himself.

……

"...Nijiya, what do you think I should do?"

Ichiri asked quietly.

Now she is in her room, talking on the phone with Hongxia.

Although I have discussed this topic with you this morning, I still haven't been able to come to a satisfactory conclusion.

Kita doesn't know how to handle this, and Ryo only makes some weird suggestions that he doesn't know if they are jokes or serious.

In the end, it seemed that the only one left who could seriously offer suggestions was Ichichi Koka.

"Since Xiao Qiuhui has invited you, you should just go, right?" Hongxia responded, "If you can have a good talk with her, maybe the problem can be solved."

"Solve the problem..."

Yili repeated Hongxia's words like a clockwork puppet.

"Hongxia, what do you think would solve the problem?"

She asked somewhat dully.

"Convey each other's feelings to each other... That's what I wanted to say."

Hong Xia on the other end of the phone smiled apologetically.

"But, Akie-chan and Pochi-chan should have already done this a long time ago."

"Besides, Akie-chan already has someone she likes...which makes things even more troublesome."

Hongxia sighed.

"Although I'm glad that Pochi-chan is willing to ask me for help, I don't have much experience like this. So, I may not be able to give you any reliable suggestions."

"But...even so, I will help as much as I can!"

Hong Xia smiled, trying to boost her somewhat depressed spirits.

Her renewed vitality could be felt in Yili's heart even across the distance of the wireless call.

"……Thank you."

"You're welcome. As a bandmate, I think this is only natural!"

After saying that, Hong Xia eagerly put forward her first idea.

"Pochi just asked me what it would take to solve the problem, so let's start from here!"

"How can my words count in this matter? Pochi-chan should ask himself what it means to 'solve the problem'!"

Goto Ichiri's expression changed slightly, but he still said nothing, just looking forward to Hongxia's next proposal.

"For example, Pochi-chan hopes to defeat Aine-san, whom Akie-chan likes... uh, and then... have her all to himself?"

Hong Xia's voice was a little hesitant. After all, they were talking about a topic that would make people feel a little embarrassed.

"Fight, win or something..." Ichiri shook his head subconsciously, "I just feel like I can't do it..."

"Don't worry about the feasibility for now!" Hong Xia emphasized, "Have you ever thought about this? Or, if you were to make a wish to the magic lamp right now, would you make this wish?"

"If it's the magic lamp! Then, then I might..."

Goto Ichiri suppressed his wildly beating heart.

"…I guess so, right?"

said it.

Although it was embarrassing, I also felt like I had finally broken through some obstacles.

"So that's how you do it." Hongxia responded.

"If there really is a magic lamp, then maybe... But, there is no magic lamp. So..."

“But anyway, Pochi-chan has the idea of ​​competing with Aine-san, right?” Nijixia said, “Then, Pochi-chan, have you ever thought about where your strengths are?”

After hearing this question, Goto Ichiri seemed to be in a somewhat conflicted situation.

"My advantage..."

The advantage over Aine-san...

Aiyin is pretty, has good grades, is cheerful and lively, and is good at caring for others. In short, she is a winner in life among high school students. A water flea like me can't...

...Maybe that's the only one.

"Guitar."

Goto Ichiri blurted out.

"I'm... Guitar Hero."

Then, some nonsensical declarations came out.

Ichiri knew that he had always hoped to help Akiie in areas other than guitar.

But even if I really can't do anything...

"...At least I still have my guitar."

...I said some embarrassing words in front of Hongxia.

But, to be honest, I feel like it's kind of handsome for some reason...

Chapter 82: Pochi's Wrong Evolution

"Guitar?"

After Yili came to this conclusion, Hongxia, who had led Yili to have this idea, became a little confused.

"Yeah, guitar. I don't know how much it can do for relationships if I can only play an instrument..."

Looking at the starry sky outside the window, Yili made up his mind.

"...But, for me, this is the only tangible 'advantage' that I can see."

Ichiri didn't like this conclusion.

But perhaps because of Qiu Hui's influence, she now realizes very strongly that she may need to learn how to "accept reality."

All I have is a guitar. If we think about it from this perspective, what conclusions can we draw?

The more he thought about it, the more he felt... suddenly enlightened.

"I've been thinking, what else can I do for Akihime besides the guitar?"

I don't want to exist just as a "guitar hero", I want to be Akiie's hero in other ways as well.

"If you act with such thoughts in mind, you will only end up causing trouble for Akie every time."

Ichiri said with mixed feelings.

"Although Akie is willing to allow me to be willful, but..."

Recalling the scenes of the previous two kisses, an extremely strong feeling of uneasiness rose in her heart.

"...I don't think I had any positive effect on her at all. Instead, I hindered her, forcing her to consider my feelings and unable to do what she wanted to do."

When their lips touched, Yili felt as if he could "feel" the other person's thoughts.

Tension, panic, worry, all kinds of emotions.

But there is not much joy.

It shouldn't be like this.

So, it must be something I did wrong.

If you make a mistake, you must correct it.