Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

Sushi didn't want to go back to that band at all.

Because, this sacrifice prepared to resurrect CRYCHIC has become meaningless to her now that the plan has failed.

Qiu Hui's original plan was to try her best to persuade Su Shi before everyone in the band realized this, and let her apologize to everyone, admit her mistakes, and reintegrate into the band, so that this matter might be over.

but……

If Aine and the others had witnessed that scene with their own eyes...

In this situation, if I continue to plead for Su Shi, it will probably only have the opposite effect.

Moreover, Qiu Hui realized another thing.

My job as a support musician is now over.

The issue between them should be resolved by them now. If I continue to interfere, on the one hand, I don't have the luxury to do so; on the other hand, this is not a good thing for them anyway...

Concerns like these made Qiu Hui unsure of what to say.

"That's enough."

Riki interrupted Qiu Hui.

"We should just solve our own problems." She tried to calm herself down and said as calmly as possible, "Even if we need to contact Su Shi, we should do it ourselves. We can't let Qiu Hui worry about it anymore."

“But, we just tried to call Sushi, but she didn’t seem to be paying attention to us!” Aine said anxiously, “That’s why I wanted to ask you, senior…”

"If Sushi doesn't even answer the phone, then it's probably clear what she's thinking, right?"

Seeing that Li Xi's tone seemed to be more aggressive again, Qiu Hui felt that she should not let this trend continue.

"Su Shi... became a little... emotional after what happened." She considered and expressed her opinion in a vague way, "She is unwilling to answer the phone now, maybe because... she herself doesn't know what to do."

Although Su Shi did say "I won't go back to that band", Qiu Hui still felt that she shouldn't say it so honestly.

After all, she was not a worm in Su Shi's stomach. She could not directly read the other person's mind, nor could she categorically assert what the other person was thinking.

Su Shi did behave very heartlessly, but this might just be a stress response when his emotions have not yet subsided.

If we take her stress reaction as her true thoughts, it will inevitably lead to misunderstandings, especially angering Li Xi. If the latter reacts more emotionally, then... even if both parties are willing to reconcile at the beginning, the negotiations will break down.

She felt that the situation between her and her family might be a bit like this. After a series of conflicts, even if the original source of the conflict may no longer exist, she could not convince herself to apologize and reconcile.

If that happens, it would be the worst possible thing. So Akie decided not to say anything final.

"Although I am no longer a supporting musician, I still hope that everyone can listen to my opinion on this matter."

"I originally thought that it was not appropriate for everyone to be present when Sushi and Xiangzi were negotiating. Because everyone might react irrationally due to stress. Now that everyone has seen the scene, it may be a little late to say these things... But, I still hope that you can pretend that you didn't see anything for the time being."

"You mean... do nothing?" Lixi asked.

"Yes. Whether you want to contact Su Shi or do anything else, it's best to wait a few days until both parties have calmed down."

"Of course, you can still send messages to Su Shi and try to contact her during this period. Just don't expect a reply, or even if the other party is very negative, don't take it too seriously..."

"……call."

Li Xi on the other end of the phone took a deep breath.

"We'll wait and see. Thanks for the advice, Akie."

……

After hanging up the phone, the three of them looked at each other.

"So...what is the situation now?"

Until now, Aine still felt like she was dreaming. And it was a terrible nightmare.

Everyone was celebrating the success of the performance just now, why did things suddenly turn out like this?

What happened to Sushi? Was it because of the stimulation caused by Rakuna's rash performance of Kasuga Kage?

She... has only been thinking about reviving CRYCHIC from the very beginning, what does that mean?

Why does Rikki seem to know what Su Shi is thinking from the beginning?

"I really don't understand."

Aiyin spoke as if she was talking to herself, her eyes somewhat dazed.

She looked at the lamp beside her, which had not spoken since just now.

Deng was just watching the two people talking to Akiie on the phone.

"Sushi formed this band to reunite CRYCHIC." Riki looked at Aine with a gloomy face, "And you, the stray cats, and Akie were all accidents that were not planned."

"So... after Shoko-kun rejected her like that, she... didn't even want to see us?"

Aine still couldn’t determine the logical connection between the two.

Or maybe she has already found it, but is just not willing to admit it yet.

"But... after all, we've practiced together, worked hard together, and even things like training camps have already..."

"Ah, yes."

Li Xi frowned.

“That’s what makes me most angry.”

"The time we spent together... the efforts everyone put in, everything, was nothing to her..."

"...Lixi."

"Light?" Li Xi was stunned and quickly closed his mouth.

Deng spoke, though his tone still sounded confused and uncertain.

"I think... what Akiie-senpai said makes sense."

"Maybe... Sushi is just hurt and confused, and doesn't know how to face us."

"Let's put these things aside for now...it would be better if we could calm down a bit."

Deng's words sounded unconvincing.

It didn't sound like he had just performed well on stage and sang out his inner thoughts.

"Haha... That's right. Well, should we... not talk about this for now?"

Aiyin looked pale and smiled reluctantly.

"Maybe in a few days... Suyo will come to practice as if nothing happened... maybe?"

"You are really optimistic." Li Xi shook his head, "But, since Deng said so, then..."

Even she didn't like this topic. As soon as Deng made this suggestion, she was happy to walk down the stairs.

The three people present reached a rather reluctant consensus.

The band that was having fun one second ago became shaky the next. The impact of this incident on them might be no less than what Su Shi had felt before.

“Then… let’s just leave it at that for today?” Aine suggested.

"That's all we can do." Li Xi nodded, "Let's go, Deng, I'll take you home."

"..."

Deng nodded silently, followed Lixi and left together.

Chapter 111 The feeling of being unwanted

The three people over there were just about to leave, and the chat over here couldn't continue forever.

"It's getting late. I should almost get ready to go back." Qiu Hui stood up from her chair.

It was indeed getting late. Of course, more importantly, she was also a little tired.

I originally thought that after today's performance, my activities as a supporting musician would come to a perfect end, but I didn't expect things to turn out like this.

"Akie, are you leaving now?"

Su Shi also stood up suddenly from his chair, as if he wanted to do something to keep her.

...No. You can't really...let them stay here overnight.

Thinking of this, Su Shi suppressed his original impulse.

"Yeah, it's getting late now, and we shouldn't continue to cause trouble for Su Shi." Qiu Hui smiled.

I don't think you're causing any trouble at all...

Su Shi wanted to ask him to stay, but he couldn't think of a reason.

Telling directly that I hope the other person stays is really... inappropriate, right? If Qiu Hui asks me to explain, what should I say?

Su Shi was not the kind of person who would do something just because she wanted to. Moreover, her last proactive attempt ended in total failure.

If Qiu Hui hadn't shown up in time, she might have been so emotionally broken that she wouldn't even be able to have a normal conversation.

Therefore, for her now, even if she is unwilling, she can only bury her desire in her heart.

"I should...go. Otherwise, my family will be worried."

Mu stood up and nodded slightly to Su Shi. She might want to continue to accompany Su Shi, but even if that was the case, she did not show this intention.

"Yeah." Su Shi nodded without comment.

If I were facing Mu, it would be even harder to say anything to keep him.

After all, I have said a lot of hurtful things to Xiao Mu.

At this point, it would be too shameless to say that I hope she can accompany me.

With this mentality, Su Shi said goodbye to the two of them calmly.

She didn't put on her usual polite smile. After all, at this point, there was no point in pretending.

She simply walked Qiu Hui and Mu to the door with a normal expression, and then waved her hand gently.

Looking at the two people who pushed open the door, she suddenly couldn't suppress the urge to say something.

"... From now on, please... come visit more often."

Was this said to Qiu Hui, or to Mu, or to both of them at the same time?

At this point, Su Shi no longer had the intention to make the distinction.

Qiu Hui didn't have any special reaction, she just said goodbye in a proper manner as usual, and Mu just nodded slightly.

After the two left, Su Shi closed the door.

Thus, she was once again left alone in the huge luxurious penthouse suite.

"..."

She silently put away the tea set on the coffee table.

Then she went to her room, opened the closet, took out the loose nightgown she was used to wearing, and planned to change into it.

I took off my clothes, folded them and put them aside. When I was about to put on my nightgown, I noticed the scratched skin on my knees.

The wound had been cleaned by Qiu Hui long ago and had almost healed at this moment, but some marks were still left temporarily.

Su Shi stretched out his fingers and gently stroked the soft new skin on the scar.

"What on earth am I...doing?"

Su Shi talked to himself.

I... believe that everyone, like me, misses the time when we formed a band together.

As it turns out, no one thought that at all.

Obviously, it was because of fear of loneliness and longing for companionship that I hoped that the band could be re-established...

...From the results, I ended up hurting those who wanted to become my new companions.