Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

"Wow, no, nothing! I was just too proud of myself!" Ichiri explained in fear and trepidation.

"……proud?"

Qiu Hui was stunned for a moment, then laughed helplessly.

"Is what happened just now really worth being happy about?"

After saying that, she blushed and opened her arms again.

"...If that's the case, we can do it again...

Looking at Qiu Hui who took the initiative to open her heart to him, Yili's mind went blank for a moment.

Well, uh, let’s think about Qiu Hui’s family later…

Yili rushed forward and hugged Qiu Hui tightly again, enjoying the happiness that was within reach at this moment.

……

Uh ah.

What are you doing?

Once is enough.

Why is there a second time?

And it seems that Xiaoqiu took the initiative both times.

Uh ah. It's over. I can't say it. If Xiao Qiu took the initiative...

Yutenji Wakamu felt very regretful.

Why did I suddenly recall my junior high school days and feel nostalgic, and then somehow, while shopping, I had the urge to visit my junior high school?

Well, it’s not wrong to have this thought, but why today?

It would be fine if it happened today, but why at this time?

Why did I have to see such a horrible scene of Xiao Qiu hugging the guitarist in her band…

Wakamu, who was clinging to a corner of the campus' outer wall and secretly watching Qiu Hui and Ichiri, let out a heart-wrenching silent howl in her heart.

I just thought it was on my way so I came to take a look!

As a result, the school gate was locked tightly, and even the security guard was not there to negotiate with!

I thought I could just watch through the door, but who knew Xiao Qiu would suddenly appear at this time! She even brought another woman with her!

If we meet by chance at the gate of our junior high school, a place that holds important memories for both of us... this, people will doubt us, right?

Qiu Hui seems to be somewhat concerned about my identity now. If we meet now...

...I'm not ready to confess yet, so I can only...anyway, I must not be discovered at this time!

In this case, I can only hide in the corner.

Because, of course, leaving directly is not an option!

If I leave without seeing clearly what they did, I... I won't be able to control my imagination!

Although it is impossible to really do anything in broad daylight on the street, but I can't help but imagine it!

So Ruomai could only find a corner to hide and secretly observe the actions of the two.

The distance was too far so I couldn't hear what they were saying. I could only vaguely make out that it was Akie who was talking, and then she became emotional, and then the woman playing the guitar tried to comfort her...

Then the two of them hugged each other!

Twice!

For a moment, Yutenji Wakami gnashed his teeth in jealousy.

But this jealousy only lasted for a moment.

Soon the jealousy and anger were replaced by a feeling of confusion and emptiness.

She wanted to ask why Xiaoqiu was hugging the woman playing the guitar?

But she soon realized that what she should ask was perhaps "Why wasn't Xiaoqiu hugging me?"

I……

The scene before him made Ruomai feel that he might have to start...seriously considering how he should confess.

If I continue in the current situation, I will always be just a roommate with Qiu Hui without any deep friendship.

Although they eat, sleep and live under the same roof, there is always an impenetrable barrier between their hearts.

If you don’t even know the other person’s real name...how can you talk about any feelings?

Ruomai felt a little regretful, even though he knew it was useless to regret.

Maybe I should have come clean when we first met.

Just like the time when Xiaoqiu came to me...I should have persisted.

There's no use regretting.

At this point, it seems that I only have one way to go.

If you don't make up your mind soon...

...Even if Xiaoqiu never exposed me.

I can only...watch her getting closer and closer to the others...

Chapter 127: I'm so annoyed, let me beat the drum first

The more important and necessary something is, the more we often don't know where to start, so we often put it off as a matter of course.

Although Ruomai knew very well that the only option left for him now was to confess everything, the question was, what next?

How will Qiu Hui view me after this? Will she hate me? Or will she run away from me? Or will she have a "revengeful" kindness towards me out of a "want to make it up to me" mentality?

No matter which possibility it is, Ruomai actually doesn't want it.

Even if it's the last possibility which seems to be the best relatively speaking.

Xiaoqiu is already very busy. She has her own work and life to take care of. If she is worried about my affairs...

…Wait, that’s not right.

Ruomai changed his mind.

My original purpose was to occupy as large a share as possible in Xiaoqiu's life.

As long as she is willing to listen to my explanation and realize that everything that happened before was a misunderstanding...

...Based on Xiaoqiu's current personality, she will agree to any excessive request I make, right?

As for me hiding my real name and contacting Ms. Haruna, wouldn't it be completely fine if we just attribute all these things to "I was deeply hurt by this misunderstanding and I got hot-headed and did whatever I wanted"?

Haha, if this happens, Xiaoqiu will become at my mercy out of guilt...

...But I don’t want this.

I wanted to help her, but I couldn't.

I didn't want to hurt her, but I had already created a fait accompli.

Sincerely pay attention to Xiaoqiu's thoughts, or use Xiaoqiu as a tool to vent your desires.

No matter which path you take, if you can keep going forward unwaveringly, there will always be a result in the end.

But from that time until now, I have been wavering.

Ruomai's mood became even worse.

"……well."

She was walking back with shopping bags in her hand and a gloomy look on her face.

My cell phone rang. I took it out and checked it briefly. It was a message from Qiu Hui.

The general meaning is that I won't be going home for dinner tonight. Miao Meng frowned. Wow. What a disgusting feeling.

Qiu Hui left with the guitarist and said she didn't plan to go home for dinner.

Then, it is obvious what they will do next.

Damn it. Did I come to some other conclusion before? That the guitarist was no threat at all because Xiao Qiu liked the more active type?

Ah, this is so infuriating! When we met in that exhibition hall before, she looked like she couldn't even speak properly, but she secretly attacked me when I didn't know? Goto-san is such a despicable woman!

The more I think about it, the angrier I get!

If I let this emotion go on, it might not be good for my skin. So Ruomai decided to change her mindset a little.

Well, think positively. At least Xiaoqiu didn't say she wouldn't go home to sleep tonight...

As a result, her face became even gloomier. What am I thinking about?

It's really annoying to have to watch my husband go out and fool around and have to stay alone at home!

Yutenji Wakamugi was walking alone on the street, with a perfect smile that seemed impeccable to passers-by.

As for what kind of intense struggle she was going through in her heart, only she herself knew.

……

After nightfall.

What happened today made Ruo Mai lose interest in cooking, so today she indulged herself in a rare luxury and went to a restaurant to eat something.

When dining out, one has to face the impossible triangle of nutritional value, taste and price. After careful consideration, Ruomai decided to sacrifice the price.

So the change in the account balance made her feel even worse.

"I've been a bit lazy about updating lately... I've also been logging in less frequently, and as a result, the profit report isn't very good..."

After returning home, Ruomai reviewed his recent work results in front of the computer screen.

"It can't be helped. I can't tell my fans that I have relationship problems and therefore I don't want to update, right?"

Ruomai sighed.

To be honest, judging from the recent website backend data, I always feel that the upward momentum has almost stopped.

The development of the route has almost reached a bottleneck. Now is the time to work hard and stabilize the fan base.

However, it is really annoying to try to update when the grades are not good...

Ruomai sighed and turned around, and what caught his eye was the electronic drum set he had purchased some time ago.

"Um……"

Ruomai fell into deep thought.

I bought this drum set just to cater to the recent trend of big girl bands.

As for why I didn't choose the mainstream guitar but chose drums, there are roughly two considerations.

On the one hand, it’s because I wanted to be deliberately different.

On the other hand, according to laymen’s impression, playing drums only requires physical strength and a sense of rhythm, unlike playing a musical instrument, which requires mastering so many troublesome techniques…

...At least that's what Ruomai thought.

Although after she actually bought a drum set and started practicing, she realized that her naive idea was completely different.

Ruomai realized that playing drums was surprisingly troublesome and tiring, so he posted a few practice sessions, but after the initial novelty wore off, he never played the game again.

Until that day she unexpectedly met Qiu Hui in the office building.

Ruomai stood up and sat in front of the drum. Even though no one was watching, she picked up the drumsticks and spun around twice in a flashy way.

Although playing the drums is very tiring, she has a trait that few people know about, which is that she is dominant in both hands.

Thanks to her more or less advantage in dexterity, she is able to master complex drum beats that require rapid alternation more easily.

Although she mentioned this in her VLOG announcing to her fans that she had bought an electronic drum, it was just a casual remark.