Loneliness and Rock and Roll with Band Observer

After pretending to "swallow" the air food that could be used to feed the pigeons, she explained, "Because I feel that Akie is someone who would do such a thing."

"As for Akiie...I always feel like she's just too..."

Liang was rarely at a loss for words.

She racked her brain for the right words.

However, before she could reach a conclusion, she was interrupted by the sudden ringing of her cell phone.

"Ryo, your... oh no! It's my phone!"

Goto Ichiri was immediately in a state of panic. Few people would call her, and this was already a level 2 alert situation for her...

…and after seeing the caller’s name, the level 2 situation immediately escalated to level 1.

It’s Chihaya Aine.

Why did Aine-san call me?

Yili suddenly felt at a loss, and even his legs seemed to have lost the ability to move due to paralysis.

In her panic, she almost pressed the "hang up" button by mistake, but finally the call was connected successfully.

"Hello? Is this Xiao Yili?"

“Ah, uh, I, I’m…”

The other party suddenly used a somewhat intimate name, which made Yili feel a little dizzy for a moment.

How should I put it? In a sense, we can be considered as love rivals...

"There's something I think I should tell Ichiri. It's about your senior, uh, Akie."

Aine’s voice sounded unusually serious.

"I have a feeling that her current state is really strange. The tone of her reply is very rigid, and she also emphasized that she will probably not reply for a long time."

"So I want to ask Ichiri, do you have any idea about this situation?"

Chapter 37: Do What You Want

Is Qiu Hui's situation strange?

Goto Ichiri quickly thought of what happened in front of the gate of Akie's alma mater.

She had long been accustomed to Akie's steady, reserved and reliable image, but after that incident, she witnessed Akie's most vulnerable side, which she seemed to have never revealed to others before.

Previously, when she was in the office, Qiu Hui also had a stress reaction due to mental pressure.

However, the situation at that time was far less serious than it was at the school gate.

Qiu Hui's deathly pale look at that time has always been imprinted in Yili's mind.

During this period of time, things will always emerge uncontrollably.

"I……"

Yili seemed to want to say something but stopped himself.

Qiu Hui doesn't want me to tell these things to others.

Even if the other person is Chihaya Aine, Akiie's favorite person...it's the same.

Wait, maybe it’s because Aine is Akie’s favorite person that Akie doesn’t want her to know these things.

Yili felt a little bitter. She was originally just an ordinary social phobia patient, but after dealing with Qiu Hui for such a long time, she has learned some tricks to look at problems from her perspective and point of view.

"what's wrong?"

Aiyin's voice with some concern came from the receiver.

"Well, is there something that is inconvenient to say?"

Aine asked speculatively.

Yili remained silent.

It’s really not easy to say.

Qiu Hui herself has already emphasized that she doesn't want other people to know about this.

If she herself thinks so, should I respect her opinion and choose not to tell anyone else about it?

The answer seems obvious.

However, Yili seemed to be able to hear a voice that seemed to come from the bottom of his heart.

The sound was very faint, almost like the buzzing of some mosquito.

Qiu Hui seemed to be in pain.

Maybe she was just suppressing something.

Yili felt as if he could understand that feeling.

Because of the fear of failure, because of the fear of causing trouble to others, and because we know that we are not good at it, we will run away out of fear in front of strangers.

Tell yourself that being alone is fine, and try to adapt yourself to the feeling of being alone, so as to avoid the need for contact with others...

But, I actually want to make friends.

After getting to know everyone who had finished the band, I was also...very happy.

So, is it really the best option to let Qiu Hui be suppressed like this?

"Hello? Xiao Yili? What's wrong? You haven't said anything. Am I making things difficult for you? If that's the case..."

"No! I just..."

Aine asked apologetically, and Ichiri answered in a panic.

It's not a solution to keep dragging it on like this, I have to make a decision quickly, should I say it out or not?

"I'm sorry, I don't know if I should say this, so please wait for me a moment..."

After saying that, Ichiri subconsciously turned his head, as if asking for help, and looked at Yamada Ryo beside him.

"What are you looking at me for?"

Liang looked over while feeding the air feed.

She took in Yili's nervous and anxious expression.

"If you want to ask me for advice... well, since I treated you earlier, I'll give you one."

He seemed to have a clue in his heart. He put his hands on his knees and said while looking at the pigeons huddled together near the food and the passers-by who were feeding them food.

"As for things related to Akie...Pochi, just remember what I wrote down and follow this principle."

"If you think something is something you want to do but shouldn't do, then do it."

"If it's something you don't want to do but should do, then don't do it."

"Give up on things that you 'should' do, and on the other hand, stick with things that you 'shouldn't' do but 'want to do'."

Liang turned her head, and a breeze blew her hair up in front of her forehead.

After saying that, she sighed slightly, with a hint of uneasiness in her eyes.

"Wait a minute, Pochi. I just thought of a cool line. Let me think about it..."

As if deliberately trying to dispel his nervousness, Liang said something that was not serious at all.

Then she spoke very seriously.

"…If you don't know what norms or principles to believe in, then at least there is one thing you can choose."

"If it comes to this... choose to believe in your 'love' for the other person."

After she finished speaking, she revealed an expression of deep aftertaste, as if she was savoring the words that had come out of her own mouth.

Yili naturally had no time to care about Liang's strange behavior.

These words were like reconnecting a broken fuse in an instant, making her vision suddenly clear.

Believe me about Qiu Hui...

Yili blushed and shook his head vigorously.

It's too exaggerated to call this thing "love", so let's change the word... How should I describe it...

“…Aine, I’ve made up my mind. Actually, there’s one thing you may not know.”

Goto Ichiri made up his mind.

Although I don't know if this feeling can be called "love", I hope Akihide can be happy anyway.

She helped me, so I wanted to help her.

Really help her.

Haha, having said that, I am just a person who has never made many friends since I was a child, is clumsy, has poor grades, and has no special skills other than playing the guitar. I am just a plain and humble person like a water flea...

So, it's normal even if things go wrong.

However, if we choose to hesitate just because we are afraid of failure, wouldn’t we be repeating the same mistakes we made from kindergarten to high school?

"What? Even I don't know? As expected! I knew that as a band member, Koichi would know something!"

Aiyin on the other end of the line sounded quite happy, which surprised Ichiri.

“Aine, you seem very happy…” Ichiri said in a panic, “I thought you would…”

"Ah, do you think I'll be... uh, jealous?"

Aiyin was stunned for a moment, then said with a smile.

"Maybe a little, but compared to that, I think Senpai's current situation is more worrying."

"If you know something, please tell me so we can work together!"

Ai Ne's words seemed to dispel the last of Ichiri's doubts.

Yes. I want to help Akie...that's the most important thing!

"Akie had a conflict with her family, so she cut off contact with them and made a living on her own. Does Aine know about this?"

"I think Senior mentioned this before."

"Besides that, there are actually some other things..."

The identity of the eldest lady.

Elite Education.

Misunderstandings and contradictions.

Running away from home, that "average" friend.

Revolt. Disillusionment. Hospital. Rent.

Goto Ichiri told everything she knew so far, bit by bit.

Chapter 38: Committee to Save Akiu

"...Wait a minute, wait a minute!"

Chihaya Aine felt like her brain had crashed.

Maybe it's because the information I received was too much, too complicated and too explosive, so I couldn't react for a while.

"Let me start from the beginning... Well, first of all, Senpai's family... is extremely wealthy, right? And they follow a very scary education policy!"

All in all, she’s like the legendary young lady...wait, so that’s the setting?

Aine tried to start from the beginning and put Ichiri's somewhat choppy narration into order.

When she tried to sort things out, she was suddenly confused by Yili's statement.

Senior? Miss? Her father is a wealthy man who can be on TV news?

What on earth makes Senior look like that kind of person?

Thinking back to Akie's workaholic style, the indescribably poor food in her lunch box, and the panic-stricken nervousness she felt when she was occasionally invited to dinner, as if she owed her a huge favor, even if Aine had a hundred brains, she probably wouldn't think in that direction!