I participated in the development of EVA

Ikari Fumihiko smiled bitterly in his heart.

If Lilith really had such a plan, it would have been wrong from the beginning, because there was no need for Lilith to do such a thing. She only needed to wait for him to establish a mental connection with the Type 02 prototype. Akagi Naoko would sense that he did not love her and only chose to be with her for the sake of profit, and she would most likely go berserk because of this.

After exiting the dream program, he curled up and lay in the operating seat.

Breathing in the slightly fishy-smelling lcl liquid.

Looking at the bottom of the insertion plug, that is the place closest to the core of the Type 02 prototype, and Naoko Akagi is now in it.

Mom...

Have I become like that man now?

He had long lost track of what his mother looked like in his previous life.

He was very young when his father divorced him, and he never saw his mother again after that, and there were no photos of her in the house.

There has always been only a vague figure in the depths of his memory.

This blurry figure suddenly overlapped with the shadows of some people in his mind. He stood there in a daze and couldn't help muttering to himself.

It turned out to be like this...

The three girlfriends he dated after traveling through time all matched the figure of his mother, about whom he had a vague impression.

The reason why he rejected Ritsuko Akagi but accepted Naoko Akagi was because Naoko Akagi was more similar to the mother in his memory of his previous life than Ritsuko Akagi.

What he has been pursuing all along is not love, but the vague shadow in his memory.

No wonder I didn’t feel anything when I first met Katsuragi Misato, who I was very interested in before I traveled through time. Was it because I subconsciously saw my own shadow in her?

He is very similar to Misato Katsuragi.

Just one is chasing his father's shadow, and the other is chasing his mother's shadow.

Uh……

In this way, I am more like Ritsuko Akagi.

Just a different experience.

At the beginning, he naively thought that as long as he studied well, he would be able to get his mother back, because his mother had told him to study hard when they parted.

But he studied hard and never saw his mother again.

As his efforts went unrewarded, he gradually began to give up on himself.

if……

Like Ritsuko Akagi, I have my mother by my side all the time. Should I be able to maintain the same crazy enthusiasm for learning as Ritsuko Akagi, right?

It was because Akagi Ritsuko had too many traces of my past that I couldn't help but want to help her when we first met! ?

All sorts of thoughts in my mind came pouring out like a valve being opened.

As I was daydreaming like this, I fell into a drowsy sleep.

Perhaps influenced by these distracting thoughts, he dreamed of the ordinary yet special summer when he parted with his mother in his previous life.

20:29:29

694. Nothing

In his dream, he saw the vague figure of his mother from his previous life.

It was a summer day, and the weather was so hot that he was reluctant to leave the buzzing electric fan.

Even though the weather was so hot, the dog at home was still squeezing him to get the cool air from the old electric fan. The sound of cicadas outside overwhelmed the noise of the broken electric fan and penetrated into his ears. He didn't know about the things between adults, nor did he care, so this day was just an ordinary day for him at that time.

A blurry figure walked into the room and looked at him for a long time before speaking.

'Study hard.'

He didn't understand what this sentence meant at the time, he just replied because he felt hungry.

"Mom, I'm hungry..."

My mother made a simple meal and did not prepare anything elaborate because we were going to part ways.

By the time he finished his meal, his mother had already left.

We have never seen each other since then.

That day he seemed to have been forgotten. He spent the whole day at home eating leftovers from lunch. The next day, when there was no food to eat at home, he went to his grandfather's house on an empty stomach. He has stayed there since then. He came to see his grandfather several times, but each time he left after leaving some money. After that, he came less and less frequently, and left less and less money.

The ridicule in school became more and more frequent, and it was only then that he learned about it from the mouths of classmates with whom he had a bad relationship.

I became a motherless child.

The idea that "mom is the best in the world" also became a weapon used by classmates who had a bad relationship with him to attack him.

Changda later accidentally heard that the song was banned. Unlike others who were surprised, he was not surprised at all. He even thought it was a good thing because in his opinion, this song should have been banned long ago.

I know this, you don't need to remind me.

Wake up from the dream of the past.

Even though he was surrounded by liquid LCL, he could feel that he was crying in his sleep.

Now that his brain had calmed down, he couldn't help but mutter to himself.

'Is it because of excessive stress that the psychological defense mechanism is triggered?'

When a psychological emotion value exceeds a certain threshold, the human body will trigger a special defense mechanism.

Sometimes it allows people to quickly forget the things that cause emotional overload, and sometimes, like Fumihiko Ikari yesterday, people vent their emotions through another thing or divert their attention.

"How long have I slept?"

【Three hours, forty-eight minutes, and twenty-three seconds.】

In reality, he slept for less than four hours, but in his dream he reviewed his past life.

As I was sighing like this, another thought flashed through my mind.

Could it be that Lilith had done something to make me lose control of my emotions? Could it be that Lilith was using this method to spy on my heart when I dreamed about my past life last night?

Lilith wants to do this and is fully capable of doing so.

No matter how weak an apostle is, he is still an apostle and possesses power greater than that of humans.

probably not……

Judging from the last time he connected to Unit-01, he was able to create an AT force field to prevent others from spying.

Even Lilith can't bypass the AT force field and spy on my heart quietly, right?

At this moment, some relevant memories flashed through his mind.

The closest to the current situation are the fifteenth and sixteenth apostles in the original work. One is mental pollution, and the other is a mental fusion similar to possession.

Neither the former nor the latter of these two situations can quietly peek into the human heart.

Although he thought so, he understood.

If Lilith wants to do this, there is no need to go through so much trouble. She can just read the brain surface signals through the mental connection device and peek into her dreams.

wrong……

It’s actually not that simple. I took it for granted.

The mental connection device can theoretically do this, but there is a prerequisite.

That is the absence of rejection.

Just like the EVA synchronization rate drops by half, as long as there is a rejection emotion, it will affect the operation of the mental connection device.

Then the question comes back.

Will he allow Lilith to peer into his heart?

the answer is negative.

Time travel is the biggest secret in his heart, and he will never allow such a thing to happen.

Otherwise, he had experienced so much since he traveled through time, and his inner pressure had always been very great, and he would have revealed his identity as a time traveler in his sleep long ago.

That is to say, the mental connection device will also trigger the AT force field if it wants to read his dreams.

The force field is the basis of the existence of living things. Once affected, it is impossible to be silent.

Although he ruled out the possibility that Lilith had spied on his inner thoughts, he still couldn't stay in the Type 02 prototype as if nothing had happened.

"I'm hungry."

【The meal is ready.】

"Ah."

Making an excuse, he left the plug.

As I stepped on the ground, I couldn't help but look back at the Type 02 prototype.

The huge body is extremely oppressive. Although the design has been constantly replaced and a lot of changes have been made, there are no scars left on the body.

In the past, I didn't feel much emotion when looking at the Type 02 prototype, but now I have a feeling that He is watching me.

After dinner, he did not return to the cockpit immediately as usual.

Although he knew that he was not being spied on and his inner thoughts would not be silently peeped into, he still couldn't help but want to stay away from the Type 02 prototype.

At the same time, a thought flashed through my mind...

Am I having mental problems?

He could feel himself growing more suspicious.

The three wise men noticed Ikari Fumihiko's unusual behavior.

【Did it happen? 】

Ikari Fumihiko replied calmly.

"Nothing, I just feel that the situation doesn't need to be as tense as before, and I can relax a little."

The three sages paused for a long time before speaking again.

【But I want you to stay inside me forever. 】

When Ikari Fumihiko saw the news, his heart tightened.

No way... How can an artificial intelligence have yandere attributes! ?

[This way I can protect you in all aspects and prevent anyone from hurting you. ]

Hearing this, Ikari Fumihiko breathed a sigh of relief, and then couldn't help but ask a question.

"Can you start the Type 02 prototype now?"

[I can only move my body now, but I cannot mobilize my mind to activate the AT force field.]

After saying this, the Three Sages' Brain spoke again.

【Can you design an image for me? 】

When Fumihiko Ikari asked the three wise men for their brains, the same thought came to his mind again.

The brain of this three sages is Lilith, who wants to use Naoko Akagi's emotions to create an opportunity for the artificial god to go berserk.

At the same time, he breathed a sigh of relief.

If Lilith had seen into his heart, she wouldn't have done such a thing.

Of course, the premise of all these speculations is based on the 'self' in the brain of the Three Sages. It is not Naoko Akagi, but Lilith. Only in this way can the speculation be established. However, whether it is Lilith or Naoko Akagi, it means that his heart has not been pried into.

20:29:41

695. Human Nurturing Base

"Haven't I created many templates before? Just pick one."

【My existence is to serve you. 】

Ikari Fumihiko knew that the three wise men's brains hoped that he could choose an image for them.