You are my wife, don't doubt it!

"Eat more if you like it." Yu Lihua noticed that Xiao Yao had a special liking for the fried eel shreds, so she picked up several large pieces for Xiao Yao with her chopsticks.

"Hey, hey, hey," Xiao Yao hurriedly picked up the bowl: "Auntie, I'll do it myself, I'll do it myself."

"Mom, let them come by themselves." Yu Luying looked dissatisfied.

……

The second time he went there, he was much more relaxed than the first time. In addition, leveling up was hard, so Xiao Yao drank three bowls of rice in a row and cleared all the dishes on the table.

"Auntie's cooking is really delicious." Xiao Yao praised sincerely.

After the meal, Yu Lihua brought out some ice watermelon with a smile.

The sliced ​​watermelon exudes a cool breath, making people feel refreshed and pleasant. Each slice of watermelon is full of moisture, making people want to take a bite immediately. Their colors are bright and attractive, bright red, like the summer sun, and each slice is cut evenly and in the right size, and it looks delicious at first glance.

The watermelon seeds on the cut surface made Xiao Yao recognize at a glance that this was Nanhui 8424, a local specialty watermelon. These small black particles were distributed in the bright red melon sac, looking like black pearls.

Xiao Yao took a piece and handed it to Yu Luying, then politely gave way to Yu Lihua before picking up a piece and taking a bite.

...! ! !

This iced watermelon is really cold.

A chill ran from his throat straight into his stomach, and then spread throughout his body, causing Xiao Yao to shiver. The watermelon flesh was soft, tender, juicy, and very sweet, with a fresh and refreshing taste that made his tongue salivate, and he couldn't help but take another big bite.

The watermelon juice overflowed in his mouth and dopamine began to be secreted in his brain, which gave Xiao Yao an "illusion" of overflowing happiness. Coupled with Yu Lihua's kind smile, all of this made Xiao Yao feel a little "floating".

In the past, Yu Lihua had always been a "nightmare" in his heart, a strict and picky old lady. But then again, most of the time, Yu Lihua didn't have much direct contact with him, so in the end, he was only concerned about Yu Luying and was worried about the troubles Yu Lihua brought to him.

But at this moment, Yu Lihua gave him a long-lost feeling of warmth. Her gentleness and kindness made Xiao Yao evoke warm memories buried deep in his brain, memories of his mother.

It was in this warm and tender atmosphere that Xiao Yao suddenly said the following words: "It's great to have a mother."

"This child is so pitiful. From now on, he should treat this place as his home," Yu Lihua said gently, "You can also treat Auntie as your mother."

Xiao Yao was moved by Yu Lihua's words. It took him two seconds to realize that something was wrong and he was startled.

Just when I didn't know how to express my feelings, Yu Luying yelled, "Mom~~~What nonsense are you talking about!"

Xiao Yao felt a little dizzy and wanted to agree right away.

It’s a pity that a mother who is not related by blood and a daughter who is related by blood are placed on two sides of the scale. As a responsible man, he can only choose the daughter.

and many more.

Thinking of Shen Jie's kindness to him and her dedication to him, Xiao Yao couldn't help but curse himself in his heart.

"I am very, very touched by your kindness, Auntie." Xiao Yao finally said this, his tone and expression very sincere.

Yu Lihua narrowed her eyes, waiting for Xiao Yao to say "but", but Xiao Yao remained silent and did not say "but".

The atmosphere on the field was a little awkward for a while, and Yu Luying quickly interrupted and said, "Mom, Xiao Yao went to attend the catechism class this morning."

"Abo told me about it," Yu Lihua nodded, "I was just about to ask you, how do you feel? What did you learn?"

Xiao Yao quickly replied, "I'm studying the Apostles' Creed."

"How do you feel?" Yu Lihua repeated the question amiably.

"It feels good," Xiao Yao replied with some caution, "Father Yu said it well. It's also good to have faith, which can persuade people to be good."

"Is that so?" Yu Lihua's eyes became a little thoughtful. Although the smile on her face remained, Xiao Yao felt that she was beginning to be unhappy.

"Mom," Yu Luying deliberately interrupted, "Don't you have something to go out for this afternoon?"

Xiao Yao suddenly realized that what Yu Lihua cared about was obviously not whether her brother did well in class, but her true attitude towards faith and the church.

As for why he cared, Xiao Yao thought it was self-evident after learning about Yu Lihua's pitiful past.

Such crappy social compliments as "it's good to have faith, it encourages people to be good" obviously cannot satisfy the other party, and may even arouse disgust; it is difficult to get away with it by smiling and making jokes, and once you are judged as "untrustworthy" by the woman in front of you, then even if she stops changing her face and starts to oppose her daughter's relationship with him, she will definitely not allow you to live such a comfortable life.

In just ten seconds, Xiao Yao formulated a general strategy for passing the level in his mind.

He was ready to face the female judge.

"If I hear the truth in the morning, I can die in the evening." Xiao Yao said in a deep voice with a solemn expression.

"What?" Yu Lihua was stunned.

"As for me, I have always been a person who likes to daydream since I was a child," Xiao Yao said slowly while chewing the watermelon in his mouth, thinking, "I would think about questions such as where I came from, where I am going, and the meaning of life."

"Yeah." Yu Lihua had even stood up, but then sat down again.

"I would think about the nature of self-awareness, who I am, why I am me, and other similar questions." Xiao Yao pretended to be serious and said, "When I thought about these things, I began to fall into confusion and suspicion."

Yu Luying glanced at herself and seemed to want to say something but stopped herself.

Seeing that Yu Lihua was listening attentively, Xiao Yao continued, "Among all of this, what I thought about the most was what it felt like to die.

"I asked my parents, and they both told me that when you die, you have nothing and you know nothing. The people who could answer me what it feels like to die can no longer answer me.

"When I was a child, I knew that I would die one day. I was so scared that I was anxious all night and couldn't sleep well. It was that kind of empty panic. I don't know if you can understand what I mean."

"Everyone is destined to die, and we are all ordinary people. There is no need to worry." Yu Luying interrupted.

"I imagine what it will be like after I die - the earth will still rotate, the sun will still rise and set every day, the rivers will flow, the waterfalls will plunge three thousand feet, the cities will be bustling, people will go back and forth between factories and houses, everything will be the same, except there will be no 'me' in it. I can't imagine what this feeling is like. Every time I imagine this... 'feeling of no feeling', it only brings me a sense of emptiness and panic."

Neither Yu's mother nor her daughter interrupted. They both listened quietly. Apart from Xiao Yao's voice, the only sound in the room was the "clicking" sound of the second hand of the wall clock.

"So I don't know," Xiao Yao continued, "In the face of inevitable death, what else is meaningful in such a life besides enjoying it?"

"You don't have to be so negative." Yu Luying was worried that Xiao Yao's negative remarks would leave a bad impression on her mother, so she suggested tactfully.

But Xiao Yao continued to talk:

“Someone told me that although we will all die, we can leave something for our descendants and future generations, so that our journey will not be in vain and our spirit will live on forever.

"But humans will die one day, and the sun will undergo a helium flash and turn into a red giant, swallowing up the entire solar system, leaving nothing behind.

"Even the universe itself will one day blueshift, collapse, die, and finally become a singularity.

"In Liu Cikang's novel "Hearing the Truth in the Morning", Stephen Hawking finally asked the ultimate question: 'What is the purpose of the universe?' As a result, the alien representative himself could not answer it, and said sadly, 'How should I know?'

"When I was in junior high school, I was obsessed with particle physics and chemistry. Really, auntie, don't look at me like that. When I was in the third year of junior high school, I once got the only full score in chemistry in a monthly exam in the whole grade.

"Atomic physics, quantum mechanics, chemistry, string theory... I worked hard on these things, regardless of whether I could understand them or not. I thought that if I mastered this knowledge, I would be one step closer to the essence of the universe. And this feeling of seeking truth would make me feel at ease."

"I understand." Yu Lihua said softly.

"But in the end, I found that the more I learned, the more I didn't understand. Not only myself, but also all of us humans are still far away from a grand unified theory...

“Physics no longer exists,” Xiao Yao recalled a clip from The Three-Body Problem he had watched. “Physics has never existed.”

"Xiao Yao, what do you want to say?" Yu Luying asked in confusion.

"This morning's class opened the door to a new world for me. To be honest, I am still very excited." Xiao Yao suddenly said in a sincere and passionate tone, a tone that even made him almost believe it: "Do you know why? Because someone told me that death is not the end of everything, but the starting point of a new and eternal life, because someone told me that our life, our world, our universe, are all meaningful to the Supreme Being.

“We can find meaning in life.

"In the past, I just regarded these as feudal superstitions and disdained them. But now I can feel that this is another way to the truth," Xiao Yao said. "This new way of looking at the world makes me feel very interested and comforted."

Xiao Yao saw a sincere smile on Yu Lihua's face: "Good, very good."

OK, passed, play music.

After Yu Lihua left with satisfaction, Xiao Yao collapsed on the sofa exhausted.

However, Yu Luying stared at him with a very strange look.

"What's wrong, silly girl?" Xiao Yao picked up his schoolbag and took out the test paper: "Let's start studying?"

"Master philosopher Xiao, were those words you said to my mother sincere? Or were you just trying to fool her?" Yu Luying stood there, not moving: "You have to tell me the truth."

"To be honest," Xiao Yao opened the pencil case and took out the pen inside, "I was trying to fool her."

"Oh."

“That’s the truth, too.”

“...Oh?” Yu Luying walked over slowly and sat down at the dining table.

"For me," Xiao Yao explained to Yu Luying, "after seeing such a huge shadow world, I am indeed rebuilding my understanding of the world."

"Yeah." Yu Luying said.

"For me," Xiao Yao looked into Yu Luying's eyes, "after seeing so many 'shadows' of the wrong path with my own eyes, I have never been so eager to believe in the existence of the 'light' of the right path as I am now."

"Ah."

"If I hear the truth in the morning, I will be content to die in the evening," Xiao Yao said, "I really think so. What I said to your mother, the fear of death, the desire for eternity, the confusion about the universe and existence, the pursuit of meaning, are all sincere words. But for me, there are so many philosophies and theories in the world. I am still too young and have not read enough. I cannot be sure for the time being that your 'Tao' is the 'true Tao'."

"Why do you suddenly like to say 'for me' so much?" Yu Luying smiled and said, "But I understand what you mean. Let's study."

"But I am willing to believe it." Xiao Yao looked at the girl's angelic face, and suddenly an idea came to his mind, and he blurted out: "I am willing to believe you."

"What?" Yu Luying was puzzled.

"There is a sentence in your scripture that I also saw by accident and I like it very much," said Xiao Yao.

"What?"

"Your nation is my nation; your God is my God," said Xiao Yao.

"Ah..." Yu Luying sat there motionless, as if she had been electrocuted.

"Do you understand?" Xiao Yao smiled.

"What, what?" Yu Luying looked panicked.

"Yu Luying," Xiao Yao stretched out his hands, placed them on her shoulders, and said in a deliberately affectionate tone, "Look into my eyes. Yu Luying, your people is my people; your God is my God."

Yu Luying half stood up, leaned forward, and came over at lightning speed, pecking Xiao Yao on the face like a bird.

The chair under Xiao Yao's butt made a harsh sound of rubbing against the floor. The boy covered his cheek and sat there blankly as if he had been slapped.

“What are you daydreaming about?” Yu Luying sat back in her seat and buried her face in her eyes. “Even if physics no longer exists, the physics exam will still be immortal—give me the test paper!”

Chapter 188 My period didn’t come

2023-05-11

Although Xiao Yao was writing the physics paper in his hand, his mind was already distracted.

The place on my face where Yu Luying's lips had just pecked it was still a little hot, and I didn't know if it was me or the girl next to me who was burning.

There's still some warmth from my skin on my lips, which is a bit weird.

Xiao Yao didn't expect that the verse "Thy people shall be my people, and thy God my God" that he quoted on a whim, which he didn't even understand, would actually hit the mark and cause such a strong response from Yu Luying. He was secretly very happy.

At the same time, this promise, which was made somewhat lightly, was inevitably going to give rise to new anxieties, since it was heavier than he had imagined.

But, it doesn’t matter. After all, I am Don Quixote, and Shen Jie is obviously interested in this “Tao”, so I might as well “the road is long and arduous, and I will search for it up and down”.

Having initially convinced himself, he continued to enjoy this summer afternoon with peace of mind.

The air conditioner was set at a very low temperature, and Xiao Yao even felt a little cold.

He was a little sleepy, but he was too embarrassed to ask to sleep in someone else's house.

The two people's pen tips moved across the test paper, making rustling sounds one after another.

Xiao Yao leaned his upper body back slightly, and when he lowered his head, he could see Yu Luying's little feet stretched under the table.

This pair of girl's cotton socks is simple and fresh, showing a pure white tone, without any color or decoration, as if leaving all the prosperity and beauty behind. The socks are made of soft and comfortable pure cotton fabric, with a soft and delicate texture, which makes the boy want to get close to it.

1-2cm below the socks is a pure round raised ankle. This raised part sets off the girl's slender and straight calves, as if it were a perfect painting. The girl's feet are beautiful and slender, the arch line of the soles of her feet is smooth, and the heels are round but not protruding, which makes Xiao Yao unable to help but fall in love with her. Against the backdrop of pure white cotton socks, the girl's feet appear more slender and beautiful.

"What are you looking at?" Yu Luying asked calmly.

"Look at my 80-point reward." Since the relationship between the two of them had just had a positive breakthrough, Xiao Yao became even bolder and more shameless.

"What's on your mind?" Yu Luying tapped his head with the book in her hand.

"It hurts." Xiao Yao said.

"Don't I know whether it hurts or not?" Yu Luying said.

"That's different. It's not a one-to-one copy now." Xiao Yao said, "Yingying."

"what?"

"Let me give you a foot massage to relax you."

"Oh," Yu Luying pretended to be angry, "My mother studied medicine. I want you to press me blindly here - I tell you, you won't be able to go to heaven like this."

"What should we do then?" Xiao Yao said, "If you go in, I can't go, so won't we be separated?"