You are my wife, don't doubt it!

"Then you were stunned for a moment, said 'Merry Christmas' to me, and then left in a hurry." Xiao Yao told Yu Luying.

"Is there anything special about this?" Yu Luying asked him.

"You hadn't spoken to me for several months, but you said 'Merry Christmas' to me that day." Xiao Yao said happily, "Just because of these four words, I was happy for a week because you finally spoke to me again."

"You..." Yu Luying was a little moved for a moment.

In fact, the girl remembered very clearly that her scalp went numb when she saw Xiao Yao on Christmas Eve.

At that time, she even begged her uncle to send someone to fork him out.

But my uncle said that the church’s doors were open to everyone, and it would be inappropriate to kick people out when they came to celebrate the birth of the Savior.

I still remember saying to my uncle Yu Bo: "You know exactly who he is targeting."

After the mass, when Xiao Yao came over and said "Merry Christmas", I wanted to turn around and leave immediately.

But it was in church after all, and it was Christmas Eve after all, so I reluctantly replied "Merry Christmas" and left.

At that time, she was secretly glad that the boy did not chase her and harass her again.

I didn't expect that just four simple words, just such a small kindness, could make the boy in front of me happy for a week.

In fact, many times, what boys want is very simple and pure, and it is just that I am too stingy.

Yu Luying felt her heart was rapidly melting with guilt.

She hugged the boy tighter in her arms.

Maybe it would be nice to exchange a perfect first kiss on this lake?

Even though the other person is no longer here, it doesn’t matter.

……

"When did you stop rejecting me?" Xiao Yao asked this question out of the blue.

When the boy asked this question, he was gently stroking the girl's face, but the girl was startled and subconsciously broke free from him.

"What's wrong?" Xiao Yao was a little confused and didn't understand what was wrong with his question.

Xiao Yao's question reminded me - yes, when did I stop rejecting him? Yu Luying frowned and fell into thought.

No matter how I search through my memory, this feeling of "no longer rejecting" cannot be traced back to before May.

That is... before the symbiosis appeared? Before Shen Tianyun appeared?

After saying "Merry Christmas" to him on Christmas Eve, Yu Luying's attitude towards Xiao Yao softened slightly - really just slightly.

But as his attitude became a little more... socially polite, Xiao Yao's pestering intensity slowly began to decrease.

Although the two people have never communicated with each other, they seem to have reached an unspoken agreement, which is "If you are decent, we can all be decent."

Or in other words, "give each other a way out and help each other down."

So…I was able to talk to him properly again at the beginning of this year, but when did I really “no longer reject” him, really start to care about him, and really treat him as my friend again?

Yes, May...?

Was it in May, when the symbiosis appeared?

At that time, when I heard Teacher Yao say that Xiao Yao was about to fail a grade, I volunteered without thinking twice to help Xiao Yao with his lessons.

Although I had not yet realized the existence of symbiosis at that time, it was definitely after symbiosis, right?

This was not the first time Yu Luying asked herself this question, but she always ignored it lightly.

Because once you think about it, it's terrifying.

My kindness, admiration, concern, and no longer rejecting him towards him, are they really from my "true heart"?

Is “I” still “me”?

Somehow, Yu Luying recalled the speech Xiao Yao gave in front of her mother a week ago.

There is also a discussion about the concept of "self"...

"Little Apple, what's wrong with you?" Yu Luying's wild thoughts were interrupted by Xiao Yao: "You suddenly stopped talking."

"No, nothing..." Yu Luying held her forehead with her right hand: "You, call someone to tow the boat."

Xiao Yao could see that Yu Luying didn't want to answer his question, and her reaction was very strong. Although he didn't understand what she was thinking, he didn't think it was appropriate to ask her, so he climbed to the bow and called for help.

After the phone call, Yu Luying's sudden mental state seemed to have improved.

"Big bunny," the girl hugged her knees and looked at herself seriously: "I want to ask you something, can I?"

"What is it? Just ask directly." Xiao Yao said.

"Well... maybe it's a bit strange to ask this," Yu Luying asked hesitantly, "Have you felt any special changes in yourself recently?"

"What changes?" Xiao Yao said with a smile: "I have changed a lot recently - after all, I have been through so many things."

"Hmm... Hmm..." Yu Luying pondered and felt that her question was indeed too deliberate: "That is, is there anything that you didn't like before but started to like recently, such as writers, singers, actors, etc.?"

Xiao Yao didn't quite understand what Yu Luying wanted to ask, but he still cooperated and thought about it: "Yes, Zhang Ailing should be one of them."

"Zhang Ailing?" Yu Luying said.

"Yes, Zhang Ailing." Xiao Yao sat down on the bow of the boat: "Don't you like Zhang Ailing very much? When I just started school, she gave me a copy of Love in a Fallen City."

"Yeah." Yu Luying nodded.

"But I couldn't really read it. How should I put it? I didn't really like that style of writing," Xiao Yao explained. "And the kind of writing that's unique to female writers... it's overly delicate, so I put it down after a few pages."

"Oh, I thought boys would be more interested in stories involving war - how about I give you a copy of 'The Red Rose and the White Rose' which I recently finished reading?" Yu Luying asked.

"Goodbye. Recently, I accidentally came across that book again. The more I read it, the more interesting it became. Does this count?" Xiao Yao said.

A single piece of evidence is not enough, Yu Luying thought.

This alone does not prove that symbiosis will affect a person's thinking.

I have also had this experience of reading a book that I couldn't finish reading before, but after the time passed and my mood changed, I began to like it very much. The same goes for songs.

Xiao Yao has indeed experienced a lot in the past two months, and has also encountered "red roses and white roses" in reality. There are too many variables, and it is difficult to draw a definite conclusion.

"That's good," Yu Luying said with a forced smile, "We now have a new writer we both like. We can talk more about Eileen Chang in the future."

"Okay, okay," Xiao Yao said with a smile, "Look, the tugboat is coming."

Yu Luying looked in the direction of Xiao Yao's finger and said, "Tell me, if there were no girls like Shen Tianyun and Shen Jie, would you dare to pursue her?"

"?" Xiao Yao was a little confused by Yu Luying's sudden jump in thinking.

First he didn't answer his own question, then he asked from here to there, and from there to here.

He was already upset because of Shen Jie's disappearance, and Yu Luying's question further aroused his anxiety: "We are together now, why talk about her?"

"That's not right," Yu Luying said, "We are three people together, and we all know it. Isn't it better to be honest?"

In fact, this issue was discussed with Shen Jie in the bathtub of "Wei Ai Hotel" in Zhouzhuang that day.

The final conclusion is that it is highly likely that one would not dare to pursue it.

But Xiao Yao felt that if he told the truth, it would definitely make Yu Luying unhappy.

"Oh, you don't dare to pursue her, but you dare to cling to me. Does that mean she is much better than me?"

Whether she says it out loud or not, Yu Luying will definitely have this thought.

"What's the problem? I definitely dare to pursue her." Xiao Yao suppressed his inner uneasiness and answered with a smile.

"Really?" Yu Luying tilted her head.

"Nonsense, I dare to pursue you, so why shouldn't I dare to pursue her?" Xiao Yao explained to Yu Luying, "I'm a very brave person, or I'm thick-skinned, or I'm stupid, whatever you want to say. Anyway, no matter who I like, whether you're a fairy from the ninth heaven or the mayor's daughter, I'll confess to you first. There's no loss in pursuing her, so why shouldn't I dare to do that?"

"Casting a wide net, huh?" Yu Luying frowned. "How many girls have you chased after? I thought you liked me so much!"

Xiao Yao knew that this was pure pretense. He smiled tolerantly and was about to say something to coax her, but a rope hook flew over and hooked on the hook on the bow of his boat.

"You guys, you guys..." The staff member who came, or the person who wanted to help Yu Luying at the dock: "Really."

"What is this really? Your engine is broken!" Xiao Yao said unhappily.

"That's because the battery is out of power. You didn't listen to the battery level prompt, right? Didn't we say there was no time limit? But when the battery is running low, do you have to come back and change boats?" the staff member said unhappily.

Chapter 193 Yu Luying's Interrogation

2023-05-17

After being pulled ashore from the Swan Lake Center by the administrator, Xiao Yao went to return the deposit and then took Yu Luying to have lunch.

The prices in the park are two to three times higher than outside. Xiao Yao and Yu Luying sat in the open-air area outside the restaurant, where there were many small wooden tables and plastic chairs.

Yu Luying still looked unhappy, and slowly drank a bottle of iced 7-Up that cost ten yuan.

This semi-open-air restaurant in the park is surrounded by a circle of trees and flowers. In the distance, some tourists are walking and taking photos. The afternoon sun pushes away the clouds and becomes less scorching after passing through the thick shade of the trees. The breeze blows, and the air is fresh and pleasant, making people feel comfortable and relaxed.

Regarding the incident of Yu Luying drinking 7-Up for 10 yuan, here is an additional explanation: it was said to be a large bottle, but in fact it was only 500-600 ml, in a plastic bottle. The girl sat on a plastic chair, one hand supporting her chin, the other holding the drink bottle. Her brows were slightly wrinkled, as if she was thinking about something, and she looked a little distressed.

Xiao Yao was also distressed and reached out to her.

Yu Luying casually handed the drink bottle over to him. Xiao Yao tilted his head back and took two big gulps.

The boy stared at the screen of his mobile phone. There was still no news from Shen Jie. No matter whether it was text messages or QQ, he could not find her. This was the root of Xiao Yao's troubles.

While Xiao Yao was typing on his phone, he handed the empty drink bottle back to Yu Luying. The latter took the 7-Up and took another sip from her cherry lips without any hesitation.

The boy then realized that this action was a little subtle, and looked up from the screen and glanced at Yu Luying. The latter also reacted and her face flushed.

However, neither of them said anything.

Xiao Yao watched the girl stand up, throw the empty bottle into a nearby trash can, and then slowly walk back.

"Little Apple," Xiao Yao said, "Come and call your sister."

"Ah?" Yu Luying was stunned for a moment: "Ah, okay."

"She's been out of contact for a whole day," Xiao Yao took the initiative to explain before Yu Luying asked, "This is not unusual. No, this is very abnormal."

Yu Luying pouted: "Girls don't stay around you 24 hours a day. I just hate you being too clingy."

……

"Okay, I'll hit you." Yu Luying said as she sat back on the plastic chair.

Xiao Yao was feeling anxious. He had been holding it in since morning until now and he really couldn't bear it any longer.

One day, a whole day! Although he tried to send text messages and QQ, he didn't get any response. He kept guessing various possibilities in his mind, imagining the various difficulties that Shen Jie might encounter, and his mood became more and more nervous and uneasy.

"But one of them has started to turn black." said the elusive flower girl who was not sure whether she was human or not.

If she were human, she must be a witch.

"A fully bloomed flower will soon wither." These inexplicable words kept echoing in my ears like the devil's whispers.

Xiao Yao kept checking his phone, hoping to see any message from Shen Jie. His fingers kept tapping the screen, his brows furrowed, his eyes full of anxiety and worry. He felt his heartbeat getting faster and faster, and his breathing became rapid.

Although he tried to calm himself and told himself that it might just be Shen Jie... Damn, he really couldn't come up with a reasonable reason. He couldn't calm down, and he began to feel scared and desperate, worried that the worst had happened. He felt powerless to deal with this uncontrollable situation, and his heart was filled with helplessness and anxiety.

If Shen Jie had not expressly forbade him to call her, and if Xiao Yao had not been worried that Yu Luying would be jealous, he would not have waited until this moment to ask Yu Luying to make the call.

If it was Yu Luying’s incoming call number... after all, she’s a girl, so it can always reduce a certain amount of risk, right?

"It's connected," Yu Luying put down her own phone, "but no one answered."

"It's not turned off, it's not turned off, it's just that no one answered, right?" Xiao Yao confirmed.

"That's right." Yu Luying nodded.

"Hit again." Xiao Yao ordered.

"Three have been beaten." Yu Luying did not follow Xiao Yao's instructions.

"Okay." Xiao Yao said dejectedly.

"Don't think too much," Yu Luying tried to comfort Xiao Yao, and put her hand on the back of Xiao Yao's hand: "Maybe she forgot to bring her phone. She is at home, what could happen? Wait a little longer, nothing will happen, ok?"

As she spoke, she pinched the back of his hand twice.

Yes, she was at home, and she didn't bring her cell phone with her. How could that be justified? Xiao Yao absentmindedly pinched back, "Thank you - sorry, I didn't mean to disturb you because of this..."

"No," Yu Luying said hypocritically, "This is a matter between the three of us - you should have told me earlier."

In fact, Yu Luying was a little unhappy in her heart - but it was not incomprehensible. These nice words won Xiao Yao more respect.