I, the yellow-haired villain, am a female devil!

It wasn't like she suddenly wanted to die.

People are really born strangely. Her family is a wealthy family that others envy, but at a certain stage in her life, she feels like she has hit her head against a wall, with no way to turn back and feels depressed.

She put on a simple plain pair of white pantyhose followed by a white chiffon suspender.

After thinking for a moment, she put on the sky blue Lolita-style dress with countless lace patterns on the hem.

There is also a pleated collar with a light pink lace at the neckline, and the bodice is fastened with copper buttons and tied with a bow on top.

She was wearing a pair of black round-toed leather shoes and a white headband with flowers.

She wore each piece of clothing very carefully because it was her favorite.

Since it's your last day, there's no reason not to wear your favorite clothes.

The ragdoll cat stood on the carpet, staring at her curiously with its beautiful sapphire eyes.

When she thought that she would never be able to hug or pet cats again, she felt inexplicably sad.

The girl gently grasped the flesh on the puppet's cheek with both hands and said, "Cola, Cola, I can no longer accompany you. If I die, will I be eaten by your kind?"

Coke was the name of the drink she was most curious about. She tried to taste it secretly countless times, but was always discovered and ruthlessly confiscated.

So, giving the cat this name is just a small wish.

But Coke didn't quite understand what his master meant. He just struggled to pull his face out of her hands, like pulling the cork out of a wine bottle.

"Miss, it's time to eat." The nanny came over to deliver the message.

Qin Yunxi said: "I don't want to eat."

The nanny had a pleading look on her face: "Miss, the master has specially invited a professional Western chef to prepare food today, and he told you to go and eat."

Qin Yunxi had been feeling extremely relaxed as she was planning to go to the afterlife today, but now she suddenly felt very sad again.

Her father never physically punished her, but he would punish her nanny if she disobeyed.

Qin Yunxi went downstairs and found her father and mother already sitting at the table.

"Why are you wearing such clothes again?" Father frowned slightly.

Although Lolita is a very noble existence in ordinary circles, it is said that nine out of ten Lolitas are rich and one is extremely rich. The reason is that most of the Lolitas mentioned above are in the Lolita circle.

"..." Qin Yunxi remained silent and had no good words to respond to his father.

I don’t know when the distance between her and her father became long.

"Yunxi, haven't you been in a bad mood recently? Your father specially invited a chef from England. How about coming and trying it?" Mother looked at Qin Yunxi with a smile on her face.

England? Chef? It's really hard to associate these two words together, and it's hard not to laugh.

England, a food desert, was voted as the country with the worst food in the world, and yet his own father was rushing to send money to it?

And shouldn’t France be the country that is most famous for Western food?

"What is this?" Qin Yunxi asked curiously, looking at a small box in front of her that contained small black balls.

Could this be the eggs laid by something?

Looking at the steak in front of my father, which was still dripping with blood and was not known how well done it was, the last bit of my appetite completely disappeared.

She doesn't like Western food. She always likes to hide when her family is eating Western food. After everyone has finished eating, she asks the nanny to cook her an ordinary home-cooked meal.

In her opinion, the dishes cooked by the nanny are much more delicious than the Western food made by this so-called chef in England.

If there is anything she likes in England, it is the Darjeeling black tea that the English aristocrats love to brew. Unfortunately, this tea is not produced in England.

"Caviar, it's a good thing. Yunxi, you can enjoy it."

The father explained that he didn't know how to communicate with his daughter and always felt that there was a deep gap between father and daughter.

"Yunxi, this is the best white sturgeon caviar, eat more."

Qin Yunxi took a sip and found it salty, with a hint of sea water and a unique umami flavor.

For a moment, Qin Yunxi felt as if ants were crawling on her body. She never ate seafood because she was allergic to it due to physical reasons.

But it seemed as if the parents didn't even know this simple thing about their daughter.

Even if this thing was the best delicacy in the eyes of her parents, Qin Yunxi still felt that she was not worthy enough to enjoy it.

As soon as she took a bite, she felt a little red rash on the back of her hand and quickly spat out the fish roe.

"You unlucky child, don't waste it if you don't want to eat it!"

This kind of caviar, just the small box in front of Qin Yunxi, costs a whopping 18,000 yuan.

Even my parents, who are used to eating Western food, are reluctant to eat more.

After hesitating for a moment, the nanny said in a voice that everyone in the restaurant could hear but not too loud: "Master... Madam, the young lady is allergic to seafood..."

The restaurant was silent for a moment, and the two parents laughed awkwardly. "Then let's eat something else...eat something else. Yunxi, is there anything else you want to eat?"

She glanced at the food on the table: blue cheese, French foie gras, bleeding steak, caviar; none of them was something she could enjoy.

Looking at the bleeding steak in front of her, she really wanted to ask, couldn't the meat be stewed like the pork and potatoes that the nanny made for her?

But in the end, I couldn't say such words.

After eating Western food, she felt even hungrier.

The nanny was tidying up her clothes, and she went over and asked, "Sister, have you ever taken a bus?"

"Yes, what happened?" The nanny was still busy.

"How can I take the bus?" Qin Yunxi asked.

“Wait at the bus stop, and when it comes, get on the bus.”

Qin Yunxi asked again: "How does it know where you are waiting? Is there a sensor at the bus stop?"

The nanny turned around, looked at her with a smile, and then hugged her.

"My lady, you are so cute."

Qin Yunxi pushed her away: "You don't know how to take the bus. You're not cute at all."

"No, it's cute."

Qin Yunxi, with the suicide note in his arms, sneaked out the door.

The clothes are nice and the little leather shoes are eye-catching, but they still look too thin on the streets in winter.

Not long after leaving the house, Qin Yunxi began to regret it.

098 It’s impossible for me to give money. I will never give money in this lifetime.

The clothes are nice and the little leather shoes are eye-catching, but they still look too thin on the streets in winter.

Not long after leaving the house, Qin Yunxi began to regret it.

The cold wind in winter can penetrate every corner, and keeps coming in through the cuffs and collar.

cold!

This was the only word that Qin Yunxi could think of at the moment.

With my neck huddled, I followed the route I had memorized on the computer from home to the nearest bus stop.

Apart from the lonely bus stop sign and the awning with advertisements, the surrounding area is empty.

Qin Yunxi walked around the bus stop and didn't find anything like a sensor.

In the end, I could only sit obediently on the bench at the station, with my hands on my knees. I felt a cold touch under my butt, and the temperature of my whole body seemed to be dropping all the time.

Her home is located in a remote area and there are only two buses passing by this station. When a passing bus sees her sitting here, it will definitely know that she is waiting for it.

Ten minutes later, Qin Yunxi went from sitting upright to hugging his arms and shivering.

From time to time, she carefully looked in the direction of her home, and then at the end of the road. She began to wonder if the way she was waiting for the bus was wrong.

I was also worried about when my parents at home would find out that I was missing. It was a contradictory feeling of being worried about being discovered, but also worried about not being discovered.

Before she knew it, twenty minutes had passed and her body had grown colder. She even suspected that she would not need to end her life on purpose, as she would have collapsed first in this lonely station far away from the city.

But this place is too close to home, even if I fall down, I will be found and sent to the hospital.

Finally, the bus arrived!

After getting on the bus, the driver asked her to insert coins, but she searched her body and found nothing.

Fortunately, a boy paid for her.

So she sat next to the boy.

While driving, the boy kept looking at her secretly.

In fact, many people in the entire carriage were secretly looking at her.

But she just sat very straight and didn't say anything.

The warm air in the car also made her body temperature gradually rise, and a comfortable feeling surged into her heart. It seemed that she had been sitting on the bench of the bus and feeling this comfort.

She didn't know where her target should be. Binhai was a coastal city, so she should find a beach to jump into.

But if I jump into the sea, what should I do so that my suicide note will not be discovered?

Perhaps even the body will never be found, washed away to an unknown place by the sea.

The car drove slowly until it arrived at Binhai Park Station, and she got off.

Because she seemed to have heard from somewhere that there was a small lake in the center of the coastal park, and there were many benches and flower beds around the lake.

Dying in a place like this seems better than jumping into the sea.

But the girl started to worry about how to do it.

You definitely can't just keep the suicide note in your pocket.

When people fished her out of the lake, the paper was so soaked that it was wrinkled, not to mention the words on it could not be seen clearly.

If it were just left on the bench, it might be thrown away as garbage by the cleaning lady, or picked up by a passing child and folded into a paper airplane.

In addition, there are so many people around. What if I jump down and someone rescues me?

Based on her experience of swimming in her own swimming pool, she would not sink if she just jumped in like this.

The sun was shining brightly, making her feel warm and comfortable compared to when she first went out. The wind was also much weaker than when she first slipped out.

She just sat quietly on the bench, waiting for the right time.

The balmy winter day waxed and waned, and then gradually dimmed, the color of the sky changing from clear blue to orange and then to purple.

The number of pedestrians in the park increased from a few to a few, and then became fewer and fewer again.

But there were still some couples who occasionally passed by her. The men's eyes fell on her from time to time, and then the women next to them pinched their ears hard and dared not go up to her to talk to her.

Some couples for some reason went into the bushes on the roadside, and made some incomprehensible noises that made Qin Yunxi blush.

She looked at her watch. The midnight bell in the park had already struck midnight and it was already past midnight.

Christmas is here, and as if to celebrate the arrival of this holiday, snowflakes begin to fall from the sky.

Besides her, there was another person sitting on the bench next to her.

It was a little girl, wearing a light blue windbreaker with the collar covering her face, and her hair was dazzling gold.

Qin Yunxi found it a little strange. A little girl of this age was sitting here alone. Was she waiting for her parents, or was she a child who accidentally got lost?

She couldn't help but shiver.

Then she thought about whether she should help the other person. She was going to die anyway, so it would be nice to do one last good deed before she died.

However, she felt like she was about to freeze to death.

Qin Yunxi rubbed his hands, trying to regain a little warmth.

But it doesn't seem to have much effect.

Then she stood up, walked towards the little girl, tried to keep herself straight and not tremble, and stood in front of her in a coquettish manner.

After all, judging from her appearance, I should be considered an older sister, so I should at least appear reliable so that my younger sister can feel at ease.