Teacher Daxiang, please teach me how to play Kasuga Shadow!

All her band members left her

The time they used to spend practicing together after class turned into endless loneliness. She felt as if she had been abandoned by the whole world, and her heart was empty.

On this summer morning, the sun was blazing, and the air was filled with a scorching breath. The trees on both sides of the long slope seemed to be sighing silently, and the leaves rustled in the breeze, as if telling of their inner despair.

Her footsteps were heavy, and every step felt like she was dragging a heavy burden, or dragging her own shadow.

Gao Songdeng raised her head and looked ahead, as if the long slope was endless, as if mocking her helplessness. The glaring sunlight sprinkled on her face, but it could not dispel the haze in her heart.

She clearly didn't want to be sad anymore and didn't want to be like this anymore.

Two scenes that made her despair and her ears tinnitus flashed through her mind: Xiangzi's departure and the scattered people, and this time everyone fell apart for similar reasons.

Deng lowered her head and stared at the ground beneath her feet. Every stone and every dead leaf seemed so insignificant. If it were her in the past, she might habitually bend down to pick up the stone that looked most like herself, but now she no longer had these thoughts that had always been misunderstood.

The only thing that prevented her from collapsing was what Ayano said to her when they met that day.

That should have been the gentle Ayano-chan's encouragement and comfort to her, but afterwards Deng felt that she was too weak to accept the fate of fireworks that she talked about.

Maybe she is too greedy?

Obviously, she should make the choice most of the time, but because of her indecision, she always thinks about the best and most perfect result, which hurts more people.

The scene of the band members leaving appeared in Deng's mind, and the words they said when they left seemed to still echo in her ears. Those words were like sharp swords, deeply hurting her heart.

Now she doesn’t know how to express her thoughts. She has never been an eloquent person and most of the time she is silent in the band. Maybe someone would come and ask her questions in the past, but no one does that anymore.

Deng clutched the straps of her backpack tightly, trying to gain some strength from them. However, no matter how hard she tried, the emptiness in her heart grew stronger and stronger. Her steps grew slower and slower, and each step felt like stepping through thick mud, making it almost impossible to move forward.

She walked into the classroom and heard her classmates greeting her, but when she looked up, she happened to see Aine avoiding her gaze.

...Surely, this shouldn't have started from the beginning, right?

Gao Songdeng's heart was filled with self-denial. During the day's class, she hardly listened carefully to the teacher's lecture on the stage.

She returned to the past, to the time when she could no longer become human. The pen in her hand and the paper under her pen became her only means of expressing herself. Here, she seemed to no longer need to worry about whether the listener would be hurt. She only needed to write down her inner thoughts.

At noon, she went to eat alone, and then went to the astronomy club alone to record the trajectory of the stars as usual. Finally, after school in the afternoon, she left alone and felt lonely.

She really hoped to meet Ayano again, because she knew Ayano would definitely say something to her, but unfortunately, except for the coincidental encounter during break yesterday, she did not see Ayano.

Deng naturally didn't have the courage to go to Ayano's class to find her, so after a while of worrying, she went to the planetarium to watch the stars as usual.

This is the only hobby she has not given up during this period. Maybe it is because this hobby does not require interacting with people. She only needs to lie down and look up at the starry sky to see herself among the stars.

Deng just sat there leaning on the chair, but what puzzled her was that the girl next to her seemed to be fiddling with the buttons of the chair.

"Ah... Sorry to bother you?"

"This chair...press here."

Deng didn't say anything else, but directly helped the other person press the button to adjust the backrest of the chair. Suddenly, Chuhua felt the triangle of the backrest behind her suddenly fall down. She screamed, and the hat on her head fell off naturally, and she happened to lie sideways next to Gao Songdeng.

The two looked at each other, and Sanjiao Chuhua recognized the identity of the girl next to him at a glance.

After all, in the photo Xiangzi posted before, the one standing in the center vocal position was this cute and silly girl with silver-gray hair.

However, Chu Hua didn't say anything because the performance had already begun and she didn't want to scare the other party, so she just turned around quietly and looked at the sky above her head.

After the performance, everyone left.

As Deng left alone, Chuhua, who had just found her hat from under her body, hurriedly followed. She just looked at the back of the girl named Gao Songdeng not far in front of her, and wanted to go up and ask something, but felt something was wrong.

Why did Xiangzi disband crychic in the first place, and what happened afterwards?

Chu Hua didn't know this, but just when she finally thought of a reason to go up and talk, she suddenly saw Gao Songdeng's figure not far away sway, and the next moment it seemed like he was about to roll down the stairs.

"This is very dangerous!"

Chu Hua trotted over and grabbed Deng's shoulder.

"Thanks……"

"Are you okay?" Chu Hua looked at the girl who was obviously not very good at speaking and smiled faintly, "I feel like you are about to cry.

. "

"I……"

"If you don't mind, I can sit down and chat with you. Just like talking to a stranger, how about that?"

Deng looked at Chu Hua in front of him silently, and finally nodded and sat down with him on the steps below.

The sun has completely set, and looking down from here, the long steps are outlined by light strips, looking like a glowing sea of flowers.

"You can even see the North Star in the night sky of Tokyo... I thought you couldn't see stars in the city."

"Ah..." Deng glanced at Chuhua, then at the sky, and then pointed at the night sky, "Ursa Major, Ursa Minor... and that..."

"Isn't that Vega?"

"Um……"

Chu Hua smiled and continued casually, "Actually, my favorite is Vega. Maybe it's because a friend I know said she looks a lot like Vega?

However, it was difficult to see it directly at night in the spring, but it seems to be a little easier to observe in the summer."

Speaking of this, Chu Hua couldn't help but imagine a petite blue-haired figure in his mind.

Meanwhile, Deng, who was standing by, thought of Ayano's metaphor of fireworks and summer, and subconsciously replied:

"But summer will eventually end."

"..."

Chapter 175 Don’t be surprised if Xiangzi looks weird later (1/2)

Although Deng's words made Chuhua feel a little uncomfortable, she also knew that Deng did not say this with any malicious intent.

On the contrary, she thought that the reason why the girl in front of her was so distraught might be related to what she said.

But...will summer ever end?

Chuhua doesn’t quite agree with this statement. Although summer will indeed end, the other four seasons are also wonderful, aren’t they?

And after this summer passes, there will be countless summers waiting to be reincarnated. Although each summer is short, when connected together they will form a lifetime of midsummer.

"Here, can you let me see it?" Chu Hua noticed that Xiao Deng accidentally dropped the notebook on his lap onto the steps beside him because he pointed his finger at the sky.

There were many deleted and revised sentences written on it. She glanced at it and felt a little curious.

Maybe it's out of curiosity as a fellow creator, or maybe he wants to get to know Xiao Deng in this way.

"Ah...sure."

Deng is not the type of person who is good at rejecting others. Although he is not used to letting others see his diary, he finally nodded.

The girl with light yellow hair smiled, then carefully picked up the notebook beside her and looked through the contents carefully.

The girl's handwriting is very cute. Although her writing and drawing have been changed many times, Chuhua can feel Xiaodeng's unspeakable complex psychology from these signs.

Is it hard to understand? Actually, it's not. While the lyrics are rather general, the emotions are specific, so specific that the words seem to conceal faces, some crying, some laughing, and some humming, some high and some low.

"This...is a song, right?"

Deng was stunned for a moment. At this moment, she seemed to have returned to the past, back to the time when she was invited by Xiangzi to his home to play the song "Song of Becoming Human".

"Everything can be conveyed through singing." Chu Hua smiled. She looked at the words on the notebook and thought of herself. "Emotions can surpass thousands of words in expressing those things that cannot be expressed clearly. Let's convey them together."

"......"

Deng froze there, and when she came to her senses, her notebook had been placed back on her lap.

The girl in the black baseball cap had already stood up and waved goodbye to her while gently encouraging her:

"I hope that your voices can be conveyed to the people you care about in this way."

After saying this, Chu Hua walked towards the main road below the steps.

To be honest, although she said this to Deng, it was indeed her true thoughts all along.

When she was in Sumimi, she was also responsible for writing lyrics and composing music. Many times, for musicians, nothing is more suitable than singing to convey emotions.

Everything she wanted to pursue and express was contained in those songs.

I hope...that one day the important person in her eyes will be able to hear the cry of her heart.

After going down the stairs, Chu Hua walked to a BMW 3 Series that had been parked on the side of the road, opened the back door and got in.

"Sorry, it took me a while."

"It's okay, Chuhua-san."

The person who spoke was Ayano, who was sitting in the passenger seat. She was dressed very beautifully at the moment, but not as glamorous and gorgeous as before. Sitting there, she only gave people the impression of a gentle and beautiful young girl.

The person in the driving seat was Rina Nagasaki. There was no impatience on either of their faces. After all, there was actually no annoying person in their new team.

"Where are we going to eat today?" Chu Hua asked nervously.

Although it was not the first day that she met the band members, she had spent most of her time with them through

They used music to bond, but they never sat together and chatted formally.

Especially today, she heard that there would be a new member coming, and from what Ayano, who was sitting right in front of her, said, that he was Xiangzi's childhood friend.

Logically speaking, with her personality, she wouldn't be nervous about this or that, but when she thought about the inexplicable sense of estrangement she felt from Xiangzi during this period, she felt empty.

Xiaoxiang... has indeed changed a lot.

"Let's go to a restaurant called 'Jinxi' in Ginza. Xiangzi and the others should be there by now."

"That's it."

Chu Hua nodded, and then stopped talking.

She didn't know much about Mizushima Ayano's personality. She only knew that she was a friend of Shoko's in high school and that she had a great talent in music.

It seems that Xiangzi is doing pretty well recently, right?

During the practice and rehearsal process, Chuhua could feel that Xiangzi's emotional state was much calmer than when he first met him a few weeks ago.

She seemed to have really walked out of some kind of shadow from the past, and every time she discussed the arrangement and stage effects with Ayano who was sitting in the front seat, she would always involuntarily reveal a rare smile.

Thinking of this, Chuhua was still quite happy, but of course he also felt a little lost.

The BMW finally stopped near the destination. While Rina was looking for a place to park, Mikado Hatsuka inevitably stood with Ayano.

"Classmate Chuhua, you and Xiaoxiang have known each other for a long time, right?"

"Ah?" Chuhua was stunned for a moment, then smiled and nodded, "Yes, we have known each other since childhood... Ayano-san, don't call me Chuhua-san anymore, just call me Chuhua."

"Then just call me Ayano."

Ayano smiled, and her eyes full of smiles made Chuhua feel inexplicably nervous. "To be honest, I'm quite envious of the relationship between you and Xiaoxiang."

".......What?"

"When Xiaoxiang and I were discussing the costumes for the performance, she even wanted to call you to ask for your opinion. It seems Xiaoxiang actually cares about you."

"Ah?" Chu Hua was stunned. How come she didn't know about this?

However, after hearing Ayano's words, she did feel much happier, and her eyes softened as she looked at Ayano.

Ayano must have noticed that she was distracted along the way, right?

He said these words specifically to make her relax and feel more belonging to this new band. He is really a person with high emotional intelligence.

"But Xiaoxiang is actually very confused too, probably because we haven't spoken in a long time, plus her current personality.

Maybe she's been worried about how to strengthen the relationships between the unfamiliar band members, or she might be simply thinking about how to regain the feeling she once had when she and you could talk about anything.

So, if she behaves a little strangely while eating, don't take it too seriously."

For example, he was dragged into the bathroom and teased by me, and his face was flushed when he came out.

This is all very normal, no need to be too surprised.

Of course, jokes aside, Ayano actually hopes that Shoko can really get over it.

Of course, she would feel a sense of satisfaction and pleasure because Xiaoxiang only behaved truly in front of her, but precisely because she really cared about him, she did not want Xiaoxiang to continue developing in this direction indefinitely.

She shouldn't be the only one to talk to, there should be other ways to relieve stress.

Whether facing Chu Hua, Xiao Mu, or even Su Shi... she felt that Xiao Xiang was still holding on to a thick wall that he had built up on his own, and did not really understand the true meaning of friendship.

Of course...it's just friendship.

Ayano is quite selfish in dealing with these special feelings of hers, especially the two little ones she raises at home. She has no other pursuits in this life and just wants to live the rest of her life well with these two little cuties.