The social phobia substitute will not dream of the band girl

The kettle was making a lot of noise.

But the house was still quiet and no one came to see her.

Suddenly, she remembered that if she wanted to drink the boiled water, she would have to wait for it to cool down. With nothing to do, she began to think about random things again.

If I push the door now, what will I see?

Was he sweating profusely, like a god descending to earth and sleeping for five minutes?

Or should the whole family sleep together warmly, watching him being pressed underneath and unable to breathe?

I don’t know, Enka can’t imagine.

Because she has been running away all this time...

"Squeak-"

The door is open.

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"Wow, everyone, look who's here~!"

I don't know if it was because the sound of boiling water was too loud, but Enka, who was walking alone, was caught by Ichinose Asuna and brought back to the room. She introduced her happily and excitedly as if she was showing off her prey.

"...Good evening, everyone."

1v5 is indeed one against five, but it seems that the 1 is not right... Enka thought as she was trapped in a helpless situation.

"Come to think of it, is this the first time we've been alone together? I've always known about you, but we've never really talked. I thought I was hated..."

You call this being alone?

Looking at Hana Rin, Akane, Nel, and Shiko behind Asuna, who looked like four gods of war, Enka's mind felt a little confused.

Wait, it turns out his sister is here too, no wonder...

Higuchi Enka feels like she understands everything...

Of course, except for the current situation.

"So—let's have a good chat tonight!"

No, so where is the “so” here?

...But that's okay.

Although on the surface, Ichikawa Hina and Ichinose Asuna seem to be the same person, both are full of energy, innocent, and free.

But unlike Hina's willful nature, Asuna is simply doing what she wants to do. Although she is also "willful", the feeling she gives people is completely different.

However, although Enka was able to hit Hinana hard, she couldn't do that against Asuna.

"Where's Ping Xin...isn't he with you tonight?"

Don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean that I care about his affairs, it's just that as a "common topic", there is no one more suitable than him.

"Ah, he... I don't know where he went~" Asuna replied with a smile.

Before she knew it, Enka had been led by her to sit on the edge of the big bed.

No, you should care about it, right?

It was a strange feeling. Although she wanted to complain, Enka did not feel disgusted by this "thoughtless" behavior. Instead, she thought that this kind of innocent cuteness was very good.

Perhaps this is why she and Hina have such different opinions about Enka—

One is truly innocent, while the other knows everything but doesn't want to know anything.

"Where are your parents? ... We can explain it as 'work,' but won't your family be worried if you just run around with him like this every day?"

What's more, she moved directly into his house and started living together. Although she could definitely afford it, getting pregnant and having a child at this age is a bit...

Although this is not a rare thing in the East, it is not a good thing in Enka's opinion.

"I've sent messages about my mom before, but I haven't seen my dad's messages in a long time."

At this moment, Asuna only had a calm smile on her face. Even she was not really heartless and indifferent.

"...I don't have a father, but I do have regular communication with my mother."

Looking at Kadodade Karin, Enka remembered the joke he had said before. It turned out that it was not just a joke.

"My parents are very busy themselves, but as long as there is a 'guarantee' (contract) they will support my choice."

Murokasa Akane gives her a feeling that she is somewhat similar to Hina. To put it simply, she seems a little bit sinister. Does she also have such troubles?

"My mom is busy taking care of the baby right now, so she doesn't have time to worry about me."

Miganello, a petite girl of similar height to Koito but with a different temperament. Although it might be impolite to say this, Enka still has a little bit of maternal affection for this senior in many ways...

care!

Although I had known this before in the form of "knowledge", it turns out that not everyone has such a good relationship with their family as they do...

But looking at how they are now, if they have children in the future, they will definitely not make the same mistakes and will be able to provide them with a beautiful and happy childhood...

But after thinking about what Hirayuma once said, "His ability to make someone pregnant is even slimmer than the probability of an asteroid hitting the earth," Enka didn't know what expression to make.

I love children so much, but I can't have my own child...

"Aren't you afraid...of me?"

For some unknown reason, Enka said this, and she regretted it the moment it came out of her mouth.

"Yeah...I'm not scared~"

As if to comfort her, Asuna shook her head and opened her arms.

"Because we're all the same... and if there's a way to make everyone happy, this is it, right~?"

"...!"

I don't know whether to say she's fanciful or lacks common sense, or whether to say she's "a woman who can actively help start a harem"...

Enka felt the difference in capacity... in every sense of the word.

After all, the weather is very hot and Asuna herself is a more active type, plus some other reasons, her pajamas and underwear are relatively cool styles.

"Aren't you afraid of being abandoned?"

Oh, stupid question—

It turns out that when a smart person makes mistakes, they tend to make them one after another because they have coordinated everything too well.

Just like in the most sophisticated instruments, if even one electronic unit fails, the entire device becomes unusable.

"Why would that be?"

Asuna also came to answer questions with questions. Maybe this is the case that people get redder when they are around red people, and blacker when they are around black people.

"There's one thing I must explain in advance..." Murokasa Akane pushed her glasses: "We are not poor abandoned creatures, but we chose him with our own will——"

"but..."

"You sometimes have that feeling, right? That feeling of being out of place, and it's especially strong for us. It's as if... as if we, our personalities, and our talents, aren't meant for this world."

"..."

What does that feel like?

Higuchi Enka doesn't know, but she might also know, because she is the one who knows Asakura Toru best...

No, that’s still unknown.

Because perhaps, as someone said, admiration is the furthest distance from understanding. So the more you like someone, the closer you get to them, the less you can see their full picture.

"So we are not abandoned, nor are we stray animals taken in, but... we are returning—we are going home."

"........I'm sorry, even though I've already said something inappropriate and offended you before, I still want to say 'I don't feel that way'." Enka replied.

When you don’t know how to express yourself, just show your true self, because this is the option that will least make you regret... This is what someone said.

"There's no need to be like us... and it's impossible to be like us—but there are still some similarities between us."

These words were very convincing coming from Kadodade Karin's mouth.

"That is...?"

"Love."

"..."

After all, it's just the secretion of hormones, social needs and illusions produced by the brain. Can such things connect each other?

Enka felt a little irritated.

If they talked about those mysterious super powers, she could still laugh it off, but if they talked like this, wouldn't it be impossible for people to take it as a joke?

"I believe in you... I absolutely believe in my brother. From the moment he took me in, from the moment he taught me like a teacher with his crude and vulgar American accent, I have given him my whole heart."

"..."

Such a familiar weird tone from Yingyang. Could it be that you are the reason why Pingxin occasionally speaks like that?

Before this, Enka had always regarded Hirayobu's attitude of contempt for the nouveau riche (capitalists) and occasional sarcastic sarcasm as his "family tradition", but now it seems that the situation is more complicated.

"I really can't stand you... If you like each other, be together. If you're curious about him, ask him. If you want to see him, go now—or are you the one who's afraid of being left behind the whole time?"

Seeing Nel's reckless way of speaking in the game, as well as a little weakness detection and vulnerability effect, Enka is now a little embarrassed.

Lies never hurt anyone, the truth is the sharpest knife.

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If they...these killer whales in the sea, they sing (make sounds) to find their companions, then what is the meaning of my singing?

If at the beginning I sang repeatedly just to compete, to vent, or to pass the time, but gradually I was able to find meaning in this meaningless thing.

At first, I learned to play the guitar just because I could get some emotions from music that I lacked, or because I wanted to resonate with thoughts hidden deep in my heart.

At first I was just worried that she would be deceived, or maybe I was worried that she would gradually drift away from me, so I went there (the park) and wrote the letter.

At first, it was just for supervision and companionship, but deep down I resisted change and became an idol...even though I was still a trainee at that time.

But when I actually met him for the first time that day in the park, my life changed dramatically.

Have I changed?

I have changed, maybe a lot.

Now I can no longer be called "me", but a crazy, paranoid, persistent, moth-to-flame person.

woman.

"He didn't say where he was going... Ah, maybe he went diving. He once said he loved the quiet ocean."

But in the warehouse where the diving equipment was stored, all the props were there.

"...Maybe he just wants to be alone. He's like that a lot."

No, today is different...something is different from usual.

"But it's not ruled out that he ran away early to avoid tears of parting. After all, this kind of person is always like this..."

So he is like this at home too?

"If you care so much, why not just go find him? If he wants to see you, he'll be able to find you. If he doesn't want to see you... well, his belongings are all there anyway, so he can't escape."

I don't care...

"Come to think of it, brother seems to be really into diving lately... He even said that after he dies, he wants his ashes to be cremated and scattered there—"

He's barely 20, yet he's already talking about what he wants to do after he dies. It really fits his personality...

wrong--!?

Chapter 4000: In the Sea, in the Sky ()