The goal of life is to break up all couples

A self-deprecating smile played across Chihaya Asagumo's lips. "Or rather, I knew from the very beginning that it was me who came between them. So I've always... I've always felt guilty and uneasy... I'm worried that Mitsuki-san only accepted my advances because she had no other choice."

"So... even if I had to resort to such dark and despicable means, I still wanted to find out what Mitsuki-san was really thinking... But... even though I thought so from the beginning and told myself so, in reality, it's not like that at all!"

"I was just saying I was willing to quit... I was afraid of facing the reality of getting hurt, so I said those polite words, as if to make myself feel less heartbroken... But when Mitsuki-san actually wanted to hold Shoushio-san's hand, I still..."

Ayano Mitsuki showed an apologetic and painful look: "Chihaya..."

But Chihaya Asagumo didn't respond to him. Instead, she spoke more fiercely: "But if Mitsuki-san holds Shaoshio-san's hand, I think he'll just go to Shaoshio-san! I'm afraid he won't choose me but her! I'll stop Mitsuki-san, not because I have the courage to express my feelings, not because I want to exercise my rights as a girlfriend... but... I just... I don't trust Mitsuki-san..."

"Okay, okay, okay!"

Matsueda Azusa couldn't help but applaud with delight. He pointed at the three people one by one and offered a sharp critique: "One clearly loves someone but keeps it to himself. He claims to be incredibly fond of them, yet he doesn't even know they already have a girlfriend. He passionately wants to confess his feelings, to pour out his heart, but even when he wants to… he can't muster the courage and has to rely on others for support. And the most pathetic and cynical part is, it's all a trap set by his rival."

"You're incredibly slow and indecisive. You already have a girlfriend, but you haven't cleared your mind of someone else. You know your girlfriend is right next to you, but you show shyness when your childhood sweetheart confesses his love for you. And what I really don't understand is that you keep asking Shaoyan-san if she's saying she likes you. What's your intention? What do you want to do after getting the answer? Do you want to dump Chaoyun-san right then and there and be with her? Or do you clearly not plan to have a new girlfriend, but you just want Shaoyan-san to say she loves you again in person? Would that make you feel good? Either possibility is very abstract, right?"

"There's another one that's even more serious. She knows her boyfriend has someone else in his heart, but she still wants to be with him without hesitation. Being together is fine, as everyone is free to be a slut. But when it comes to the question of 'does her boyfriend have someone else in his heart?', she already knows the answer, yet she still insists on finding ways to prove it with facts..."

"Those who deceive themselves can comfortably ignore all this and live happily, living as quiet turtles. Those who seek the truth pursue the most authentic answers. Once they get the answers, they have a reason to make a decision about everything, so as not to waste their sincerity and their lives... And you, my friend, you want to seek the truth, but after finding it, you choose to deceive yourself... What's the point? You must be a god, too."

Songzhi Zi crossed his arms and shook his head. "Three geniuses, why didn't I notice this fun before?"

After hearing Matsueda Azusa's sharp comments, Mitsuki Ayano and the other two turned pale. Even the wheat-colored skin of Burnt Salt Lemon lost its color.

"But...but, even so!"

Chihaya Asagumo's voice trembled as she looked at Mitsuki Ayano with hope in her eyes and stretched out her hand to him: "Even so, I still want to be with you, Mitsuki-san."

Ayano Mitsuki looked at Chihaya Asagumo: "Chihaya..."

Shaoyan Lemon seemed to want to say something, but in the end he couldn't speak and just turned his face away in pain.

"Ah, ah, although the atmosphere is really touching, but... I say stop."

Matsueda Azusa, noticing the mood, interrupted, "I know you guys want to play a sadomasochistic romance, but could you please respect us here? We're the non-sexual relations monitoring department."

He glanced at Chihaya Asagumo and quickly determined that this guy would never give up, and that attacking her now would not be very beneficial.

So he looked at Ayano Mitsuki: "Asakumo-san is in love and wants to continue to be with you even so... But Ayano-san, you are not really planning to agree, are you?"

Mitsuki Ayano was speechless upon hearing this.

But Matsueda Azusa didn't stop talking, not giving the others a chance to interrupt. Instead, he continued, "Have you dealt with Shaoyan-san's feelings? Have you seen your true heart clearly? Can you promise to place your wholehearted heart on Asagumo-san? Are you going to ignore what you just did and continue to stay by Asagumo-san's side as her boyfriend? Are you really... going to be such a selfish and promiscuous person?"

Obviously, such words can't deal with a scumbag, but unfortunately, Ayano Mitsuki is indeed the same as what Numizu Kazuhiko said, this guy is a good person. So he really considers the problems mentioned by Matsueda Azusa.

To deal with bad guys, you need to use physical attacks, and to deal with good people, you need to use mental attacks. This is an irrefutable rule of attack.

"Do not……"

Just as Matsueda Azusa had expected, Ayano Mitsuki lowered her head: "I really am still... not qualified, nor do I have the face to stand by Chihaya's side as her boyfriend anymore. Matsueda-san is right. If I do this, it will be an irresponsible and willful act towards everyone. I... I can't do this..."

81

Chapter 81 It’s just a fake.

"do not want!"

Chihaya Asagumo interrupted Ayano Mitsuki, her voice so sharp it almost broke, "Mitsuki-san doesn't need to take any responsibility, this was all my own free will!"

As soon as these words were spoken, Matsueda Azusa, Miura Yumiko, Hikigaya Hachiman, and even Numizu Kazuhiko couldn't help but look at him sideways.

Matsueda Azusa couldn't help herself and immediately asked, "No... I'm really curious now. What exactly do you like about Ayano-san? Could it be that Ayano-san is actually a succubus with special attacks against you?"

Hearing Matsueda Azusa's question, even Ayano Mitsuki looked at Asagumo Chihaya and said sincerely: "Indeed, Chihaya, I have always had this doubt, always worried that I am not worthy of your love... What do you like about me?"

Matsueda Azusa was even more shocked after hearing Ayano Mitsuki's doubts: "Huh? Even your boyfriend doesn't know why you like him. What kind of relationship are you two having? I'm really confused."

Chihaya Asagumo pursed her lips and explained, "Because... I heard Mitsuki mention before that he wanted to work in a book-related field. He wanted to study literature in Tokyo, and then work as an academic, publisher, or bookstore... In short, he wanted to work in a field related to books. When I first heard him say that, I was shocked. It turns out that there are people around me who have the same dream as me, so I..."

"what?"

Suspecting he had misheard, Songzhi Zi touched his ear with his hand, revealing an extremely confused look: "No, huh?"

The reason for this groove left Songzhi Zi speechless.

Even Miura Yumiko couldn't help but grumble, "What the hell is that? Even if you say you're attracted to Ayano-san's face, that's a more reasonable excuse! Seriously? Do you really think so?"

Hikigaya Hachiman and Numizu Kazuhiko heard this and subconsciously complained in their hearts: No, it seems that being tempted by beauty is not much better, right? But in comparison, it is indeed more reasonable...

Songzhi Zi helplessly held his forehead: "So... just because his dream happens to be similar to yours, you fell in love with him?!"

Chihaya Asagumo was quite honest about this topic: "That's not entirely true, but it was definitely the most important reason why I wanted to get to know Mitsuki better... and then I slowly fell in love with her as we got to know each other."

"Wait, so that means that, compared to your dreams and career plans, factors like appearance, personality, and ability are less important to you?"

Azusa Matsueda tactically retreated: "It's not so much that I'm in love with Ayano Mitsuki as a person, but rather that I'm in love with Ayano Mitsuki because she shares the same dream as me. So, in essence, your love for Ayano Mitsuki is actually a projection of your love for yourself onto him."

"To put it nicely, you're looking for a partner who shares your interests, someone you can work with and pursue your dreams alongside you. But while that might seem like it, it's not. You didn't fall in love with him first and then fall in love with him because he shares your interests, but rather because he shares your dreams. So, to put it bluntly, you're essentially looking for someone who can support you and share your life plans. From what you're saying, dreams come first, and a partner comes second."

"Whether you prefer yourself or your partner is a personal choice. I won't judge. Preferring yourself is a very normal and reasonable choice. But... it's even more strange to say that. If that's the case... then it doesn't really make any difference to you whether your partner is Ayano Mitsuki or not? Do you have so few choices? At worst, you can just say goodbye and find someone better next time. Why do you have to act like you can completely tolerate him being irresponsible and having affairs outside, as long as he can continue to be by your side?"

Matsueda Azusa pondered deeply, then turned to look at Ayano Mitsuki: "What about you, Ayano-san? Why do you like Asagumo-san? Isn't it because you share the same dream?"

Ayano Mitsuki's eyes were a little bewildered. "I... I haven't really considered this question... Chihaya is smart, beautiful, and very popular, but she's drawn to a useless guy like me. So even though I doubted myself, I subconsciously agreed... But I can't deny that I do have feelings for her."

Shaoyan Lemon, who was standing by, mustered up the courage to whisper, "Guangxi is not a useless guy..."

"I'm impressed. You're truly invincible. One of you treats the other person as a carrier of your dreams, projecting your hopes for those dreams and your own affection onto them, pretending you like them for who they are. The other one doesn't even know why they like the other person, and just says yes to any confession, believing you won't lose out anyway..."

Songzhi Zi spread his hands and said, "No, you two treat your relationship like a joke, so why are you still acting out this passionate and abusive love story? If you can act it out, then just act it out. Honestly, before you understand others, why don't you understand yourselves first? Why not figure out how to love yourself before loving others?"

Mitsuki Ayano and Chihaya Asagumo had no words to refute. Although they felt that it was not true, it did sound reasonable. They wanted to refute but could not think of what to say for a moment, so they could only lower their heads in shame.

Especially Ayano Mitsuki. At least Asagumo Chihaya can still explain why she likes him. Regardless of whether this reason is her own, at least she knows what she is looking for in this relationship. But Ayano Mitsuki is different. He is completely submissive and goes with the flow. He doesn't even understand what he wants, nor what the other person wants. He is completely confused and ignorant.

After hearing what Matsueda Azusa said, Ayano Mitsuki's guilt almost reached its peak. He didn't even dare to look at Asagumo Chihaya again, and felt more and more like a bastard.

Hikigaya Hachiman nodded repeatedly as he listened. This kind of relationship, one that didn't even pretend to understand each other, was a complete sham. It didn't even have the most basic pretense; it was a fragile relationship built on falsehood. This kind of relationship... while Hikigaya wouldn't outright say it was completely unnecessary, he also definitely didn't consider it a good thing.

Miura Yumiko's focus was different. While cracking some melon seeds, she leaned over to Matsueda Azusa's ear and whispered, "Can't you just say that yourself? I saw you arguing with your ex-girlfriend before, and it's obvious that you didn't understand what you were talking about when you were dating her."

"Isn't this natural? If I had figured this out back then, I either wouldn't have talked to her, or we wouldn't have broken up after talking to her."

Matsueda Azusa glanced at Miura Yumiko and shrugged confidently: "It was precisely because I didn't understand anything back then that I ended up like that. And it's also because of that that I understand these things now."

Yumiko Miura tilted her head and thought about it, and felt that what he said made some sense.

Indeed, every failure is a learning experience. If Songzhi Zi had never suffered such a setback, how could he be so clear about the problem?

But then, does that make Matsueda Azusa the person who, having been caught in the rain herself, then offers an umbrella to others, hoping they won't make the same mistake and get hurt? Is that true?!

Yumiko Miura couldn't help but make a tactical retreat and quickly dismissed this horrible idea from her mind.

"Feel sorry……"

In the end, it was Mitsuki Ayano who spoke first to break the awkward atmosphere.

He took a deep breath, not daring to look at Chihaya Asagumo. He just said with a guilty look on his face, "I'm sorry, Chihaya... Until now, I still haven't figured out what's really going on in my heart. Whether it's me or you, I may not be able to understand them for the time being. I can't even think of the reason why I like you right now. I really don't deserve to be with you anymore."

"Mitsuki-san..."

Chao Yunqian knew early on that no matter how much he tried to persuade them, their fate today was already determined.

Ayano Mitsuki didn't give Chihaya Asagumo a chance to say anything. She covered her face with her hands and hurried away: "I'm sorry... Lemon, and Chihaya... I'm sorry, this is all my fault... I'm really, really sorry..."

"Great!"

Matsueda Azusa excitedly clenched her fists, jumped and cheered, but in order to take care of the other two people's emotions, she tried to lower her voice - Hey, is this really considered taking care?

Miura Yumi looked at Matsueda Azusa's smug look with a fake look on her face, and instantly erased from her mind the delusion that she had just had that Matsueda Azusa was actually quite gentle.

This guy is a complete bastard!

82

Chapter 82: Twisted and heavy sincerity.

Shaoyan Lemon and Asagumo Chihaya became depressed for a moment when they saw Ayano Mitsuki fleeing in a hurry.

It must be said that Ayano Mitsuki is indeed a very slow-witted guy. He is so insensitive to the feelings of others and his own heart that he hardly notices them. It is this insensitivity to any emotions and his hesitant and submissive character that has pushed him into his current situation.

However, he is indeed a good person in the secular sense. Knowing that he is wrong, he cannot deceive himself, cannot ignore the feelings of others, and cannot think only of himself like a scumbag. Therefore, he is inevitably moved by Matsueda Azusa's questioning.

Matsueda Azusa saw clearly that of the three, Shaoyan Lemon was too naive, or rather, too foolish. Talking to her was pointless; she followed her own fleeting emotions. And Asagumo Chihaya was so purposeful that even she herself was deceived and blinded by her own purpose. No matter how much others tried to persuade her, she would be unconvinced in such a short time. The only one who could listen to these words was Ayano Mitsuki. And the facts proved that this was indeed the case.

Then again, in this matter, between Shaoyan Lemon and Asagumo Chihaya…compared to the two, Shaoyan Lemon was at least tricked, while Asagumo Chihaya was simply shooting herself in the foot. If she hadn't been so idle as to stir up such a thing and provoke Matsueda Azusa, she wouldn't have ended up like this today.

Chihaya Asagumo took a deep breath, finally looked at Azusa Matsueda, and expressed her doubts: "Matsueda-san... if the relationship between Mitsuki-san and I is based on falsehood, then... in your mind, what exactly is true 'love'?"

"..."

Matsueda Azusa was silent for a moment. "What do I mean by 'love'? ... This is just my personal opinion, and has nothing to do with whether I should interfere with your relationship today. Even if you knew, it would be meaningless. But if you really want to know..."

Yumiko Miura couldn't help but look at Azusa Matsueda curiously.

Hikigaya Hachiman and the other former members of the Inspection Club had heard Matsueda Azusa's love declaration before and had some understanding of it. However, Yanami Kyouna felt that Matsueda Azusa's twisted and heavy views were unlikely to convince Asagumo Chihaya.

Chihaya Asagumo hesitated for a moment, but still nodded vigorously: "I want to know."

"It is a kind of eternal happiness that remains no matter what changes it goes through. It cannot be separated or left behind. Even if the distance increases and time passes, it will be attracted countless times. It can be clearly felt, and can be thoroughly understood and controlled."

Songzhi Zi's expression grew serious, and he spoke carefully, "What I want is a mutual understanding, a true heart without any barriers between us. I want to understand each other completely, thoroughly, and without omission. Without this, it wouldn't be real, without this, it wouldn't be peaceful. I also want the other person to be able to see through my every thought and every action, whether it's my thoughts or actions, my kindness or malice, my beauty or ugliness, to be known and accepted by the other person."

"No matter what they do, no matter what they say or don't say, there will be no misunderstandings between the two of them. There is no need to cater to each other, no need to carefully consider how their actions will affect the relationship, and no need to explain. No matter where they are, they will feel a connection; no matter what they do, they will understand each other's intentions; the two of them are transparent to each other; therefore, such a relationship will never disappear or break."

"What I want is blatant preference, complete and exclusive attention. I want her heart to hold only me, and no one else. I understand that perhaps my thoughts, even my very self, are absurd. So I hope she can, knowing it is absurd, resolutely use her existence to fight against absurdity. Plant a sea of ​​flowers in the barren land of my heart."

"It's this kind of excessive, cruel thing that I pursue. Even if my soul had replaced my body, even if I looked completely different from myself, even if my heart, my feelings, and my personality were twisted and ravaged to the point of being riddled with holes, she would still be able to recognize me without hesitation and hold me in her arms."

"I know this is a heartless, self-righteous, authoritarian, and arrogant wish. But if both of us can feel this way. If there is a relationship where both of us can impose this ugly self-satisfaction on each other and tolerate that arrogance... then this must be the true love I'm looking for."

There was silence.

Hikigaya Hachiman practically clapped his hands in admiration. He felt that while Matsueda Azusa's words were heavy and twisted, they were absolutely true. There was no need for ambiguous answers, collusion... none of that was necessary. He knew there was no such thing, that dwelling on it would lead to nothing, yet he continued to ponder, tormented, and constantly struggling. This was the path of the pursuit of the truth.

In the future, nothing is known. It is common sense in this world that one difficulty will be followed by another. However, everyone has the right to pursue happiness.

Wen Shuiheyan also agreed with this view. However, although he occasionally fantasized about such a situation happening to him, he never actively pursued it. He knew it was unrealistic, and if it wasn't perfect, it would be nothing.

Chihaya Asagumo was completely stunned by what she heard.

She originally thought that her feelings were heavy enough, but she didn't expect that there was something even heavier.

Miura Yumiko even retreated tactically, a look of horror and shock on her face: "You...you you you...I originally thought you were just a love-starved brat, but I didn't expect you to be such a twisted yandere!"

"Your expectations for love are too low."

Matsueda Azusa retorted confidently, "This isn't a game to play around with, a way to pass the time. This isn't a tool to be discarded if you try it and find it has problems. It's something you're going to keep doing for a lifetime. Why can't I pursue what I truly want? This isn't something you can just compromise on."

Miura Yumiko was stunned by what she heard, but she had to admit that what Matsueda Azusa said made sense. This was definitely not something that could be easily compromised, so it was only natural to pursue it more highly, right?

If she had adopted this mindset earlier and pursued a more perfect situation, wouldn't she have been so addicted to a fake relationship like that with Hayato Hayama, pursuing a future that was completely impossible?

Should the pursuit of something better, more perfect, really be ridiculed? Should we give up before we even begin pursuing it because we believe it's extremely difficult or the probability is extremely low?

The world shouldn't be like this.

Yumiko Miura pondered and actually agreed with Matsueda Azusa's point of view.

The only thing that was out of the ordinary was probably the roasted salt lemon. She pretended to listen carefully and try hard to understand, but she really didn't understand what Matsueda Azusa meant at all. She just felt that it seemed very advanced and that she needed to work hard to pursue it.

Chihaya Asagumo was silent, then finally nodded. "Matsueda-san, what you said... does make some sense. Although I still can't completely agree with your thoughts, and I still believe that my love for Mitsuki-san is genuine, but... I really need to reflect on my actions."

She turned away with a determined look in her eyes. "I won't give up. I will face my heart and figure out what I really want. Once everything is clear, I will continue to pursue what I want."

Matsueda Azusa was not angry and watched Asagumo Chihaya leave.

For him, the current goal has been achieved. Ayano Mitsuki has clearly stated that she wants to separate from Chihaya Asagumo, and he will probably not interact with anyone else during this period of time, including Shaoyan Lemon.

Azusa Matsueda is also happy to see people like Chihaya Asagumo trying to explore their own inner selves.

He murmured softly, "Think, struggle, suffer, torment, and worry as much as you want. Otherwise... it can't be called sincerity."

83

Chapter 83 Sincerity is sometimes a lie.

After finishing today's club activities, Matsueda Azusa had just walked out of the school gate when she saw Nagasaki Suyo waiting at the school gate again.

No, why are you here again?

Matsueda Azusa almost thought she had traveled back to the day before yesterday.