In the music series, the male protagonist writes a self-help manual for the inner world

"Do not want to."

Shiina Riki's voice trembled, but she still did not let go of Chen Xinghua's hand.

Ijichi Hongxia leaned forward and grabbed Chen Xinghua's other arm to prevent the man from being suddenly pulled away by Shiina Riki in front of him.

"Lixi, I'm sorry for calling you that without your consent...but didn't you hold his hand for too long?"

Ijichi Hongxia said with a headache.

“Isn’t this a bit bad?”

Even Hong Xia, who likes to take care of others, has her own selfish motives.

First of all, he had to watch helplessly as a stranger woman tried to force herself on Chen Xinghua to have physical relations with him.

...Ijichi Hongxia felt that she couldn't bear to do this right now.

Secondly, the ending band is a five-member band including Ijichi Nikka, Goto Ichiri, Kita Ikuyo, and Yamada Ryo.

If Chen Xinghua was taken away by a woman outside the band without permission, the band would be on the verge of collapse.

Because it’s not just Pochi-chan who likes Xinghua, but also Kita.

Maybe it's not just Kita?

Hong Xia shook her head slightly.

She felt that if the people in the band liked Chen Xinghua, it could only be called an internal conflict within the band, which would be resolved one day.

Because Ijichi Hongxia knows that polygamy has been implemented in this world, as time goes by, Xinghua and Ichiri will eventually accept polygamy.

275

Chapter 275 But...what about the lights?

"then you……"

Shiina Riki exhaled hot breath fiercely, her eyes fixed on the intersection of Chen Xinghua and Hong Xia.

“Why is it possible…”

...you can hold his hand.

Shiina Riki originally wanted to question Hongxia like this, but her question stayed in her throat and she couldn't get it out no matter how hard she tried.

Because she had no legitimate position to criticize Hong Xia.

Receiving Shiina Riki's heavy gaze, Hongxia subconsciously hugged the warmth in her hands, and replied to the girl in front of her with a serious look.

'Why not?'

After doing all these things, Hongxia silently apologized to Shiina Riki in her heart.

I'm sorry, but... for the sake of everyone in the band and for my own sake, I can't and will never hand over Xinghua.

Even Hong Xia, who has a gentle personality, is not a selfless saint.

"I beg you."

Shiina Riki's handsome eyebrows drooped, showing a dazed state.

"please."

She pleaded with Chen Xinghua in different sentence structures, asking him to help her in her despair as he had done in the past.

Chen Xinghua subconsciously leaned his body towards Hongxia, then sighed softly towards Lixi.

"We're friends, right? If you have any troubles, you can tell me. I'll do my best to help you as a friend."

But if you think about it from another perspective, he will only help his friends from a friendship perspective... As for help beyond a friendship perspective, he will never give it.

"Friend, friend..."

Shiina Riki repeated this word almost like a madman, and she held Chen Xinghua's arm with no sign of letting go.

Did he think that he and I were just ordinary friends? Then what was the purpose of all the things he had done for me and for the lamp?

Shiina Riki raised his dilated pupils and met Chen Xinghua's black pupils filled with concern, and also saw him subconsciously shrinking his body towards the yellow-haired man.

...Could it be that the reason he helped me and everything Deng did was not because we were special, but just because he treated everyone like this?

"If the band wants to survive, how can we ignore the feelings of our teammates?"

The words Chen Xinghua had said to her in the past once again flooded her mind.

If you want to maintain the band, you have to consider your teammates' feelings. In other words, if you want to maintain your relationships with others, you also have to consider their feelings.

"what."

Shiina Riki let out a sigh and felt that he understood everything.

Because the existence of a person named Shiina Riki is not because of low emotional intelligence, but because he just doesn't want to expose his inner emotions and relationships with others to others.

Not only that, she also greedily sought understanding, tenderness and help from Chen Xinghua.

And he never had to help them or stay by their side... If Toyokawa Shoko had left the band in the past, she could still blame her for being the founder of "CRYCHIC". But if Chen Xinghua left the band, what reason could she use to blame him?

Did he scold him for going out with Hong Xia, the drummer in his band, who is most likely his girlfriend, and betraying Shiina Riki?

Shiina Riki thought she couldn't do this because she felt that it would be as selfish as Toyokawa Shoko... Without saying anything, she unilaterally withdrew from "CRYCHIC", which she founded.

Does that guy realize how much damage he's done to the lamp?

So never be as selfish as that guy... Is it really possible?

...I can do it! Shiina Riki thought so firmly, without considering whether he could do it at all, just like the previous late-night arrangement.

But the faint tears that quietly flowed from the corners of her eyes silently denied her thoughts.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for causing you trouble."

After realizing this, Shiina Riki hurriedly changed his pupils, which were filled with sadness, into ones filled with determination.

But she held Chen Xinghua's hand tightly and showed no sign of letting go.

"Do you need more food?"

Shiina Riki said what a waitress should say, but it was not what an ordinary girl should say.

Shiina Riki has always been good at putting pressure on herself.

"Um... no, no, another cup of Earl Grey tea will be enough, the same as always."

Chen Xinghua lowered his head, not keeping his eyes level with Shiina Riki's purple pupils.

"...Lixi, I think you should take a break. Do you really not need to ask for leave to rest?"

After thinking for a moment, Chen Xinghua raised his head again and met Shiina Riki's unfocused expression.

"I think if you talk to the seniors in the store, they will definitely understand your behavior at this time."

...And you don't look like you can work properly. Chen Xinghua looked at Shiina Riki's trembling arms. He was sure that as long as he exerted a little force, he could break free from Shiina Riki's restraints.

"No, I can complete today's work...personally."

Shiina Riki originally grabbed Chen Xinghua's arm, but he weakly changed from the gripping state to a state of hanging it around his waist.

"Don't worry about me at all. I can do it."

Shiina Riki said this very firmly, her volume and tone after the initial ones.

"This doesn't look like it's going to work at all."

Hong Xia continued to hold Chen Xinghua's arm, but her tone, which should have been toughened by the possibility of snatching Xinghua's woman away from Goto Ichiri and ending the band, was tinged with concern and worry.

"I think you need some rest."

Chen Xinghua frowned. He could see that Shiina Riki would not stop until he exhausted himself.

At this time, there must be an external force to stop her from heading towards destruction.

After hearing the conversation between the man in front of him, Shiina Riki squatted down and picked up the notebook and cracked pen that fell on the ground to cover up his suddenly heavy eyes.

Because she remembered that it was very immoral to forcibly embrace the warmth of someone who had no obligation to radiate warmth to her for her own benefit.

She shouldn't do this immoral thing.

But...what about the lights?

If Deng also values ​​Xinghua very much, Deng will definitely be very sad if he leaves the band because of his band.

Thinking of this, Shiina Riki bit his lips as if relieved.

...All this is to prevent the lamp from being sad.

She felt that there was absolutely no selfish motive involved.

276

Chapter 276 Especially the yellow-haired drummer.

"No, I don't need to rest now."

Shiina Riki turned his head away forcefully, blinking hard to wipe away the faint tears that were streaming down his eyes, and was about to walk behind the counter in two steps.

Although she didn't want Chen Xinghua to leave, with her personality, she couldn't accept the help of Chen Xinghua and the yellow-haired drummer in such a situation.

...Especially the yellow-haired drummer.

"Okay then...if there's anything else urgent, you can always contact me."

Chen Xinghua whispered to Shiina Riki's back.

According to Shiina Riki's stubborn personality, even if she continued to be forced to rest, she would forcefully push away the wrist that tried to help her.

So most of the help would need to be done in private... late at night, somewhere just the two of them, but at least not in this coffee shop.

"I've been waiting for you."

Chen Xinghua continued, intentionally releasing hidden messages to Shiina Riki.

Hearing this, Shiina Riki nodded, quickened his pace, and tightened his grip on the notebook.

My personality is really weird. Even when others are showing kindness to me, I...

But he said he would "always" wait for her, right? So he had to keep his word. Shiina Riki bit her beautiful red lips and forced herself to accept this.

She naturally knew that Chen Xinghua didn't mean what she thought, but that didn't stop her from suppressing her brain and ignoring it.

"Girls shouldn't say such ambiguous things outside."

Hong Xia suddenly stretched out her slender wrist and rubbed the shoulder of the man in front of her with the skin of her wrist with some dissatisfaction, as if to inflict a slight punishment on him.

"...What if someone misunderstands me?"

When his ears caught this sentence, Shiina Riki's originally firm steps immediately became slightly flustered.

"Is there anything that could be misunderstood?"

While Chen Xinghua was thinking about what he was saying, he straightened his body and turned his gaze towards the door. After all, it didn't look like he could stay in this coffee shop any longer.

"Well, I don't think Li Xi will misunderstand."

He felt that Shiina Riki would not be so love-sick as to lose her rationality to the point of being a little bit crazy.

Although he felt that Shiina Riki might have unusual feelings for him, not having a love brain doesn't mean he can't fall in love.

Having said that, if things were as bad as he had anticipated, he would have to make his thoughts clear to Shiina Riki as soon as possible.

However, this must be done in a private, solitary setting without any outsiders present, otherwise it would be too damaging to the high school girl's self-esteem.

Chen Xinghua shook his head and threw out the image of Shiina Riki's loss of composure and then crying from his mind.

Is she really okay? Seeing Shiina Riki's behavior gradually becoming smoother and no longer looking like she was losing her composure just now, Hongxia finally breathed a sigh of relief.

"Let's try to avoid such ambiguous statements... Even if the possibility is small, what if there's a genuine misunderstanding?"

Hong Xia pouted her lips and puffed out her cheeks, her expression showing her dissatisfaction.

"This is dangerous."

"Sorry, not next time."

Chen Xinghua gave in.