The mediocre trainer doesn't want to reopen

After all, Kitano exposed his biggest flaw at the beginning just to make the next horse girl not want to deceive him. If he really wanted to find one, he could just put this trick away. Wouldn't it be easy to trick a few horse girls to join him?

Ultimately, his behavior is, in a sense, a form of desperate abandon—I'm just that bad, and I'm putting it out there. The fact that he's found a horse girl like that is strange.

"It doesn't make much difference whether I'm here or not... What's the point in me finding a job as a horse girl... I might as well resign and never be a trainer again."

He was clearly drinking a beverage, but it looked like he'd drunk a lot of alcohol. Kitano's face was slumped over the table, and he looked exhausted. He said indifferently, "It doesn't matter what kind of horse girls I take over... I can't provide any help to them in training or competitions anyway... What's the point of being a trainer like this..."

"So, are you giving up?" Aldan looked at Kitano in front of him and asked reluctantly, "But I don't think you've given up in your heart."

"If you really wanted to give up, you wouldn't have hesitated for so long at the door of the chairman's office, Trainer Kitano. I don't think you've given up in your heart."

"But what's the point of not giving up?" Kitano said after a brief silence, acknowledging that what Aldan said was what he was thinking. He raised his head slightly and asked, "With a trainer like me who can't help... what horse girl would want to take on my responsibility?"

"I don't think so, Trainer Kitano." However, Aldan's thoughts resurfaced. She smiled faintly and said to Kitano, "Trainer Kitano, you said you are a trainer who can't help the horse girls with training and competitions, a trainer that no horse girls are willing to join, right?"

"What a coincidence, right in front of you, there's a horse girl who, due to her physical condition, no trainer dares to take her over."

"We are both individuals that no one dares to take over. So, why don't we work together? What do you think?"

"May I?"

However, Aldan's words surprised Kitano. For a moment, Kitano's eyes lit up slightly, but soon dimmed again. He smiled bitterly and said, "You really don't feel sorry for me? There's no need to indulge me, Miss Mejiro."

"I'm just a trainer who can't help you with anything in racing or training. Do you really want to be a horse girl for a trainer like me?"

"I've already said that we're both under no one's control, so why not rely on each other?" Aldan replied with a smile, "Besides, as the Mejiro family's horse girl, I can actually take care of my own training. Trainer Kitano only needs to do one thing."

"Being my only supporter, I hope to find a trainer who is willing to accept me, someone who is unique and can support my ideas wholeheartedly. That's all."

Yes, support. That was all Aldan needed right now. She had come to Tresen Academy from the Mejiro family. No one was optimistic about how long her fragile body could last as a horse girl. Aldan knew it well; even she herself had some doubts about herself.

But even knowing all this, Aldan still chose to become a horse racing girl - she was unwilling to do so, she just wanted to try and see when her legs, which were as fragile as Liuli's, would break and shatter.

And for this idea, Aldan had no one to support her - until she met Kitano.

She felt that the decadent Kitano was actually very similar to herself. They were both the same, with no one to support them and no one to lean on.

Then, let the two who can't find someone to lean on and support each other, support each other to move forward. Other than that, she didn't care about the other things that Aldan was concerned about, such as Kitano's ability.

As she said, as a horse girl of the Mejiro family, would she lack professionalism and ability? But sincerity and support are more precious to Aldan than these.

Of course, Aldan didn't hold out much hope at first. She admitted that she actually had sympathy for Kitano and wanted to help this decadent trainer a little. By the way, if he could give her support, it wouldn't matter if it continued like this.

She just wants a supporter, and she can make do with anything else.

Kitano seemed to have seen through Aldan's thoughts. After a long while, a subtle smile appeared on his decadent face. He nodded gently and said, "That's it, please give me your guidance."

Do it again? That doesn't matter...

Just treat it as one last try before giving up. If I still can't change anything this time, and my fate is still the same with or without him...

Then, he should make up his mind and give up this path.

Kitano thought so in his heart, but he was so depressed at that time that he never thought that from the moment he met Aldan, the appearance of this horse girl would make him give up the idea completely stranded...

A "glazed horse girl" who no one dared to take over, simply because she wanted supporters and chose the most fearless trainer.

One is a poor "Liuli Xin" trainer who had already wanted to give up, but decided to try again just because he was chosen.

One's body is as fragile as glass; the other's heart is as shattered as glass. Driven by their shared purpose, these two pieces of "glass" decide to embark on their next journey together, becoming each other's only support in the face of future difficulties.

Such a relationship should be extremely fragile, but none of them could have imagined that this road would go so far... The Liuli who rely on each other will be glued together because of the long years and can no longer be separated from each other.

If you want to separate the two again... you will need to use tremendous force to tear them into pieces...

Chapter 230: Aldan's Memory Fragments: I only wish I could mend your heart

Three years passed quickly. Even Kitano didn't expect at first that he could actually hold on for another three years. After all, three years ago, from the day he took over Aldan, he already knew the result in his heart.

Everything went as Kitano expected. Three years later, with the end of Aldan's last Autumn Emperor Award, Kitano still failed to change Aldan's fate. It was another ordinary week.

He didn't change anything... He didn't change Aldan's legs that were as fragile as glass, nor did he add any color to her battle record. Everything was the same as he thought, expected... and the same as his experience all the way to now.

But because of this, after these three years, Kitano's originally sincere heart was finally extinguished by reality and his own powerlessness, and he wanted to give up.

The idea that "it's the same with or without him" gradually eroded his initial enthusiasm through repeated experiences.

Starting over countless times was not necessarily a blessing for Kitano, but rather a way of escape. He repeatedly escaped from the reality that he could not change, and tried again and again, but the feedback he got was that everything was still repeating itself. He gradually began to hate his own abilities.

This was the first week he should have given up, but by chance, Aldan temporarily pulled him back, but it was only temporary - everything that happened three years later made Kitano realize everything again, and he made up his mind.

This time, he said goodbye to Aldan. There was a sea in front of him. He planned to make his last start over.

"This time, let me say goodbye to all of this once and for all. Next time, I will never be a trainer again."

Or maybe just leave this world he once thought of as a fantasy. What's the point of staying here? Is it just to be repeatedly reminded of his own incompetence and mediocrity? It would be better to just leave and treat everything here as a dream.

Kitano, disheartened, jumped in without hesitation. What followed was a familiar scene—the coolness and suffocation of the sea water suddenly enveloped him. He could feel his breath and life slipping away...

His consciousness began to blur, and he knew that everything would restart, accompanied by his own "death" again.

However, at this moment, there seemed to be some movement on the shore...

"Trainer!!"

A faint female voice pierced through the water and reached Kitano's ears. The next moment, before his consciousness faded, Kitano felt a figure leaping right after him—a figure as blue as the sea.

In Kitano's vision, the familiar figure was getting closer and closer. Before this, he had never known she could swim so fast...

She stretched out her hand toward him and once again, grasped his.

She grabbed him, just like she had grabbed him when he was about to give up in front of the chairman's office three years ago. Slowly, Kitano felt his body following her movements, slowly floating towards the surface of the sea...

The light slowly recovered, just like the little but still burning vitality in Kitano's heart.

……

After Aldan pulled Kitano, who had fallen into the water, back to the surface, and with the help of the panicked bodyguards who had been following her, she and Kitano returned to the shore. Aldan immediately refused the bodyguards' help and grabbed Kitano's hand in front of her.

"Trainer! No, don't give up! It's not time for you to give up yet!"

Aldan tightly grasped the hand of Kitano, who was still conscious after climbing ashore, as if she was afraid that he would jump down again the next moment. She had already received Kitano's farewell "suicide note", so she followed Kitano here as soon as possible.

"How can you just give up like this? It's not over yet. Don't you want to take care of me anymore? Do you think you can get away like this?"

It was unclear whether the water or tears fell on Aldan's face. His cold little hand grasped Kitano's palm. With the fear after the horrific scene, he asked in a trembling voice: "Trainer... why did you leave like this? Are these three years of experience... meaningless to you?"

"Why did you save me...Ardan...it's not worth it, it's not worth it."

Kitano, whose spirit was completely broken at that time, cried even more than Aldan. His completely broken heart, along with this rescue, made all the negative emotions that had been accumulated in his heart for so long burst out in one breath.

This was his first attempt to restart everything and he failed, but it was also the time when he was most determined to give up, and yet he was rescued.

Is this worth being happy about? Kitano didn't know. He only knew that he didn't want to be hurt again. He wanted to escape, put an end to the past, and make a clear distinction between all of this and his next self.

"I can't do anything, I can't change anything, Aldan... I didn't change your leg injury. You entrusted everything to me, but I can't change anything..."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I should have given up earlier. Why did I continue to be your trainer? Why... I clearly knew I should have avoided all this, but I couldn't do anything..."

"Trainer..."

Ardan looked at the crying man in front of her and felt a little bit unbelievable. In the past three years, Ardan and Kitano had experienced a lot together. She had seen this man comfort her when she was depressed, cry with her, and laugh with her. She thought she had stopped Kitano who wanted to give up.

But she never knew that this man actually had so many things he wanted to change in his heart. The person who had been trying his best to comfort her was actually the one who was most tortured and in pain after her fracture.

Aldan thought about the past... In the past three years, Kitano had been very careful in taking care of Aldan, and his attention and concern were revealed everywhere - although he never mentioned Aldan's health, he cared about this issue more than anything else.

Especially when Aldan decided to play in the Japanese Derby, Kitano strongly opposed Aldan to play in the Japanese Derby. His reason was that the competition in the Japanese Derby was too fierce. A lineup like Captain Tsubasa, Sakura Chiyo, and Yae Muten would put too much strain on Aldan's body. Once he broke a bone in this game, Aldan might not be able to play in the next year.

Kitano's strong opposition even reached the head of the Mejiro family. Even the head of the Mejiro family seemed to be persuaded by Kitano - but that time, it was Aldan who chose to participate.

"Trainer... Do you remember our agreement? As my trainer, please always support my decisions. Always."

In the end, facing Kitano's strong opposition, Aldan had to bring up the original agreement between her and Kitano. This was the first and only time she used this trick on Kitano... and Kitano resisted.

But in the end, Kitano was unable to prevent Aldan from entering the Japanese Derby, and Aldan ended up losing to Sakura Chiyoou, who had a once-in-a-lifetime acceleration, by a neck in second place.

And everything that followed... was just as Kitano had described. Sakura Chiyo's acceleration consumed all of him, and this brutal Japanese derby also shattered Aldan's legs, as fragile as glass. For an entire year, Aldan was sidelined from competition.

That day, Ardan thought she was the saddest and most regretful person in the world. In the hospital room, the more she thought about Kitano's strong opposition that day, the more regret she felt. She even gave up on herself, lost her temper, and didn't want to see anyone.

But she did not forget that at that time, Kitano silently cleaned up everything she had smashed, and then reappeared by her bedside, comforting her emotions and taking care of her closely.

This care lasted for a whole year, and they were inseparable.

Day after day, Kitano never showed his frustration and always comforted Aldan. His endless encouragement, as if she would be able to recover the next day, still lingers in her ears.

At that time, Ardan felt that she might have chosen the best trainer for her, but she ignored the fact that... at that time, the one who was most sad might have been her trainer.

And now that Kitano had almost succeeded in committing suicide, and now that he had cried and confessed his heart, Aldan finally understood everything. She also finally understood... how much she was afraid of losing him.

The trainer who was chosen just to support her at the beginning, unknowingly... really became the person who supported her the most.

"Trainer...please look at me."

"The one who should be saying sorry...is actually me, Trainer. For three years, I didn't even notice that the person most important to me was harboring such immense pressure. And the cause of all this was actually me."

"Trainer, you don't need to be discouraged. You've done well enough... You've done everything you could."

Ardan gently cupped Kitano's cheek with his cool hands. At that moment, their eyes, both body and soul devoted to Liuli, met. With tears of emotion in his eyes, Ardan spoke word by word, "Trainer, do you remember when we first met? My body is as fragile as Liuli's, yet you were willing to accept me. You knew my vulnerability, yet you did your utmost to protect me. It was just that I didn't appreciate your protection."

"Trainer, that day, I caught hold of you when I was about to give up, and you stayed with me for three years. This time, I want to catch you when I was about to give up. Please... stay with me until the end."

"I will never let you go—Trainer. It was you who pieced my body back together, piece by piece, like shattered glass... This time, let me help you."

As he spoke, Aldan placed a hand on Kitano's chest—where his heart should be. He felt Kitano's heartbeat and whispered, "Trainer, this heart, like shattered glass... this time, let me mend it."

"I will be as patient as you were back then. No matter how many times this heart breaks, no matter how many pieces it becomes, I will repair the remnants bit by bit, until I return to you a heart that is complete, though scarred."

"So... Trainer, please hold on until then. Before I can repair your heart, please... stay by my side."

The next moment, Aldan gently hugged the man in front of her. She finally couldn't bear the long-accumulated feelings in her heart. She was afraid of losing the man in front of her, afraid of losing... her only true love.

But she didn't dare to say it, she couldn't say it... How much time did she have left? How could she delay the remaining time of the person she loved the most?

All she could do was to keep him one more time, until the end of her life.

"Trainer, please promise me."

"Until this body of glass of mine is completely shattered, please never let your broken heart be separated from it."

"Whether it's the body without the mind, or the mind without the body...neither can survive on their own."

"So, promise me that before my body breaks, this heart won't stop beating, okay?"

That day, Aldan hugged Kitano. That day, Kitano also hugged Aldan.

It was as if their bodies and hearts, clinging to each other, once again keeping each other's rhythm. Before one of them completely collapsed first, they would continue to live like this...

But what Aldan captured was not just Kitano as a person, she also saved Kitano Ryuichi's "life".

Chapter 231: Aldan's Memory Fragment: Eloping

"Well... Miss, you need a long rest in your current condition. Your injuries have worsened, and your cold hasn't gotten better. It's best to rest for a long time at this time. Don't run around anymore."

At the Mejiro household, the attending physician was examining Aldan Mejiro. This time, the attending physician wasn't the stern-faced man Kitano was familiar with from anime, but a horsewoman. Her brow furrowed as she listened to Aldan's breathing and heart rate. She said seriously, "I suggest you inform the head of the household immediately. Miss, you're not in a good condition to go out, let alone travel the world with your husband... um... trainer."

"Yes... I understand." Aldan, who was undergoing examination at this moment, did look a little thinner than in the past few months. His skin was even more sickly pale than before. Although his eyes were still bright, his physical condition was indeed not very good.

Even his breathing was a little heavy. Even so, Aldan lowered his eyes slightly and said softly, "But this matter... Doctor, please don't tell my grandmother or my trainer, okay?"

"Miss, I think they all know your physical condition better than you do." After a moment of silence, Dr. Ma Niang slowly put down her stethoscope and said with a helpless look on her face, "You are the only one in the entire Mubai family who knows the least about your own physical condition. Everyone knows that you are not in good health for long-distance travel, and everyone also knows that you need to recuperate."

"There's no point in hiding it like this. The head of the family won't let you leave. Your husband... Mr. Trainer, even if he dotes on you, wouldn't do that... probably."

The attending physician was also somewhat lacking in confidence, especially towards the man named "Kitano Ryuichi". He had been spoiling their eldest daughter a little too much in recent months... It was as if if Aldan wanted the stars in the sky the next moment, he would pick them down for her.

"Doctor, the trainer is not my husband. Please don't make the mistake again next time."

A helpless smile appeared on Aldan's face, but that smile was full of joy from the heart. Even Aldan's tail, which looked a little listless due to his illness, wagged happily at the call.

However, the attending physician was not surprised by this. If the affectionate appearance of these two people could make this horse lady feel jealous a few months ago, now she is completely immune to it.

Four months have passed since Aldan returned from rescuing Kitano. During these four months, Aldan's physical condition has taken a sharp turn for the worse. As Aldan slowly moves from her natural state to maturity, her peak period as a horse girl begins to rapidly transition, causing Aldan's physical functions to decline.

This is normal for other horse girls, but it is fatal for Aldan - her health has always been poor, and she is probably the horse girl who is most worried about entering maturity.

It can be said that the closer Aldan gets to maturity, the worse his condition becomes. Especially for Aldan now, every day he spends is equivalent to being one step closer to the gates of hell.

"I can't help it... Miss, I'll give you an injection first. It will make you feel more comfortable today and look a little...more rosy."

"It's troublesome."

And Aldan also accepted such a fate and such things calmly... She knew it from the beginning, or rather, she knew this fate from the moment she was born as a frail horse girl, but chose to become a racing horse girl and shone with her own brilliance for a moment on the track.