The mediocre trainer doesn't want to reopen

This also made Kitano feel a lot more at ease. It seemed that everyone had become accustomed to the appearance of more new members in the team.

"So, Miyu and Bourbon, how long are you going to stay before you go back?"

"The person who will take over will be here tomorrow. Master, don't worry. Mi Yu and I will be here to take care of you until the next day." Miura Bopang said in a calm tone.

"This is to make it easier to take care of Brother-sama. Don't worry, Brother-sama. No matter what happens, just tell Mi Yu. Mi Yu will never let Brother-sama feel lonely."

Mi Yu also chimed in, and Kitano didn't refuse their kindness. After all, Kitano knew that after he collapsed from exhaustion, Mi Yu and Bourbon were already feeling guilty for not being able to help them. If he didn't agree to such a small matter, they would probably feel bad.

Moreover, they can take care of themselves and there are empty beds nearby for me to sleep in, instead of having to wait for me all day without sleep. It should be quite relaxing.

But... Kitano always vaguely felt that letting Bourbon and Miyu sleep in the same room with him was not a good choice, but he didn't know where his worries came from.

There shouldn't be any problem, right? Kitano couldn't help but look out the window. However, outside the window, the wind slowly began to howl, dark clouds began to spread in the sky, and everything began to darken.

Summer is about to pass, and heavy rain, which represents the change of seasons and the drop in temperature, is brewing, which is destined to bring a turbulent rainstorm.

……

"Boom!"

As expected, at night, deafening thunder came with heavy rain. This thunderstorm was really fierce. After a burst of thunder, countless car alarms sounded outside the window, and the ground was faintly shaking.

At this moment, Kitano in the ward had asked Mi Yu to buy several pairs of earplugs for everyone in advance to deal with this situation. The effect was quite good. At least Kitano, who was wearing earplugs, went to bed early and was not woken up by the thunder.

However, on another hospital bed, Bourbon, who went to bed a little later, could not fall asleep - perhaps few people know that Bourbon is very afraid of thunder.

The reason is that when Bourbon was a child, his father used an old-fashioned parenting saying that was somewhat unique to the Uma Musume world, "Thunder will steal Uma Musume's tail." This saying was mainly invented to prevent children from going out and playing on rainy days. However, Bourbon Miura accidentally believed it to be true and has kept it to this day.

But even so, Miura Bourbon was not extremely frightened when she heard thunder. But now she was indeed trembling with fear after hearing the thunder, and even her face turned pale.

Because in Miura Bourbon's memory, in the first week she and Kitano spent together, and the days when Kitano was diagnosed, what impressed her most was the thunder and heavy rain of the changing seasons - and after Kitano's death, there were countless thunderstorms like today when she had to hold on alone.

At that time, she would stay alone in Kitano's room after he passed away, madly inhaling the little remaining scent of Kitano, then wrap herself in a quilt, shivering so much that she didn't even dare to leave a way to breathe.

It seemed that only in this way could she drive away her timidity and fear, and that only in this way could she struggle to hold on until the next day.

And now the familiar thunderstorm sounded again, awakening the strong PTSD hidden under the seemingly strong appearance of Miura Bourbon. Even with earplugs on her ear, she was still trembling all over and cold sweat falling like rain while lying in the same bed with Miyu.

"what!"

Finally, with a loud thunder, Bourbon, with her hair standing on end, was awakened from her nightmare. She got up from the hospital bed, feeling a little dazed for a moment - as if for a moment, she was back to the previous round.

In the same ward, Kitano was sleeping on the bed on the other side at the moment... However, Kitano now was certainly not in the miserable state that Bourbon remembered, which made Bourbon slowly wake up from his trance.

But even if his mind returned, the fear in his heart could not be stopped. Slowly, Bourbon gently put down the sleeping Mi Yu on the bed, put his hand on his waist, and slowly walked towards Kitano's bed...

"call."

The next moment, Bourbon quickly fell asleep in the same bed with Kitano. Her body, covered in sweat, was pressed tightly against Kitano's, and her trembling body was not sure whether it was because of fear or excitement.

But slowly, smelling the familiar scent on Kitano's body, Bourbon's trembling began to slowly stop. Her arms gently wrapped around Kitano's abdomen. The half-hug posture made Bourbon begin to feel the long-lost sense of security.

"Master..."

Please, never leave me. Please, don't let me face the lonely thunderstorm alone.

I don't want to go back anymore... I don't want to go back to that world... without you.

So, I will keep you no matter what. If you really fall ill again next time... even if it's a joke, I will do it without hesitation.

Previously, Miura Bourbon used a fruit knife to scratch herself as a threat to Kitano to take good care of his body. This was not a joke, Bourbon was really capable of doing such a thing - she didn't want to hurt Kitano so that he would remember anything, so it was enough for her to bear these scars.

Anyway... the physical pain can disappear, but she never wants to experience the pain in her heart again.

Slowly, Bourbon leaned against Kitano and finally fell asleep peacefully... She only felt that a familiar sense of security enveloped her, allowing her to forget all the pain.

But at this moment, Mi Yu, who was sleeping on the other side, felt as if someone was missing next to her palm. She, who had poor sleep quality, slowly woke up.

"Bourbon-san? You..."

However, just after Mi Yu woke up in a daze, in the darkness, she soon saw Kitano's bed not far away. There was obviously an extra bed...

Moreover, Bourbon's ponytail was exposed. Mi Yu's eyes froze for a moment, and a hint of jealousy appeared on her face again, but she soon found a way to make amends.

The next moment, Mi Yu was seen cautiously approaching Kitano's bed... Soon, on the other side of Kitano, Mi Yu took up a place next to Kitano with her petite body.

"Hehe... the smell of my brother..."

Mi Yu and Bourbon didn't know that their mutual obsession with Kitano's scent was a common weird fetish... However, if Bourbon's obsession with Kitano's smell was because it was a "tranquilizer" for PTSD brought about by past memories... then where did Mi Yu's obsession come from?

Mi Yu didn't know that she had no basis for this. She only knew that just by smelling the scent on Beiye's body, she could feel at ease, as if... with him by her side, she had nothing to fear.

If Mi Yu and Bourbon could communicate with each other, they would be surprised to find how similar Mi Yu's current feelings were to Bourbon's attachment to Kitano.

If Mi Yu could have discovered all this earlier... perhaps, she would have remembered it sooner. In fact... she was one step ahead of Miura Bourbon, remembering how painful it was to lose the one she loved again...

Chapter 240: Mi Yu’s memory fragments: The person who was lost and found again?

Mi Yu has always been envious, very envious of Miura Bourbon... She has something that Mi Yu has always dreamed of but does not have.

Mi Yu envied Miura Bourbon's height and devilish figure. It was hard to find someone who could match her in the entire Tresen Academy. Mi Yu often heard several classmates talking with envy and jealousy about what Miura Bourbon ate to grow up.

I envy Miura Bourbon for her ability to maintain a calm expression and a stable network of friends. People often gather around her to play the game of making faces, and Miura Bourbon has never had a rival in this area, while Miyu herself is gloomy and inconspicuous.

I am even more envious of Miura Bourbon's performance in the competition. I heard that she is about to go to the first stop of the Classic Triple Crown, the Gaoyue Award, in an undefeated state. Some people have already said that she may be the most likely horse girl to become the next undefeated triple crown after the regret of the Emperor of the East Sea.

Mi Yu knew that behind all this, it was because Bourbon had the best trainer that she did not have and had no way of having.

And this is also what Mi Yu envies the most, even to the point of being a little jealous of Miura Bourbon.

Mi Yu and Miura Bourbon had faced each other several times before. Despite being contemporaries, their records differed widely. Miura Bourbon had been undefeated, while Mi Yu had won only two of three matches in her rookie year, even once going 11 moves in a row and ultimately having to rest for a while due to a broken bone.

But… for some reason, Bourbon's trainer was surprisingly attentive to Miyu. During the three months Miyu was recuperating from her fracture, Bourbon's trainer would often visit her, mostly alone… perhaps because he was afraid Bourbon would think too much.

It was also at that time that Mi Yu remembered the name of the male trainer who was a little handsome and would make Mi Yu blush if he looked at him for a long time - Ryuichi Kitano.

And then... helplessly, I slowly began to develop a liking for him.

Kitano was right in saying this. If someone other than Kitano had paid attention to Miyu first, the probability of her falling in love with him would have been quite high. A child like her who is lonely, self-deprecating, and feels that she is doomed to fail would easily develop a liking for someone who doesn't despise her for the first time.

But unfortunately, that person was only Kitano. Even though this was the third time that Kitano had had a deep interaction with Mi Yu, he was the only one who took care of Mi Yu every time. The rest of Zhoumu had no interaction with Mi Yu... Most of the time, Mi Yu was seen alone.

Perhaps this "Brother" is a respectful title that Mi Yu uses to address his trainer, but this title has always been reserved for Kitano alone.

Of course, Mi Yu didn't know all this. She only knew that Kitano, as Miura Bourbon's trainer, not only took good care of her, but also looked after her when she broke her bones, and even encouraged her to keep running.

He said that she is a horse girl who will be able to win GI-level events in the future. She has a strong dominance in long-distance events, so there is no need to be sad about losing a few games. Even the most powerful horse girl has experienced devastating defeats.

To this end, Kitano also gave Mi Yu several examples, ranging from the disastrous defeat of the expedition symbolized by Rudo to the recent case of Mejiro McQueen being penalized eighteen moves for driving diagonally in the Autumn Emperor's Award... It must be said that using insulting methods to comfort another person is a good method. After a while, Mi Yu was smiling.

And after that... a figure belonging to "Kitano Ryuichi" appeared in Miyu's world. Ever since that day, after receiving Kitano's comfort and three months of recuperation, and after more or less contact with Kitano, Miyu admitted that she had a strange fondness for Miura Bourbon's trainer.

She began to address Kitano as "Brother", which meant that in Mi Yu's heart, Kitano was actually the trainer she had reserved. Although she did not succeed in joining the team, in Mi Yu's heart, Kitano, who encouraged her to move forward, was her trainer.

The reason why she failed to join the team... on the one hand was Kitano's refusal, and on the other hand, it was also Mi Yu's own selfishness - she knew that she could not compete with Miura Bourbon.

Miura Bourbon's vigilant look towards her was like a vicious wolf protecting the meat beside it, but when Kitano's gaze fell on Bourbon, she immediately turned from a vicious wolf into a pug wagging its tail, which made Miyu feel funny and envious.

Therefore, after being comforted by Kitano with "There may not be a chance this time, but next time, I will definitely find you first", Mi Yu gave up on joining the team and just watched the interaction between Kitano and Bourbon from afar.

Ah… Onii-sama is rubbing Bourbon’s head again. She looks so happy, her tail is wagging non-stop…

It would be great if Mi Yu could meet her brother earlier...

Often, Mi Yu envied and even envied like this. As time passed, everything... changed drastically after that Japanese derby.

Kitano was ill, maybe even had cancer. When Miyu got the news, her first reaction was disbelief, but when she ran to Miura Bourbon and asked about it, the other's tears responded to Miyu's question.

At that moment, Mi Yu felt as if she had been struck by lightning. Her mind was blank and she only remembered crying uncontrollably. She kept shouting "Impossible" and ran away unwilling to accept this reality.

This time, she was away for several months. Mi Yu had not returned to Tresen College for several months. She did not dare to go back to Tresen College. She was afraid that she would meet a sickly Bei Ye. Then, she would have to accept this reality.

She didn't dare go back, so she just spent the whole time away from home. The money she had saved supported Mi Yu's three months of escape from ordinary life. Mi Yu spent a lot of time on revenge training and playing, just to make herself exhausted so that she could rest at night and not think about anything.

Time passed quickly, but Mi Yu did not forget to quietly observe the news about Kitano in the school... Fortunately, there were people in the school who had been paying attention to this issue. There were several horse girls who had a good relationship with Kitano's trainer and seemed to have received his care. They updated Kitano's situation on the forum from time to time.

They couldn't bear to post Kitano's photos, so they could only express their feelings through words and emotions. This gave Mi Yu the courage to continue paying attention... She would read it every day and cry every day because of the news. Her physical condition was already exhausted due to the high-intensity exercise and fun, and crying only increased her physical burden.

Finally, one day, Mi Yu saw a message in the forum...

Trainer Kitano...has passed away due to illness.

When Mi Yu saw this message, his first reaction was disbelief. However, when someone posted a photo of Miura Bourbon looking haggard and dull, as if he had lost his soul, Mi Yu could not help but believe it.

In the photo, Bourbon, with her bleary eyes and disheveled hair, looked nothing like the undefeated, two-time champion horse girl. She wordlessly clutched her left arm, blood trickling down her arm... as if to suggest self-harm.

"Do not……"

"I don't believe it...I don't believe it..."

"Brother...I don't believe it, I don't believe it!"

"Bang!" As Mi Yu's voice gradually turned from crying to roaring, the mobile phone in Mi Yu's hand was smashed to pieces. While wailing and roaring, Mi Yu pulled out the dagger on her victory suit beside her and slashed around the room in the hotel where she was currently staying like crazy.

The dagger was just a decoration, so there was no need to sharpen it. However, when the hotel staff heard the noise and rushed over, they opened the door and were shocked to find Mi Yu inside. His eyes were like black flames, and he was acting crazy and angry.

"I don't believe it! I don't believe it!! I don't believe it ahh ...

"Who! Who took away Mi Yu's brother?! Mi Yu will kill you! Kill you!!"

Screaming words that she would never shout out normally, Mi Yu destroyed almost everything around her that could be destroyed. When she fell to the ground exhausted, her hands were covered in blood. There was almost no intact place in the room. Even the TV was smashed to pieces by Mi Yu.

However, after venting his anger, he was belatedly overcome by grief. At that moment, if the law enforcement officers had not arrived in time, the next person the dagger would have stabbed... might have been Mi Yu himself.

Why... would you take away the only person who cared about Mi Yu...

Why... this kind of pain... why didn't it happen to Mi Yu? Why did it happen to my brother?

Brother... he's such a good person... is Miyu really a child of misfortune? Did Miyu kill Brother?

The heartbroken Mi Yu was stopped. After the hotel paid the compensation with Mi Yu's bounty, she was sent back to Tresen College. The student union originally planned to find a psychologist for Mi Yu, but if that didn't work, they would let Mi Yu retire early and go home to recuperate.

"No." Mi Yu raised her head slightly. Her whole body was wrapped in bandages, but she spoke word for word, neither humble nor arrogant: "Mi Yu...there are things I must do."

"My brother's wish... Mi Yu is going to fulfill it. Mi Yu... is going to participate in the chrysanthemum viewing, carrying my brother's legacy."

She had to win GI. Only in this way could she be worthy of her brother. In the end, the student council respected Mi Yu's choice and only hoped that Mi Yu could remain calm and get through this quietly.

At the Chrysanthemum Appreciation Arena, Mi Yu's aura was as terrifying as that of an evil spirit, and all the horse racing girls present were frightened by her aura - except for one horse racing girl who turned a blind eye to it and stepped onto the arena again with an absolute attitude.

Miura Bourbon. This horsewoman, the envy of Miyu, endured the same pain as Miyu. On this day, they both set foot on the Chrysanthemum Appreciation racecourse with the determination not to let down.

And in the end... maybe it wasn't that one side's will lost to the other, but simply that Mi Yu couldn't rely on willpower alone to ignore the sin of abusing his body for so many days during such a long period of retaliatory training.

In the end, Mi Yu failed to catch up with Miura Bourbon, and she became one of the people who watched Miura Bourbon become the undefeated triple champion.

However, when Mi Yu watched Bourbon Miura crying bitterly on the podium while holding Kitano's photo high, Mi Yu smiled with relief.

Onii-sama...as expected, Bourbon-san wins after all.

Mi Yu... after all, I'm not worthy of my brother. Perhaps it's only in the next life?

This was Mi Yu's last appearance in a competition. After the Chrysanthemum Festival, Mi Yu disappeared and no one could find her.

She only left behind a blue rose hat that she always wore, a tidy room, and... a suicide note left on the table.

The suicide note was very short, only a few lines.

"This world is beautiful. Thank you for letting me see the beauty."

"But why are you so cruel to let me see hope and then take it away?"

“I may have been born in sin, but I have become a part of hope under the illumination of beautiful hope.”

"And now, my hope is gone, and I will continue to chase my lost hope."

……

No, that's not right...why did these memories appear in her mind?

What exactly happened to these things? Why did Mi Yu suddenly remember all this?

In a trance, Mi Yu suddenly opened his eyes, as if he had had a very long dream.

And at this moment, in front of Mi Yu, there was a hand reaching out to her. The person who appeared in her dream was smiling with a gentle smile that was so familiar to Mi Yu that it almost brought her to tears. He said to her, "You are Mi Yu, right? I must have recognized the right person."

"My name is Kitano Ryuichi. I'm wondering if you would be willing to be my horse girl?"

Chapter 241: Mi Yu's Memory Fragments: The Destiny I Want to Change

Mi Yu didn't know why she remembered things about the past, but she just felt that these past memories were not deceiving her, and all these feelings were extremely real.

Mi Yu could still feel the pain, the heart-wrenching agony of losing the person most important to her, and the resentment and madness of blaming God for the injustice... She had felt all of this in her dream, as if she were there in person.