The mediocre trainer doesn't want to reopen

"But even if she is your favorite team member, Trainer-kun, she can't hit you like this for no reason."

Obviously, even if the one who attacked Kitano was the Holy King, Rudolph was still somewhat unacceptable to such an outcome. She was a petty woman, especially when it came to anything related to Kitano.

However, the reason why Rudolf was so concerned this time was obviously because she had never hit Kitano even once - even when she was still in the adjustment period with Kitano, she had never really hit Kitano.

This time, his man had actually been injured by the team's leading horse girl. Even though Rudolph knew the reason, he still found it hard to accept. He said unwillingly, "Trainer-kun, aren't you angry at all? A horse girl's attack is not easy to withstand. You're really lucky in every sense of the word to be able to sit here awake."

"It's not that serious... Besides, the Saint King at that time was just provoked and attacked subconsciously."

Kitano also turned his head slightly, extending his face to Aldan, allowing Aldan to wrap him in gauze. He then replied softly, "Besides, this is something I should have received a long time ago. I owe it to the Holy King."

"Trainer-san, you always find excuses for everyone who makes mistakes."

As Aldan applied the tape to Kitano's bandage, he gently said, "Perhaps it was because Trainer-san was too indulgent. That's why he didn't stop Shengwang-san from going to the competition when he was in such a strange state."

"Sometimes, Trainer-san should be a little more assertive. That way, people will respect you as a Trainer-san, not..."

"Instead of?" Kitano asked when he saw that Aldan didn't continue.

"Instead of treating Trainer Sandu as your own personal belongings like you do now."

After gently applying the gauze to Kitano, Aldan's tone was filled with resentment and helplessness. Kitano knew exactly where Aldan's emotions were coming from, so he covered his face and turned away with a wry smile.

"But, Trainer-san, you do treat Seiou-san differently."

And Aldan naturally wouldn't let Kitano be embarrassed for too long. After all, she didn't really want to find Kitano to settle the score with him about why he had so many children with similar experiences to them.

She knew Kitano had suffered greatly along the way. If he hadn't been fortunate enough to find salvation this round, his redemption would have been far from certain. Therefore, Aldan didn't blame Kitano for his infidelity; after all, her position was unshakable. She simply asked curiously, "I know that Shengwang, like me and Rudolph, has memories of the past—but Trainer-san seems to be particularly attentive to Shengwang. His attitude towards her is quite different."

"If you don't mind, could you please tell me, Trainer-san? What exactly happened between you and Sheng Wang? Perhaps Rudolph and I can help you a little."

"Yes, Trainer-kun, tell us about you and the Holy King, and we will find a way for you."

Rudolph was also quite curious about the Holy King. Kitano had never mentioned the past of his other horse girls to anyone else, so many things were only known by Aldan and Rudolph, as well as the tacit understanding within the team. But with a few exceptions, no one knew about each other's experiences in the past round.

Now, the Holy King obviously has extraordinary significance to Kitano. Rudolf and Aldan, who both think they have an unshakable position in Kitano's heart, are also very curious about what the Holy King has done to make their trainer pay so much attention to her?

However, facing this question, Kitano was silent for a long time. Finally, after a slight sigh, he said: "That's my fault. It's me. I thought I had healed her pain, but obviously, this is my self-righteousness again."

"And now, her heartache has been exposed once again because I failed to heal her. This slap...she might have already hit me in the face a long time ago."

"I'm sorry, Rudolph, Aldan, I don't want to say too much."

Kitano didn't really want to talk about the past, the things about herself and the Holy King. Those were their common scars. If there was someone who had to reveal them, that person could only be the Holy King. Kitano was not qualified to represent the Holy King and relay her experiences to others.

Especially these bad experiences, Kitano didn't want anyone in the team to mention them in front of the Holy King, especially at this time, the Holy King was very fragile, and a little bit of stimulation might make her crazy, so Kitano had to take care of her carefully.

Fortunately, he still has the opportunity and time to calm the Holy King's emotions.

……

At night, Kitano returned to the team room. After everyone in the team returned to their own dormitories, Kitano also returned here alone. After taking off his coat, he opened the door of his room.

At this moment, in Kitano's room, there was a bulging figure on the bed. After hearing the sound of the door opening, it carefully revealed its head.

"Holy King? Feeling better?"

While hanging the clothes on the hanger, Kitano immediately sat down on the edge of the bed. He gently pulled open the quilt so that the Holy King's face could be exposed a little more, so that he might feel more comfortable.

Secondly, Kitano was also testing whether the Holy King still resisted communicating with the outside world. If she was still vulnerable, then his attempt to lift the blanket would surely be blocked, and Kitano would immediately stop and let the Holy King be alone for a while.

Fortunately, things were going in a good direction. Kitano slowly lifted the quilt. At first, the Holy King was a little resistant, but then she slowly loosened her hands that were holding the quilt.

But the next moment, as Kitano moved, Kitano noticed that the Holy King was only wearing a shirt. Apart from the faintly visible black lace underwear, there was nothing else on his body... A large area of ​​skin, coupled with that pair of beautiful legs were exposed, which made Kitano a little dumbfounded for a moment.

"I don't like to wear clothes when I'm in bed, you know."

The Holy King didn't care at all that Kitano saw his body. After all, they had done this many times before, with only a little left between them, and in the end, nothing was done.

"So, how do you feel? Are you feeling better?" Kitano didn't care about this matter. He just silently covered the Holy King with the quilt again and asked softly.

"Much better. I feel very tired now and can't sleep."

At this moment, the fragile Saint King also answered Beiye's question in a soft voice. She tightened the quilt around her body, her voice still a little trembling, and said uneasily: "I really want to sleep, but every time I close my eyes, I can hear so many voices in my ears... They are blaming me, scolding me, disappointed in me, and spitting on me..."

"I am really scared……"

"Don't worry, Holy King, I'm always here."

Kitano naturally understood that this reaction could be considered PTSD. In a sense, it was the Saint King's PTSD towards the GI competition and failure. That was why she lost control and her emotions so drastically during the Gaoyue Sho competition.

But now, Kitano wanted to think not about the events on the field, but about the Holy King himself - if something went wrong with the Holy King himself, even if she won ten GI games, Kitano would regret it to death, because the Holy King was his treasure and could not be replaced by the so-called GI victory.

At this moment, the Holy King slowly stretched out a hand from under the quilt, gently pulled at Kitano's sleeve, and asked anxiously and nervously, "I can't sleep... I don't feel safe."

"So... today, can you sleep with me? Just lie next to me and let me hold you."

"It doesn't matter how long you want to hold me."

Kitano's answer was naturally that he would not refuse. He only wanted to protect the girl now, and he didn't care about anything else.

Chapter 402: Sleeping in the same bed, memories of the Holy King being sealed

At night, in Kitano's room, this small bed that can barely accommodate two people now welcomes a "new owner" who is not a stranger.

This was not the first time that Saint King Halo had lain on Kitano's bed, nor was it the first time that the two of them had slept in the same bed - this had happened frequently in the past, mostly when the two were drunk or had played games all day, and they would be found lying in the same bed together.

However, this is not the first time that Sheng Wang and Kitano have slept together in this week. Long before, in order to test again whether there is love in her relationship with Kitano, they had already slept together for a night... and were discovered by Cao Shangfei, who took a photo.

As far as Kitano knows, this photo is still in Xiaocao's album and has not been deleted. She just promised that it will never be leaked or told to anyone... I don't know what the purpose of Xiaocao keeping this photo is.

Regardless, sharing the same bed with the Holy King again, Kitano and the Holy King should theoretically be very calm. However, this time, the atmosphere felt a little different. Back to back, Kitano and the Holy King were both very silent, not saying a word to each other.

But the same thing is that they all couldn't fall asleep. Not only did they not fall asleep, they were all quite energetic.

"Are you still asleep?"

"No, I don't know why, but I can't sleep at all."

Kitano always felt that the feeling of sleeping in the same bed with the Holy King this time was very different from the past. However, before he could think about where the problem lay this time, he felt a small hand reaching out to hug his abdomen.

"Holy King?"

"Didn't I tell you? I'll hold you in my arms and fall asleep together today..."

The Holy King did not seem to be averse to contact with Kitano. Rather, she was eager to embrace this warmth as soon as possible. Only in this way could she drive away the haze and uneasiness in her heart and make her look like she was in the past, as if all her wounds had been healed and she didn't care about anything.

Or rather, pretending not to care about anything. At least, when she was with him, she could forget all her troubles and put them all behind her, as if nothing had happened.

The defeat in the classic year, the ten consecutive defeats, the pride of the famous family... none of these things were as good as the ordinary life she and he were living now. Only these could make her forget the bad memories of the past.

It’s a pity... these scars have now been revealed again, and no one knows how long it will take for them to heal.

"Sure enough... you're right."

"Hmm?" Facing the Holy King's mumbling, Bei Ye, who was letting the Holy King hold him in his arms, couldn't help but ask.

"I've really just been running away. I haven't truly overcome the dark shadows of the past. I've only been using your gentleness to illuminate them... but it hasn't been able to dispel them."

"And when this light goes out, these dark clouds will once again envelop me... I have no choice but to face all this alone..."

However, as he spoke, the Holy King's body began to tremble uncontrollably again. But this time, Kitano quickly grasped the Holy King's hand, turned over, looked directly at the Holy King, and asked solemnly, "Holy King...you actually know that I left you, right?"

"How did you get through that time? If I wasn't by your side, how would you have gotten through that time?"

"If I said, 'I don't know,' would you believe me?"

However, in response to Kitano's slightly uneasy question, the Saint King Aura revealed a slightly regretful yet subtle smile, and softly answered Kitano's question: "My memory... Although I seem to recall our past, it all feels incomplete. I still can't recall... that last memory."

"It's like I'm missing the most important piece of my memory, or maybe... is it my brain protecting me? Making me not want to recall those most painful memories?"

"I don't know, but now I can't recall the time after you left. Apart from some vague, hazy fragments, I can't remember anything else."

The Holy King's other hand gently covered his forehead. At this moment, Kitano, who was looking at the Holy King, was silent for a moment. He then rubbed the Holy King's hair with great concern and said softly, "Perhaps this is really your brain protecting you... That memory may be too painful."

"I'm sorry, Holy King. I actually left you alone back then."

When he thought about this incident, Kitano, who thought that everything would start over as long as he restarted, couldn't help but want to curse himself for being so naive and not thinking of this possibility...

But think about it, there hasn't been a single accident in so many rounds, except for this round. I don't know why the three goddesses who don't even dare to show their heads now haven't explained to Kitano why such a special thing happened in this round.

Perhaps the Three Goddesses won't show up again... Kitano thought so in his heart, but at this moment, Kitano was still most concerned about the condition of the Holy King. He said softly: "Now, let me heal your heartache as I did before... If I still have the qualifications."

"You've always had the right to do this, idiot."

The Holy King smiled faintly upon hearing this. Her palm interlocked with Kitano's, as if this could convey their feelings and thoughts to each other. The Holy King gently buried her head in Kitano's chest and said softly, "Except you, no one else has entered my heart."

"You are the one who hugs me, you are the one who comforts me, you are the one who accompanies me... You are the only one who has the right to hurt me."

"The rest of us can't even get into my heart, and naturally, we can't hurt me... Only you can hurt me so deeply."

"You bastard, you need to take responsibility for me and heal my wounds."

As he said this, the Holy King's hands, which were clasped with Kitano's fingers, tightened their grip a little bit. The next moment, the Holy King slowly closed his eyes, and his brows seemed to relax, as if his whole body relaxed again.

"That's good... I feel like I've calmed down."

"You know what? Actually, my memory recovered bit by bit. I... was holding your hand like this at the time, and after sleeping for a night, I recovered some of my memory."

"So during that time, I kept pestering you, wanting to sleep under the same roof with you. Since that day, I haven't dreamed about the past for a long, long time."

"Maybe this time... I can complete the last bit of my memory, those memories that neither you nor I know. This time, let us witness them together."

The Holy King and Kitano interlocked their hands. As the Holy King spoke, Kitano slowly accepted the current situation... However, when Kitano heard that the Holy King's method of recovering his memory was actually like this, he suddenly realized and remembered many little things from the past.

It turned out that at that time, he found that the spare bedding seemed to have been touched. It turned out that it was done by the Holy King... That was also the time when the Holy King's attitude towards him changed, so it made sense.

So, had the Saint King already begun to slowly recover his memories so long ago? It was just that the recovery was incomplete, and only now did he regain most of his past memories...

But only one last fragment remained, a final… a memory that even Kitano himself was unaware of. What had the Holy King endured after his departure? What struggles and pain had he endured? These were things Kitano had never imagined.

He thought that if he chose to restart, everything in the original world would restart with his departure. But he never considered that the world might continue to function after he left. If Kitano had known this earlier, his determination to complete the first round would have increased significantly, and he would not have failed to complete a complete life in any round.

Because Kitano knew very well that it would be easy for him to give up, but that would make those innocent horse girls suffer the consequences of losing him. Kitano couldn't even think about such a thing. If he knew, he would not give up so rashly.

But it's no use regretting it now...All Kitano can do now is to try his best to make up for the mistakes he made. He still needs to face all of this by himself.

"Okay." Kitano nodded gently and agreed, saying, "Let's face it together. No matter how bitter the memory is, we will face it together."

As he said this, Kitano slowly closed his eyes. Soon, with the even breathing of the two people who gradually calmed down, everything around them began to become quiet.

Slowly, Kitano felt that everything around him began to spin like a whirlpool, and his consciousness was slowly sucked into a wonderful world.

When he regained consciousness and opened his eyes again, everything around him had changed...

Kitano now seemed to be in a city, a city he was not very familiar with. He could only confirm from the billboard on the side that he was still in Japan.

Kitano knew that this should be the last memory from the Holy King's mouth. Although this was the first time Kitano had encountered such a situation, because of the deal with the three goddesses, Kitano was experienced in dealing with such emergencies, so he guessed it immediately.

But... why is the Holy King's last memory here?

Before Kitano could figure it out, he saw a familiar figure on the other side. He saw a beautiful figure posting missing person notices in the streets and alleys.

And the missing person notice, Kitano could see at once his face, which was a few years older but still very similar to his, and... the girl who posted the missing person notice but did not seem anxious and was unexpectedly calm.

——It’s the Holy King. To be more precise, it’s the Holy King in memory.

Was she looking for him, but now she seemed... unable to see him?

In this final memory, the aura of the Holy King within it, she could never have imagined that the person she had been searching for so long was right before her. Yet, as if it were fate, even though he was right before her, she could never touch him. The person she was searching for...

Chapter 403: Memory Fragments of the Holy King's Halo: Finally, Suicide

How long does it take to search for someone who has disappeared? If it were an ordinary person in ancient times, it might take years, traveling to different places and towns, and constantly asking people, before there is a glimmer of hope, like looking for a needle in a haystack to find the person you are looking for - and the final result may not be satisfactory.

However, in modern times, the advancement of technology seems to have made this much easier. But the Holy King never imagined that the person he was looking for would be someone who no longer existed in this world, someone he would never find.

Ten years have passed since Kitano left the Holy King.

After ten years of her best youth, since the Holy King never waited for Kitano in her little home again, and she saw a letter left by Kitano that sounded like a "farewell", she did not go to find the man immediately, but waited for a few more days.

She was expecting, or rather, praying, that the guy who had actually been secretly targeting her just wanted to use this despicable method to make her feel her heartbeat, to make her feel panic, and then take this opportunity to tell her the confession that he had never been able to say, and make her accept it.

Even though Kitano had never played such a bad joke on the Holy King during their long time together, the Holy King would rather choose the option that this was a cruel and disgusting joke than the possibility that this man would leave him.

Just like that, another week passed. After a difficult week, the Holy King could no longer sit still.

In the words of the Holy King's mother, the Holy King was simply "crazy". The Holy King almost forced, or even compelled, the Holy King's mother to use all her resources to look for Kitano all over Japan.

However, this coercion eventually turned into pleading. Before the Holy King's mother could say anything, Holy King Halo herself broke down emotionally. For the first time, she cried and begged her mother to help her find the man she could not leave.

But it seemed that the Holy King remembered halfway that he came to "force" rather than "beg" others. Before hanging up the phone, the sobbing Holy King did not forget to use the "ultimatum" to "threaten" his mother.

"Please... I can't live without him... Without him, I don't even have the courage to live alone."