I'm writing a diary in Zongman

However, Hayasaka Ai felt that the most likely possibility was gratitude.

A feeling of gratitude for the opportunity to control one's own destiny.

It was because of this feeling of gratitude that Miss Kaguya began to care about Amamiya Ren more than before.

It is precisely because of this concern that Miss Kaguya has undergone some changes.

Now this change is becoming apparent, especially now.

When Hayasaka Ai heard what Kaguya-san said, she felt the inexplicable irritation that Kaguya-san was feeling...

This aroused her strong interest.

"Amemiya-san just said on the phone that he hopes I can help his female neighbor."

"Miss Kaguya, what is the reason?"

"...It seems like something happened to his female neighbor."

"Amamiya-san suggested that his female neighbor become independent. He's worried about the firm's bias towards her, so he hopes I can help."

Things became clear, and Hayasaka Ai nodded slightly.

But looking at Miss Kaguya's slightly dissatisfied face, she roughly understood what was going on.

"Miss Kaguya, you don't want to help?"

"Of course I want to help!"

Kaguya Shinomiya had no hesitation about this.

Since this was the first time Amemiya-san contacted her, she absolutely had to help with such a simple matter.

"If you think so, then why are you so upset now?"

"I……"

Shinomiya Kaguya was choked and couldn't speak for a moment.

She tried for a long time, her face turned red, but she still couldn't say the words.

Hayasaka Ai shook her head slightly and continued talking about Kaguya-san.

"Do you feel that Amamiya-san's first contact with you was because of someone of the opposite sex that made you uncomfortable?"

"!?"

Shinomiya Kaguya stared at Hayasaka Ai with wide eyes, her whole face filled with the words "how do you know?"

Hayasaka Ai did not give any explanation, but was ready to reason with Miss Kaguya.

"Kaguya-san, Amemiya-san actually has a better relationship with Mori-san and Suzuki-san. You should know that, right?"

Shinomiya Kaguya's whole body stiffened.

Of course she knew this.

Before the weekend trip began, Amemiya still addressed Maori and Suzuki by their surnames, but the last part of the name had changed.

It's no longer Maori and Suzuki, but Xiaolan and Sonoko.

Even the two people changed the way they addressed Amemiya-san from Amemiya to Lianlian.

Shinomiya Kaguya knew what this meant better than anyone else.

"So, you want to take this opportunity to get closer to Amamiya-san?"

At this moment, Hayasaka Ai's voice was like the whisper of a devil tempting humans.

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Chapter 143 Awakening of Love

"So, you want to take this opportunity to get closer to Amamiya-san?"

Shinomiya Kaguya stared at Hayasaka Ai with wide eyes.

She is not really naive and does not understand the meaning of this sentence.

My heart was beating inexplicably, but my voice couldn't help but tremble.

"Hayasaka, what do you mean?"

In response to this, there was still a hint of smile in Hayasaka Ai's voice.

"Don't you know?"

"Your attitude towards Amamiya-san is quite different."

"What's... different?"

Shinomiya Kaguya pretended to be calm, but she couldn't calm down at this moment.

"It seems that your attitude towards Amamiya-san changed when you read the diary contents earlier."

"It seems that it was also when the diary mentioned the word female neighbor?"

"Didn't I remind you that you needed to take care of that female neighbor? You refused outright."

Hayasaka's words reminded her of this, and it seemed to be true.

"If it were you in the past, would you choose to ignore it?"

"I……"

Shinomiya Kaguya was a little speechless.

Targeting someone's weaknesses is one strategy, but helping them so they feel they owe you a favor is another.

If it were in the past, Kaguya Shinomiya felt that she would not have any hesitation and would directly choose to take a two-pronged approach.

Weaknesses must be seized upon, and favors owed to others must be owed.

Only by taking two approaches can we ensure accurate control.

But the last time she faced the problem with the female neighbor, Kaguya Shinomiya hesitated and chose to do nothing.

Because of what?

To put it more formally, I don't want to use any tricks to win Amemiya's friendship.

To put it bluntly, she doesn't want Amemiya to discover her tricks and hate her.

Shinomiya Kaguya's hesitation was not because she didn't want to seize the opportunity, but because she knew that seizing the opportunity would be equivalent to being hated.

So after some hesitation, she chose to give up.

If it was just a matter of simple interests, then Kaguya Shinomiya's choice was undoubtedly wrong.

But if some personal emotions are involved, then Kaguya Shinomiya's choice is undoubtedly correct.

So what is this personal emotion?

"Because you care, right?"

Hayasaka's words made Shinomiya Kaguya's heart tremble again.

"If you don't care, you will rationally choose the option that benefits you."

"But because you care, you feel that this favorable option is wrong."

"The variable here should be Amamiya-san."

Seeing that Miss Kaguya was speechless, Hayasaka Ai knew that her goal had been achieved.

Today it is necessary to make Miss Kaguya realize some of her inner thoughts and change her attitude towards Mr. Amemiya.

"I...but...it's too fast..."

At this moment, Kaguya Shinomiya's face was full of confusion.

She knew what Hayasaka meant. Wasn't this asking her to admit that she was actually starting to care about Amemiya-san? Wasn't this a sign of liking him?

But her past reserve made her feel that the feelings came too quickly?

This seems a bit too fast and unrestrained.

It's as if she started to care about Amemiya-san for some reason.

Looking at Miss Kaguya's conflicted face and the words that just came out of her mouth, Hayasaka Ai roughly understood the reasons why Miss Kaguya was conflicted.

reserved.

This is a problem that every young lady has...ah, for Miss Suzuki, this shouldn't be a problem.

According to the information gathered by Hayasaka Ai, it seems that Miss Suzuki had already invited Amemiya-san on a date before she knew Amemiya-san's secret.

The relationship progressed further because Ms. Maori dragged Ms. Suzuki to confess to Mr. Amemiya.

From this perspective, it seems that Kaguya-san's concern for Amemiya-san is not too sudden at all.

I can only say it's just right.

It is because Miss Kaguya is too reserved that she is still hesitating.

Therefore, Hayasaka Ai feels that it is necessary to change the outdated ideas about Miss Kaguya.

"Miss Kaguya, please think back to your past life as a canary."

Kaguya Shinomiya's mind was in a mess, and she subconsciously thought according to Hayasaka Ai's reminder.

But just this thought made her confused mind suddenly clear up.

“When you go through life like this, suddenly there’s a light in front of you.”

"That was the light Amamiya-san unconsciously cast down, but it was indeed the only hope in your desperate life."

Shinomiya Kaguya couldn't help but agree.

That was indeed the only hope in her desperate life.

"With this hope you broke the chains that bound you."

"You have taken control of your own destiny and trampled the Four Palaces under your feet."

"And then you took the initiative to contact Amamiya-san."

"He didn't make any excessive demands. He simply explained to you the consequences of profiting from the diary, which is that your fate is intertwined with his own."

"At this point, you and Amamiya-san have formed a connection."

"You couldn't help but feel curious about Amamiya-san, and gradually began to care more about him out of gratitude."

“That’s what you’re dealing with right now.”

Hayasaka Ai's voice is very soft and the logic she summarizes is very organized.

This allowed Kaguya Shinomiya to see her own changes from a third-person perspective.

Indeed, she knew that she had indeed started to care more about Amemiya-san out of gratitude.

"Amamiya-san has no plans for you, and doesn't even care about your attempts to test you or try to profit from you."

"It's also because Amamiya-san is different from the others that you care more about him."

"It even got to the point where his mention of other members of the opposite sex would make you feel uncomfortable."

"Miss Kaguya, your situation can definitely be called love."

"Your uncomfortable feeling can be called jealousy."

Shinomiya Kaguya was completely stunned by this summary.

For the first time, she realized that her emotional change was jealousy, and for the first time, she realized that the emotion she felt for Amemiya-san was called love.

"If it were just an ordinary person, you might have chosen some other methods, but you are facing Amamiya-san, so the methods used against ordinary people won't work."

"Besides, you are destined not to be able to monopolize Amamiya-san."

"Why!?"

The words "cannot be monopolized" hurt Kaguya Shinomiya's newly awakened love.

"Because of the diary."

Shinomiya Kaguya paused in thought.