I'm writing a diary in Zongman

Hayasaka Ai, who was stunned, obediently walked in front of Amemiya.

"Oh!"

He directly delivered a knife attack to Hayasaka's head.

Hayasaka Ai, covering her head, looked at Amemiya in even greater astonishment, her innocent big eyes seemed to be asking why.

"You bring Fujiwara to my place every day, stay over at night, and even sleep in the same bed with me. Do you think I'm stupid? I can't understand your intentions even with such obvious hints?"

After teaching Hayasaka a lesson, Amamiya Ren pinched Fujiwara's soft face with both hands.

"And you, Fujiwara. It's fine if Hayasaka didn't notice it, but why do you think I didn't?"

"Hmm...Lian (face)..."

1.8 Chika Fujiwara had her face pulled and she kept pointing at the place where she was pinched.

When Amamiya Ren let go of her hand, she covered her red face and looked at Amamiya Ren angrily.

"I always sleep in your arms. How can I see your expression and actions? You always carry me back to the room in the morning. How can I have the chance?"

Because she didn't observe it directly, she didn't realize that Amemiya actually knew about Hayasaka a long time ago.

Fujiwara Chika covered her face pitifully.

"I thought you would treat Kaguya and Sonoko the same way."

Amamiya Ren was a little speechless.

"What has Hayasaka done? Just like you. You've already thrown yourself at me, and I don't know what you're thinking?"

"Hayasaka has already laid down directly on my bed, and I still don't understand what she's thinking. I'm just stupid!"

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Chapter 237 I will change slowly

After complaining for a while, Amamiya Ren continued to comfort Fujiwara and also gave him a final check.

"Well, it's almost certain that your mental health issues have almost recovered."

There was no sign of an outbreak of psychological problems yesterday, and only minor issues occurred the day before yesterday.

Time is still a very important medicine.

As time passed, and with Fujiwara's actions over the past two days, Amamiya Ren realized that Fujiwara was completely suppressing his psychological shadow with another emotion.

This emotion probably came from him, and it also had some lustful elements.

"Hmm~ I've recovered after all."

Upon hearing about her own situation, Fujiwara Chika's voice was filled with helplessness.

If she recovered, she wouldn't be able to ask Hayasaka to take her to Amemiya to spend the night like before. What a pity.

After understanding the implied meaning, Amamiya Ren could only tap Fujiwara's head.

"You really want that kind of psychological problem to stay with you for a long time. Loss of control and contamination, do you know how taboo the Feifan in that story is about loss of control and contamination? They never want to experience their own consciousness collapsing and being shattered bit by bit in their entire lives."

"You still dislike your own rapid recovery."

Chika Fujiwara puffed up her cheeks, made a cute cooing sound, and turned her head away a little angrily.

Amamiya Ren shook her head slightly and focused her attention on Hayasaka.

"Hayasaka, when you get back, explain what happened over the past two days to Kaguya. Kaguya isn't unreasonable, but... well... she might be jealous. I mentioned this when we were having a face-to-face discussion."

"But Hayasaka, you'd better confess to Kaguya directly when you get back."

"clear."

Hayasaka Ai took a deep breath. She also understood that she still needed to confess the matter of Miss Fujiwara to Miss Kaguya.

After saying that, Amamiya Ren looked at Hayasaka Ai and slowly stretched out her hand.

Seeing this, Hayasaka Ai paused slightly, her face turning a little pinker, but she still slowly walked to the bed and sat on the other side not occupied by Fujiwara.

Amamiya Ren put an arm around Hayasaka's waist and pulled her to his side.

It was also the first time that Hayasaka Ai felt such initiative. The pink on her face began to turn a little redder, but she quietly leaned her head on Amemiya's arm.

"Sorry, it's always the girls who take the initiative."

"will not."

Hayasaka Ai knew Amemiya's situation very well, and naturally understood why he didn't take the initiative.

"I'm not naturally good at dealing with girls. This is actually caused by the environment in my previous life."

"I'm not a particularly outstanding person. I'm just an ordinary person. But because I'm so ordinary, I can't take on many things that need to be taken on. I've hardly ever considered getting married, and I don't even think about dating girls."

Fujiwara Chika, who was angry just now, became interested when she heard Amemiya talking about the past.

"What do you mean you don't even need to date a girl?"

Thinking of the situation in her previous life, Amamiya Ren couldn't help but sigh.

"Because I can't afford the conditions for marriage, even if I date a girl, the end result is that I can't get to the final step of marriage."

"I personally have almost no contact with girls, and I'm a bit of a homebody. After graduation, I found a job that can be done from home, so I have no conditions to go out. Naturally, there is no chance to meet girls."

"So, I'm not deliberately asking girls to take the initiative. I just really don't know how to do it."

"Also, I worry that this might be an illusion caused by my excessive self-awareness."

"We had a saying back then that there are three major illusions in life: one is that the phone is vibrating, two is that I can fight back, and three is that she likes me."

"For the decades of my past life, plus the fifteen years of this life, I was just an ordinary person. I habitually carry my old way of thinking with me, and I worry that some of my feelings are just illusions."

Having said that, Amamiya Ren smiled bitterly.

"Perhaps, to put it simply, I am actually a very timid person, and I am a bit cowardly when facing things."

Hayasaka Ai and Fujiwara Chika, who were listening quietly, could actually feel it roughly.

Because of some concerns, we subconsciously keep a distance in our hearts.

It's not that I don't like it, but I reacted subconsciously out of fear.

"Amamiya... your past life is just your past life. This life is still different from the past. You are no longer the ordinary person you were in the past. At least you should live differently in this life."

Hayasaka Ai guided softly.

"I know. But before I became a Beyonder, I was an ordinary person for fifteen years in this life. Sometimes, ordinary people's thinking still hasn't changed."

If he had been born with this special quality, then perhaps he wouldn't have been so timid. Perhaps he would have built up a different kind of confidence from the beginning, and would have had the inner strength to not lose to others.

But it was only after he had lived an ordinary life for fifteen years that he had the opportunity to become an extraordinary person.

Even when faced with the opportunity to become an extraordinary person, he was extremely cautious and spent a year trying to open that opportunity.

Therefore, Amamiya Ren admitted that she needed time to transform and change the concepts and ideas she had in the past.

It is not a change in the three views, nor a change in the ideas that have been established in the past, but a change in the way of treating others.

"In fact, I only spent a month on the change."

The two people who were awakened then remembered that it had only been a month since the first diary appeared. Amemiya's transformation had begun within this month, so it was normal that not everything had changed.

"I used to be a little cautious, but now, at least, I can be sure of many things. For example, Kaguya and Sonoko's confession, and Fujiwara and your affection."

"After all, no matter how stupid I am, I don't think that a girl who wants to go to a boy's house every day, likes to stick to him, and wants to stay overnight will have no feelings for him."

These words made Fujiwara Chika and Hayasaka Ai blush a little.

Because that's what the two of them have been doing for the past week.

"In the future, at least I will slowly start to change in this regard."

"But... I always feel like this change in me means I'm destined to be a scumbag. Yeah, I need to change this mindset."

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Chapter 238 Who doesn’t like a cute maid?

Saturday morning, 5:30, at the Amemiya household.

Under the influence of her biological clock, Hayasaka Ai opened her eyes habitually.

In fact, her biological clock wakes her up even earlier every day, but because she had to consider the normal sleep of Amamiya Ren and Fujiwara Chika in the past week, she also extended her sleep time, sleeping nearly half an hour more every day.

Lately, when I open my eyes, I always see that peaceful and lovely sleeping face.

It’s just that today’s feeling is a little different.

From today on, I should be considered to be standing on the same starting line with Miss Kaguya.

Hayasaka Ai only felt a feeling she had never experienced before surge into her heart, that inexplicable sense of security and belonging.

At this moment, she finally understood why Miss Fujiwara was so greedy for Amemiya's arms.

Now she has experienced it and understood it completely.

Thinking of this, Hayasaka Ai twisted her body into Amemiya's arms, burying her face deep in Amemiya's arms.

Just as Ms. Fujiwara said, there is really a very comfortable feeling in Amemiya's arms.

Peaceful and quiet, I couldn't help but want to continue enjoying my sleep next to Amemiya.

Even though it was time for her biological clock to wake up, she still didn't feel like getting up, even with the willpower she had cultivated over the years as a maid.

"Well……"

Perhaps because of her previous actions, Hayasaka Ai suddenly heard a slight sound. She leaned on Amemiya's arms and raised her head to see that Amemiya, who was still sleeping just now, slowly opened his eyes.

The hand on her butt moved and pinched it subconsciously.

The suddenness of the situation almost startled Hayasaka Ai so much that she screamed out loud. She tilted her head back and her gaze met Amamiya Ren's directly.

The shy Hayasaka Ai and the stunned Amamiya Ren faced each other.

The perception transmitted from her hands to her brain, as well as Hayasaka Ai's shyness, made Amamiya Ren instantly aware of where her hands were.

Just when Amamiya Ren was about to open her mouth, Hayasaka Ai quickly reached out to cover her mouth.

With a hint of shyness, she slowly moved herself closer to Amemiya's ear.

"Don't wake up Miss Fujiwara."

Amamiya Ren took a deep breath, nodded slightly, and slowly moved her hand away from Hayasaka's buttocks.

The two of them started to get up using the tacit understanding they had developed over the past week.

Hayasaka Ai supported herself with her hands and sat up, carefully moving the blanket covering them away.

Amamiya Ren used the tentacles formed by the gray mist to carefully pick up Fujiwara Chika, and waited until he got up and stood firmly before taking over and holding Fujiwara Chika again.

Hayasaka Ai got out of bed with her, adjusted herself a little, and then opened the space door to Fujiwara Chika's room.

With the two of them working together skillfully, Chika Fujiwara was placed back in her original room.

The two people who sent Fujiwara Chika back also returned to the Amemiya family.

Hayasaka Ai walked in front of Amemiya, without saying anything, but closed her eyes and stood on tiptoe slightly.

Amamiya Ren took a deep breath, lowered her head slightly and kissed the lips that were not painted with any lip color.

After a long time, the two separated tacitly.

Hayasaka Ai opened her eyes that were full of smiles.

"You need to practice your kissing skills more in the future. Kaguya-san isn't someone who's good at taking the initiative. She's much more timid than Suzuki-san. There are some things that need to be guided."

"But it doesn't matter. From now on, whenever you need me, I will always practice with you, my master."

The considerate maid's behavior of caring for the mistress made Amamiya Ren's heart beat faster.

Who doesn’t like a sweet and caring maid?

At this moment, Amamiya Ren made an excessive request for the first time.

He held Hayasaka in his arms.

"Hayasaka, can you stay with me for a moment?"