We keep getting divorced

After Lin Lu entered the house, he walked directly to me, smiled at me shivering on the ground, squatted down slowly, let go of the black cat cancan, and gently picked me up like a princess.

Although I was shaking, I didn't dare to resist him. Maybe I didn't want to resist in my heart.

Just kept begging for his weakness and said, "let me go, will you?"

Lin Lu seemed not to hear me at all. The smile on his face was still the same. He opened the door of the master bedroom, gently held me to the bed and covered the quilt for me.

Then he lay on my side, gently hugged me in his arms, stroked my back and took care of me.

"Cancan, little deer, hold you to sleep. Cancan can't sleep without the deer...... "

Somehow, as soon as he said this, my fear immediately disappeared.

Perhaps his not very strong and broad chest, but so warm, with a sweet and fragrant male aroma, makes me want to curl up in his arms and be a lazy kitten.

"The deer should always accompany cancan and hold my cancan to sleep every night."

"The outside world is too noisy. The deer takes cancan home. Take you to the country at the foot of the Alps, where there are green pastures, snow capped mountains, Wakatipu lake and the legendary Lord of the rings town... "

Isn't this New Zealand?

"But my cancan doesn't want to go home. Cancan wants to take the huangquan Road, see the flowers on the other side, go to the forgetful River, think of the Naihe bridge, and want to drink Mengpo soup..." he smiled with tears and choked in his voice, "it doesn't matter. The deer can wait for you to come back. If cancan can can't find the deer in that world, he will come back... Go back to the deer and see his husband and children..."

"Little deer loves baby cancan, good love... Good love..."

He kept his eyes closed and muttered strange things to himself for many times.

*

I slept soundly in his whisper this night.

But when he woke up the next day, there was no forest deer around him, and there was no cat in the house. Even the cat's footprints and hair can't be found. Didn't what happened last night?

Recalling seeing him coming through the wall last night, I began to believe that everything was an illusion.

Just, who brought me the illusion?

Lin Lu's "ghost"?

Or

Am I really mentally ill?

Suddenly I remembered the diagnosis when Shi Dai took me to see a doctor yesterday. I was so upset that I hurried out to find another hospital for review.

This investigation is almost desperate!

It turned out that the doctor's diagnosis was correct yesterday. I'm sorry that

Have, essence, spirit, disease!!

"Miss Su, it may be the sequelae of your amnesia. But it may also be that you have a mental illness before! "

“……”

"Did you have autism before?"

"..." I was too stupid to answer.

"Don't worry, it's just the beginning. Hallucinations are normal and can be contained. But if we do not take measures and develop for a long time, we will end up crazy and stupid! "

The doctor's words hit me like an invisible sledgehammer

It turns out that Lin Lu doesn't exist at all. Everything I've experienced these days is an illusion?

No wonder I went out to "date" Lin Lu that day, and Shi Dai didn't follow. So there's no adulterer at all. I'm talking to myself from beginning to end?

But why can crooked nut neighbors and AVA see him?

Does it mean that the crooked nut neighbor does not exist?

AVA didn't talk to him, didn't question him in the hospital, and didn't help me find out about Lu Jinyu and Ning can?

Everything I imagined?

My God?

How did this happen? What happened to me?

……

With the doctor's diagnosis report, I walked out of the hospital in despair and didn't know where to go? A mental patient, let alone Shi Dai's mother and son, can I communicate with Su Yue and Chen Yan normally?

No, I can't give you any trouble!

There were no tears to shed. I came home foolishly. Shi Dai was absent and the whole house was empty. I even began to doubt that Shi Dai did not exist.

I imagined the process of catching my mother-in-law, the adulterer Tian Rongjun and the abortion!

In fact, everything originated from killing the kitten that day. I accidentally fell at the window, which led to miscarriage. I can't accept this fact, so I imagine that Shi Dai's oxytocin will harm me and so on?

Have you ever killed a kitten?

My mind is in a mess. I can't understand it at all. Imagine if one day you were told you were mentally ill, you would doubt the whole world, let alone what had happened to you.

After you go out, you will doubt the people you see, the buildings around you, the trees and traffic on the street. You will doubt that all this does not exist, all in your imagination

At this time, I even doubt that the house does not exist!

I doubt that Su Yue, swallow, Li enokai and so on do not exist!

I doubt that I am a madman trapped in a mental hospital at all. Everything I have experienced is imagined in the mental hospital

I curled up on the cold floor, thinking a mess, causing the staggered disorder of the sensory world!

*

Unconsciously, everything around him disappeared, furniture, houses, buildings and trees in the community, and even the whole country of New Zealand.

They just retired from my eyes and were replaced by a cold cell!

I sat on the iron bed with my hair and bare feet, wearing a white prison uniform. My limbs were locked by thick iron chains and tied to the cold iron bed. I had no freedom of movement.

My eyes were dull and my hands had no strength to bind chickens. The whole living dead man sat on the edge of the bed and kept muttering to himself

"Hair is a husband and wife, and there is no doubt about love."

Keep repeating this sentence, it seems that there is only this sentence in my world except the cell.

At this time, the small window of the cell door was pushed open, and a small lunch box was thrown on the iron plate of the window, accompanied by the scolding sound of the female prison guard outside the door:

“9527！ Eat! "

I don't care. My hands and feet are locked by chains. How can I care?

Suddenly, there was a sound of pedaling footsteps in the corridor outside the door, and then several people were whispering about a conspiracy. I couldn't hear it clearly. I just heard the prison guard ask in surprise:

"What? 9527？ Isn't she a felon? "

"Yes! It's her! This woman may commit suicide again at any time before she goes to the execution ground. If she dies in prison, it's hard for you and me to explain! "

This sinister male voice, some familiar? Tian Rongjun?!

"What do you want to do?" Asked the C.O.

"Man, give it to him!" Tian Rongjun said and handed something to the prison guard.

Then the C.O. opened the door of my cell and untied the chains on my limbs. In the process, I saw a head of the bank card in her pocket.

Finally, she helped me out of the cell and brought me to a man

It was Su Yue!!

*

Suddenly, a rapid door bell rang, disrupting my sensory world again!

With a severe headache, the nearby cells, prisons, female prison guards and Su Shua disappeared

I went back to my house in Queenstown, New Zealand!

The headache was unbearable, and the door bell was urgent and uneasy. I couldn't think whether my space was real or in a dreamland.

Ignoring the doorbell, I packed my bags foolishly and planned to leave. I would never see anyone again and would not cause trouble to anyone.

The doorbell finally stopped ringing, but I always felt that the people outside the door hadn't left yet.

Sure enough, I opened the door with my suitcase. It was Lin Lu!

"Why didn't you answer my phone last night?" He looked haggard and dark eyed, as if he hadn't slept all night.

But in my opinion, he looks like a ghost!

Terrified, I trembled and begged, "please... Please, don't... Don't bother me."

"..." he didn't seem surprised, but his eyes were full of resentment, the feeling that iron is not steel.

"I... I don't want to be crazy, please let me go! Please! "

“……”

"I didn't mean to see that kitten. I really didn't see it at that time. Please, forgive me and let me go? "

I cried and begged for mercy. My body slowly collapsed. Finally, I shrank in the corner of the gate, hugged my knees and cried bitterly. I didn't dare to look up at him for a moment.

Suddenly, Lin Lu twisted me up and said angrily, "get up! Cheer up! "

I can't beg anymore. I can't love life. I'm shaking my shoulders like a string puppet, and my ears automatically shield his next words

"Don't you understand? Shi Dai and Tian Rongjun are hurting you! "

“……”

"They're going to drive you crazy! Not only to separate you from her son, but also not to remind you of the past! "

“……”

"Shi Dai's tranquilizing tea contains hallucinogens. If you don't believe it, I'll take you to see the evidence!"

“……”

"For a month, Shi Dai buys hallucinogens from that little bastard every day. Doesn't your husband know?! Her own woman was poisoned by her mother-in-law for a whole month. Is this man wood?! "

“……”

"Tell me, who is Shidai's son? What's so good about this man? Is it worth your moth to the fire? "